Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Thursday, June 06, 2013

When my shoes are too tight

I wasn’t blessed enough to love Jesus my whole life, but He has always loved me. I was told by someone yesterday that they unfriended me on Facebook because I “preached” too much about God on my facebook. The first thing I thought of was the beatitudes. I get it, I know that even sometimes I think I’m obnoxious, and I work with teenagers so I have a high tolerance for obnoxious. LOL

I have to say that I will never stop talking about Jesus. I will post whatever scripture verse is on my heart or a great quote that I heard on a podcast or read. Mostly because if it’s helping me, it will help someone else. We can’t believe His promises if we are not aware of them. I will not apologize for that. I will also be honest and post my struggles. I may not always put all the details in my blog (because not everything is your business) but I will not be fake. Remember my time in the fall when I almost killed myself? Remember all that mess? I wasn’t shy about it. I was struggling and that was the truth.

There are moments when I feel so close to God that I just am in awe. I pray (and my friend prays for me) that if I am just the little bit separated from God, that it hurts. OUCH! I told my friend that being separated from God, in just the least little bit, for me is like wearing shoes that are too tight. And that is just horrible!! AND PAINFUL!! And just a little side note about my shoes. I basically wear three brands of shoes. Worthington (JCPenney), Nine West, and Merrells. All of these shoes are not cheap (if you know me at all, that will come as no surprise). But they fit great, they last a long time. And shoes like your relationship with Jesus should not be cheap. It should be sturdy and long lasting. There are just some things I will never skimp on, my relationship with Jesus and shoes. Can I get an Amen?

Some people have told me that my relationship with Jesus is inspiring, and some say “I could never be that good”.

The only thing I want to say to both of those is… “have you met me?”

Well, maybe you have or haven’t (I have followers I’ve never met in person).

Both of those things have NOTHING to do with me. My relationship with Jesus is strong because God the Father is faithful. I’m a big wretched mess who is saved and chosen by an Amazing God who gives Amazing Grace and Love. Any good in me, comes from Him.

Steven Furtick said in a podcast that I listened to today (from 2011) said “Never underestimate what the Father will do to get to His child”. I’m thankful that God will do anything to get to me, because I’m prone to wander. And I’ve seen God do some pretty crazy things to get my attention. And I’m thankful for that.

On Monday I did a bible study on the Fruit of the Spirit and the verse was this:

Luke 6:27-33 27 “But to you who are listening I say: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, 28 bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you. 29 If someone slaps you on one cheek, turn to them the other also. If someone takes your coat, do not withhold your shirt from them. 30 Give to everyone who asks you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back. 31 Do to others as you would have them do to you.

32 “If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? Even sinners love those who love them. 33 And if you do good to those who are good to you, what credit is that to you? Even sinners do that.

Let me tell you… Monday I did “alright”, but Tuesday “Epic fail”. Shoes too tight. It was insane. As soon as I messed up, it was like my shoes got too tight. Instant pain.

Dear God, thank You for always being close to me. Thank You for the pain that I incur when I am not walking in your footsteps… and pinching my feet to get me back into lock step with You. You are faithful and gracious.

1 comment:

Jada's Gigi said...

You got an Amen from me...on our walk with the Lord...and never skimping on shoes. :)