Sometimes I am so overwhelmed by God that I could cry. I am thankful for His goodness. In everything.
Today one of my kids posted something on their fb page, and I could read the hurt in their heart. As I was praying, I thought of the times when I had met that boy.
So many times a student would walk past me and I'd be immediately be called to pray for them.
So many times a student would come to my heart and I'd spend the night praying for them.
Or what about the girls that I was on my face before God because of their hurt.
And the amazing parents I met and the love I brought to them too.
I knew that I was not always the coolest leader. I knew that some (most) of them would really ever know the capacity of love that my heart held for them. I knew it. And I just kept loving them.
There are even times now when they are hurtful or I see them doing something that breaks my heart and I cry. But I love them anyway.
I think of all the smiles and the hugs. In letting them know that they were important to not only me but to God.
I can never go back to those times, I don't think I'd want to. But I can tell you this, I still love my kids even though I don't see them nearly as often as I did before. I think about their sweet faces at check in, the times I had to clean up their puke, the hugs, the laughter.
I'm so thankful. So very thankful.
I was reminded of this song. In our loneliness, in our laughter. In our tears, God is always there.
I feel that it wasn't me who was doing the blessing when I loved those students, I was the one who was blessed.
1 John 4:19 We love because He loved us first
This song reminds of great times! Kids jumping around for Jesus like little Tiggers.