Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Help me overcome my unbelief

Its been a crazy week! I am anxious to get to the doctor tomorrow to see the results of Phyllis's feets. I will tell you that I've been a mess. Not sure why though.

I believe that Phyllis can be healed by God.
I believe that she will be healed by God.
I believe that there will be such Glory for Him in all this.
I believe in victory of the Cross

I believe it all, I want to believe it all, and yet... here I am thinking but 'what if?'. I'm such a moron. My mind instantly goes to the index card on my bathroom mirror, Mark 9:23-24
23" 'If you can'?" said Jesus. "Everything is possible for him who believes."
24Immediately the boy's father exclaimed, "I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!"

Help me overcome my unbelief, help me to overcome my 'what if?'s'.

and do you notice it does not say 'help me in my unbelief' it says help me OVERCOME my unbelief, there is a big difference. It is because in Christ, we are MORE than conquerors through him who loved us.

I got a text today, I hope she doesn't mind that I'm sharing this...
Psalm 18:32-34
32 It is God who arms me with strength
and makes my way perfect.
33 He makes my feet like the feet of a deer;
he enables me to stand on the heights.
34 He trains my hands for battle;
my arms can bend a bow of bronze.

So then she tells me anoint Phyllis with oil. Now this born and raised (until 31) Catholic girl believes in the anointing of oil (thanks to a certain Kim Castleman and Marilyn Tenore who explained it all to me one Sunday night) but I've never actually done it myself. I kind of chuckled and was like "does she know who she sent this to? I don't know how to do that". And then I prayed. Just guide me Lord, I believe this is your instruction, I believe that it will work, but Lord, help me overcome my unbelief. And so tonight I'm going to do it, with a heart that truly believes that there will be victory and glory in all of this.
On Sunday when I was worshipping, God gave me that vision of Phyllis running on red clay in Africa. Running. A vision of pure beauty.

1 comment:

Trish said...

Praying for you and for a good report for Phyllis!