Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

The Power of One... in me

Sometimes I look at my life and think it’s so insignificant. I’m only one. And I don’t feel all that important, really. Who am I? I stand in the back, I feel like most of the time no one would notice if I never showed up. I feel like I want to be up front, that I was called to be up front… but so many people have done/said things to make me cower to the back. Like they don’t or never have believed in me.

Some stupid girl who got knocked up at 19 and went to school, got a job… I can’t even figure out why anyone would want to be my friend most days…

That’s because I know the mess I am, I know the messes I’ve created, swept under the rug, and the ones that God’s grace has had to clean up.

And then I read things like this… and I think about how I need to not believe the garbage above and remember that one person does make a difference, and maybe we should live our life like it’s worth dying for! Because Christ died for us. Listened to the song by Israel Houghton today, the Power of One.

One life that came, One life that died, and One life that rose again.

And that Life, lives in me!

Was listening to John this morning, there’s some good stuff in there, LOL. Chapter 4 alone could blow your socks off! I made it to 8 (my plan was 4-7 today) and so many times I was like ‘whoa’… I could blog for days on the things God spoke to me, but I won’t. But just think of the Samaritan woman. One woman, a lot of mess. And yet, He seeks her out, He uses her. Man… that’s some crazy stuff right there.

I was writing out a prayer request/update today and I was thinking that it’s no wonder why the enemy has a strong hold on me… I never give up, and even if I’m crawling, I am reaching for Jesus. I do what I know to do, and I cling on with both hands to Him as if I am about to fall off a cliff.

We all can’t do everything, but we can all do something. We were all created for Great. I heard in a sermon by Steven Furtick once “we don’t get to greater because we don’t leave good enough behind”. Well, I will tell you, I WANT GREATER! I don’t want ok, or good, I want GREAT! I’ll do what I can, when I can, and with excellence, and I will rest when I need to rest.

I might still dream of things that could have been, but I will always look back with love and thankfulness, and know that God has called me for something GREATER.

He can use me, just little old me, who feels like pig pen leaving a cloud of dust and mess behind, but His grace takes that dust, and He makes it into clay, and molds me and makes me who He has always created me to be.

John 4:1-26

Now Jesus learned that the Pharisees had heard that he was gaining and baptizing more disciples than John— 2 although in fact it was not Jesus who baptized, but his disciples. 3 So he left Judea and went back once more to Galilee.

4 Now he had to go through Samaria. 5 So he came to a town in Samaria called Sychar, near the plot of ground Jacob had given to his son Joseph. 6 Jacob’s well was there, and Jesus, tired as he was from the journey, sat down by the well. It was about noon.

7 When a Samaritan woman came to draw water, Jesus said to her, “Will you give me a drink?” 8 (His disciples had gone into the town to buy food.)

9 The Samaritan woman said to him, “You are a Jew and I am a Samaritan woman. How can you ask me for a drink?” (For Jews do not associate with Samaritans.[a])

10 Jesus answered her, “If you knew the gift of God and who it is that asks you for a drink, you would have asked him and he would have given you living water.”

11 “Sir,” the woman said, “you have nothing to draw with and the well is deep. Where can you get this living water? 12 Are you greater than our father Jacob, who gave us the well and drank from it himself, as did also his sons and his livestock?”

13 Jesus answered, “Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, 14 but whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life.”

15 The woman said to him, “Sir, give me this water so that I won’t get thirsty and have to keep coming here to draw water.”

16 He told her, “Go, call your husband and come back.”

17 “I have no husband,” she replied.

Jesus said to her, “You are right when you say you have no husband. 18 The fact is, you have had five husbands, and the man you now have is not your husband. What you have just said is quite true.”

19 “Sir,” the woman said, “I can see that you are a prophet. 20 Our ancestors worshiped on this mountain, but you Jews claim that the place where we must worship is in Jerusalem.”

21 “Woman,” Jesus replied, “believe me, a time is coming when you will worship the Father neither on this mountain nor in Jerusalem. 22 You Samaritans worship what you do not know; we worship what we do know, for salvation is from the Jews. 23 Yet a time is coming and has now come when the true worshipers will worship the Father in the Spirit and in truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks. 24 God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in the Spirit and in truth.”

25 The woman said, “I know that Messiah” (called Christ) “is coming. When he comes, he will explain everything to us.”

26 Then Jesus declared, “I, the one speaking to you—I am he.”

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