So I was doing really well about reading my bible, I was reading a ton, this was my schedule:
Daily reading of the bible in Chronological order
Ezekial with my girls
Real Church Monthly reading plan
And then… I don’t know what happened. I stopped pretty much reading all together. And then it really happened… My life started to go crazy… my house = mess, my eating habits = mess, budget = mess, my heart = BIG MESS.
I blamed it on having to read the old testament. It sometimes is hard to read, well, it’s not really hard to read it just kind of just seems like words on a page that are scattered in my brain. And so then I just lost interest.
Yesterday’s message from God, delivered by Chilly, at Real Church http://1realchurch.com/ was just what I needed to hear. Turn the page. I have to be honest, I felt like giving up on EVERYTHING more than once in the last month (or two) and when I tried to talk to people I loved about it, I don’t know if I wasn’t communicating well, but it seemed like no one even understood or cared. Which really only makes me want to give up more (but it was probably me not communicating well, because I know people in my life love and care about me). But one thing I am not is a quitter. And yesterday’s message ‘turn the page’ was a message about going on, striving towards the prize (of Jesus), and in a literal sense, keep turning the page, keep reading your bible. Yes, I failed, I bit it big time, but you’re only a failure if you don’t get up. So I’m getting up, I’m brushing off the dirt, blowing the dust off my bible, and doing things like cleaning off the veggies, and packing them for snacks, packing my lunch (which not only helps with my budget but my eating habits as well). I brought my bible to read at lunch today. I’m going back to an old practice of writing a scripture of something God spoke to me while I was reading on a note card and putting them up around my kitchen and bathroom (I spend the most time there). I am going to limit my facebook time (though I haven’t decided how much yet – maybe to an hour) so if you need me text me don’t message me on FB.
I’m thankful that even in a mess that I created, that God continues to love me and speak to me.
Today… reading my ‘chornological’ & following the Real Church plan (today Acts 23)
Hebrews 12:1-2 1 Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, 2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.