As you could have probably read lately... I got lots ramblin' in my head and heart! So, here is where it all comes out, hopefully in all this mess, there is His message and His light shining through.
I've been praying about going back to our High School Ministry Alive on Sunday nights for a long time. I've supported the ministry in various ways for awhile, but I will be back on Sunday Nights, and I am excited! I was helping someone today, and it was like new life was breathed right into me.
God gave me quite a break, worked a lot in my heart, in all the buzzing around, the buzzing got so loud I couldn't hear Him. (that's never good). I'm thankful for the break that He gave me, and thankful to be back. I thought God was saying so many things in the last few months, but truly, I asked Him to light my path, and as I've been stomping around like a little kid, He is blazing the path.
Some people know, and some people don't, I was praying about adopting from Haiti. God has given me the answer in the last week or so... the answer is... drum roll please.... No. While I would like to, and I and I and I and I... sing the meme song, the answer is no. God has plans for me to great things, and at least at this moment, adoption of a child is not one of them. I could fight Him on it, but the answer would still be no. I am sure a lot of people are like "what?" and a lot of people just breathed a huge sigh of relief!
I've been feeling kind of weak lately, not meek, but weak, which as a scrapper, makes me crazy. I hate feeling weak... and then my good friend texted me... 2 Cor 12:9 which happens to be one of my life verses.
Here it is in the Message version:
My grace is enough; it's all you need.
My strength comes into its own in your weakness.
Once I heard that, I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap and began appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ's strength moving in on my weakness. Now I take limitations in stride, and with good cheer, these limitations that cut me down to size—abuse, accidents, opposition, bad breaks. I just let Christ take over! And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become.