Please allow me to ramble for a moment… And I will tell you in advance, I cannot be held responsible for any grammar, spelling, or making sense at all. It’s the week of the winter retreat.
When I would go visit my gram, we would have dinner or lunch and I would start to do the dishes and she would say “no that’s ok huney, that will be my evening’s entertainment. Last night I made tags for the kids and tonight I checked to see who had medical release forms, and I may or may not have said “it was my evening’s entertainment”. LOL Dork.
I have been on the planning committee for the winter retreat, I have spent my Saturdays making match books, buying supplies, sorting supplies, laying out tags, making lists (and checking it twice), I feel like at this point, I am as prepared as I can be. Of course, I have last minute things to do, because… well, that’s just the way it goes. I keep feeling like I’m forgetting something. Today I was working with the file, and started to panic because I couldn’t find someone’s name… the filter was on. Ugh :/ But I love my life.
I had to make a decision to do a bible study. To say yes was a good idea, to say no was a good idea. How do I make that kind of choice. It was difficult. I prayed about it. I decided not to do it. It was a bible study. I really wanted to, but quite frankly, I am already working on some stuff, hard stuff, and I didn’t want the distraction, even if it was good. Just because it’s good, doesn’t mean it’s good (or good timing) for me. So I declined. I’m happy I chose not to do it. I don’t really think I have the time. I don’t want to be distracted, and if I do it, I want it to have my full attention, not another thing “to do”.
I decided to make myself a cup of tea tonight, Passion Fruit by Tazo. SO good, my new favorite. I put it in a nice heavy mug, that reminded me of the goodness of God. A Courage coffee mug. Did you know that I often am scared to make a choice. Like if I mess it up, someone will blame me. I don’t even really like to pick where I eat dinner with people because if it goes wrong, I don’t want to be responsible. How dumb. As I drank from the cup, I took courage to know that I am exactly where God wants me to be, may not be exactly where I want to be all the time, but I am thankful that His ways are better than mine.
That’s all I got. I’m tired. Sorry about the rambling. I’m so tired, I don’t even have a song today.
Oh, wait, one more thing. As part of my Starbucks rewards (I started mid December and I’ve already gotten two free ones) you get a song from itunes. I always download them, they are free. They play sometimes when I don’t have something else selected on my phone to listen to. I actually really like them.
Ok, that’s it.
Just remember I loveyou. Always.