I wish I could get there... I will!

right before today's run

I wish you could have seen me when I was thin. Man... I look back at those pictures and think 'wow'.  I worked out a lot, and a lot of times, I put myself first, in order to take care of me!  And now... well...  I'm fat. I hate that about myself.  


It has been a long time since I've been able to run any distance worth even mentioning.  Today I woke up, did my Shred, at lunch I ate outside with my friend and then we had a 15 minute walk.  When I got home, I walk/ran 24 minutes (1.66 miles) maybe not the fastest, but I ran more than I walked! YEAH!


I've decided that I will exercise, and I will continue to make good choices when I eat.  I may never be a size 6 again (I can't believe I was ever a size 6) but I will feel good about myself and my choices.


I've been reading two books (both I love) Hinds Feet on High Places and You're already amazing (Why I can't just read one book at a time like normal people??)  The links are for Amazon but I got mine for my Nook


Both are teaching me in kind of the same way but different too, that I was created by the God of the Universe and He didn't make junk... and that He will ALWAYS be there all I have to do is cry out to Him (He's there even if I don't cry out too!).  My heart is getting filled up and starting to really gush all over the place.  


Anyway, sometimes I feel guilty about putting myself first but if I don't take care of me, how can I take care of anyone else?


Phil 3:13-14 ¹³ Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, ¹⁴ I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.