Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

feelings oh oh oh feelings... they drive passion

A lot of people think it must be so good to be home after being on 3 mission trips in a month’s time.

I don’t know if I am “Happy” to be back. I am thankful to see my friends, I am thankful to see my daughter and the crazy thing of being thankful for ice. I normally drink my water without ice. But since I’ve been back, even just one ice cube seems to make me so happy!

I miss being in Haiti. I mean come on, who wouldn’t miss because tickled and tickling and hearing the laughter of little muffins. As much as I love to cook, it was great being cooked for 2.5 weeks, especially after cooking for 120 people every day.

I loved Haiti. It was hot and I was sick of wearing a ponytail everyday, but after being home for 4 days, and I long for the simplicity of a ponytail. I miss feeling beautiful , I miss hearing God speak and spending uninterrupted time with Him. I miss not wondering what is next. Not very many times in my life do I “just be” but in Haiti, I do just that. I know that I am called by God to do great things. I know that to whom much is given, much is required!

As much as I miss Haiti I am excited about what God is leading me to do while I am home. His direction was very clear of what He wanted me to do when I was in Haiti. He even exposed the lies that people were telling, and shed light on the truth! He spoke so sweetly to my heart. I am so excited about working on the sponsorship for the kids and what is ahead! I have seen God already work so much already!

I really have to work at staying close to Jesus once I am home. Just like in Haiti, I have to carve out time to spend with Jesus. I tell so many people that they need to spend time with Jesus and in the word when they get home. I am serious about it and I need to do the same thing. I take my time with Jesus very seriously!

I am excited about how God grew my fruit before I left, and how He equipped me with so many tools. And while I was in Haiti, He ripped my fruit to give it to others, and set me up for success with those tools that He gave me.

I’m so very thankful! I am feeling a lot of feelings. I am allowing myself to feel, to live, and to take those feelings, and let them fuel the passion for the things He has called me to do, both in Detroit and in Haiti.

Psalm 119:105 Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path.

1 comment:

Kristin said...

Isn't it sad that we have to "work" so much harder at being close to God when we aren't in a mission-like environment?? I struggle with that so much. I go to a conference, get on a "high" and then life happens and it fades. What really happens is I am losing my vision of how amazing God is ALL the time...thank you for the reminder to keep my focus on Him!!