I found out something today… one of the most beautiful looking people I have ever seen in my life took his own life. I mean, for real, this guy… knocked me off my feet.
He lost his job and whatever else, he took his own life.
As beautiful as I thought this guy was, I never ever had the nerve to talk to him. He was “out of my league”.
Can I tell you something? I have made myself sick.
That guy mattered. And I don’t even know his name.
What was I thinking “out of my league”? that’s so absolutely ridiculous.
What if I would have been brave and talked to him? What if I would have befriended him?
Oh what if?
I can live in what if’s but I can live in the “I will” place. I will treat each person I meet just like God would, with love. I will be brave.
Immediately I think of Joshua 1 where God just spells it out, simply… BE BRAVE – I will go with your wherever you go.
Look at these verses:
After the death of Moses the servant of the Lord, the Lord said to Joshua son of Nun, Moses’ aide: 2 “Moses my servant is dead. Now then, you and all these people, get ready to cross the Jordan River into the land I am about to give to them—to the Israelites. 3 I will give you every place where you set your foot, as I promised Moses. 4 Your territory will extend from the desert to Lebanon, and from the great river, the Euphrates—all the Hittite country—to the Mediterranean Sea in the west. 5 No one will be able to stand against you all the days of your life. (If God is for me, who can be against me??) As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you. (no matter how hard something is, He’s not going anywhere!) 6 Be strong and courageous, because you will lead these people to inherit the land I swore to their ancestors to give them. (He has come before me!!!)7 “Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you (do what He asks!!!); do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. (even if I mess it up, He will use it for good – Romans 8:28) 8 Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. (This makes me think of John 1 – The word was with God, and it was God) 9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.”
I read this and I can’t help but think “God, I am so thankful for the call You have put me, and I am thankful You never leave me… Here I am…. Send me! I won’t promise that I might not ever get nervous, but I promise, I will go, and I will just reach out for Your hand… that I KNOW it will ALWAYS be there”
I will probably always be regretful that I didn't say anything to that man, but I will use it as a lesson to love bigger and deeper.