I want to do a woman’s bible study!
This has never actually happened to me. Seriously.
I have never trusted enough to do one of these with people I don’t know. I’ve been in life groups, and I’ve been open and honest with people that I trusted, but I’ve never put myself out there with women. I just haven’t. I haven’t wanted to, but God is working so much is this tiny heart of mine, I just can’t wait to start. The bible study is part of Her Life, the women’s group at my church.
And I was just watching our church’s service from the weekend, and I’ve only listened to the first two songs in the beginning of service, and I have to tell you that I’m almost crying. A lot of people call us a rock n roll church and some discredit us because we are over the top sometimes. We do crazy things like have baptisms in swimming pools, put crazy signs all over the Downriver area, we’ve got crazy kids who love Jesus, we have a college ministry. We serve the city of Detroit and our local community. We look different, we certainly don't have stained glass windows (and there is NOTHING wrong with stained glass windows, they are just expensive, and our Pastor is cheap – he will tell you).
I have been coming to Metro since January 1, 2006. It’s often been a rocky road, mostly because I’m a nutcase sometimes. But it’s a place where I have found a perfectly imperfect church. I have run right into Jesus at the door. I’ve had weeks of being tough, I literally walk in the doors and started crying because I know it’s safe to feel there. I know that people might think I’m a nut case for crying in church, but my church is a place that I know that I will meet Jesus. I live in a world that teaches me to be tough, but I belong to a God in heaven who tells me to trust Him and that I am allowed to feel, to love, to accept and give grace. It’s a place that I can be safe and real. It’s a place where I find and give a Love bigger than me.
Sometimes I just can’t believe that I’m let in the door, not only that, they let me serve there! I get to work with the greatest people ever. Our Youth Staff for both Fuel (our Jr High Ministry) and Alive (high school Ministry) are second to none because we all serve under the best Youth Pastor ever!
Our church had this crazy vision of these business cards to give out. I thought was such an amazing idea, I took 3 packs (shhhh… we were supposed to only take 1 pack I think but you know, I’m a rebel). I keep them in my purse, and I give them out once I’ve established a relationship with people, like the cashier at the grocery store (true story) or I use them to invite the young man who helped me with my groceries to invite them to Unite (after I gave him a $10 tip for helping me – say what you want… money talks!) I love these cards. I don’t know if the people I invite will come, but I know that I will do whatever I can to get people to hear the heart of God. And it all starts with a smile. And let me tell you, sometimes I have to pump myself up to do it, it’s not always easy! But I love Jesus, I know that He has changed my life, and it wasn’t easy for Him either!
So here I go, going forward! Stepping out in faith. Trusting God.