Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Till I only dwell in Thee

I know that my life looks crazy to a lot of people. I know that working with teenagers is not on people’s high list of ‘fun’ things to do. I know that being friends with the person that nobody is friends with seems nuts. I know that Mission Trips to the D, and running marathons for people that you will never see, seems crazy. And why would you think it’s fun to spend your money on a book, and read to 2nd graders.
It is fun! And all those things are worthy of my time.
I left a Southfield school today after reading to a bunch of the cutest 2nd graders I’ve ever seen! I think they make kids cuter these days, because I know I wasn’t that cute in 2nd grade!
As I left the school, I turned on Brooke Fraser, the song playing was 'Hymn'
If to distant lands I scatter
If I sail to farthest seas
Would you find and firm and gather
'til I only dwell in Thee?
If I flee from greenest pastures
Would you leave to look for me?
Forfeit glory to come after

'Til I only dwell in Thee

If my heart has one ambition
If my soul one goal to seek
This my solitary vision 'til
I only dwell in Thee
That I only dwell in Thee
'Til I only dwell in Thee
It may sound completely crazy, but I’m learning to do the things I love in serving, I do things that I don’t particularly care to do if its out of service and obedience to Christ, but really, I use my talents and let others use theirs.
I love the quote from Mother Teresa, I have found the paradox that if I love until it hurts, then there is no hurt, but only more love. Its crazy but I am learning that if I love so much in the things I love, there really isn’t any hurt in me. i don't get frustrated because I am not doing something I hate.  And I think I really needed to learn to have love and joy in my heart to truly bring it to others.
My new saying is “I’m too old to argue”. As I watch others around me grow upset of things that have no eternal value, and they grow ugly in anger, I sit back and say ‘wow, thank You Jesus, that used to be me’. Even the other day, I had an issue, I was pretty disappointed and hurt, and I did just as the bible said, I addressed it with the person, I didn’t really like their answer, but heard their heart. What is the point of continuing to argue? There isn’t one. So I prayed and moved on. Amazing how joyous you can feel when you release things to the Lord, know that He will handle it, no anger to make me ugly. Thank You Lord, for joy.
I always said that I wanted peace, and joy, and freedom. And not to say that each day doesn’t come with its own set of problems, its just that I make a decision, ‘does this matter? will this matter? What are you really fighting for? And is the cause worth fighting for?’ sometimes I make the decision consciencely, and sometime not.
With all that is around me, all I want to do is dwell in Him who made me. Him who set the world into motion. I hear His voice as I read His Word, sometimes as if He is reading it to me. I know it sounds crazy, I know that many think I’ve jumped off the deep end. Well, come along with me, the water is perfect!
John 3:5 Jesus answered, “Very truly I tell you, no one can enter the kingdom of God unless they are born of water and the Spirit

1 comment:

Pat said...

I don't think your life looks crazy, I think it looks wonderful!
College grad, wonderful mom, lover of the Word, servant of God...yep, looks wonderful to me!