Passion



Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)


Saturday, October 12, 2013

There is no fear that can't be overcome

I've learned a lot of stuff over the years....

One thing I've learned is that people are afraid. And speaking from experience, the way I behave when I'm afraid is insane. 

Sometimes fear stops me dead in my tracks. I'm afraid to go the wrong way, so I don't move at all. Enter Chosen By Love... I went and opened the bank account, got the EIN, started the paperwork then froze. And I've been stuck for about a month in the same spot. Ugh. Ok so here's the thing about  not moving... I don't go anywhere. Now, if I went in the wrong direction, I'd learn from that mistake, and find my way to the right place.  Not moving left me in the same place. Dumb. If He tells me to go... He means it and if I'm connected to Him, He will guide my steps.

Sometimes when I'm afraid I move to quickly or if I think God might have forgotten I try to make my own way and I don't mean in a trailblazing sort of way I mean in a "you pick something knowing something better might come along but a bird in hand is worth 10 in the bush" sort of way but maybe, just maybe, God's got a beautiful bird just waiting for me and if I picked up something and am holding on to it God can't give me something better. Enter most of the horrible choices in men I've made. I've learned waiting for God's best is worth waiting for.❤️❤️

Then... This is my past favorite. This one doesn't really happen anymore since I've learned my identity in Christ. 

Anger. When i used to get scared I'd get mean, I'd try to get big... I'd try to make myself bigger so others would appear smaller. That didn't work much either. Well it made people afraid to be near me because they didn't ever know what they would get. I think this is my least favorite fear factor because it's the ugliest. Now when I feel that come on I check myself before I wreck myself (& my reputation) and I ask myself "what are you afraid of?" And usually "what co-dependent behavior are you manifesting?" Doesn't take much to figure that out. I often ask myself when I'm afraid and that behavior is coming out, do I have a reason for this? Is it righteous anger? Would God be angry? If the answer is no to those things I know that I'm not in line with God.

I think for me, there is a reason that God put in the bible so many times "do not fear" because I'm just not too bright and I don't get it very quickly. But in my heart I know, God has it all. He hasn't forgotten once to rise the sun, He's not going to leave me either. 

And to me, that's more beautiful than any sunrise 

“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life ? “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. (Matthew 6:25-34 NIV)


1 comment:

MATRUNOLA said...

Beautifully spoken words.
And I love the vulnerability and honesty.