Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Thursday, April 30, 2009


There must be more

Lord I groan, Lord I kneel
I’m crying out for something real
Because I know deep in my soul
There must be more

Lord I’m tired, Yes, I’m weak
I need your power to work in me
’Cause I can’t let go
I keep hanging on
There must be more
There must be more

River flow
Fire burn
Holy Spirit breathe on me

Yesterday at church we sang this song. It was kind of a rough day, or at least it seemed to be until I gained the proper perspective. We will be on unpaid leave again this year. Two weeks from now until we leave for Austria (at this point, I think I get to pick my weeks) and then possibly one the week after the 4th.

Oh it sucks. And I got all bent because I wouldn't be able to spend (waste!) as much money in Austria as I planned. I started thinking about my dad, work, the unstability of a whole lotta things. And as I was singing 'there must be more'. And then my tears of sadness turned to tears of rejoicing. THERE IS SOMETHING MORE!! AND I HAVE HIM!!!!!!!! Then I couldn't stop crying because I was so thankful. Then you know what God did? He put it on the hearts of those who were singing (it was already scheduled to be sung) and they sang 'Come now is the time to worship'. And in the story of when I discovered that I could not live another day without Jesus, that was a song that was sung. And then I began to cry even more, you know those crocodile tears. I remembered how much God loved me, that He has never left me, that I was loved, that I AM loved, that I'm CHOSEN! That He knew me before I was born, that He loves me even in my mess. When He could forsake me, He doesn't.

Greatful and unworthy am I.

Worthy is He!!

Psalm 98
1 Sing to the LORD a new song,
for he has done marvelous things;
his right hand and his holy arm
have worked salvation for him.
2 The LORD has made his salvation known
and revealed his righteousness to the nations.

3 He has remembered his love
and his faithfulness to the house of Israel;
all the ends of the earth have seen
the salvation of our God.

4 Shout for joy to the LORD, all the earth,
burst into jubilant song with music;

5 make music to the LORD with the harp,
with the harp and the sound of singing,

6 with trumpets and the blast of the ram's horn—
shout for joy before the LORD, the King.

7 Let the sea resound, and everything in it,
the world, and all who live in it.

8 Let the rivers clap their hands,
Let the mountains sing together for joy; 9 let them sing before the LORD,
for he comes to judge the earth.
He will judge the world in righteousness
and the peoples with equity.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

The best things in life are free...

...the second best things come from the Thrift Store!

I make it known that I love the Thrift Store. The value of an item is only based on what someone will pay for it. Not what some corporate marketing person has decided it is worth.

My two latest favorite finds are my new BRAND new square cake pan (holds 3 cake mixes) and the new BIG round (holds 2 cake mixes) cake pan. CHEAP!

But let me ask you this... would you be offended if someone bought you a gift from the thrift store. I would do this, I wouldn't even try to pass it off as new, I'm proud of the deals I get!

Once I gave my g-friend's son a Little Tikes Workbench and ALL THE TOOLS YOU COULD THINK OF... I got it for $5! Merry Christmas buddy! I get stuff for Babies Dorband stuff from there too... At Christmas, I often buy my daughter previously viewed DVDs (4 for $20 or $3 for $25) because she realizes that it doesn't need to be brand new and she recongnizes that you get more that way :)

But really, would you be offended? Or would you think, a gift, and my friend didn't go broke getting this perfect gift that she knew I'd love?

Let me know. (Because I got my friend a gift from the thrift store and I know she'll love it but I wonder if she'll think I'm a cheapskate). I know she'll love it and I'm giving it to her anyway, but I'm wondering what you think.

Acts 20:35 In everything I did, I showed you that by this kind of hard work we must help the weak, remembering the words the Lord Jesus himself said: 'It is more blessed to give than to receive.' "

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Should I, Could I? I'm still praying

Our church is doing a bible study by Beth Moore, Daniel. I really want to do it, but honestly, one more thing during the week.

I'm a pretty busy gal. Mon-Fri I work outside the home
Sunday - Church & Alive
Monday - Fuel
Tuesday - 4th one a month, meeting
Wednesday - watch the girls or go to church
Thursday - date night with Phyllis or with friends.
Friday - who knows
Saturday - Errands and fun!

It's a Thursday night, and I want to, but why can't we have one on Saturday mornings... I'm probably the only one who would want to get up and start my Saturdays that way, but I would. I know I should take the time, but can I? Can I see it to completion? I don't know. Yikes.

Monday, April 27, 2009

Where to next?

This is going to be a very exciting summer, especially if your name is Phyllis.

We leave for Austria in less than 2 month!! Can you believe it!!?? Seems like just yesterday I was crying thinking "how is this single mom going to afford this?" and God simply stated "I will provide" and provide He did!

So I was thinking, like I always am about Phyllis. Her senior year. Spring Break. Am I the only one that has a stomach flip flop when the two words 'spring break' come to mention. Myself, I didn't do anything. I think I stayed home and worked more than usual because of my expanded schedule. Looking back, I wish I would have done something different.

Being that my daughter loves the theatre... And she really enjoyed New York City when she went in 8th grade, we are going in her Senior Year!! As soon as we get back from Austria, I am going to start putting $100 a paycheck away. Getting paid 2X per month it will give us about 18 months, so that's $3600! I am sure I will eventually (God willing) put more away, but I think we can have a great time! She thought it was an AWESOME idea, her face lit up like a light bulb.

How blessed am I? First, that I could afford such a luxury, and second, that my teenage daughter would even want to do such a thing. I was talking to my friend and she said "you do realize that you have a non-typical teenager". Funny, because I think she's kind of normal. Though I did think how blessed I was when I was contemplating not going to Austria and she said she didn't want to go if I wasn't going because "who would I share Austria with?". Oui.

So I think we are off to NYC in Spring of 2011!

Acts 8:40 Philip (Phyllis), however, appeared at Azotus and traveled about, preaching the gospel in all the towns until he reached Caesarea

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Milky Way Swirl Cake

Milky Way Swirl Cake


Veggie Oil for spraying pan
Flour for dusting pan
2 1/2 Milky way candy bars, sliced
2 T plus 1 c water
1 yellow cake mix
8 T butter, melted
3 large eggs
1 T flour


2 1/2 Milky Way Bars, sliced
2 T Butter
2 t water

Preheat oven 325.

Lightly spray and dust BUNDT pan

For Cake:
melt milky way with 2T water in medium sized pan over med-low heat. remove from heat and set it aside

Place the cake mix, 1 c water, melted butter, and eggs in large mixing bowl. Mix well.

Measure out 2/3 c of batter and pour into the cooled candy bar mixture. Add flour and stir until the mixture is smooth. Pour the plain cake mixture into bundt pan. Pour milky way mixture over the cake mixture and swirl into pan trying not to touch the sides of the pan.

Bake for 45 to 50 minutes. Remove from oven and place it on a wire rack for 20 minutes. Invert from pan and cool 20 minutes.

For Glaze:

rinse out the saucepan and wipe it dry. Place the Milky Way bars into saucepan over medium low heat. Add butter and water. Cook, stirring until smooth 3 to 4 minutes. Let glaze cool for 10 minutes.

Put cake onto serving platter over the cake so that it drips down the sides. Let cake rest for 10 minutes before serving.

I also melted caramel over the glaze... yummy!!

I make cakes for everyone's birthday at work. John LOVES cake! Most everyone just asks for some kind of cake mix, not John, he picked out this one!! Many said it was the best cake I ever made, even better than the carrot cake I am known for!


1. She's one of those people you hope you're like when you grow up.

2. She inspires you in the smallest and biggest ways.

3. She loves you even when you're being ridiculous.

4. She gives you clear advice because she has a different outlook but knows and loves you.

5. She's a great mom and wife and friend.

6. You're not embarrassed to cry in front of her over coneys and greek salad.

7. She's easy to pray for because you love her.

8. But she's so not perfect, and you love that about her.

9. She's sarcastic and funny sometimes at the same time.

10. She's wise.

Happy Birthday!! YOU!!
Col 1:3 We always thank God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, when we pray for you

Friday, April 24, 2009

Peacefully waiting

Can you feel peaceful and trapped at the same time?

Like you can't go anywhere due to circumstances but peaceful that maybe it's God holding you there for a reason (maybe for your own good)?

That's kind of how I feel.

I'm one of those people that is a creature of habit, but when I've decided to 'kick the habit' it's really not that hard for me to walk away. And I'm about ready to 'get to steppin' ' but I can't. I find myself unable to move, but not in a bad way. I know that something is going to be happening this year, probably soon, and I know that God is preparing me in a lot of ways... and I think I'm ready, but I know I'm probably not otherwise God would have already moved me.

So I'm waiting.

Jer 14:19 God, have you said your final No to Judah? Can you simply not stand Zion any longer? If not, why have you treated us like this, beaten us nearly to death? We hoped for peace— nothing good came from it; We looked for healing— and got kicked in the stomach. We admit, O God, how badly we've lived, and our ancestors, how bad they were. We've sinned, they've sinned, we've all sinned against you! Your reputation is at stake! Don't quit on us! Don't walk out and abandon your glorious Temple! Remember your covenant. Don't break faith with us! Can the no-gods of the godless nations cause rain? Can the sky water the earth by itself? You're the one, O God, who does this. So you're the one for whom we wait. You made it all, you do it all. (msg)

Thursday, April 23, 2009


What's going on in my head...
I'm thinking I'm about to get rid of my Precious Moments, I don't know why I keep them, I like them, but they represent a different time in my life. I'm having a hard time with it because they all have memories... I don't know what to do... but I don't know why I am hanging on to them!
Also thinking about taking a cake decorating class... because I make yummy cakes but they never look very good... but it seems really dorky and I don't know how good I'd be at it... so I probably won't :(

I've decided that with all the crap that is being stirred up in my life, I'm going to be thankful, so here is my list a couple days early.

1. Phyllis (and we'll be in Austria in just a little over 2 months!!!!) And the braces will be off (June 12!!) !!!

2. My friends, just to name a few... Stacy, Angie... what would I do without them!

3. My garden that I haven't even planted yet

4. Sunshine and an about to be beautiful weekend!

5. Keith is singing 'It is Well'

6. Peace

7. Love that only God can give!

8. Provision

9. Having lunch with my good friend/sister next Thursday

10. Kevin
11. All my "kids"
12. New babies on the way
13. Family

Col 3:15 Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Homemade or Store bought?

Today is Admin Professionals Day! I hope if you have an admin that you treat her (or him) great everyday, but don't forget them today!! or it'll be worse than the doghouse!

We have 6 wonderful women in our 'area' and even if I just spent $5 or $10 on them, it really adds up, and what can you get for $5 so I decided that I would make homemade chocolate covered strawberries and rock road treats! I found cute little 'take out' boxes from Michael's with flowers on them!

They really seemed to like them, I have to admit, they are not nearly as pretty as the kind you buy in the store but they tasted really good (Phyllis sampled them).

Really easy, really yummy, and anyone can stop at a store and buy something... homemade is ALWAYS better!!!

Monday, April 20, 2009


I think I've just about had enough!

As popeye would say "i've had all I can stands and i can't stands no more".

So... I've got a few questions for you... please feel free to enlighten me. These are not all my questions... but I'd like some answers...

How many times should you feel kicked like the dog before you just run to another household?

Why is it that people who say they love you (even if they don't anymore) continue to hurt you? If they really love(d) you, shouldn't they want what's best for you?

How is it that friend A says to you... I know you'd rather be with friend B... but never makes time for you? Except when she needs something from YOU!

How is it that fathers leave their daughters?

Is it true that a son's your son until he takes a wife but your daughter is your daughter all her life?

Why is it that women play games with men, not expecting to get hurt?

Why can't being in love be easy?

Why is it that the people who say they love you, hurt you the most?

And why is it that when you eat an onion you taste it all day on your tongue?

Another Giveaway!

I am giving another book away!

Don't Let Me Go: What My Daughter Taught Me About the Journey Every Parent Must Make (Paperback) by David Pierce

It's very light-hearted. I won it at Netta's website.

This book is slightly used (I've read it once!).

In order to win the book... you must provide one memory when you look back and think "God had His grip on me and I had no idea, but I can clearly see it now"

It is not the healthy who need a doctor.

I was raised Catholic and in my family, everyone tried so hard to make everything "look" right.

Drove me crazy. I've often said that most people have a great picture and a terrible story or a terrible picture and a great story. Meaning that their lives either look perfect and aren't or they don't look perfect but the love is BIG! I think I have a terrible picture but a great story (for the record) because I'm always failing. I'm thankful for my story that has been redeemed by God.

We had an issue at our church a little while back. I'll just say that a couple (I mean less than a handful) were doing some things they shouldn't. We've got some kids who really really REALLY need Jesus. And let me just say that we ALL need Jesus, we all fall short of the glory of God.

Our little incident got out into the world. And someone made a comment to me. I don't really know what they expected me to say. My heart is burdened by teenagers. It's burdened by their problems, and often I don't even get to help them through it, but I know my gift is in other places. But here was my thought. It was horrible, I'll make no mistake about it. but you know what... it means we're reaching the kids we need to reach. Will there be consequences? yes. but will we still love them, even when it's hard? yes.

Jesus Himself said "It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners." (It's in Matthew, Mark, Luke)

There may have been a time in my life when I would have thought differently, I might have even gasped, but now the gasp has been replaced by the sound of my heart breaking. My heart has been changed by God.

I have said before "fake it until you make it". Let me tell you that God has really moved in my heart about that saying. It's HORRIBLE. It does not make me wonder why people think Christians are hypocrites. It's sayings like that that just proves it. I'm pretty sure Jesus never said "fake it until you make it". At least I can't find it!

So, I'm praying that God brings us those kids who need Jesus. I smiled with joy when I saw today's scripture “Where, O death, is your victory? Where, O death, is your sting?" The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.”- 1 Corinthians 15:55-57

I want those kids, I want ALL kids to know the death of sin in their lives and the life that only Jesus can bring and all it's VICTORY!!!

And just a little note... in case, in anyway, even the smallest of ways that you believe the lies that satan is telling you... he's a liar! And God has His victory in all things... especially YOU!

Sunday, April 19, 2009

My heart today

I don't know why You love me. But You do.
I wonder why I don't feel alone in all this. But I don't.
I don't know how You make me feel whole. But You do.
I don't know how to explain this peace. Because I can't

You are my everything.
I used to say it, but now I mean it.
What you have for me isn't just better.
It's everything.

When it feels like no one loves me. You do.
When it feels like I'm all alone. I'm not.
You give me peace.
I can't explain it.

But you can, and you do.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

I got the dirt all put in it's new home :) ALL OVER!! My hip has been bugging me ever since! This 'Corporate Cake-Eater' (that's what one plant manager calls us 'corporate people') is not used to hard labor!! Thankfully with the help of Phyllis's boyfriend we got it all done in just under 3 hours, moved, spread, cleaned up! I have to admit there were points when I thought it was never going to end!

Today is spring cleaning. I cleaned out my front closet and 2 garbage bags later it looks wonderful! Ever wonder what you're thinking when you keep all that 'stuff'. As we're cleaning each room, our donation pile keeps getting larger and larger! Laundry going, dishwasher washing, it's going to be a great day!

Be blessed!!

Friday, April 17, 2009

Its almost time!

Mrs. Mac has inspired me for so many things, to make life simpler. I started a garden last year, I dubbed it the "ghetto garden" because I don't have a lot of space in my backyard. I planted tomato plants next to my house and zucchini, celery, green peppers, hot peppers on the other side of the driveway.

I know have railroad ties which are not my favorite landscape, but they were FREE! and I will be filling that space with dirt this weekend (3 yards!) and getting ready to plant my garden. I decided that I am going to plant parsely, cilantro, basil, chives, and maybe rosemary next to the house and all the veggies in the back. My plan is tomatoes, yellow squash, zucchini, celery, cukes, peppers, and maybe onions.

I've been slowly using up my crops from last year that I froze (all the homemade salsa and spaghetti sauce is gone!). I got a great canning pot and have been picking up canning jars all winter and with the advice from Mrs. Mac, I will buy new tops for the jars. Maybe it's only exciting to me but it's exciting! Things taste so much better from home, it's awesome to walk out when you decide to have cukes and sour cream to get your own or a great tomato sandwich or to make homemade salsa (which is better than the best you can buy in the store). It's funny because one might say that I am becoming more self reliant, but I think it's more "God reliant". He provides for us in so many ways. From the money to buy the dirt (and the house with the backyard!), the seeds (plants), sunshine, water, He provides it all because HE LOVES US!

Gen 1:29 29 Then God said, "I give you every seed-bearing plant on the face of the whole earth and every tree that has fruit with seed in it. They will be yours for food.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009


I got this quiz over at Pastor Chilly's site. I thought it was great, and I love to take these things... feel free to copy it and paste it on your blog with your answers. I have nothing else right now....

GOD IS: love

The verse on my heart today is: Phil 4:6-7 (it's been there all week)

Your middle name: Louise

Favorite chewing gum flavor: Eclipse Spearmint

Person in the Bible I am MOST like: Martha

Favorite Podcast Preacher: Pastor Judah

Preferred Bible Translation: NIV for New Testement, Message for Old

How soon they will be married: Soon I hope!!

Dream Car: Lexus SC430 or some kind of SUV

The Devil is… getting on my nerves

Starbuck’s fix: Sweet Wild Orange Tea, Venti. One tea bag in cup, one in my wallet to take home and enjoy later!

I usually pray at (what time) and for how long? No usual time, when I wake up and all day.

Shampoo, Soap … Conditioner?? John Frieda Brunette for Shamp & Conditioner, Love Spell by Vicki

The last time you lead someone to Christ… I hope I lead them every day.

Cologne/Aftershave/Body Spray: Issi Miaki and love spell

What percentage of a disciple, of Christ, are you? 75% (I wish it was 100!!)

Favorite Movies :
1. White Christmas
2. Remember the Titans
3. Invincible

The last thing that God, specifically, spoke to me: I love you like no one else. Don’t forget

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Letting Go

I've carried a lot of baggage around with me. Unnecessary hurt that I could but would not let go of. Things that each time I would think of them would cut like a small piece of glass.

And emotionally I would shout "THAT'S IT, NO MORE" however, I didn't really follow through, I'd walk back into the same difficult situation get hurt over and over.

And I'd continue to carry a suitcase that I would fill up with more and more "stuff".

And then, I decided to do the right thing. I turned directly to the Lord, dropped my suitcase off at His feet and said "it's Yours". And walked away.

It is finished.

It's a different feeling when you let go instead of throwing. Nothing really emotional about it, it's just relief. Almost like the elephant on your chest has been removed. Its easier breathing. It's peace.

And I just wonder... why didn't I do this long ago?

Matthew 11:28-29 28"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

Sunday, April 12, 2009


Happy Easter!!


Now that's something to celebrate!!

Matthew 28:5-7

5The angel said to the women, "Do not be afraid, for I know that you are looking for Jesus, who was crucified. 6He is not here; he has risen, just as he said. Come and see the place where he lay. 7Then go quickly and tell his disciples: 'He has risen from the dead and is going ahead of you into Galilee. There you will see him.' Now I have told you."

Friday, April 10, 2009


There are things that you will never heal from until you let God into those parts. When you try to "fix" it yourself, it's a temporary band-aid that will come loose in the first storm that comes your way.

I know this from a lot of experience.

The one that comes to mind is my mom. This month is the month she died. It still makes me sad but it doesn't sting quite like it used to. I miss my mom. And for a long time I wasn't pleased with the decision that God made. I wondered often "why did you leave me here all alone?" Which is kind of what made me such a strong independant person. But my strength wasn't really strength until I learned to lean. Lean on the Lord and let His strength be my strength.

And you can't be strong if you have kinks in your armor.

Mark 2:17 On hearing this, Jesus said to them, "It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners."

Thursday, April 09, 2009

Stepping Out in Faith

He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." Matthew 17:21

Sometimes it’s easy to step out in faith.

Sometimes it seems as though God is in every step, every breath, but sometimes even though in our hearts we know He is right there, it surely doesn’t seem like it. And sometimes we have to take a risk in order to get the benefit. The benefit is to see God show up.

Last night I was watching my peanut head (that’s Phyllis) sing. I almost always cry when I see her sing. They opened with the Star Spangled Banner, there she was front row of the balcony so when I turned around, I saw her cuteface (That’s not a typo- one word cuteface just like I type loveyou all one word) and wham, I’m crying! I was overwhelmed by being blessed. I was thinking there is absolutely no way I deserve anything, especially that beautiful girl who’s outside matches her inside. And then I started thinking about Austria (and thinking about how I was thinking about not going – and God showed up), which I know is going to be awesome but I have no preconceived notions about what awaits us except pure beauty and pure joy.

And then how God blessed us with Columbia. It has been an amazing adventure of faith. I didn’t realize how much I was going to see God move in very tangible ways even before she left (it’s really only been about 6 weeks). It all started with a simple idea that I had in the car about combining Phyllis’s two favorite loves… Jesus and Fashion. To see her put it all together with honestly, little direction – she only asked me “what would you do?” a few times. The rest, I just let her go. And if I do say so myself – IT WAS FABULOUSO! She’s been selling candy bars (to date more than $350 worth! – and to think I thought that she might not even sell one box- that’s what you get for listening to the news and all this talk about recession/depression – God does not know of these words) to raise money. She’s gotten about $450 in donations… All the while I put it in the budget (just in case). $100 a paycheck, and each paycheck, the money came out of the ‘Columbia Fund’ and into the ‘general fund’. Amazing. To date, she has $95 left out of $1000. And so… it will be paid off by the end of April. You see… even though she knew she was called to go, and I trusted in God that He wanted her to do this, I’m still made up of flesh, and sometimes I still doubt. But God shows up, in all aspects of my life, all I have to do is seek.

You can learn a lot from teenagers. Especially the ones who have had the world turn them upside down shake the change out of their pockets, dropped on their heads, and still remain unjaded. They have such resilience. I also learn a lot from the lessons that our Youth Pastor teaches on Sunday night. Can you see God or do you seek Him? I am so thankful that I can always see God, even when I’m not seeking Him, but lately, I’ve been chasing after Him, and I’m so thankful that sometimes He lets me catch Him.

The greatest lesson lately. Faith.

Faith in Him. Faith during the good, the bad, and the downright ugly. Faith even during being distracted, and being able to say “FOCUS” and seeing the results of such faith.

The Easter Season is upon us. Friday is Good Friday which wasn’t very good. And Sunday we will celebrate Him for overcoming the grave! Christ is Risen! How great is that!? He love and serve a Risen King and He loves and came to serve us as the ultimate sacrifice. All we need is faith.

I don’t know if anyone followed this post but my heart…

Matthew 14:22 - 34
22Immediately Jesus made the disciples get into the boat and go on ahead of him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowd. 23After he had dismissed them, he went up on a mountainside by himself to pray. When evening came, he was there alone, 24but the boat was already a considerable distance[
a] from land, buffeted by the waves because the wind was against it.
25During the fourth watch of the night Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. 26When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. "It's a ghost," they said, and cried out in fear.
27But Jesus immediately said to them: "Take courage! It is I. Don't be afraid."
28"Lord, if it's you," Peter replied, "tell me to come to you on the water."
29"Come," he said.
Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, "Lord, save me!"
31Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. "You of little faith," he said, "why did you doubt?"
32And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. 33Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, "Truly you are the Son of God."
34When they had crossed over, they landed at Gennesaret. 35And when the men of that place recognized Jesus, they sent word to all the surrounding country. People brought all their sick to him 36and begged him to let the sick just touch the edge of his cloak, and all who touched him were healed

Picture from here

Wednesday, April 08, 2009

Wise Advice

To forgive someone means that you will never hold what they did against them... ever again.

You've got to let go of what's in your hand before God can fill it up with something better.

If you are purpose driven you will be right 100% of the time, emotionally driven... only 50%

God has really been working on me in the last week or so and satan has moved up from poking me with his finger to poking me with his pitch fork. Jerk.

Today was Phyllis's District Wide concert. It's the longest one but it's such a blessing. Man, there is some great talent out there! They sang "An Instrument of Peace" and I thought... let me be that. Rest in Him... peace will be there.

Isaiah 14:7 All the lands are at rest and at peace; they break into singing.

Where there is hatred, let me bring love

Where there is doubt, let me bring faith

Where there is falsehood, let me bring truth
Where there is pain, I'll comfort you

Where there is silence, let me sing praise
Where there's despair, let me bring hope

Where there is blindness, let me bring sight
Where there is darkness, let me bring light

And with these words I speak
Grant that I may not so seek
To be heard but to hear
To be consoled but to console,
Not to be seen, but to see
To be loved but to love

For when we give love we will receive

When we forgive love, we'll find reprieve
It is in dying we'll be released
Make me an instrument of peace

Margie's Random Thoughts

It's going to be a busy rest of the week, Phyllis is going to be singing tonight at the District Wide Concert. I'll probably cry the whole time she sings

They just don't make things like they used to... lol... My hair dryer took a dump after about 20 years! Sheesh! I had to go to Walmart to get a new one!!

Lots to do to get ready for the Good Friday Service.

Lots to do to get ready for Easter Sunday! We're planning on making 750 programs! That's a lot! I hope the building (the church) is are PACKED solid for all three services! It is my hope that those who attend feel the call of God on their lives and seek after Him with all they are.

Check out the video below! Shew! He is WORTHY to be praised!

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

New way!

Psalm 51:10 Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me

After having my heart broken again by the same person, only this time, it was broken because that person broke my daughter’s heart, which is actually worse. And not only hurt but angry. So I did what I knew I should do, go home, cook, and speak with the Lord. And oh what a converstation we had. You see, a lot of days I know that God loves me, but I don’t know if I always believe that Jesus got up on a cross for me. I know I shouldn’t doubt. It’s not that I doubt Jesus did, but I doubt my worth. It’s all those years of coming in 23rd in people’s lives. Beign treated like a disappointment, and inconvenience.

I just kept going on and on to God, and I am sure He was quite frankly, tired of hearing about it, and sweetly, but strongly He said “you belong to ME”. That you do have worth, to me. And in my heart, it was like God was reading His Word to me (that is why it is important to not only read His word, but KNOW IT)

I also knew that I had to, for my own sake, talk about the situation to the person who hurt us. And so I did, and I was calm, because I knew that nothing would come if I wasn’t. It didn’t end well. It actually ended with me getting yelled at and hung up on (followed by an email yesterday). Ugh. And then I was ANGRY! And HURT. My first inclination – call back and fight. But really, that was not going to make anything better. Plus, Sara’s voice and her face at the coney island came to me… if you are purposely driven the choices you make will be 100% of the time, if you are emotionally driven only 50%. Oui. So, my purpose is to be God honoring, though many times I fail, I know that is my purpose, bring Glory to His name. So, I prayed, and wept. Wondering what on earth I could have done differently. Praising Him, thinking if this would have happened to me 3 weeks ago, a cliff would have been in my future, but God intervened, thankfully. And I spoke to a dear friend who said “this is not about you, and it’s not about Phyllis either” and a lot of wise other things.

I cannot change the way people act or the things that happen. However, I can change the way I deal and react to them.

“I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.”- Galatians 2:20


As the chaos seemed to be all around me, when it was so silent, it was deafening.... my heart was singing this song.

In the quiet
In the stillness
I know that You are God
In the secret of Your presence
I know there I am restored
When You call i won't refuse
Each new day again I'll choose

There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise

In the chaos in confusion
I know You're sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do Your will
When You call I won't delay
This my song through all my days

All my delight is in You Lord
All of my hope
All of my strength
All my delight is in You Lord
Forever more

Monday, April 06, 2009


I really have been trying to see myself the way God sees me. I honestly think that a lot of women have bought into this crap of lies that the world sets before us. Me being the first of many. I've let people who are supposed to matter most to me say (in words and actions):

You're not good enough
You're not what I wanted you to be
You're not beautiful
You really don't matter, I just found someone better
I can treat you like crap

All those things, they are not true.

They are not.

The people who say them are supposed to love me, but that doesn't make them anymore true.

I've got victory.

Victory to be an overcomer.

Victory of death.

Victory of forgiveness.

Victory over fear.

Victory of grace.

Victory of love.

2 Sam 22:36 You give me your shield of victory; you stoop down to make me great.

Sunday, April 05, 2009


I am always surprised (well, not really) how a scripture that is your favorite, in one way... for the same way can become like a new love that you've never seen before.

I wear Romans 12:2 around my neck. I love Romans in general, however this scripture reminds me while I live in 'this world' not to be conformed by it, be set apart, "I made you a new creation, stand out, be counted"

Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.

I struggle with a lot of things, one of which is mattering. Yes, that's right. Mattering. I don't know if it's a real word, but its a real word to me. At my church, we say a lot "you matter because you matter to God". And I believe that 'they' do matter. Me, I struggle with 'me' being part of the 'they'.

I talk, and no one seems to listen. It's like somehow, I have no brain in my head. I've been doing it for 2 years, do they not think I know of which I speak.

And then an issue that rears it's ugly head comes up. And 'someone' said "I hope it's ok?" and all that I had in me wanted to say:
But I haven't figured out how to say that not mad and stomping off. Because I'm learning... it's not ok for me to hurt me, and it's really not ok for me to hurt them, nothing is solved. So I said "it's ok" and thought, wow, this is another thing I've just got to drop off at 'the foot' and leave it there... AND DON'T PICK IT BACK UP!

And while I was talking to God about all this... He sweetly reminded me that I do matter. I matter to Him. And said "Dear child of Mine, do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind." Wow. That's right, why are I am I so worried about what others think. I am smart, I do have gifts. I do matter.

So as I slowly relax, do what I do (cook and take care of my family) I am reminded that I do matter. That sometimes I will be hurt, but I do matter.

Saturday, April 04, 2009

Things to do today

1. Cook meat in crockpot for enchiladas tomorrow
2. Go to Eastern Market to enjoy Detroit
3. Have lunch
4. Have dinner
5. Go to Thrift Store
6. Buy new pots for front steps (SO COOL!!)
7. Let Phyllis drive
8. Homemade waffles for friends (yes, those are waffles I made!)
9. Run Errands
10. Thank God for another beautiful day!

Psalm 35:28 My tongue will speak of your righteousness and of your praises all day long

Friday, April 03, 2009

Carrot Cake!!

2 1/2 c All-purpose flour
2 tsp Baking soda
1/4 tsp Salt
2 tsp Cinnamon
1 c Light brown sugar -- packed
1 c White sugar
1 1/2 c Butter -- softened
3 lg Eggs
2 tsp Pure vanilla extract
3 c Grated carrots
1/2 c Crushed pineapple -- drained
1 c (6-oz.) raisins
1 c (4-oz.) chopped pecans

16 oz Cream cheese -- softened
1/2 c Salted butter -- softened
1 tbsp Fresh lemon juice (about 1 -- large lemon)
2 tsp Pure vanilla extract
3 c Confectioners' sugar

Preheat oven to 350-degrees. Grease and flour two 9-inch cake
pans or 1 9 X 13.
In a large bowl stir together flour, baking soda, salt, cinnamon and sugars. Add butter, one egg and vanilla; blend with electric mixer on low speed. Increase speed to medium and beat for 2
Scrape down sides of bowl. And remaining eggs, one at a time, beating 30 seconds after each addition. Add carrots, pineapple, raisins and walnuts.
Blend on low until thoroughly combined.
Pour batter into prepared pans and smooth the surface with a rubber spatula. Bake in center of oven for 60-70 minutes. Toothpick inserted into center should come out clean. Cool in pans for 10 minutes.
Then invert cakes on rack and cool to room temperature.

TO PREPARE ICING: On a medium bowl with electic mixer on medium speed, beat cream cheese and butter until smooth add lemon juice and vanilla; beat until combined. Add sugar gradually, mixing on low until smooth.

TO ICE THE CARROT CAKE: Place one layer on a cake platter, and with a metal spatula spread icing over the top to form a thin filling.
Place second layer over the first, rounded side up. Coat the top and sides of the cake evenly with remaining icing. Refrigerate 1 hour to set icing.


My favorite things

I just got a $25 gift certificate for $5 (and it's to Roma's in Eastern Market!!)! That's one of my favorite things - getting a good deal. go to Here no matter where you live in the US! There was one place that I was like "hmmmm that would be cool to try so I got a $25 gift certificate for $5 there too! I happen to be one of those people who love Detroit, I love going downtown I love trying new places and if I can do it for cheap... that's what I'm talking about!!

So I was thinking about my favorite things...

My dad's fried chicken
My mashed potatoes
All things Roma Cafe
Sage Green
A great purse
Carrot Cake (mine)
Going to Eastern Market
The zoo
Giving away something free!

Thursday, April 02, 2009

Experiencing God - Free Book!

I’m reading this book, I’m almost done with it. I loved the book and would highly recommend it. Actually, how about this… if you answer the question at the end of this (on my blog)…. I will send it to you for free! Yes, that’s right Free! I’ve been so blessed by this book, I’d like to bless you! The drawing will be April 15th! P.S. I won’t be sending you mine, I got it as a gift and I LOVE IT TOO MUCH!

Anyway, it’s about discernment in so many different areas of our life. Right now, I’m reading about discernment in the church. And often, I have struggled with if I belong at my church, not because I don’t like it, I think it’s a great church, and I love the people there, but sometimes… well, I just wasn’t sure because when I first became a Christian, I was “wow”ed by sermons, sometimes to tears. And now… I usually learn something, but it’s usually on my own that I get the most out of a scripture (I am still moved but not always "wow'ed") . There was a part in the book where a couple was trying to decide how/where they were experiencing God (in church). And part of me thought about how I used to think the music “it wasn’t good” because it wasn’t my taste (not just at my church but when I am visiting other churches), and how I’ve learned to just rest and think about the words or just praise God in my own way. Or how I’d leave a little irriatated because God “didn’t speak to me” in a service. As I was thinking about that (from where I was to where I am) I thought about the different ways I experience God.

I have learned to experience God in more than just sitting in a church service. And usually I experience Him more than when I am just a consumer. I’ve learned to say (even in the roughest times) “speak of God for your child is listening” (I did learn that in a sermon by Pastor J)-- 1 Sam 3:10 The LORD came and stood there, calling as at the other times, "Samuel! Samuel!" Then Samuel said, "Speak, for your servant is listening.".

I’ve learned to experience God

In the smiles of teens or the tears.
In worship, or a sermon.
On CD (or mp3) or a blog
In a book
In the car
In bread (bought at the store)
As a consumer or a producer.
In communion
In a pew
In a golden chair
On the floor
In sunshine and in rain.
In church or in the house (or the car)
Moving forward or being still.
…In a box or with a fox. :)

How do you experience God? And how has it changed (if it has)?

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

John 3:3 In reply Jesus declared, "I tell you the truth, no one can see the kingdom of God unless he is born again.

It's that time of year! Easter! I love Easter.

Phyllis and I have been talking about people we love and wondering if we are going to see them in Heaven. Not in a judgemental way, in a concerned way. Sometimes I just don't know what to say to them. "you're going to HELL in a handbasket" really doesn't seem all that appropiate. And often I wish that "JESUS WOULD JUST COME NOW", but then I think of some of the people I love who do not love Jesus and I think "I'll really miss them".

Often I think that people don't always see the best part of me. The Jesus part of me. Too often my flesh is "hanging out" and Jesus is in there "somewhere". And so it means that everyday I must die to myself, and live for Him. You'd think it would be that easy, wouldn't you? God is so much bigger and better than me, why does my flesh sometimes feel like this giant mountain I have to overcome? Why is it so hard to drop me and pick up Him?

Maybe it's not them who needs to change the way they see me, maybe it's me who needs to change the way I'm seen.

Acts 22:15 You will be his witness to all men of what you have seen and heard.