Sometimes
I wonder if God just rolls around laughing at the dumb stuff I say.
When Phyllis went on her first overseas mission trip when
people asked me if I was going, I would say “if God calls me to an overseas
mission trip, I am hanging up!” Yes it
is very true that I said that.
THEN
my friends and I are going to El Salvador… did I mention? That’s overseas.
THEN
this morning God and I start wrestling about me going to Haiti with Alive. Do you know that when we were deciding about where to go with LWI to dig a well... I prayed we wouldn't go to Haiti... and now I can't wait to get there! Now, I’ve got a long list of reasons
(excuses!) why I can’t go… And then God
pull the “Trust Me” card out. That just
makes me crazy because He KNOWS I cannot say no to that!
And
let us not forget that I get EXACLTLY 3 weeks vacation. Let’s count them off:
- Haiti
- Detroit
- El Salvador
I
am not a selfless person! I like my
time off, I wanted to see if I could swing a New York trip this year. What the heck?! NO!
Money! Two trips! one summer! that's nuts! that's a lot of money!
Do
you know that I am not that good at following?
Oh, I am not a leader on this trip.
It’s
HOT there! I don’t like to sweat, I’m
fat.
2
words for you… BED BUGS
Oh
deliver me from that!
Let’s not forget… I AM FAT!
So
now that I’ve got that all out of my system…
God
said ‘GO!’ so I’m going.
All
the things that I am (that are stinky), He’s bigger than all my
selfishness. He’s bigger than all my
fear!
All
the things I am not. Well, He says that
He is. And I believe Him.
The
door is open. And I’m walking through.
I know there will be lots and lots of growing and stretching! I know there will be lots of praying, and
lots of listening!
There
will be lots of praising going on! And reading my bible. And opening my heart to Him. And lots of
preparing! And lots of opportunities to
be obedient.
Yes,
I’m a little scared, but my friend Kelly posted the other day : The phrase "do not be
afraid" is written in the Bible 365 times. That's a daily reminder from
God to live every day being fearless
Here I go!
Send me!
Comments
I know for sure he'll be there with you all the time. He knows your needs and he knows the needs of the unsaved as well.
Go in peace, his reward is with you. I cannot wait to hear the reports.
Some of them were in frank terms really stout. I've never heard that mentioned as a minus before.
One famous said, but Lord, "I don't know how to speak."
If the Lord need you, it's because he knows your qualities. May He bless and strengthen you.