I tend to get ahead of myself (and God).
I start thinking/praying and before I know it I am a giant ball of what ifs…
For the love of peanut butter and jelly sandwiches.
If there is one thing I learned in Haiti it was not to complain about things I cannot change. I cannot change the weather, it was cold in my house this morning, I have two choices, turn the heat on (and pay for it) or choose to freeze. No need to complain, just make a choice, and live with it. I chose to turn on the heat. Yes, it’s May, so what. You gotta do what you gotta do, and I hate being cold and it’s a simple solution.
It’s no surprise to anyone that I hate living Downriver. I have many great memories but I have some really awful ones. I have many great friends, and some people that I’d like to throat punch. I don’t like the city I live in, and now with my new neighbors that live DIRECTLY next to me, I don’t like it even more. I have some other really great neighbors too. I want to move. The truth is I have always wanted to live in the city but because of the schools, I didn’t. I chose to live closer to my dad so he could help with Phyllis as she was growing up.
I am tired of complaining about my house and being underwater and hating where I live and NOT CHOOSING TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT! It’s time to make a choice, do nothing and stop complaining or try to do something, at least see what my options are.
I am thinking/praying about moving.
To where? I am not sure.
Can I even sell my house? I don’t know.
But this is what I do know, I will pray about it. And probably freak out and stress about it. I also know I have WAY too much stuff and it’s time to really clean house (thank goodness for my garage sale). I haven’t talked to a real estate agent yet, but I have one that I will contact.
I am not sure what I am going to do but I do know that wherever God wants me, that’s where I’ll be.
He is the light that guides my path!