Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Thursday, August 09, 2012

on my knees, open arms, loving heart

Why do you read this?  You're probably asking yourself the same thing!  What a crazy couple weeks I've had.  ups and downs. love and sorrow.

My eyes are so swollen I can barely open them. Do you ever wonder why your eyes get all poofy from crying? as if crying wasn't bad enough, you get poofy eyes.  Yuck. (and as a side note, when I went to Haiti and cried... no poofy eyes, no headache)

Yesterday I felt so incredibly loved.  I think I would have cried over broken porch steps for days if it wasn't for my friends Katie, Tom, Colin, and 3 adorable little boys.

Since I'm trying to work through some stuff, I met with a friend and cried some more.  I came home to find 9 beauties in my house (they are supposed to be there!!) sharing their day and they started worship so I joined them, crying before I even sang a note.  On my knees before the creator of the universe.    There was a lot of cleansing going on.  I loved while I was there.  I opened my heart and loved.  And I know that Jesus is wherever we go, but He was in my living room last night.

Sometimes when we love, we get hurt.  We feel things we, either haven't felt in a long time, or maybe even things we have never felt, and it exposes us.  Sometimes we get hurt, but I think the experience is worth it.  In my sorrow, in the pain of loving others (and them leaving), this happens a lot in Youth Ministry, well really life in general, I will never be sorry that I loved.

El Salvador sooo very soon, I'm booking a night away in a couple weeks, youth ministry is starting, a Sisterhood weekend in October, soon it will be Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, and then back to Haiti.
Lots to look forward to!!

Whatever comes up, whatever I go/get through, it's all good, because Jesus is here!

Deut 31:6 Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.

1 comment:

Jada's Gigi said...

glad you are taking a night to get need it.