Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Wednesday, August 08, 2012

Not Rupunzel

I’m no Rupunzel.

I don’t need rescuing. But I do need help.

Yesterday my porch steps shattered. How does that happen? I have no idea. I looked at them and was paralyzed over what to do. Isn’t that dumb? I know what to do? You find someone who can fix it, and if you don’t want to spend that kind of money, you do it yourself. It isn’t rocket science.

My garbage disposal is broken. I have tried to fix it. I just need to replace it.

My fridge sounds like it’s gonna launch but I need to be home during the week to have the repair peeps come look at it. Who is home during the day? Want to sit there for me? I can’t work and do that.

I sat and cried today. I don’t even know why I was crying. Well, I know why but it’s a long story.

I carry my own luggage, I paint my own house, maybe I’ll even figure out how to fix that stupid disposal. Well, no maybe about it. I’ll do it, or I’ll pay for it to be done.

I decided that I was going to be vulnerable, I was going to take down the walls. That was dumb. I was right, you only get hurt. I am not saying that I won’t trust, and I won’t be vulnerable in the right situation, but I will not give up my need not to be rescued until the time is perfectly right. God will tell me when. Until then, I will wait.

I will, however, let people I know and trust help me. I will still go on late night walks, I will still love with reckless abandon, but I will not look at stupid things that can be fixed paralyzed. I’ll figure out a way to get it done. Because that’s not only what I do, that’s who I am.

So when I look at life, I will see the positive. I will see how good He is. And I will accept help when I need it. Thank you firend for being there this morning.

Phil 4:8-9 (msg) Summing it all up, friends, I'd say you'll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious—the best, not the worst; the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse. Put into practice what you learned from me, what you heard and saw and realized. Do that, and God, who makes everything work together, will work you into his most excellent harmonies.

1 comment:

Jada's Gigi said...

I'm not Rapunzel either...but I sometimes allow helpers...not often...but sometimes...:)