I know all the things in my life that are crazy, but I know that I am more blessed than 99% of the world! In stuff and those who have 'more' than me, may not have anything if they don't have Jesus.
Matthew 5:3 “Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Awhile ago I wondered what I was doing at my current job. I was actually kind of jealous of missionaries who God calls to some amazing things, bringing hope to the hopeless, loving the poorest of the poor, loving orphans, whatever, but God made it clear that just because someone has money doesn't necessarily mean they have anything. And funny because I went to Equip on Wednesday and that scripture was in the teaching.
Money doesn't buy happiness, it buys 'stuff'
And then I realized, my mission field doesn't look like a Compassion commercial, it looks like life of people who need love. Who need Him. I see it. God has given me this incredible gift of making cupcakes for birthdays. His love is in every single one. I love in a lot of different ways.
Yesterday I had kind of a rough day, one thing on it's own, probably not that big of a deal. All the things together, still not that big of a deal, add the pressures of my job, I felt like I had an elephant on my chest. I actually never expect anyone to fully understand, so I keep a lot of it bottled up inside and pray. And a lot of times I simply pray 'Dear God, one hand on my shoulder and the other over my mouth' and hope that I don't explode. Sometimes I feel like I'm holding back vomit. And I also pray for real peace that already exists, and I send out text prayer requests. I know that I have faithful friends.
One friend sent me something so simple. Breathe. Say His Name. Jesus
And so I did. And instantly, tears started to flow. It was all releasing, there is something POWERFUL about His Name. Jesus.
As I was crying, I was praying, sometimes just saying "Jesus is in ___________" and so simply everything seemed so small.
I had to get my car washed and vacuumed (it was long over due) and I expected a HUGE line, nope, I was the first car, and there was a HUGE line when I left :). Thank You Jesus.
And then I came home to a 'late' Mother's Day card from my nieces, I'm pretty sure somewhere in the bible it says "love is always on time". OHMYWORD! Hallmark has nothing on those girls! And their momma, all you people who think you got it together, Amanda, she's the best! Loving, encouraging, and beautiful. I'm crying just thinking about that family.
Maybe there are days that I can't seem to get through because I just don't have it in me. But Jesus is bigger than all that mess, and because I love Him and accepted Him, He is always in me, sometimes I just need to change my view, stop focusing on me and my stuff and simply, just come before Him, and say His name.
There is something in that Name.
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