It is not like right now I am busier than any other time. I'm always busy. Always. I can't think of a time when I haven't been.
I never knew I had high blood pressure before, but now that I know I seem to be obsessed with it. Phyllis's foot is a mess and no one really knows why. I am so busy at work. There is a ton of stuff to do on this house. And there always seems like someone needs something from me, and when I ask for some help, I don't know if I'm gonna get it.
Yesterday was it. I hit the wall. Hard. And this may sound crazy, but I knew if I didn't do something soon, we'd never eat another good meal.
I'm a good cook, not because I have some amazing talent, but because I cook with love. I cook well, because I care about so many things. My friend Katie says that when I make spaghetti I kiss the noodles :) Yesterday I made crockpot lasagna, it was DISGUSTING! And there wasn't anything in it that should have caused it to be disgusting but it was! We couldn't even eat it. Phyllis made muffins... they were gross. And I'll tell you, that never happens. I had nothing to do with the muffins, but if my heart didn't get right, we were going to be malnourished (that might take a long time on my part I can afford to miss a meal or two or ten).
I wanted to sit on the couch and veg for the night, but believe it or not, that would have stressed me out more. So Phyllis trimmed the wall in the foyer, I took down some very dirty curtains that are not going to go back up, moved furniture to other parts of the room I patched walls, washed floor, then rollered the wall that Phyllis cut in, loaded the dishwasher, and then... I went straight to The Source. I open my bible randomly, which people will say that you're not supposed to do, and read 2 Thes (I can't think of a bad part in the bible so I think random isn't SO bad), and prayed, repented for my mess yesterday, and know that yesterday doesn't define me. I still have another apology to make, and I don't really want to and want to at the same time.
I have to remember that I can do what I can do, God actually handles it all, not what is left over after I do my part. He handles my blood pressure, Phyllis's foot, work, home, heart issues, He handles it all!
Today is a new day. Things will get done, or they won't. How about that.
2 Thes 1:3-12 3 We ought always to thank God for you, brothers and sisters,[b] and rightly so, because your faith is growing more and more, and the love all of you have for one another is increasing. 4 Therefore, among God’s churches we boast about your perseverance and faith in all the persecutions and trials you are enduring.
5 All this is evidence that God’s judgment is right, and as a result you will be counted worthy of the kingdom of God, for which you are suffering. 6 God is just: He will pay back trouble to those who trouble you 7 and give relief to you who are troubled, and to us as well. This will happen when the Lord Jesus is revealed from heaven in blazing fire with his powerful angels. 8 He will punish those who do not know God and do not obey the gospel of our Lord Jesus. 9 They will be punished with everlasting destruction and shut out from the presence of the Lord and from the glory of his might 10 on the day he comes to be glorified in his holy people and to be marveled at among all those who have believed. This includes you, because you believed our testimony to you.
11 With this in mind, we constantly pray for you, that our God may make you worthy of his calling, and that by his power he may bring to fruition your every desire for goodness and your every deed prompted by faith. 12 We pray this so that the name of our Lord Jesus may be glorified in you, and you in him, according to the grace of our God and the Lord Jesus Christ.[c]