Do you remember that post Sara did about not fitting in? I feel like that all the time. It’s like she said, you can tell me… blah blah, it doesn’t change the way I feel, one bit.
As a child, I never felt good enough. I wasn’t like anyone I knew. NO ONE I knew didn’t have a mom. No one I knew cooked and cleaned. They all seemed to have way more clothes than me… no one had a boat either. I could go on and on…
I had to move to Lincoln Park. Trust me, by no means was this my choice. My poor dad. I was such a snot. Again, I didn’t fit in. Truth be told (I love that saying!) I didn’t want to fit in. I wanted to go back “home”. LP people were weird, because Dearborn was COMPLETELY diversified. Moving to Lincoln Park was reverse culture shock.
As I have grown, it seems to me that I don’t fit in. I didn’t get married, then have kids. I had a kid and am still not married. I work in a place where they need Jesus more than they know, and I think they know He’s there just waiting but they are too busy to see His face.
I went to a church that accepted me for all my yuckiness, but I never felt like I fit in there either. They love me, but it’s time to go somewhere else. I am not sure where I am going to fit in there, I know I am called to serve, and God has great plans for me, even when I don’t think I fit in. I know that my weird shaped puzzle piece will be placed in the right spot.
I wasn’t lucky enough to know of God’s grace growing up, I have experienced it, I just didn’t know what it was. I made a lot of mistakes before I came to Jesus.
I was watching “Storytellers” on VH1 with the Dixie Chicks. They opened with a song I had never heard before. “Taking the Long Way Around”. It reminded me kind of myself, I take the long way around, God keeps trying to teach me the same lesson, but He has to keep trying over and over until I take the long way around and get it.
I’m so very thankful He never gives up on me.
Hebrews 13:5 …God has said, “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you”
Deut 31:6 6 Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."
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