Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Thursday, August 02, 2012

God made me? Beautiful?

So I started this thing… because I really need to…

I tell myself everyday that God made me beautiful.

I hate it.

I don’t feel beautiful.

Not just on the outside (but especially on the outside)
I felt most beautiful in Haiti

But on the inside too (but we won’t go there)

I think I have some ok features, but rarely do I look at myself and say “wow, you’re beautiful”.  But I have friends who tell me that I am.  My friend Katie tells her boys to say it to me, my friend Amanda is always telling me that.

How after years and years of not measuring up to whatever people thought was beautiful do I change the way I look at myself?  How do I really start to undo the things of the past and really believe I am who God says I am? Beautiful. Inside and out.

What are the steps I take to undo a knot that is so tight? I am going to reread the book Captivating and do the study.  But what else?

I feel like if I don’t believe who God says I am, that somehow I am doubting that I believe all that He says He is.  I believe He made millions of beautiful things, and I see the beauty there, but why can’t I see the beauty in me?  It seems kind of hypocritical and I hate feeling like a hypocrite. 

Eph 2:10 For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.


Sun Valley Homestead said...

S*tan telling you lies...that's for sure.

We have a special needs daughter who by the worlds standards is anything but beautiful. She has Sotos Syndrome and is 6'4"...and very manly looking. Most people think she is a boy...and she gets that every day. She truly is nothing that great to look at.

But you know what...she is absolutely gorgeous...because God created her exactly like she should be. Even thoughs days when her Autism comes out in full force and you see bad behaviour...she still has a heart and soul created by God.

YOU ARE BEAUTIFL...and it has nothing to do with outside. Yes, we are to keep ourselves healthy as our bodies are His temple (preaching to myself...yikes)...but inside is altogether different. And from just finding your blog recently, I see a beautiful heart...a heart that has been wiped clean by the blood of Jesus...and forget what the world sees....God sees you as "justified...righteous".

Now just go out and live for Him...and see the beauty he will create through you and onto other people. You have a run with it...and you will be a Life changer.

Many blessings and prayers for your day.


Jada's Gigi said...

when I look at you I see Jesus' face and Jesus' hands and Jesus' love for the world..these are the beautiful things in life and they/He is in you...that is why you are beautiful...your reflection of Him is matter you outward appearance...your heart is His matter the dust in the corners...He is there and He is still washing through you and cleaning up His!