I’m so excited about going to Haiti and totally scared out of my mind at the same time!
I refuse to make a list of all the things I am afraid of, but the thing that is the craziest fear that I have is that none of the orphans will like me. I know, crazy, right? But still.
I can make you a list of all the things that are wrong with me… all the things I do wrong or think that I’d like God to deal with me, but one thing I am learning in my walk (and walking with others) with Jesus is that most people have a few hurts that need to be healed and dealt with that cause a chain reaction of a lot of other things.
I’ve got a disgusting visual for you. (that just screams READ ON like nothing else!)…
Ever have one of those pimples that is below the surface, it makes (literally) your whole face hurt and you think ‘just come to the surface so I can deal with that stupid pimple!’. That’s kind of how I feel about things that bother me. And my biggest prayer for the trip. I want God to work in my life, and whatever needs to be brought to the surface and dealt with, let’s do it. Give me healing, give me freedom, give me love! But let’s just be truthful, things need to be dealt with, healing needs to be found.
I have been thinking of this scripture:
Hebrews 6:9-12 (msg) I'm sure that won't happen to you, friends. I have better things in mind for you—salvation things! God doesn't miss anything. He knows perfectly well all the love you've shown him by helping needy Christians, and that you keep at it. And now I want each of you to extend that same intensity toward a full-bodied hope, and keep at it till the finish. Don't drag your feet. Be like those who stay the course with committed faith and then get everything promised to them
I have a part in all of it. I need to be open to the healing, I need to not only pray and talk with Jesus, but to listen as well. I need to be obedient in being dealt with, when God says Jump, I don’t ask how high, or why, I just jump.
I’m excited for God to work in me while I prepare, when I am there, and when I get home!
Things in order to prepare for the trip (and healing):
(most of these I already do, I want to excel)
Listening for the heart of Jesus
Reading my bible
Studying/Praying the names of God
Exercise (walk/dvds, etc)
Listening to Praise and Worship Music
Sending out encouraging notes/FB messages/emails
Listen to sermons
Living Phil 4:8-9
Phil 4:8-9 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9 Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.