Wednesday, January 09, 2013
I just finished the book “Greater” by Steven Furtick.
I happen to be a huge fan of Steven Furtick, I’ve been known to listen to his sermons over and over in the same day, not because I’m some crazy stalker but because God speaks to me through his preaching/teaching.
I read the book Sun Stand Still and it really blew me away. I’m actually thinking about either reading it again or listening it to on Audible.com if it’s available.
But back to the book… Greater. It spoke to me in a lot of ways. Mostly just reminding me over and over again that God is in me, for me, and never further than a prayer (which actually was one of my favorite parts of this book).
I have a two words… well really 4 words for you regarding this book.
God has something greater for you… you can be greater.
I think that God has great plans for each one of us. Some are called to be moms, the greatest moms ever, though we may feel overlooked because the world doesn’t really celebrate that… but God’s got an absolute great plan for your life, and HE LOVES YOU! You were chosen by Him for greatness. To lead your family to greatness.
I think in my own life God has called me to write a book, to be a speaker. And in it’s own right, and if you know me, you might think “what does she have to say that’s so important?” and trust me, I ask myself that very same question, usually in a horrible, demeaning sort of way. Heck, I was told as a child “children are to be seen and not heard” and I am pretty sure, it wasn’t a joke, I think people meant it. I lacked value. Little did those same people know, that I am CHOSEN by God for greatness. And this week, and days going forward, I choose to speak life to myself. I am greater, because my Daddy says I am! (that’s from the book – and when I refer to Daddy, I mean my heavenly Daddy).
There’s somethings you may or may not know about me. Because of the way that I was treated and the things I believed about myself, I have always sat in the back. I do background work, and I am certainly gifted in the details. I don’t sit in the back anymore. Front row. Well, usually the second row, because I like to put my feet up. I am called to do background work for now. It may seem unimportant and insignificant to some, but let me tell you… if you plan a speaking engagement and no one turns on the microphone and checks sound, how well do you think it’s going to go?
I also have to tell you, that I have been a believer of lies for a long time. Not the kind when people say “it’s raining” and the sun is really shining. I mean the kind of lies that the prince of darkness tells us. You are worth nothing, no one cares about you, why would anyone pick you, why would anyone love you. That’s the kind I have believed. It’s no wonder. God has destined me for greatness, and the best way to take down someone down is to find their weakness, and go for it. We all want to matter, I think God designed us to want to love Him and know we have value in Him, and at some point, we lose our focus. The best way to take me down, was to make me feel de-valued. Like what I have to say doesn’t matter, that I will never be chosen for something important. I find myself doing one of two things when someone isn’t listening… I retreat or I make myself big (and loud) to be heard. I’m gonna work on these things. I don’t need to be small or big to be heard, I just need to be me.
One thing that happened to me about a month ago, someone said something so untrue and offensive to me, and for the last month I’ve been repeating it… and it’s so dumb, because what they said was untrue, I just don’t fit into their mold… well, I am molded by God (and every day it’s a remolding) and He has created me for such a time as this… so maybe their perception of me was that… but perception isn’t the truth, but if we are not careful, we will believe those lies. No more repeating of lies to myself. Speak life, Margie (and forgive people who say mean things to you, Margie [you might need to insert your name here]).
The enemy was smart, bury the lies deep and young so that it will take a long time to dig them out. But I will. Like a piece of shrapnel from an attack, I will find the source, so that I can be completely healed, and no longer let those lies harm me. It’s gonna be painful. But it’s gonna be worth it. And God is going to do a great work, in and through me, so that I will become greater (in Him).
1 John 4:4 You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world.