Yesterday, I had no choice but to go get a new pair of jeans. One size BIGGER than I had. Seriously, it was getting ridiculous how uncomfortable I was.
At some point (not sure which point, or if I'll ever be back there again...) I realized... I am not defined by a pair of jeans.
Here's the deal, I know what size I am. I don't need anyone to remind me. I would like to lose weight. But until I get a really good 'all clear' from the doc, I can't really exercise like I'd like. I don't need a pair of stupid tight jeans to remind me of the lack of exercise and the poor choices in food I've made.
I know that I struggle with my weight and food, I always have, and I might always, I don't know. Maybe it's that in some way I am not surrendering this part of my life over to Jesus... hmmmm.. food for thought (LOL!).
I was listening (OVER AND OVER) to the song Aftermath by Hillsong United today. And I was praying for my heart to surrender this to Him. To remember that I am not defined by food, by jeans, by anything other than Him. This is not to say that I am giving myself permission to make poor choices, or give up this battle. This is to say that I refuse to wear those things around my neck like an anchor, that causes me to sink lower and lower.
"Aftermath"
At some point (not sure which point, or if I'll ever be back there again...) I realized... I am not defined by a pair of jeans.
Here's the deal, I know what size I am. I don't need anyone to remind me. I would like to lose weight. But until I get a really good 'all clear' from the doc, I can't really exercise like I'd like. I don't need a pair of stupid tight jeans to remind me of the lack of exercise and the poor choices in food I've made.
I know that I struggle with my weight and food, I always have, and I might always, I don't know. Maybe it's that in some way I am not surrendering this part of my life over to Jesus... hmmmm.. food for thought (LOL!).
I was listening (OVER AND OVER) to the song Aftermath by Hillsong United today. And I was praying for my heart to surrender this to Him. To remember that I am not defined by food, by jeans, by anything other than Him. This is not to say that I am giving myself permission to make poor choices, or give up this battle. This is to say that I refuse to wear those things around my neck like an anchor, that causes me to sink lower and lower.
"Aftermath"
[Verse 1:]
The skies lay low where You are
On the earth You rest Your feet
Yet the hands that cradle the stars
Are the hands that bled for me
[Chorus 1:]
In a moment of glorious surrender
You were broken for all the world to see
Lifted out of the ashes
I am found in the aftermath
[Verse 2:]
Freedom found in Your scars
In Your grace my life redeemed
For You chose to take the sinner's crown
As You placed Your crown on me
[Chorus 2 :]
In that moment of glorious surrender
Was the moment You broke the chains in me
Lifted out of the ashes
I am found in the aftermath
And in that moment You opened up the heavens
To the broken the beggar and the thief
Lifted out of the wreckage
I find hope in the aftermath
[Bridge:]
And I know that You're with me
Yes I know that You're with me here
And I know Your love will light the way
[Chorus 3:]
Now all I have I count it all as loss
But to know You and to carry the cross
Knowing I'm found
In the light of the aftermath
The skies lay low where You are
On the earth You rest Your feet
Yet the hands that cradle the stars
Are the hands that bled for me
[Chorus 1:]
In a moment of glorious surrender
You were broken for all the world to see
Lifted out of the ashes
I am found in the aftermath
[Verse 2:]
Freedom found in Your scars
In Your grace my life redeemed
For You chose to take the sinner's crown
As You placed Your crown on me
[Chorus 2 :]
In that moment of glorious surrender
Was the moment You broke the chains in me
Lifted out of the ashes
I am found in the aftermath
And in that moment You opened up the heavens
To the broken the beggar and the thief
Lifted out of the wreckage
I find hope in the aftermath
[Bridge:]
And I know that You're with me
Yes I know that You're with me here
And I know Your love will light the way
[Chorus 3:]
Now all I have I count it all as loss
But to know You and to carry the cross
Knowing I'm found
In the light of the aftermath
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