Do you really want to know?

People ask me how I am. In passing, and on the phone.

Well here's the answer.

I'm trusting God.

Because I'm sad, hurt, angry, stressed out, and see spots on many occasions.

I used to write scripture on 3X5 cards and place them all over my house. While it looks a little crazy, I highly recommend it for learning scripture, read it while brushing your teeth, using a Q-tip, making dinner, etc. On the cabinet in the bathroom it said 'Trust in God, but also trust in Me" ~ Jesus (John 12:44)

I'm trusting, because that's all I can do. Because while I trust God, I still want to know:
Why did You know put Osteo-arthritis in my daughter's body? Because the doctor said there would be no affects from the JRA.
Hasn't she been through enough?
WHY?
WHY?
WHY?

I KNOW that all things work for those that love the Lord and are called according to His purpose, but I HATE THIS! OK! I HATE IT! We've already been through this once, and once was enough!

But I'm trusting! I'm believing in healing!

So if you ask me how I am? I'm trusting. And I'm focusing on Phil 4:8-9

The rest is for God to handle, and I'm thankful for that.

Comments

I'm so sorry for your struggles, and while there is nothing that I can say that will help just know you're in my prayers; I hope you get some peace and clarity through this trial.

Blessings,
~Matthew
Becky said…
hugs over to you!