Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

O praise Him!! OOOO PRAISE HIM!!!

Tonight was 'Fuel on Location'. i know, i gush Fuel... i can't help it, just be glad i don't gush gas! HA!

I was standing there in the middle of it all, in the middle of the kids, the leaders, the band, can I tell you? OVERCOME! that is the word of the day.

I was overcome with joy.
I was overcome with happiness.
I was overcome with love.
I was overcome with mercy.
I was overcome with grace.
I was just overcome.

He is amazing. Go share It.

I am going to bed. I'll share It tomorrow

1 Chron 16:9 Sing to him, sing praise to him; tell of all his wonderful acts.

I'm the mom!

Have you ever heard God’s words coming out of your own mouth??

You know how I always feel like I struggle to fit in? I answered God’s call, trusting in Him, but thinking just maybe, He’d lost it just a little. I find myself apologizing for “being the mom” at Fuel. My perspective is often different from the other leaders but somehow, sometimes, we still struggle with the same things. I could tell you something awesome about each one of the leaders, and someday I will, but today is not that day.

These leaders inspire me to run after God with all I got, just like they do. And I wonder if they struggle with fitting in, like I do, but today I was on the phone with Tonya on the way home, and I realized (or she helped me realize) that “I’m the mom” no need to apologize… Mom’s aren’t always right… and that’s ok. I am the one who likes to make cupcakes for birthdays, who doesn’t mind rubbing the kid’s backs when they ate onions (raw), ran hard during Freeze Tag, and then went to worship and got a belly ache. I like that when I keep score during a game, I don’t cheat. I am the one who says “be careful” and “how ‘bout we do that over here?”. It’s ok, I’m the mom.

I felt like I really belonged as a Youth Leader at my old church, but I felt like I plugged holes where there was a need, but at Fuel, I actually feel like I got my own spot.

It’s odd to me that sometimes I resist what He wants, what He asks me to do. It’s ALWAYS for the best and works out way better than I could have ever imagined.

Jer 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Silly, huh? That’s what God told me today. He’s amazing.

Tuesday, February 27, 2007


Dare I say it? It's Tuesday morning, and I have a VERY busy week ahead of me... Tonight is my lifegroup, tomorrow is Fuel on location and I am already tired.

Do you know when I am most likely to blow it on my eating? When I am stressed and tired. So that means that this week, I really need to focus on a lot of things. It's this time when I just can't say "oh, I'll do better tomorrow" because that's how I got here today.

Being tired means things that need to get done, don't. And somehow in the next couple of days I need to figure out how I am going to catch up on my sleep. Lord, I need strength.

Psalm 63:1 O God, you are my God, earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for you, my body longs for you, in a dry and weary land where there is no water.

Monday, February 26, 2007


What do you think of when you think obese? do you think of that 500 lb person you see on the news that they have to get a crane to get out of the house? Do you think of me? You should. Now thankfully I don't need a crane to get out of my house but I do need to stop "thinking about my weight" and actually do something about it.

I joined Weight Watchers on Saturday. there is no way I can walk 60 miles with this much weight on me, well maybe I could but it would be more difficult. This isn't the first time I am doing something about my weight but I hope its the last (meaning that I make better choices and don't gain the weight back!)

I wonder why if I've been so scared of dying at an early age, why I let myself get overweight. Risks of obesity are great. Dying early, heart disease, stroke, diabetes, liver disease, vascular diseases, breathing problems, and you guessed it, CANCER.

So I've begun my journey, it's going to be difficult but I can do it. I hate being fat!
The first map shows the obesity levels in 1985 and the 2nd... in 2005.

Saturday, February 24, 2007

I think love runs in our family - more photos

Some of the pictures are not centered or perfect but you get the picture! Ha! I added who is who

Erica (my little cousin) & Phyllis (~3)

Dad, Fr. Jack (my uncle) & gram at the opening of Fr. Jack's new church

Phyllis and my dad

Phyllis & Great Gram

Phyllis at about 2, she was "helping Grampa" fix computers (My dad has a side business)

Phyllis one summer the little bathing beauty

Me & Phyllis about 4 years ago

My sister Delores (she died at 13 months old)

My dad, mom, & sister

Me & my dad at gram's house (you see, I refused to wear my dress correctly, it was easier if you put the crosses in the front instead of the back!)

Me & my dad, I think I was 2

My Gram and gramps at Yankee Air Force base, he was a pilot in WW2

My gram at Spring training in 1984

Janet (my aunt), gram, sissy (my aunt), my mom, & me.

This is me & my mom

My dad & gram at my uncle's wedding

Me & my dad at my graduation party

I'm going to walk

Sometimes God makes decisions about our lives that would not be our first choice. That doesn’t mean that we shouldn’t honor Him, He’s a lot wiser than us. He’s got it all under control.

He made a decision for me a long time ago, about 34 years ago or so… My mother had cancer. She got it when she was pregnant with me. I can only imagine the thoughts and prayers that went up by my mother.

I hate the decision that He brought her home. And to be honest, I could be mad about it, but I’m not. There are times that I am angry because I don’t have a mom to ask or share in person something, I don’t get to see her smile when I am so excited about something that I burst.

Here’s the thing though. I trust that God knew what He was doing. And so after a lot of thought, prayers, I am going to walk in the 3 day walk for Breast Cancer.

You see, I believe there will be a cure, someday. Soon. Where they are now, compared to where they were 34 years ago. WOW! It’s hard to even imagine. Getting breast cancer really isn’t a death sentence anymore. Mothers don’t die. Daughters (and sons too) don’t go without their mothers anymore.

Cancer is an evil force. I hate it. I will walk 60 miles knowing that there are people who have died, and many who have survived. There are many who lost their wives, sisters, moms, and many that won’t have to, because I walked right behind so many others.

There will be many more blogs about my journey, and I’m scared. Scared that I somehow the money won’t come, scared because it’s a lot of training (maybe this will help me on my weight loss journey too since my weight problem isn’t just physical it’s emotional and I can’t go this many miles without wheels under my butt if I am this fat). But one thing I know, is that God never lets us down. We might not always like the decisions that are made on our behalf, but we trust that God’s plan is much grander than ours. I may be scared, but the first scripture I ever learned comes to mind.

Phil 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

I wish the breast cancer color was sage or brown, I look better in those colors.

Friday, February 23, 2007

I'm home!!

I will tell you, what a great trip, I feel completely refreshed, I read 1 & 3/4 books and I am ready to move there.

I have lived in Michigan my whole life. I never thought I would ever want to move, ever. I love that my family and friends are here but I will tell you, something happened down there. It was amazing. I can't say that I spent a lot of time talking to God, maybe that doesn't sound right, I think He did a lot of showing me how magnificant He is (I already know, but He showed me a lot of cool stuff).

I rested (though that sounds funny because I didn't sleep well). I had some really cute Mexicans (the real thing) try to use some of their Latin charm on me (back, back I say) but they were pretty hot!

I remembered how much I love to travel (which sounds funny because I love being home). I like the difference of it, I like the change of pace.

I said before that I think God is working in me for a big change, I am not sure what it is, but I know that I can trust in Him to take care of it ALL!!

I decided that I am going to walk in the Breast Cancer 3 day walk in September. I feel like it's a way to honor God in His decision to bring my mother home to Him, even if I didn't like that decision.

I'm glad to be home, but I miss that majestic Texas/Mexican skyline.

Loveyou all!

P.S. The picture isn't even close to what I saw!!

Thursday, February 22, 2007

HOLA!! I have a minute to give you all an update because I am sure you are missing me and my brilliance, ok, well, I may have taken that a little too far.

Its beautiful here! Uh... 60!! woo hoo!! even this morning it was 40 but it was so warm and the mountains were majestic. Ok... I just can't get over how much I like it down here, but don't ask me if I like it when it's 120! thats just too hot! but right now... gorgeous and sunny!!

The food... oh the food... oh so yummy, I ate real mexican food... yummo!!

I come home tomorrow, I wish i was staying the weekend!!

Be back tomorrow... mucho amor from Mexico!!

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Isaiah 48:17This is what the LORD says— your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel: "I am the LORD your God, who teaches you what is best for you, who directs you in the way you should go.

I am on my way to Mexico for work. I am so thankful to have some time where I can just chill out on the plane, pray about a lot of stuff, read a book (I bought 2 new ones). I have the 3 day walk on my mind, I am going to do a lot of praying about that.

I'll be back Friday night. Have a great couple of days.

I will leave you with this Youtube I found... This is why I love working with the youth

All Day - Hillsong
I don't care what they say about me
It's all right, all right
I don't care they think about me
It's all right, they'll get it one day
I love you, I'll follow you
You are my, my life
I will read my Bible and pray
I will follow you all day
I don't care what it costs anymore
Cos' you gave it all and I'm following you
I don't care what it takes anymore
No matter what happens I'm going your way
All Day
All Day now
All Day
I'll follow You
Anyone around can see
just how good you've been to me
For all my friends that don't know you
I pray that you would save them too

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Take it all

I am amazed sometimes the way God speaks to me. I started blogging as kind of a journal. I was terrible at journaling, and somehow I manage to post just about everyday, I didn't really think I would stick to it, but I think the blogger is crack for me. I say a lot of dumb things on here, express a lot of thoughts that readers probably think are kooky, I've made some new sisters, and I've discovered the lessons God had put out there for me.

Yesterday, a couple of times, I almost deleted my post. I didn't want to admit that I don't always give my all to God. It sounds terrible. Funny thing (or not so funny) is that God already knew, whether you know or not, He knows my heart.

I think it was no coincidence that God's lesson through Adam was about giving it all to God, your whole life, and somehow you will never be disappointed and it will bring you more joy and happiness than you can ever imagine. It will be better.

I struggled with Fuel, and my puzzle piece and where I fit in, I openly admitted it. Like the kind of person I am, I can do fine right out in front, but really, that's not where I like to be, I like to be the one in the back, keeping score for the games (not playing), I like to be the snack bringer, the word putter-upper, I like to be the one in the background, the constant silence. Always there, just in case you need me.

Yesterday we sang a bunch of songs, and I will tell you, I heard angels when the kids were singing "How great is our God". I heard for just a moment the joyous noise that God hears, and I just couldn't help by smile. To hear the kids sing "shout unto God the voice of triumph, shout out the voice of praise... the enemy has been defeated, death couldn't hold You down, gonna lift our voice in victory, gonna sing your praises now" holds me in awe, and makes me misty just to think about it. But here's the one... the motherload of all songs sang yesterday "take it all". Its amazing that God gave someone the words that I needed to sing, that He wanted me to sing. I think it's a daily surrender and maybe somedays my white flag is a little bigger than others.

I'm glad God never gives up on me!

Here are the song lyrics and you can click on and have some full-on worship (sorry about the sound quality)

Take it All - Hillsong United
Searching the world
The lost will be found
In freedom we live
As one we cry out
You carried the cross
You died and rose again
My GodI’ll only ever give my all
You sent Your SonFrom heaven to earth
You delivered us allIt’s eternally heard
I searched for truth
And all I found was You
My GodI’ll only ever give my all
Jesus we’re living Your Name
We’ll never be ashamed of You
Whoa o oh
Our praise and all we are today
Take take take it all
Take take take it all
You sent Your SonFrom heaven to earth
You delivered us all
It’s eternally heardI searched for truth
And all I found was You
My GodI’ll only ever give my all
Jesus we’re living Your Name
We’ll never be ashamed of You
Whoa o oh
Our praise and all we are today
Take take take it all
Take take take it all
Jesus we’re living Your Name
We’ll never be ashamed of You
Whoa o oh
Our praise and all we are today
Take take take it all
Take take take it all
Running to the One
Who heals the blind
Following the shining light
In Your hands
The power to save the world
In our life
Jesus we’re living Your Name
We’ll never be ashamed of You
Whoa o oh
Our praise and all we are today
Take take take it all
Take take take it all

Monday, February 19, 2007

A life fully devoted

I may get kicked out of Metro for this one, and you may stop reading my blog for this one. But I am going to be completely honest in this one.

I'm jealous of people who live a life fully devoted to Christ. Because I don't always do it. Sometimes I am like a faucet, it's big water, then someone forgot to pay the water bill because there isn't anything there. It doesn't mean that I don't love God and I certainly appreciate what Jesus did, but sometimes I have to go to church to get my battery recharged because I am empty, I don't have anything.

I was driving to church yesterday, well, really, I'm the church (which is a scary thought!), I was driving to the building. Yesterday wasn't the first day we ever had service, that day came long ago, it was the day that Jeremy opened his eyes wide to God's vision. I was a little misty in awe of Jeremy and in really in awe of God.I was a little misty because sometimes I serve out of guilt, I think there is something I can do, there's always more to give, but I don't know about you, but the world really knocks me for a loop Monday-Friday, I spend a whole lotta time fending off them, I spend a lot of time grabbing onto God's hand and not letting the grip go.

I'm not a first generation Christian, but I am the first one who talks about God's love on a regular basis, I am the first one who prays out loud and doesn't used a canned prayer. I am not the only one who loves Jesus, but I am the first one to talk about it. Its not about excuses, but it's difficult. Could you imagine something like eating everyday but no one ever showing you how to cook, and one day 'poof' you're in charge of cooking. Now, loving Jesus is a lot easier than that because we are wired for it, but fighting the world and their hate is not easy. Letting go of other things I am wired for, like sin, is also hard.

I want to lead a life of full on worship, one of full-on love, but to be honest, sometimes that is really hard. I want to live a life like Christ, one filled with love. I think that if I remember that it is all about love it's just that much easier.

1Cor 7:35 I am saying this for your own good, not to restrict you, but that you may live in a right way in undivided devotion to the Lord.

Sunday, February 18, 2007


I am going on a scrapbooking retreat in March, I understand that it sounds completely dorky. To others. It sounds like heaven to me. My girlfriend called and asked me if I wanted to go, the answer, "of course". I have been going through the recent pictures on the computer that I haven't printed off yet, and Walgreens was nice enough to have a sale, $.15 per pic. But in the time of going through pictures, I decided, well, I think God put it on my heart, to make a scrapbook of my Gram for my dad. So I headed over to my dad's house and got 4 photo albums, 1978-through the 80's. It was pretty amazing to look through the pictures. A lot of memories that I had forgotten (that sounds wierd). I have a lot of memories of my gram saying mean things to me, but I forgot all the fun times we had as a kid. I had forgotten how her eyes sparkled when I was around, how her eyes always sparkled when family was around, I forgot how much we all sparkled when she was around.

Saturday, February 17, 2007

Things to do today

1. Clean the egg off the front window (I can't imagine who did it - on Valentine's Day no less!)

2. Take food to the metro

3. Pick up a hottie from the airport

4. Grocery shopping

5. Clean house

6. Wait for my DVR to be installed

7. Pay Per View - Step Up and record it with #6

8. Do my devotional

9. Go out to dinner

10. Praise God!

1 Chron 16:36 Praise be to the LORD, the God of Israel, from everlasting to everlasting. Then all the people said "Amen" and "Praise the LORD."

Friday, February 16, 2007

It's Friday, I'm tired

Matthew 11:28-30
28"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Happy Birthday Dad!

Today is my dad's birthday.

What to tell you about him that you don't already know.

You do know that I love my dad very much, so much so that I one time I almost got in a fist fight because someone was talking smack about him.

My dad worked on "The Friendship" the boat that left Portofino. One evening my dad invited me to go with him, the one & only time he wanted to fix someone up with me. I will admit the guy was HOT. BUT there was this other guy there, Brian. This guy did not like my dad, and quite frankly my dad wasn't too fond of him either. The guy was mad that my dad got to be the first mate, and he was the line handler (DUH! Brian couldn't pass the drug test). There was a couple snide comments before we left the dock that Brian made about my dad. I chose to ignore them.

We leave the dock, Jerk-Brian has to stay behind. We have a great time. Captain Johnny was not only hot, he had a great personality.

So... we come back to the dock, my dad does his cleanup thing, I stay with Johnny and Sammy, the other captain. Brian comes on the boat, apparently not having a clue who I am, and really starts bashing my dad. The Captains defend my dad, I say "maybe you should just stop saying stuff like that" or some kind of warning. And he keeps on, only it gets worse. Ok, that's it, the gloves are now off. I start totally ripping on the guy, he gets in my face and tells me to 'F Off'. So I start to tear after him, the two Captains old me back, (and yes, this is TOTALLY Jerry Springer, and BEFORE I was a total Christ follower), they tell Brian to leave before I kill him.

Its over. I still want to kill the guy, well, maybe just mame him a little. I have to call my dad and tell him, because in my mind, most likely he's going to lose the job, and I felt terrible. My dad, was like "He told you to F off?" "Yup" I answer, his reply "I'm going to go have a "talk" with the boy". I tell him I'm sorry, my dad seemed pretty proud (in a Jerry Springer sort of way) that I defended him. I told my dad if we wanted we could have the guy's car blown up before I got home with one phone call. My dad's reply "he doesn't have a car". And we laughed.

Moral of the story, don't mess with my dad. I love him more than I could describe.

Happy Birthday Bob!!

P.S. He kept the job, I still went out with Johnny (he wasn't that great).

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Happy Valentinie's Day

Yesterday I thought it was ok to do something because if I screwed it up, no one would die.

Every year when my gram lived in her house I would go over and clean all the storms and put in the new screens and my uncle would clean out all the gutters. She was pretty meticulous about the job I did. Except the last year. She would say to me “in 20 years, who is going to know the difference?” When she’s with it, she still says it.

In theory its great advice except for one thing. Love.

You know, in many instances in my life, I could not pick up that card or make cookies and leave them on the ironing board. I could not leave notes in lunch bags or stop and pick up that Vitamin water that Phyllis loves. But when time goes by and people are feeling low, I want them to remember that even in the little things, I love them.

How many times in my life, good or bad, I can say “remember when?”

I think that Jesus lead a life of love. He didn’t just get up on that cross because He felt like it. And as I walk behind Him, I want to spread His love. I want to be remembered because I love BIG.
It’s Valentine’s Day, do you think it’s about stupid flowers, candy, or cards? It’s not. Do I think that a calendar should dictate that you tell the person you love, that you love them? Nope. Do I think that people sometimes need a day to focus on what’s important? Yup.

In 20 years will it make a difference if you show or tell someone that you love them? Yes. Go tell them today, and tomorrow, and the next day… and so on.

You are loved. By me, and by God.

Matthew 22:39 'Love your neighbor as yourself.’

Tuesday, February 13, 2007


Yesterday we had Fuel, and I will tell you that even though I pretend to not care if everything is perfect, I really want it to be. I volunteered to do the words for worship, I am willing but not always able. I stink at it, ok, I do, but I try. And I don't think anyone will die if I screw it up, so it's ok.

The computer is usually turned on, and I think the kids think I don't know how to use Powerpoint, so they always set it up for me. I let them, it's ok, little do they know I have spoken in front of Exec Vice Presidents at Ford, and Presidents at my own corporation, but it's ok. Yesterday, I thought that someone else had set up the computer (I know how to do that Powerpoint part but that's it). We started worship - AH- Adam - we got no words, the computer isn't set up, and I am FREAKING!!! Fuel is not supposed to be stressful. So then Adam (the great) fixes that part, I get the words all up. It all works out. I am going to learn how to do that from now on, that way that never happens again though. But I need to remember that those kids don't need the words to worship, they open their hearts no matter what for Him.

I am supposed to have my new lifegroup over for dinner, where's my checkbook?? Ah, where is my check book?? I need to stop at Kroger on my way home, and I have no checkbook, that meant that I needed to go home, get the check book, go to Kroger, get pop and Spanish rice, get home, cook it up, etc. more stress. Yeah, but I got an email, given the weather, they don't want to drive. Whew, another crisis down. But you see, it's not about the spanish rice and the pop or my checkbook, we would be fine without any of those thing, I make it about me, not about Him.

Now, I know you are thinking, none of this is really that big of a deal, right? You are correct. I have a 100 things going on at any given moment, even Sara said that it stresses her out just thinking about it. It's no wonder I have had a stomach ache for the last 2 months (good thing I am going to the doctor tomorrow), and all that does one thing to me. It's distracts me from where my focus should be. God
I have spiritual ADD. I am sure I'm not the only one. I really have to focus on God. I try never to miss church, not because I think that I am holier because I go, I go because it helps keep me focused. It is a big start to a week that will be full of distractions. I love God, and as much as I love Him, I get distracted and sometimes He gives me a little nudge back, sometimes He grabs me by the arm and yanks me back. I wish I was one of those people who got up at 5:30AM did my devotional and started my day on the right foot. Instead, I am the 5 minute alone time with God, read my devotional at the end of the day. I spend a lot of time in prayer with God, don't get me wrong, but I can be pulled off course with a phone call.

I really got work on my focus.

Phil 3:12-14 12 I don’t mean to say that I have already achieved these things or that I have already reached perfection. But I press on to possess that perfection for which Christ Jesus first possessed me. 13 No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it,[a] but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, 14 I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us

Sunday, February 11, 2007

"God never lets you down"

I was walking with my friend, in the middle of kind of stressing... she said "I don't know why you worry, I have never seen God never let you down". I thought to myself "is that what she sees?"

I have been waiting 4 years for a promotion/raise. I was PROMISED it would happen in October of last year. I've been doing the job for years. And I'm still waiting. But here's the thing, I was pretty free with my money. In the last 5-6 months I have really buckled down, and some months on paper it looked like more was going out than coming in. But you know what, not once was I not cared for.

I have interviewed for jobs, not gotten them, sometimes I have applied and never even got a call, an email, an interview, nothing. But it always works out.

I have gotten myself into bad financial places, and He always helps me out, some way or another.

My daughter has been sick, and now healthy.

He has carried me through sickness of my dad.

He watches over me in a million different ways, in ways and times I just don't know. And my friend said that, it made me so proud, proud that she knows that I am thankful for God, and all His miracles. I am proud that when she sees me, she sees how great God is, and she knows my heart belongs to Him. It reminds me of that song I posted last week, "let it be said of us, that our hearts belong to Jesus".

I don't always get my way, but God never lets me down.

He is amazing. And I am greatful.

Deut 31:8 The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."

Saturday, February 10, 2007

being a mom

In all the things I do, I like being a mom most. I like being a mom active in my daughter's lives especially.

We went to see a concert last night at Southpointe. Decypher Down (whoever they are), Fireflight (soon to be a new favorite), Disciple (ah-whatever) and Family Force Five (woo hoo- this is the 2nd time I've seen them).

The concert was great, the kids decided that they wanted to wait for autographs, no autographs until Disciple was done. No offense to Disciple, but for crying out loud, they were really good but I was REALLY tired, and it didn't seem like they were ever going to finish. I was pacing because I was afraid that if I sat down, I was going to be out like a light. They got their autographs, and they even signed my CD - "your a cool mom". Yeah, I know :)

My daughter and her friend and Alexis Card chatted the whole way home. It was great. And I am glad I didn't miss it. Sometimes I get tired of driving everywhere, but usually god revives me in their energy (someone who was in desperate need of glasses last night thought I was 22). I know that someday, my daughter will look back, and she will know that I just didn't tell her I loved her, I showed her. And that is the best gift I will ever give her.

1 John 3:18 Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth.

(Pictures are Phyllis and Rachel with the girls from Fireflight, Phyllis and Rachel at our grourmet dinner at Taco Bell, and Phyllis with one of the guys (don't ask me which one) of Family Force 5

Friday, February 09, 2007

'Just a walk across the room'

We're starting a new series at Metro in a couple of weeks, the Uncomfortable series. I am sure it is going to be awesome. I went to the meeting they had for leaders (or hosts) for life groups, and while I am sure that no one will probably show up to my lifegroup (there's doubt again) I am totally excited about this! We watched part of the DVD to give us an example of part of what we will be doing. It's basically about Evangelism. Ah... the E word. I love Evangelism. The 2nd lesson Sunday School at FBC I learned was the great commission, that should be a mandatory "you just became a Christian" lesson - strike while the iron is hot I say.

I'm excited about the new series. This isn't about walking up to someone and screaming "You need Jesus, REPENT, REPENT" it's about the everyday stuff that we can do in our lives to bring us closer to God and bring others right with us. To pull people out of the crap they are in, surrender it all, and give it to Jesus.

I was on the Evangelism Board at my old church, actually ended up Chairman - but I think that was because no one else wanted to be Chairman, we tried a lot of different things, some worked, some didn't. I have a heart for it, but not the screaming part of it, I like the everyday living part of it.

I am sure that some are going to be like "Oh God, please help me, I don't want to do that" but really it's not that difficult, it's about living your life in Christ, and asking people you love to live right along with you, in a world of Grace and Love.

Matthew 28:16-20 16Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go. 17When they saw him, they worshiped him; but some doubted. 18Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. 19Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in[a] the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."

Thursday, February 08, 2007

Smiles for Everyone

To tell you that I am stressed, would be an understatement. Not only do I have a ton of thoughts going on in my head, someone offered to buy our Corporation (a very scary thought), I'm going to Mexico and need to get my passport (and do all the things that are necessary to get that accomplished), I have 10 accounts and it seems like all of them are requiring something RIGHT NOW, I almost missed a much needed lunch with my girlfriend but I didn't, because of a conference call. I feel guilty because I can't work at the building more, I feel bad because I can't make a meal to send over to Pastor J's family - I just don't have the time!

On my way back from lunch, I stopped at Walgreens to get my picture taken by a woman who was not thrilled to see me (check!). Now, I know that if I can't win that woman over... for 10 years I am going to have to look at an ugly passport picture. Sooo... She had some cute glasses on, and you know what? I told her! I told her that she had cute glasses, there was almost a flood when the ice melted off her heart and her BEAUTIFUL smile appeared. And I have a beautiful picture, she was smiling, we started talking about God and the bible, and before you knew it, I was smiling (check check!!).

Attitude is everything, we can walk around crabbing about how Sara ordered this crappy weather OR we can make our own sunsine!

Job 9:27 27 If I say, 'I will forget my complaint, I will change my expression, and smile,'

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

when is summer coming?

it's too cold. I want warm. I think at this point I might settle for like 40 degrees. This is ridiculous, I have had to wear a coat for like 5 days in a row!

I don't like this!

Psalm 74:17 It was you who set all the boundaries of the earth; you made both summer and winter.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007


I pray for a lot of things. Good parking spaces, health & healing, for friends, for family, the things I pray for are countless.

Yesterday there was a big announcement and I STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT IT ENTAILS and that drives me crazy. Some people have some big decisions that will impact 100's of thousands of people. And right now I am praying that they go to God for the decision that has to be made. I pray that there is God's wisdom in their decisions.

Someone (I think it was that Sara) once told me that if we are fact driven we will always be right, if we are emotionally driven we will only be right 50% of the time. I pray for wisdom for all of us.

Proverbs 3:13-26

13 Blessed is the man who finds wisdom,the man who gains understanding,
14 for she is more profitable than silver and yields better returns than gold.
15 She is more precious than rubies; nothing you desire can compare with her.
16 Long life is in her right hand; in her left hand are riches and honor.
17 Her ways are pleasant ways, and all her paths are peace.
18 She is a tree of life to those who embrace her; those who lay hold of her will be blessed.
19 By wisdom the LORD laid the earth's foundations, by understanding he set the heavens in place;
20 by his knowledge the deeps were divided, and the clouds let drop the dew.
21 My son, preserve sound judgment and discernment, do not let them out of your sight;
22 they will be life for you, an ornament to grace your neck.
23 Then you will go on your way in safety, and your foot will not stumble;
24 when you lie down, you will not be afraid; when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet.
25 Have no fear of sudden disaster or of the ruin that overtakes the wicked,
26 for the LORD will be your confidence and will keep your foot from being snared

Monday, February 05, 2007

Chaos Abounds

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful worldas it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
--Reinhold Niebuhr

Its crazy around work right now, they made a huge announcement, I don't understand it all. And you know what, I cannot change any of it, I can do my job, I can trust that everything is going to be ok.

I read somewhere that if we stop worrying about the things we can't change, we will eliminate a whole lot of drama. And you know what? The only drama I want in my life if the next chic flick or movie I watch. If you read the beginning of the serenity prayer that I looked up, I saw the rest of the poem and had to include it. How can we go wrong when we are supremely happy in Him?
So while tornados are spinning over my head, I will be that church in Miami, that held it's services, and praises God in a storm, because, afterall, there is no better refuge than the one we seek in Christ.

2 Samuel 22:2-4 He said: "The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; 3 my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield and the horn [a] of my salvation. He is my stronghold, my refuge and my savior— from violent men you save me. 4 I call to the LORD, who is worthy of praise, and I am saved from my enemies

Sunday, February 04, 2007

One Nation

Isaiah 10:13 For he says: " 'By the strength of my hand I have done this, and by my wisdom, because I have understanding. I removed the boundaries of nations, I plundered their treasures; like a mighty one I subdued their kings.

I was watching Remember the Titans last night. It's probably one of my most favorite movies, I love football, just don't get the time to watch it, and I also love feel good stories. I could watch that movie over and over. I always cry.

There's something I just don't understand, though... how do people hate because of the color of skin? My dad had friends who were every nationality, every race. And it didn't make a bit of difference to me, I guess it's pretty easy to see the best in people if you look at their heart, not their skin. I used to take Phyllis to work with me when she was little, there were 3 guys there, she referred to them as the "brown face guys", it was so cute, she loved them so much, Kwame, Delano, & Lawerence. She thought they were the cats pajamas. She couldn't remember their names, that's just how she referred to them, with no malice. She just loved to see them every week.

My heart aches when I watch that movie, because there are still people who judge based on the color of skin, there are people who get the job because of the color of their skin, and people who don't for the very same reason. It's sad. Here's thought, how about we look at potential, their heart, and their skills, there is a novel concept.

We're all one people, our skin is a different color because of where God put us on the planet to adapt to the different elements. It was His protection for us. He loves us all the same, and we should do the same.

2 Chronicles 20:6 and said: "O LORD, God of our fathers, are you not the God who is in heaven? You rule over all the kingdoms of the nations. Power and might are in your hand, and no one can withstand you.

Saturday, February 03, 2007

Things I would do if it were summer

1. Go to the pool

2. Walk outside barefoot

3. Go for a power walk

4. Go on the boat

5. Swim

6. Drink Iced Tea on the porch

7. Invite you on the boat

8. Cut the grass

9. Read a book on my floatie

10. Remember why I don't like winter

Thursday, February 01, 2007

what to do today

Phyllis is having oral surgery today, so that means I have to be home all day with her. There are a lot of things that get neglected when it comes to cleaning. I have one closet when I don't know what to do with something... goes in there, and it's overflowing with junk... so today it's getting cleaned out. Yesterday I got a head start and cleaned out the medicine cabinet (had something in there that expired in 2005) and my makeup drawer. So today I am going to do some deep cleaning today. I actually don't mind cleaning because it gives me some time to clean out my insides too. I usually spend a lot of that time talking to God or worshipping to a great CD.

That's what's on the agenda... some deep cleaning, inside and out