Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Sunday, October 31, 2010


What does your family look like? I know a lot of people who are great picture families however, there are not great stories. What goes on behind closed doors (or even open ones) is not so pretty.

I don't know why but God has been crazy working on me about seeing what others see. I guess kind of an 'empathy' sort of thing. Its not always about what people say, its about what they feel. He's given me this great new vision to see past what people are saying.

My family looks kind of crazy I think sometimes. Today I was at a funeral and I was looking around at the family of the one who went to be with Jesus. (Which as a side note, funerals are a lot more peaceful when you know the person is going to be with Jesus. Can I get an 'Amen'?). Their family was large and loving, not perfect but loving.

My family is one of love, but there is also a lot of heartache. As I was at this funeral, and its been crazy lately, I've been doing a lot of thinking about how different my life would have been if I had married Mike. Its not that I want to go back in time, because that is not my intention or that today I'd want to be with him, because that's not how I feel either, I just think my plans (our plans) were so different. A bunch more ducks (kids) maybe 3 or 4 who knows + Phyllis, living in a house that I drive past everyday, I am not sure if we ever talked about me working... I can't remember that. But that wasn't how it turned out. I'm not sorry about that, because I believe that wasn't God's plan, however there are days that I long to be married. I find joy that I am where I am supposed to be, however, quite often I do wish I was married. I wish that the banana waffles I made today were made for a large family that we would eat them before we all treked off before church on but instead those beautiful waffles were made for someone who has an empty belly!

Maybe my family isn't the one I had planned, but one thing I am learning these days is that your family is those that you love, and I am exactly where I am supposed to be.

Psalm 26:8 I love the house where you live, O LORD, the place where your glory dwells.

1 comment:

Stacy said...

God works in ways we least expect, and blesses us with things that we aren't worthy to receive. God loves surprises!!
Be ready for a surprise Margie, God might just turn your life upside down in an amazing way that you could never even dream of :)

Faith. Peace.