Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Friday, April 15, 2011

Do you really want to know?

People ask me how I am. In passing, and on the phone.

Well here's the answer.

I'm trusting God.

Because I'm sad, hurt, angry, stressed out, and see spots on many occasions.

I used to write scripture on 3X5 cards and place them all over my house. While it looks a little crazy, I highly recommend it for learning scripture, read it while brushing your teeth, using a Q-tip, making dinner, etc. On the cabinet in the bathroom it said 'Trust in God, but also trust in Me" ~ Jesus (John 12:44)

I'm trusting, because that's all I can do. Because while I trust God, I still want to know:
Why did You know put Osteo-arthritis in my daughter's body? Because the doctor said there would be no affects from the JRA.
Hasn't she been through enough?

I KNOW that all things work for those that love the Lord and are called according to His purpose, but I HATE THIS! OK! I HATE IT! We've already been through this once, and once was enough!

But I'm trusting! I'm believing in healing!

So if you ask me how I am? I'm trusting. And I'm focusing on Phil 4:8-9

The rest is for God to handle, and I'm thankful for that.


Matthew said...

I'm so sorry for your struggles, and while there is nothing that I can say that will help just know you're in my prayers; I hope you get some peace and clarity through this trial.


Becky said...

hugs over to you!