Passion



Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)


Monday, November 19, 2012

What I feel isn't always real

This is how I feel:


Broken-hearted

Disappointed

Tired

Angry

Stressed

Life is chaos

Pukie

Love isn’t real (I even told someone this today)

Pissed off (yes, I said it)

I’m not gonna make it one more minute

When I was in grade school at a Halloween Party my art teacher Ms. Sisson had made these halloween bags and we had to put our hands in and guess what was in them.  I don't remember very many of the contents of the bag, but I do remember one, the "eyes.  They were peeled green grapes that she had frozen and thawed to make them slimy and squishy.  They "felt" like eyes but they were really grapes.

Sometimes we feel a certain way, but really... we are something completely different.

Toay one of the last straws was when I  found out my washer has water dumping out the bottom, yes, I am thankful that it’s going down the drain and that I don’t have a first floor laundry.

I’d like to be thankful and have lots to be thankful for… but sometimes I am just thinking "this sucks"
Sometimes it's just hard, and that has to be ok.  But I will not pretend that things aren't perfect or that it's always easy.

Those are things I feel, and sometimes feelings are not always what is real. Like the "eyes" that were grapes.

But this is what I do know.

God is good

He is our provider

Love is real, even if it hurts

I am healed, and will always continue to be healed

God is on time

There are days that I don’t puke even if I feel like I might

His Word is true

I am blessed

He is a Warrior

He is the beginning & the end

He never leaves me

I am loved

God loves me

I am not alone even if I feel lonely

It was true. All of it.

I can afford to pay for the things that have broken because He provides for me. When I reach out to Him, He is always there. He even meets me in the bathroom when I cry.

I get to choose what I focus on. I DO! I have that control. I have the choice to focus on the good or the bad. I have the choice. While there is a battle going on, I will focus on the light. I will let Him fight, I will just focus on Him.

He is in it.

Standing on this mountaintop Looking just how far we've come
Knowing that for every step
You were with us

Kneeling on this battle ground
Seeing just how much You've done
Knowing every victory
Is Your power in us

Scars and struggles on the way
But with joy our hearts can say
Yes, our hearts can say

Never once did we ever walk alone
Never once did You leave us on our own
You are faithful, God, You are faithful

Never once did we ever walk alone
Never once did You leave us on our own
You are faithful, God, You are faithful
You are faithful, God, You are faithful

Scars and struggles on the way
But with joy our hearts can say
Never once did we ever walk alone
Carried by Your constant grace
Held within Your perfect peace
Never once, no, we never walk alone

Ending Chorus
Never once did we ever walk alone
Never once did You leave us on our own
You are faithful, God, You are faithful

Every step we are breathing in Your grace
Evermore we'll be breathing out Your praise
You are faithful, God, You are faithful
You are faithful, God, You are faithful


2 comments:

Mrs. Mac said...

Margie .. I'm sorry you are having so many 'machines' breaking down at once. That is very frustrating. Your post today .. even though you are burdened .. seemed more focused on God and didn't give the enemy any wiggle room. Praising God for any and all small victories!

Diane said...

On sweet sister, if we could only realize the truth of your words....everything just is not real. In spite of how it feels or looks or sounds, it does not have to become our reality when we remained focused on WHO our REALITY IS! I love you, Margie!