Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Thursday, October 07, 2010

You make all things new!

SO I took Phyllis to the foot doc. Its been bothering her off and on but its gotten really bad so I called a doc that came recommended. I’ll be honest, I thought it was going to be something simple, physical therapy, shoe inserts, and she’d be fine.

That was not the case.

She has degenerative arthritis in her feet (both of them) and they are concerned about the ligaments. So we have an MRI on Monday at 8:30PM another doc appointment Wednesday, another appt next Thursday. THANK THE LORD my Brazil trip was postponed one week, otherwise that’s a really long commute back and forth from Detroit to Brazil and back again.

This is not the kind of arthritis I am used to dealing with, so that means new knowledge, a lot of research. It also means that I don’t know what I’m up against, so I cry. And throw up.

So I’m task person, I make a list, I was my immediate plan of attack.

First… I told God I loved Him, and I trust Him, and I know He has it. Simple but 100% true.

Second… send out prayer requests. No point in trying to do this on my own.

Third… satan to hit the bricks. Get to steppin’

I know, I KNOW! That is easily healed for the ultimate healer. I know that He will heal her. But if I know all that, how come I’m still a little nervous.

The bible says have faith the size of a mustard seed and say to that mountain ‘move’ and it will. No matter what happens, I know that God is here, He is in her and with her, and in me and with me. No weapon formed against us will prosper, and I know that God is the ultimate healer, and I am standing in Him through all of this.

But I’ll tell you, this is hard for me, its hard for me not to just hunker down all by myself and battle this (whatever it is that we’re up against). I know that about me, so if you see me, don’t settle for the “I’m ok” or “I’ll be alright” answer because that will be the answer that I give when I’m retreating. I’m just saying. When you’re in the middle of a battle its hard not to just focus ahead.

I’ll also tell you that I was SOO tempted at Panera to get a Cranberry Muffin (I got a turkey sand on whole grain), and simply just said “that will not help anything” that’s not the problem and eating is not the solution. I’m thankful I joined the gym yesterday with the plans of going tonight, it will be a hard workout I’ll tell you. Meaning I hope I can move my arms and legs tomorrow.

I turned on one of my favorite songs of the moment ‘shadowfeet’ by Brooke Fraser.

Walking, stumbling on these shadowfeet
toward home, a land that i've never seen
I am changing, less and less asleep
made of different stuff than when i began
and i have sensed it all along
fast approaching is the day

when the world has fallen out from under me
I'll be found in you, still standing
when the sky rolls up and mountains fall on their knees
when time and space are through
I'll be found in you

Theres distraction buzzing in my head
saying in the shadows it's easier to stay
but I've heard rumours of true reality
whispers of a well-lit way

You make all things new
You make all things new
You make all things new
You make all things
You make all things

So, as this song says “You make all things new” so I am praying, Lord make her joints new. I’m standing strong, You are my Rock, and my Redeemer! God take away this arthritis! I trust that You have got a hold of this and everything else in our lives! AMEN!

1 comment:

Sara said...

been praying at work ALL DAY LONG. healing, peace, joy, victory and a testimony are on the way sister! we ain't having this mess! love you!