Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Monday, September 10, 2012


I never really journaled before. I blogged and continue to do so but in the beginning of June I started journaling. I have always purchased journals for people but never actually did it myself. I preached the benefits of journaling but never did it myself.

I am not sure why at some point I decided to start but I did. 

Man do I love to write. Seriously. Words on a paper make me so happy. Describing a sunrise so that people can see it without actually seeing it. Knowing that what I go through helps others or at the end of a journey they see why we keep going. 
Earlier today I had no words. I had so much to say but all I could do was cry. It would be like a painter ran out of paint or a singer lost their voice, or if Einstein lost his mind. That's how I felt.

That was so hard for me.

Our church is taking a challenge to take Jesus with them wherever they go. It's weird to me because I kind of always felt like I do that. Now I can't feel God. I can see His majestic beauty all around me, I've read the words He has given to me, I've sang the songs He has inspired others to write so that when I don't have the words I can sing of His greatness. And great He is. But I don't feel Him. And I find myself wanting to be so mad at Him but I can't because I know of His greatness. I know of his love and have praised him for his provision but I don't feel him today. 

I journaled today about how I was really feeling and it helped a lot. I guess the whole point of this was to say that sometimes I can't always express all my feelings on my blog but I'm thankful for my journal. 

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