As I pulled out of Target following getting my nails done, I found myself with a rumbly in my tumbly as Winnie The Pooh would say. I have been working on resting and quiet and peace. I’ve been clearing my calender and taking care of me and my house.I had decided earlier in the week that I would not be getting “fast” food any longer and wouldn’t rush into a meal. I'm moving from the fast paced life to a much slower pace. This includes eating. This new habit has a lot of deprogramming to do in my daily life. This seems like a great idea until you’re driving in youre car and you’re hungry. This has happened to me a couple times since I made the decision. At this point, I was about a half hour from home, and there is no reason why I couldn’t wait until I got home. So I did : ) I felt like a champion who won the first round of a fight there is no way they can lose.
I was working around the yard this morning and I noticed something. I did one thing. I worked on the yard. I focused on… working on the yard. I thought about the yard… I worked on one thing… it was weird.At one point I noticed a beautiful sound. The sound of nothing. Not a million thoughts going around in my head. It was a sound that was strange for me. Usually thoughts spiral in my head like a tornado and I pull them out each as I need them. Some days it seems like I’m gonna implode. Today, I stopped and listened, took a deep breath and thought “so this is what peace in the every day feels like”.
I never realized how this felt. It’s great!I don’t regret all I’ve done and accomplished but I am looking forward to a life of focus on people not accomplishing, relationship over long lists followed by check marks. I am looking forward to taking good care of the life that God has entrusted me with, I am looking forward to loving people well, every day, at a much slower pace.