Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Saturday, June 02, 2012

You're not the boss of me... oh wait.

These are my late night ramblings.  Late night for me is anytime past 9:30 (that's my bed time).

It's been quite a crazy couple of weeks.  I can't really go into all the details, but decisions had to be made and I've always got the mixed review crowd...  half the people say "AWESOME" and half the people in my life are like "what are you nuts?".  Truth be told, I only listen to the people who love Jesus and have the advice that matches God's direction.  How about them apples?

I was home last weekend for a long weekend and I happen to notice that the dust fairy decided to make her home very comfortably in MY home.  Add a couple piles of donations that NEED TO GO and I started kind of getting overwhelmed on how to get it all done. Really, how does one truly become that Proverbs 31 woman?  I love the book title "Can I have and do it all, please?' I want to read it but it's not available on the Nook.  Maybe now that I have my iphone I'll get the kindle app.  Anyway, I digress, see how crazy my mind is?  I've got most of my garden in, just gotta finish the last bit!  Maybe I can get some done tomorrow.

I'm a little overwhelmed at the thought of going to Haiti, I've got no idea what to expect and all I know is that I've got to be open to whatever God has in mind.  Obedience.  That's a long hard lesson that I've been learning.  I feel like I haven't mastered it completely, but I'm getting there. He talks, I do what He says.  Until...

Meekness.  I wasn't ready for this lesson, but apparently God thinks I am.  :/  I'd like to have a break please.  Can't I just go on with some easy lesson for minute? You know, like re-read Noah's Ark or something?  But remember above when I said "how does one truly become that Proverbs 31 woman?"  oh boy.  why do i do that?  Ask those kind of questions, you know, the kind where the answer is HARD!

I thought - give me a break for just a minute, let me get through these mission trips, and then You can give me a lesson. But that is not how it works.

I started laughing and said "You're not the boss of me" and then I laughed.  He is the boss of me.  Like any good leader, you gotta teach your peeps.  Hence, a lesson.  Every time I turn around it's the lesson about meekness. It's killing ME but isn't that the point?  to kill me, to die to oneself, to be more like Him.  

So, I don't know if I'm ready for this, I don't really feel ready.  But speak of God, for your child is listening.

Matthew 5:5 Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth. (NIV)

Matthew 5:5 Blessed (happy, blithesome, joyous, spiritually prosperous— with life-joy and satisfaction in God’s favor and salvation, regardless of their outward conditions) are the meek (the mild, patient, long-suffering), for they shall inherit the earth! (AMP)

1 comment:

Ashley said...

Sanctification is tough, but so worth it.