Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Monday, August 31, 2009

I AM!!!!!!

Its amazing how many different ways God uses us. Today, because of Becky, I heard God. I have seen these guys live, and in videos and they are amazing.

You are God's masterpiece, and so am I.

Eph 2:10 For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.

“Come, let us bow down in worship, let us kneel before the LORD our Maker; for he is our God and we are the people of his pasture, the flock under his care. Today, if you hear his voice,”- Psalm 95:6-7

Savior I come
Quiet my soul remember
Redemptions hill
Where Your blood was spilled
For my ransom
Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lost

Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me, lead me to the cross

You were as I
Tempted and trialed
You are
Te word became flesh
Bore my sin and death
Now you're risen

To your heart
To your heart
Lead me to your heart
Lead me to your heart

It's been a long weekend. Not in the way that you think. I didn't get any extra days off, and I don't think I could have taken one more day off what was stirring in my soul.

In the last week, I have found out that two people died. I didn't know them, but I knew their friends. And I've been grieving since I heard about the first one. How is it that you don't know someone, and you can grieve their loss?

One person I "know of" because of the family that I have in Pontiac.

The other person is a student at my daughter's school. A beautiful young girl, gone in the instant because of a tragic car accident.

There are a lot of things stirring in me, and I'm thankful for a God is who is big enough to handle the fact that even though I praise Him even when I don't like what's happening, He is indeed good all the time. He is surrounding those families, the beautiful children, He's soothing their spirits. I'm reminded that it is not always when we have something that we celebrate.

My prayer: that I am at the feet of Jesus, laying down my life and all my selfishness, in order to make a difference in the lives of so many who need Him so desperatly. That I step outside of me, and my needs, and love more. That I seek Him, listen more, love deeper, and am changed forever by His love and grace.

2 Cor 5:20-21 20We are therefore Christ's ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ's behalf: Be reconciled to God. 21God made him who had no sin to be sin[a] for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

shining the light

I cleaned my basement, the good side. It's been in 'mess mode' for MONTHS! Garage Sale, Mission Trip, no tables... I honestly can't remember the last time I washed the floor in a really good cleaning! Thanks to the Gibson's (the best plumbing company ever!) my basement doesn't flood anymore (THANK THE LORD!!)

We've got so much 'crafty' stuff down there, painting eisels, sewing machines, fabric, scrapbooking, not to mention a couch, two TVs down there... yikes... So today was the day, I started last night with the smallest section, got that organized and then onto the hard part! It's all organized and I can start scrapbooking again. I know it's nerdy, but I like it, I love that I can be creative in my own time, reliving memories that maybe no one will get but me.

I've got a lot going on in my insides. Somedays it feels like I've eaten bad chicken washed down by spoiled milk.

And sometimes I just want to give up. Sometimes I feel so dependable that people forget I'm here.

I was reading today in 2 Cor 4 where it says we're hard pressed but not destroyed, that our power is from God. So much lately I feel like everyone has an opinion on how things should be in my life, and sometimes I'm just like "LET ME BE!!" When I'm listening to small whispers and they've got their mics on full blast... I feel like saying "WILL YOU JUST SHUT UP!!" Yes, I'll admit that most days I have no idea what I'm doing. On those days, I take my direction from God, whether it be to make a phone call, send a text, makea cake, write a note, or just stay still. I know that in all things, my first thing to do is love, above all else. Let God's love shine through me like a beacon, that when someone is at the end of their rope, when the light that they see looks like a train, that it's God love shining through me.

God has shown me so many things in the last couple days, things I've prayed for years are being answered. Silly things I've done, that I never give up, and smile big, they matter. Because to Him, I matter.

2 Cor 4:16-18 16Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. 17For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. 18So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

Friday, August 28, 2009

When are you going to let yourself have some fun?

I was asked that today.

My reply... I have a great life, I'm blessed beyond belief.

Except this person knows that sometimes I'm lonely.

And that's very true.

Today I'm staying home, I cleaned up the basement a little, tomorrow is more organization when my tables come home.

I have a ton of projects that I would like to see completed in the next 8-9 months.

I'm excited! I know it doesn't seem like it would be something fun, but I am excited to get some stuff done around here.

closet in the basement
clear out completely some walls
new kitchen flooring
a roof on the garage
Furnace & air

I love my home.

I think I'll go clean!

Perception is Reality

I had a choice, well, three choices. And I chose none of them.

One of them could have been percieved as spiteful, and if I'm being completely honest, my motives were not completely pure if I chose door number three. So, I chose none of the doors and went with love. I was who I am, whether people will judge me or not.
All I kept thinking about was the verse I read yesterday about what I wanted to smell like.
Ever walk by someone who you think their perfume is HORRIBLE, but they think it's great? I thought about that yesterday. I thought about how in one way that 3rd choice could be percieved as fine, but how someone could think it was stinky. Perception is reality. And if I said "door number three please" there was a good chance that it was going to cause me trouble in the end, and my heart a lot of pain, and so... I chose to be who I am, or rather who I would always like to be, I'll choose love.
And then in this mornings reading, I got confirmation that I did the right thing, that I made the right choice. I've learned one thing in my life, and I am continually learning it... if at any point you feel the need to justify your actions (to yourself), you probably are making the wrong choice.
There is a song that goes "they will know we are Christians by our love". By our love, not by our justification, by our love. If our motives are truly pure, they will shine for all to see, we will be that city on a hill that shines and shines, so boldly that it can't help but be seen by all.
And the craziest thing I just thought of, as I left yesterday someone said to me "that perfume smells great"
2 Cor 3:1-3 Are we beginning to commend ourselves again? Or do we need, like some people, letters of recommendation to you or from you? 2You yourselves are our letter, written on our hearts, known and read by everybody. 3You show that you are a letter from Christ, the result of our ministry, written not with ink but with the Spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone but on tablets of human hearts.
God just continues to blow me away!!

Thursday, August 27, 2009

God's Word NEVER fails...

2 Corinthians 2
1So I made up my mind that I would not make another painful visit to you. 2For if I grieve you, who is left to make me glad but you whom I have grieved? 3I wrote as I did so that when I came I should not be distressed by those who ought to make me rejoice. I had confidence in all of you, that you would all share my joy.
4For I wrote you out of great distress and anguish of heart and with many tears, not to grieve you but to let you know the depth of my love for you.
Forgiveness for the Sinner

5If anyone has caused grief, he has not so much grieved me as he has grieved all of you, to some extent—not to put it too severely. 6The punishment inflicted on him by the majority is sufficient for him. 7Now instead, you ought to forgive and comfort him, so that he will not be overwhelmed by excessive sorrow. 8I urge you, therefore, to reaffirm your love for him. 9The reason I wrote you was to see if you would stand the test and be obedient in everything. 10If you forgive anyone, I also forgive him. And what I have forgiven—if there was anything to forgive—I have forgiven in the sight of Christ for your sake, 11in order that Satan might not outwit us. For we are not unaware of his schemes.
Ministers of the New Covenant

12Now when I went to Troas to preach the gospel of Christ and found that the Lord had opened a door for me, 13I still had no peace of mind, because I did not find my brother Titus there. So I said good-by to them and went on to Macedonia.
14But thanks be to God, who always leads us in triumphal procession in Christ and through us spreads everywhere the fragrance of the knowledge of him. 15For we are to God the aroma of Christ among those who are being saved and those who are perishing. 16To the one we are the smell of death; to the other, the fragrance of life. And who is equal to such a task? 17Unlike so many, we do not peddle the word of God for profit. On the contrary, in Christ we speak before God with sincerity, like men sent from God.

This was my reading today. Only God could have known that this reading in my bible in a year plan would be just what I needed to hear/read. Oh, how thankful I am that God moved in my heart on Tuesday to get back into His Word. This reading blew me way. Be obedient, love. And then in verse 16 To the one we are the smell of death; to the other, the fragrance of life. Holy Cow, don't you always want to be the fragrance of life, not the STENCH of death? Don't you want people to see your life and see Jesus in you, that when they see you, they say "she's (or he's) got Jesus, her life is Life, her life is Love, there is no greater smell than love. Love is the best. I've been reminded in whispers last night, and this morning that Love always Wins!

I choose love. Everytime.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

What to believe...

Ever hear the quote by Benjamin Franklin:
“Believe none of what you hear and half of what you see.”

Yes, even the news papers don't tell the whole truth. Someone said something about where I work (please don't make any comments about the place, I really like it and am blessed to be there!) and it wasn't the truth. It wasn't their fault, they didn't know. But let's just say, newspapers are not always truthful, and leave it at that.

The things you hear are usually said by someone else... go figure... their opinions are based on their perceptions, their truth.

Truth isn't something that can be justified. It's not stretched if it's THE TRUTH.

I struggle at times with who I should believe. Who's opinions I should listen to... etc. This I know, there is One Truth (John 14:6), this Truth is timeless (they actually count time based on this truth), and there is one Truth I believe.

When all seems to fall around me, I fall into The Truth...

This I know...

Our family is Blessed by the Grace of God!

John 1:1-2 1In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. 2He was with God in the beginning.

None but Jesus

Sometimes I'm so thankful for song. When we just don't have the words, God gives them to someone else for us to sing.

I am laughing about things that I was "concerned" about falling into place. I'm laughing because I am sure God is saying "I told you to trust Me, I'm never wrong".


I'm a little late, my dad had surgery yesterday and then I had a meeting, and I had a rough night, so... sorry!!

11 ounces lasagna noodles (I used wheat)
2 pound lean ground beef
14.5 ounces tomato sauce
1 can rotel tomatoes with jalapenos
1/2 cup water
1 (1 ounce) package taco seasoning mix
3 cups shredded Cheddar cheese
1/2 cup crushed tortilla chips

Bring a large pot of lightly salted water to a boil. Add pasta and cook for 8 to 10 minutes or until al dente; drain.
Meanwhile, in a large skillet, brown beef over medium heat until no longer pink; drain. Add tomato sauce, water and taco seasoning. Lower heat and simmer for 5 minutes.
In a 9x13 inch glass baking dish, layer noodles then meat mixture and cheese; repeat 2 more times. There will be 3 layers. Sprinkle tortilla chips over the top
Bake 45 minutes

Check out more recipes at TMTT

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

There's a lot on my heart

I don't know what's going on, maybe its PMS, maybe it's satan, maybe, I'm self centered, surely, the Lord can handle all of this.

Here's a true story, the names have not been changed to protect the guilty.

It's been about 3 weeks since I opened my bible. I mean longer than 2 minutes to find someone a verse or look something up on Yes, that's right, I'm being real. I am ashamed, but only when I keep it a secret can satan use it against me (however, my prayer life is still intact) I've read books, even done a book on being joyful, but never stuck my nose into my bible. Until today, I read for about 3 hours on and off. I heard the voice of God. Unfortunatly, the battle is already raging inside of me.

I feel...

I feel like people don't see me, unless they want something from me. And I don't mind being used by God, but I don't want to be used up.

It's frustrating how just last weekend I felt that God was using me, that I was loved, and then not even a week later, I feel like this. And my instinct is to fight, but I don't always seem to fight the right thing.

I seek truth, wisdom, love, & joy. I seek Jesus.

I want to be single minded in times like these, well, really in all times.

Psalm 143:1 O LORD, hear my prayer, listen to my cry for mercy; in your faithfulness and righteousness come to my relief.

Hearing God while you're reading...

I am just amazed how loudly you can hear God, while reading :)

Psalm 141:3 3 Set a guard over my mouth, O LORD; keep watch over the door of my lips.

I want to blab, I want to go on and on, my heart HURTS! But unfortunatly the more I talk about it, isn't going to make it go away. Until I talk to the correct person.

My heart feels so anxious. I don't know who to trust.

so I am trusting God.

Psalm 31:14 But I trust in you, O LORD; I say, "You are my God."

Monday, August 24, 2009


I know that I'm lead to lead a core group on Wednesday nights...

So which one?

one for parents (we already have a parent life group on Monday nights) - a bible study

one for students - I don't know if really this is my strength, maybe it will help me grow... I don't know...

one of prayer - that we just pray for the needs of Alive and fuel with other parents and people in the church.

Please pray that I will hear God's voice and go in His direction.

Psalm 143:1 O LORD, hear my prayer, listen to my cry for mercy; in your faithfulness and righteousness come to my relief.

Ten Cow Woman

LuJuana shares a beautiful illustration of how love changeslives, as told by a friend’s South African nanny …
“In a village in the heart of Africa lived a very wealthy king with six lovely daughters and one very plain — some would say ugly — daughter. Now, this wise king knew the value of daughters. When it was time for them to be married — according to their tradition — a labolla, or wedding gift, was to be presented to the king before any marriage proposal.
“Now the pretty daughters were chosen and were married as soon as they came of age. The plain daughter matured, and when it was her turn to be married, there was no suitor in sight. The villagers were not kind as they snickered about who might be the unfortunate candidate to have to marry the most homely of the king’s daughters. But the king was a kind father. He decided to seek a husband for his daughter because he was concerned about her unhappiness and despair. He approached the prince of a neighboring village and tried to strike a compromise by saying that the lowest of labolla would be most acceptable.
“Unfortunately, the prince turned the king down. Distressed, the king offered a lower compromise, and still he was refused. Then the king offered no labolla, convinced that at least this would be accepted. And yet the prince refused. The astonished king then asked if he was expected to pay to have this prince marry his daughter.
“The prince looked at the unhappy king, paused, and then asked the strangest of questions. ‘How much was the highest labolla paid for one of your daughters?’ Sputtering, the king replied, ‘Five cows!’
“The prince again paused, quietly looked into the eyes of the king, and said, ‘I will pay ten cows for the honor of marrying your daughter.’
“The shocked king was hardly able to comprehend his good fortune but quickly accepted and closed the deal. Hurryingback to his village, he happily spread the news of this most prosperous of events. The villagers were astounded.
“The wedding celebration was a long and happy event. The prince and his bride left to go to their new home.
“Several months later, all the daughters gathered for a celebration. As the plain daughter approached the gathering,everyone gasped. She had transformed into a glowing and beautiful woman! Throughout the celebration, she recounted how the prince had secretly been in love with her for years and was shocked when her father came to him first. He had been willing to pay the highest of labolla to show how much he valued and treasured her. He continued expressing his love for her and she began to realize how precious she was to him. Gradually, she allowed his love to shine through her.
“The beauty that everyone could now see was a reflection of his love.”

Sunday, August 23, 2009

All for God

The last few weeks I've been making food for the alive leaders. I make food for Phyllis and I, so making a "little" more isn't that big of an issue. I love to do it.

Today I decided to make scalloped potatoes and was using my cuisinart (food processor) without the guard... and sliced off the tip of my finger! ouch!

This was about 3:40 or so... off to emergency, I normally don't go to emergency, but I was afraid I would go to urgent care and they would send me to emergency, and I needed to get to Alive!! So off I went... out of there by 5! Thank You Jesus!!

Then while texting someone decided to pick a fight with me, followed by a phone call... and it was THEIR issue... not mine, I was just trying to help! UGH! Followed by another call by someone else... who just their tone sent me into a crying spell. My finger hurt and my heart hurt... but Sundays are not about me, they are about Jesus and our students. So I stopped crying...

and then came prayer over me... immediatly followed by Jesus tears. I got myself together by focusing on the kids not me... then came worship...

Did you know that its impossible to clap if your finger tip has been sliced off? It hurts like heck! so I improvised and clapped against my arm! Where is Jeremy's tamborine when you need it?! I probably looked like a dork... but I was a dork for Jesus!

Then we sang "Same Power" and all the mess really came out... as if God just said to me "you have the same power as I gave my Son because I love you, you're not stupid or dumb, you're beautiful, and loving, just as my word says - do not be conformed". I've heard that song lots of times but never has God opened my eyes that way to it.

Same power that conquered the grave
lives in me,
lives in me.
Your love that rescued the earth
lives in me,
lives in me!

All of this today, Mr. M's wonder emporium (your life is an occasion rise to it), the finger, the picking at me, me being a "10 cow woman" (i gotta find that story), the prayer focus tonight, the way we get broken down only to get/come closer to Him, to love Him more, the way God moved in the hearts of our kids tonight, in our leaders. His Power is all around, He's changing lives. His love is surrounding us, ALL FOR HIS GLORY!

Oh, I'm loved!

Matthew 11:29-30
29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

lives in me

I'm reminded...

I'm reminded today that His way is the best way. Not sure what brought this reminder. Just a sweet quiet whisper in my ear.

It seems that everyone has an opinion... including me. From what we should do, to when it should happen... blah blah...

And as the music for Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium plays, I think of my favorite line in the movie when Mr. M says to Mahoney "your life is an occasion rise to it".

I just think I was happy with a "situation" until everyone else had an opinion. I thought it was fine, my heart was content where I was. And then... everyone else started to change my perception. Sigh...

I was listening to God, and things are a little crazy, but loving life just the same.

One of my favorite verses in my head is Romans 12:2 2Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will

I actually wear it around my neck everyday (the highlighted part). It reminds me that I shouldn't be swayed by the world, and those in it, that I should be renewed by God's Word, His love, and His voice.

Today's verse of the day: When I said, "My foot is slipping," your love, O LORD, supported me. When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul.” (Psalm 94:18-19)

Funny. As I felt myself slipping from the way I felt contentment and was actually fighting in my own mind, I was reminded today, that I'm never too far from God, that His love surrounds me.

And in this post, I'm completely all over the place... but His love is right here.

Saturday, August 22, 2009


1. I can fight my own battles. Me & God. Just because I'm nice doesn't mean I can't take care of myself.

2. I love Jesus

3. I'm still friends with my friend from Kindergarten

4. I hate Old Country Buffet, don't ever ask me to eat there. Its absolutely DISGUSTING!! Maybe next week I'll do my list of that.

5. I love to go to the movies

6. I love to cook

7. I hate taking out the trash

8. I love to drive, I'd love a new car, but the one I have is paid for, so it's perfect if you ask me

9. I love student ministry. I love students, teenagers are a lot easier to love than you think

10. I give money to people on the streets who ask. I don't wonder what they will buy with it. Its because of God that I do it (matthew 25:40) and what they do with it, is between them and God.

11. Romans is my favorite book in the bible

Romans 12:2 2Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Friday, August 21, 2009


“To be a Christian means to forgive the inexcusable, because God has forgiven the inexcusable in you.” C.S. Lewis

I read this here. I loved it! Especially since I've had to deal lately with something that is hard to forgive...

And in this post... one that stood out was #28.

There are some books you read that just leave your heart changed. The book Crazy Love is like that, certainly I would recommend it. It's fabulous. I mean Francis Chan is pretty sweet, but the words in this book are... inspiring, right from the heart of God. I could write one of those little excerpts on the back of the book.

If you are going to love like crazy, with a love like Jesus... we have to forgive the inexcusable. Countless times.

Matthew 18:21-22
21Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, "Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?"
22Jesus answered, "I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.

Your challenge for today... LOSE COUNT!!

As a side note, I want to go see Chaka Khan and Sheila E tonight… how silly, but I really want to go…

Which makes me think of this song… originally done by ‘The System’

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Light on a Hill

Don't you just want to be that bright light on a hill that can't be hidden?

Matthew 5:14 "You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden"

Today I was thinking about yesterday and how I was completely disappointed by someone. Someone who pretended to have integrity, but really turned out to be... not that. Honestly, I'd rather know what I am getting into instead of someone pretending to be something they are not. And I expect a man of integrity is just that.

I could have dealt with it in a bunch of different ways, a couple of them would have caused the fruit of the spirit to fall off my tree, and I made that promise in church on Sunday to only speak life. UGH! So I kept quiet, thanked God for removing the scales, and was just me. I am sure many noticed that I wasn't "ok" but I had a lot to work through.

I could do a lot of things, but I chalk it up to a life lesson.

You know what I want? I want to be a light on a hill. One that can't be hidden, and one that can't be put out. I want to live by Phillipians 4:8-9

8Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you

I want to put those "life lessons" taught to be by God, bring Glory to Him because He is good, all the time, even when all around us doesn't seem like it.

I want to remember that "it is not always when we have something that we celebrate"
I want to forgive.
I want to be the light that I have been called to be. Never to be put out.


Wednesday, August 19, 2009

LIfe lessons

I'm all about Life Lessons. God teaches you the same lesson until you learn it. Yesterday (or the day before) I got this in an email, only God knew how much I'd need it today. Thank you Paul, you're a blessing, I loveyou!!!

Regina Brett's 45 life lessons and 5 to grow on
Posted by Regina Brett September 20, 2007 14:03PM
Originally published in The Plain Dealer on Sunday,May 28, 2006
To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me.
It is the most-requested column I've ever written. My odometer rolls over to 50 this week, so here's an update:
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Life is too short for long pity parties. Get busy living, or get busy dying.
17. You can get through anything if you stay put in today.
18. A writer writes. If you want to be a writer, write.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else. 20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Overprepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: "In five years, will this matter?"
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
36. Growing old beats the alternative - dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood. Make it memorable.
38. Read the Psalms. They cover every human emotion.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
42. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
43. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
44. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
45. The best is yet to come.
46. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
47. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
48. If you don't ask, you don't get.
49. Yield.
50. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Easy Sweet Treats

Easy Sweet Treats
Square basket weave pretzels (may also use round type)
Hershey Hugs (may also use chocolate Kisses)
M & M's
Preheat oven to 250 degrees. Line a cookie sheet with parchment paper or foil. Lay pretzels out onto lined cookie sheet. Unwrap Hugs and place in center of pretzel ring or in using square pretzel, on top of it. Place in oven for about 5 minutes.When Hugs are still maintaining their shape, but are soft press one M & M into Hug. Cool in refrigerator , then eat!
got the recipe from here.

Monday, August 17, 2009

Tomorrow's Treats!

Tomorrow we are having these yummy treats tomorrow. I got the recipe from here.

Sweet Treats
Square basket weave pretzels (may also use round type)
Hershey Hugs (may also use chocolate Kisses)
M & M's

Preheat oven to 250 degrees. Line a cookie sheet with parchment paper or foil. Lay pretzels out onto lined cookie sheet. Unwrap Hugs and place in center of pretzel ring or in using square pretzel, on top of it. Place in oven for about 5 minutes.When Hugs are still maintaining their shape, but are soft press one M & M into Hug. Cool in refrigerator , then eat!
James 1:17 Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.

Speak Life!!

Our Pastor challenged us to a week of only speaking life! That's not that easy, I dare you, try it.

Then it got me to thinking, I've only opened my bible 2 times since we got back from the Mission Trip, and I never opened it that whole week. While everyone had their quiet time with God or did their devotionals, I took advantage of that time to get a much needed shower or clean up or get ready for the next event.

If you want to speak life out, you need to refresh yourself with His word.

In John 1 it says 1In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. 2He was with God in the beginning.
3Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. 4In him was life, and that life was the light of men. 5The light shines in the darkness, but the darkness has not understood it.

WOW! Do you get it? His Word is life! We are the hope of the world! Because we are in Him, and He is in us! His Word is LIFE!!!! It is a life of joy and peace and LOVE!!

And when we love, we are most like Him. Unconditional love!

The verse in The Desert Song says:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be empited again
The seed I've recieved I will sow

This is my prayer in the harvest... aren't we always in harvest, aren't our blessings amazingly flowing, all we have to do is count them. I know I'm filled to be emptied again. When we're filled up with God's love, we can pour it out into so many! It's like a never ending water supply. When you're thirsty, you drink, and you have enough water to always share!

John 4:13-14 Jesus answered, "Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life."

Sunday, August 16, 2009

He who began...

It is crazy to look back and see where my heart has been & to see where it is now.

Icris said that just because you're saved doesn't mean that you're perfect. And that now, sin is just not ok with us. That we want to remove it out of our lives.

I think that we start sometimes with the easy things, you can pick your own easy things... I know what mine were. And then as God works in us, the issues He tackles in us are a little more difficult.

I'm not where I'd like to be in regards to the size of my butt... arms... stomach... legs... and even my feet!

Have I been thin before? Yes! I worked out like a mad woman before! Ate like a bird, and lived like HELL! OK, I said it. And if I'm honest, part of me is afraid to go back there. I will not give you all the gory details of all that... but it was awful. I know the state my heart was in.

I'm addicted.

I'm in need of breaking free! I'm addicted to eating! When I have a bad day or crappy things happen, it's food I turn to, though I'd love to be able to tell you it's God, but sometimes it's ice cream.

It's not about the ice cream. It's about the hold that it has on my life. I can have ice cream. I had it yesterday (but I walked after it). Eating is a symptom, not the disease.

On my walk, I had a great talk with God. I heard His voice.

I can lose the weight, I've lost it before. But I want my outside to match my inside. I want to be rid of the "fat" of my life. I want to have a heart that turns to Him, not food. I want to be healthy for my family. I want to grow old with someone, to live a long life with my friends.

This past week was a good week! I made good choices, I hooked up with God. I loved.

I'm so thankful that God never stops working in me... ever.

Phil 1:6 being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus

Saturday, August 15, 2009


I love Saturdays that are filled with errands. I know, I'm wierd! When one of those errands includes Block's Greenhouse, it's a good day. It was quite a harvest today!

bushel of tomatoes

Then I came home and pulled weeds. Made dinner for tomorrow night (Taco Lasagna), today's dinner of grilled chicken, pasta primavera, & salad. Homemade spaghetti sauce is cooling on the stove.

I still am in awe of yesterday. I closed out my day at Outback in Clarkston and Walmart :) It was a great day!

It was beautiful day today!

I am blessed!
I am loved!

James 1:12 Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him

Mac & cheese

This is my favorite Mac & Cheese Recipe. I've been eating it since... I don't know... long time!

8 oz macaroni
1/4 c butter
1/4 flour
1 t salt
1/8 t pepper
1/4 t dry mustard
2 cups milk
8 oz cheddar cheese

Cook Macaroni and drain

Preheat oven to 350

In med sauce pan, melt butter, remove from heat and stir in flour, salt, pepper, & dry mustard, until smooth

Gradually stir in milk, bring to a boil, stirring constantly, reduce heat and simmer one minute. Remove from heat and stir in cheese and macaroni

Pour into 1 1/2 quart casserole dish. Bake 15-20 minutes or until bubbly.

Friday, August 14, 2009

Blown AWAY!

WOW! I can't believe it! I know I already posted today but I just am so overwhelmed!

They called me in the "man cave" (which is a conference room that was made into offices with a conference table), I thought I was going to get an assignment and I walked in to find "Thank You Margie" balloons and bagels and we are having Ice Cream later! Its Margie Day!!

I certainly don't know what I did to deserve such a thing. I mean I do make cakes for everyone but I love doing it, it doesn't seem like a burden at ALL! I really really love to do it!

And I was just BLOWN away by the fact that people think I matter. That I would be such a big deal that all this would be done FOR ME!!

WOW! I feel so loved!!

Just love

The best index to a person's character is
(a) how he treats people who can't do him any good, and
(b) how he treats people who can't fight back.
- Abigail van Buren, US advice columnist (1918 - )

I love this quote. I read it last night and it blew me away (Reader's Digest, August Issue). Maybe its because I live in a world that sees only what people can do for you. it's not what you know but who you know kind of thing. There are many people that the world has cast aside for various reasons, and it's just not right. Just because people have no use for them (they just haven't looked hard enough) doesn't mean they should be cast aside.

The only thing I know is that we're called to love.


When it's easy.

When it's hard.

Just love.

...and it's certainly not always easy.

Matt 22:34-40 34Hearing that Jesus had silenced the Sadducees, the Pharisees got together. 35One of them, an expert in the law, tested him with this question:
36"Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?" 37Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.'
38This is the first and greatest commandment. 39And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' 40All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments."

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Get behind me!

I wish I wasn't so moved by my circumstances. Good and Bad.

I'll tell you, I've been in quite a mood for the last three days. My phone, my door, I'm overwhelmed at work, a financial issue I'm trying to get through (which thankfully is almost over). And to be honest, if my stupid cell phone just worked, I'd feel better. The whole thing irritates me. And thankfully the ice machine at work is broken so I can't make endless glasses of iced tea, because then I'd be irritated and hopped up on caffeine, bad combination.

I'd like to tell you that I am more like Paul who gets the big picture, who says that compared to Christ, everything else is nothing (Phil 3:8). But I'm not.

I'm trying so hard to change my eating habits, which really isn't all that easy, I've struggled with my weight nearly all my life. I've heard it said "I don't know why you bother, you'll always be fat" to "you can do it". I've decided small changes, a plate with more lettuce and tomatoes instead of more mashed potatoes. Salad with everything (please don't give me the warning about dressings and stuff on my salad, I KNOW!!), walking instead of watching TV or driving.

Today, my plan was to have oatmeal with crunchy peanut butter and a banana for breakfast. Certainly not my first choice as far as breakfast is concerned (I know eat to live not live to eat) but it's good for me, fills me up, and it's a good choice. After the cell phone being dead and reading an email, I'll tell you... all I wanted was McDonald's #2 (Sausage McMuffin w/egg, hash browns and a LARGE unsweetened tea with lemon, thank you very much). You know what I did? Ate the oatmeal. Yes! A small victory, but a victory none the less.

I'm tired, I don't know if it's satan or it just happens to be a bunch of stuff all happening at the same time, whatever it is, I'm ready for it to stop! and stop now I tell you!

I'm trying to stay positive, yes, I know i have way more blessings than burdens... I know! I just want my cell phone and my car fixed!

***Update... my car part is ordered from ebay... $14.00 now I've just got to get it put in! THANK YOU JESUS!
And... I got a cell phone to use (free of charge!) so now I am back in the land of the living!
And... I'm down to 38 emails in my mailbox at work, which is like a miracle! it's never THAT low!


I woke up this morning and my cell phone was completely dead, oh did i mention, I have no way to charge it... hope there is no emergencies.

Awhile back my door handle on the outside of my car broke... the inside one is now hanging by a piece of plastic. Ugh.

There's a million little things that are bugging me...

Ugh... frustrating...

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Yesterday & Today

It was a long day yesterday, first day back at work. I'm not going to lie, usually when I'm on vacation I check my work email EVERYDAY because it's less to come back to and a LOT less overwhelming. Helps me because then it's not so crazy. Unfortunatly, I never got a chance to look at my work email (or home email for that matter) all week, so there was a lot waiting for me. Ugh. Now, don't get me wrong, I like my job, a lot, but it was very overwhelming. Not to mention that my dinner plans were canceled (which, really isn't big of a deal) so my day did not go as I had hoped.

I had to check on getting a new phone or get mine repaired because my charge port (where you plug in your phone) is broken. You know how much I like to talk on the phone? LOTS! I thought I was up for a new phone... nope... it would have cost me about $200 to get a new phone. Instead I opted for the $35 option of getting it repaired. Honestly, I like my phone, it's not fancy, but i like it. It works well. How many times do we get talked into the next best thing because someone convinces us that's what we need. Nope, I just need my phone, repaired. So Wednesday I go, and it will be all taken care of (they had to order the part).

My house is a mess because I had to seperate the mission trip stuff from my stuff (that's how we go so cheap - I bring EVERYTHING including the kitchen sink!) so I finished my sorting, now I just have to return what belongs to Alive/Fuel back to the church. Thankfully Phyllis ran the dishwasher so I had less dishes to do (you know, I don't wash the dishes, they stay in the sink until there is a space in the dishwasher for them!)

Because my plans were changed, I did some work around the house, ate dinner (leftovers from Sunday and a salad) and laid down on the couch to watch a little TV (believe it or not I do miss General Hospital but I'm not going to go back) and fell asleep at 8PM, woke up at 9, not knowing what day it was, where all the kids were, and finally snapped out of a sudden panic (must have been some crazy dream I was having!), and then went to be, slept right through my alarm and woke up at 6:30 (which I was late).

I don't know what my funk is today, but if you think about it, say a prayer for me.

Today, more work around the house, some cleaning to do (floors and laundry), making grilled chicken and pasta primavera I think for dinner.

Psalm 20:4 May he give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed

Monday, August 10, 2009

Your life will never be the same!

It was a crazy week! Wow! I could tell you millions of God stories from my eyes or from the eyes of others.

One thing I know, when you run into God, and you feel His presence and His love, your life will never be the same again.

On Thursday, Christian Artist (Rapper) Icris came to do an outreach concert at the Devos Center. He said something so profound, and yet so simple. He said something like "when you're a Christian, you don't necessarily stop sinning, but you don't like it".

I am not perfect, and you know, I can drop an "F" bomb like no one else, but when I do, after, my skin squirms. I say I'm sorry. There are a lot of things I do that people don't understand. I've had so many people say to me "that's silly, what's the big deal? Everyone does it". I don't want to live like everyone else, I want to live like I love God. I want to see the beauty in me, like God sees it, not the ugliness that has been pointed out to me in so many ways because of things I've done.

I can tell you the moment when I first said "God, You are what I want". When I really decided that I wanted to be changed by Him. I can tell you that everyday I'm growing, I'm learning what it's like to love Him more by living His way. It isn't about can or can't, it's about love. It's about living without (or less) consequences. It's all about the love.

You're life will never be the same once You've encountered Christ and His love.


1 Cor 15:50-52 50I declare to you, brothers, that flesh and blood cannot inherit the kingdom of God, nor does the perishable inherit the imperishable. 51Listen, I tell you a mystery: We will not all sleep, but we will all be changed— 52in a flash, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet. For the trumpet will sound, the dead will be raised imperishable, and we will be changed.

Sunday, August 09, 2009

"Detroit should just be bull-dozed and start over"

That was what I heard this morning after telling someone that I went on a mission trip to Detroit. Ugh.

Sometimes I just don't know what to say, so I said "a journey starts with a single step".

And then... in confirmation... in our service, Metro at the Movies, Schindler's list, there was a part that said in Hebrew "Whoever saves one life, saves the world entire". Thank You Jesus.

You see, I don't think I'll ever be called to overseas missions. And trust me, that's perfectly ok with me. On the Mission Trip, I didn't pick up a single paint brush, except to purchase it. I didn't serve at a soup kitchen or a mission. I did other things, that really aren't all that important to list out. But this I know, I know that I changed the life/lives of others, in a positive way. Hot dogs, brownies, sandwiches, mac & cheese, Kool-Aid, whatever it was, I hope that I made a difference to one.

I mentor a beautiful woman. I wish I could mentor 10 of them, but I don't have time. And i don't feel called for that to be my ministry, but I feel strongly about the one that I have, and I love her. And think... it's only one. But she has 3 beautiful children, they have friends, and she has friends, and they have friends, and if we love one, our love goes on and on.

In the service today, Jeremy said "I don't have the answers on how we can make a difference, what we can do". After thinking about it for one second, the answer is very simple, almost too simple. And it's easy and difficult at the same time.

Just love.

Leave the rest to God. He can handle it.

Today... how will you love?

Saturday, August 08, 2009

Everyone made it in one piece!

I didn't lose ANYONE! It was a great trip! There's so much to tell. And i think I will think of it as I go...

One thing I learned for sure is that even if I sleep on the floor, I should have my own room, girls who talk in the middle of the night and wake me up, make me furious... especially when they are tired the next day... but I love them SOOO much!!

I'll tell you, God is in the details, He cares about everything!! When I had stopped at the Aldi's in Highland Park prior to the Mission Trip (because I had to check it out again, its the first Aldi's I fell in love with!) milk was $1.99 which is more expensive than around here... it was only $1 this week, we went through about 10 gallons, and that's a $10 savings!!

My original plan was to make pancakes every day but after the first day of breakfast we had cereal, I bought more cereal this week, than I've ever bought in my lifetime! You know how I picked it? If I didn't like it, I bought it... lol... I hate sugar cereal. One of the kids learned that generic brands taste the same as name brands... lol... they never had them before (someone give me their parents number, I can same them on their grocery bill).

I don't think I stopped for a week. I logged onto the computer once, and after that... never had a moment. One day, I only ate lunch because I got so busy.

I had to deal with a bunch of emotional stuff because Katie wasn't there, it wasn't that easy, but thankfully God was there.

We went to Hart Plaza for worship one night, gave water to the thirsty, prayed with them, gave one guy bus fare and a contact to go to Grace Centers of Hope.

The outreach concert was amazing!!! so many people! Instead of fliers, we put 3 songs on a CD, labeled it, and that was our flier! SUCH A GOOD IDEA!! We had free hot dogs, kool-aid (literally gave away 10 gallons!!), watermelon, brownies, and I walked around with suckers, we gave away peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and fruit after it was done, AND WE PRAYED, it was great! The kids from the dance team did their dances, the sticky drama was performed, they did they cupid shuffle and people who came did it with them.

My two favorites from the outreach were 3 boys who came with chips on their shoulders the size of the rock of gibralter and the next day showed up for VBS and both times heard about Jesus!! They were small boys trying to be so grown, and at VBS, when no one was looking in their neighborhood, they got to be kids, finding m&ms in whipped cream and playing water games, and putting their guard down long enough to hear about Jesus. And the other was a girl, in a house right by the alley, when I walked over to invite all the kids (there were about 15 of them) one said he couldn't come because he was a muslim, I told him to come anyway, we love him. He said he hated church people, my reply "ME TOO!!!!" they laughed, one girl came, I prayed for her, she was probably 15. But when I looked over, most of the kids were standing by the edge of the street listening.

Because we saved so much money on paint, we were able to redo the office of the food director at Grace Centers of Hope with a cool color, get him a new desk and little storage thing and bless him because he is such a blessing to others. He unselfishly works and blesses those around him, he is an encourager to those who need to be encouraged.

The thing that I guess I would want people to know... is that this isn't the kind of trip that brings 1000s to Christ in two weeks, it won't be on TV, we painted and served food, weeded an urban garden so those in the neighborhood could eat, and people in the center where we stayed worshipped with us. We made places were people detox a little prettier, a little home-ier, hopefully the color a little more soothing than stark white walls and an entertainment room in a men's facility changed from pink to cream. We did small things for the forgotten, for those who don't have anything. In small ways, we loved those that people have decided are unloveable, and I just don't think that its up to us to decide who is unloveable, we should just love.

Matthew 25:31-46
31"When the Son of Man comes in his glory, and all the angels with him, he will sit on his throne in heavenly glory. 32All the nations will be gathered before him, and he will separate the people one from another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. 33He will put the sheep on his right and the goats on his left.
34"Then the King will say to those on his right, 'Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. 35For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, 36I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.'
37"Then the righteous will answer him, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? 38When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? 39When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?'
40"The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.'
41"Then he will say to those on his left, 'Depart from me, you who are cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels. 42For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, 43I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.' 44"They also will answer, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?'
45"He will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.'
46"Then they will go away to eternal punishment, but the righteous to eternal life."

Monday, August 03, 2009

No Katie makes me nervous...

We are leaving today, I am actually leaving my house in 45 minutes. This is a wierd prayer request... but can you just pray that I'll be sane.

I tend to be a little high strung (I know, hard to believe) and usually Katie goes with us, she has a very sweet spirit, but she has to work, and she's a great buffer for me, sometimes I just look at her, see Jesus, and I'm ok. Maybe I should go get one of those cardboard cut outs of her... lol. And besides, i like spending time with her.

So pray I'll be sane.

Also... pray for her and Adam, they are waiting to hear about their babies from Rwanda. I don't know why, but I think 2 boys, but I have no clue, I just can't wait to love them!!

Mark 4:39-41 He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, "Quiet! Be still!" Then the wind died down and it was completely calm.
40He said to his disciples, "Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?"
41They were terrified and asked each other, "Who is this? Even the wind and the waves obey him!"

Sunday, August 02, 2009

We are off! Almost...

We've got the front of Metro looking like a garage sale... shhh... don't tell Jeremy! LOL!

Coolers are packed with PB&J, bread, fruit snacks (yes, Jon Whaley, I did remember that you LOVE them that's a big reason why I bought them!), oreos, water, apples, oranges, and chips (and a BIG FAT THANK YOU to whoever gave them to Adam for the trip! What a blessing!)

Things I was blessed with today...

1. Laughing inside when Favot dropped the watermelon and watching a bunch of kids eat it!
2. Having so many hands help to move the stuff from the back to the front.
3. For the organization skills of Don Ayers
4. For all the donated stuff that will be a blessing to GCH
5. For empty boxes that we could transport stuff in
6. For extra donations that we can use for McDonald's
7. For enough drivers
8. For those willing to let us borrow your coolers
9. For those who ran and got supplies
10. For beautiful spirits who believe in James 2:14-20 (read it, I dare you!!)
11. For praying
12. For babies on the way!
13. For those willing to cut fabric
14. For quick reimbursement!
15. For a God who saved me!
16. For God's Love that I felt in every hug today
17. For prayers
18. For the blessing of being organized
19. For Tom going to get the scaffolding
20. For Pretty Sarah's sweetness
21. For Him...

I'm even sure there are some I forgot!

My favorite scripture :)

Romans 8:38-39 38For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

That's it...

Yesterday I should have gone to the Metro Baptism, I probably should have planned better but I knew I had so much to do (and if you know me, you know that large events make me SOOO uncomfortable, I come pretty close to having panic attacks at them its kind of ironic that I belong to a big church)!! I've been crossing things off a little at a time, I even asked for help!! and when someone asked if they could help, I said "YES!" and gave them a list! LOL!

God is stretching me! And I'm growing! AND I'm excited!

After most of my running around I went and sat with 'the car' at Utica Car Show with Kevin. The funny thing is... I think it's ridiculous to sit around and look at cars, no offense to anyone who loves that kind of stuff, but to me, it was just nice to sit and relax talk, eat some average tasting Polish food, I even got a haircut (which I decided to get while walking past the salon on the way to get my Polish food). It was nice to sit and do nothing and get my thoughts and lists together (see I never really don't do I thought about things that have worked on the mission trips and things we needed to work on, made my lists and got organized when I got home, I even went to bed early.

I'm excited about tonight's Alive Prayer gathering, that I'll probably be organizing through but I'll be praying while I organize. Please pray for Alive tonight (and always), salvation, the mission trip, that we're safe, but DANGEROUS, that satan gets bound up like someone who ate too much cheese, that relationships are formed and grown, that we have enough food, that all the paint gets on the walls and projects are completed beautifully, that our "Party in the Park" brings children who don't know Jesus into a relationship with Him.

God is so good, and I want the world to know!! One beautiful child (person) at a time.

Today's verse of the day: “Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says.”- James 1:22

Saturday, August 01, 2009

slow to speak and slow to anger... again!!

Yesterday I got an email that said "sorry they decided to send the kids to a different church for VBS"

My first thought was "UGH! We've bought the stuff!!" so I called GCH... their kids have been blessed to go to YMCA day camp...

Then... I called Miguel who had this BRILLIANT idea to do VBS 'Colombian Style', takin' it to the streets! We've got this great park picked out, a park that used to be over run by drugs, only to have the neighborhood take it over and make it a place where kids can be kids, where they can grow and dream!! SWEET!

I'm not going to lie, I was furious and frustrated but I just looked up and said "Your will". This trip is nothing about me and all about Him. Not sure what this is going to look like this week, but His view is so much better than mine.

And for the record... I did keep my big mouth shut! And none of the fruit fell of my tree!!

James 1:19 19My dear brothers, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry,

Oh... and another lesson learned... I had a ton of shopping to do... and I ASKED FOR HELP! maybe it's not a big deal for someone else to ask for help, but it's not easy for me. And it's not about thinking I'm not good enough, it's about knowing 1) I can't do it all, and 2) other people like to help too! They have great gifts and should be able to use them! God is working in me!!!