I am starting to feel like I am getting my sparkle back. I spent the weekend doing things I loved.
Before that, I had a fabulous day (you can read about it on Saturday’s post). On Sunday I went down to Detroit to Courage church, and as usual, Chilly brought the Word. I found myself dreaming, big dreams of doing great things in the name of Jesus. It was such a vivid daydream, I could smell pancakes cooking, and see the building, and the smiles of God’s people. It was pretty awesome!
I have these bracelets that I took off about two months or so ago, I just couldn’t wear them, it was just too hard, but I believe they will be on my wrist soon. I think one thing that has helped me get my sparkle back is that I live in the moment. Whatever moment I am in. I forget to check the time, I listen more, I find myself praising Him more, even if just in my head, I find myself smiling more. I don’t think about things so much, I don’t deep dive into the things that could go wrong, and plan my escape plan, I just live in the moment. And the tough moments, I seek God. I reach out to Him, and to others.
I see friends who look like shells. Their sparkle seems to be missing too! Christmas is a hard time of year. Knowing how much better I feel because I have reopened my heart to love, God, others (still no man but that’s ok, God has someone fabulous for me) I wish that I could tell people to live in love, don’t live in fear, don’t be afraid of the things that could happen, live in the love that God has brought you to. Let love lead you. Let nothing get in the way of true love, fear isn’t real. Just love, at all costs. Because God always works it out. He always does. I’m so thankful He has called me to love, and I will never be sorry I loved, even when it hurts. Love is the best!
I am so shocked about how much God loves me, I am so shocked about how He uses me, even in the smallest of things. I love that He has given me such a heart for prayer, it reminds me so much that I cannot do anything without Him, it reminds me that He is control of it all. All of it.
Pastor Chilly asked us what we would should be losers about… what thing should we lose to get closer to Him? I’m praying about losing the dreams that God has given me, to not be afraid to take steps towards making them happen. Being obedient in whatever God calls me to do, to be faithful in the small things that He trusts me to do. He is always faithful. He calls me every day to love people. I will love. When it’s easy, when it’s hard…
36 When one of the Pharisees invited Jesus to have dinner with him, he went to the Pharisee’s house and reclined at the table. 37 A woman in that town who lived a sinful life learned that Jesus was eating at the Pharisee’s house, so she came there with an alabaster jar of perfume. 38 As she stood behind him at his feet weeping, she began to wet his feet with her tears. Then she wiped them with her hair, kissed them and poured perfume on them.
39 When the Pharisee who had invited him saw this, he said to himself, “If this man were a prophet, he would know who is touching him and what kind of woman she is—that she is a sinner.”
40 Jesus answered him, “Simon, I have something to tell you.”
“Tell me, teacher,” he said.
41 “Two people owed money to a certain moneylender. One owed him five hundred denarii,[c] and the other fifty. 42 Neither of them had the money to pay him back, so he forgave the debts of both. Now which of them will love him more?”
43 Simon replied, “I suppose the one who had the bigger debt forgiven.”
"You have judged correctly,” Jesus said.
44 Then he turned toward the woman and said to Simon, “Do you see this woman? I came into your house. You did not give me any water for my feet, but she wet my feet with her tears and wiped them with her hair. 45 You did not give me a kiss, but this woman, from the time I entered, has not stopped kissing my feet. 46 You did not put oil on my head, but she has poured perfume on my feet. 47 Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven—as her great love has shown. But whoever has been forgiven little loves little.”
48 Then Jesus said to her, “Your sins are forgiven.”
49 The other guests began to say among themselves, “Who is this who even forgives sins?”
50 Jesus said to the woman, “Your faith has saved you; go in peace.”