Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

My stomach hurts!

And I want to throw up!

I am running a 5K on Saturday. I love to run (even though I'm slow) but running in 5Ks, 10Ks, 1/2 marathons, and soon full marathons makes my stomach hurt.  I'm slow, which means I come in close to last.  I hate that.  But at least I'm faster than those who will still be sleeping!  But still, it totally messes with my head and heart. 

Also, I was invited to speak at a Mother's Day luncheon on April 30th.  Ohmyword. So nervous.  I wonder, the moment I step up there, will they all just get up and walk out?  Yikes. I hope I don't blow it.  I pray that God's story in my life brings Him honor and the glory He deserves.  But it makes me want to throw up. 

Just gonna hand all of this over to the One who can handle it all.

Please pray.

Eph 2:10 (NLT) For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.

Making it a priority

I hate it when people say that you have to 'make time for exercise' as if I sit on my rear end all day eating bonbons.
I get up at 4:30 and go to bed at 9:30PM, and I pretty much go all day, whether it be at the house or doing...something. 
I started getting up at 4:30 because I wanted to go to the gym at 5AM (I have to give myself a little time to wake up, run the bath tub - so it's ready for me when I get home, and get to the gym).  When it was cold (and I mean really cold) I didn't make it to the gym, but I still got up, ran the dishwasher, laundry, whatever, but last night I was so tired and had so much to do I just didn't get my exercise (running) in, so I thought to myself that I get up anyway, might as well try to get to the gym.  I did.  This morning I hit the eliptical, did just 1/2 hour, completed 3.39 miles.  Not bad, I have to tell you, I feel pretty good.
Just like all the things that we love or need to do, we must make things a priority.  My friend at work, Vicki, says 'you have to make vegetables a priority on your plate after that, there isn't much room for anything else' and so I started putting my salad on my plate (well wonders never cease, I eat less), and exercise needs to be a priority in my life.  So if it means I gotta get up at 4:30, well, I guess that's what has to happen.

Also... got my blood work back... no PCOS which believe it or not, is a little frustrating, because I'd like to know what's wrong... but back to the drawing board...

What in your life needs to be moved to a higher priority?

Mark 12:30 Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.’

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

What's up?

There is a lot going on these days… nothing too exciting except that Edges opens this weekend, I wonder how many times I can see it without being a stalker. LOL. At least if Phyllis is in the performance I can get away with going a lot.

Exercised on the bleachers yesterday, that was a lot harder than I remember. Maybe I’m a lot more out of shape than I’d like to admit. But I ran one lap around the track did the bleachers with some crazy exercises when I’d reach the bottom and then once one the bleachers without the exercises. Then had some great time with Rosie and we went and finished the care package to send to my cousin in the Navy. Picked up 5 packages of coffee, I hope those boys like flavored coffee, lol. The packages will go out today in the mail.
I moved my computer upstairs, now I want a Futon or something for upstairs and a couple book shelves (I have a lot of books!) for upstairs, going to clean out the closet upstairs, most of that stuff has been up there for awhile so I can probably just give it to Erick and Rissa for their garage sale that they are having. Also going to get some bathroom carpeting for the bathroom upstairs to brighten it up, wondering what my theme will be up there. No one really uses the bathroom now, but I think that might change with the new office upstairs or eventually Phyllis might move upstairs and then the office will move to her room. I think I might just be lazy and paint the paneling instead of replacing it with drywall for now. I think a trip to Bed Bath & Beyond might be in order. Also a trip to Ikea!

Going to paint a couple walls this weekend. I think I also I’ve got the idea for what I am doing for my dining room as far as painting and chair molding, which is cool! I’m excited about it.

17 days till we leave for New York! I’m excited and feel unprepared but I know it will be a great vacation!

Psalm 48:14 For this God is our God for ever and ever; he will be our guide even to the end

Sunday, March 27, 2011


There are things that we do and while we are doing them, it sometimes sucks.

Today running was one of those days, none of it was really fun, except the last block, could be that 'shake loose' came on or it could have been that I was almost done, I am not sure, which was my motivating factor.  But AFTER I was done, I had this incredible feeling, I could have run again (though that would have been nuts), I had forgotten how good it feels when I am done running. 

Today, I could have easily made the excuse about how I didn't have enough time to run, but I have this skinny chic that wants out of this fat body, and skinny chic and fat chic decided to rumble today, and skinny chic kicked the fat girl's butt. Then I was hungry, but it was 3PM and I'm going to dinner at 5:30.  I wanted a piece of delicious fried chicken, however, I had a trusty lara bar in my purse. 

This is more about one or two choices for me, I've got some health issues that I am trying to get rid of, and healthy eating and exercise are the two best choices to do that.  There is not some magic drink or supplement.  Being healthy to me means I need to make good choices and when I OCCASIONALLY make a bad one, let it be one bad one, not one hundred, and I chose to love myself, because it was a choice.

So tonight, after I get home from Les Mis I'm gonna grab the latest book I'm reading, the runner's diet, and get one step closer to losing some of this dead weight!

Proverbs 21:20 In the house of the wise are stores of choice food and oil, but a foolish man devours all he has

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Painting and Running


If you would have asked me if I could complete a half marathon, I would have said 'no way'.  If you would have asked me if I could have painted my hallway (even though it is small), same answer.

One thing I've learned with running is that you don't run a marathon over night, it takes patience and perserverence, and sometimes you just want to quit, 5 minutes in.

And another thing I've learned is that you can do a lot more than you think you can, if you believe, and take your time, plan it out.  Planning is key.

I feel like I need to paint my house, not have my house painted. Thankfully, I have a small house, so given some patience, perserverence, I will get it done.  I decided today to start on the hallway. 

pony tail color complete

Can I tell you that it has taken me A YEAR to pick a beige color. Seriously.  I had 2 picked out, and then threw a monkey wrench in and picked a whole different color.  Well, a whole different beige. Pony Tail.  Perfect name since I won't cut my hair because it is pony tail length til I finish the marathon.  True Story.

I had a chocolate brown picked out, cowboy boots or something, but again, changed my mind.  New color Sarsaparilla. 

So my hallway walls are the color of buckeyes (the cookie-ish delight of peanut butter and chocolate).

I feel like it is not perfect, but I feel proud of what I accomplished.  Took me about 4 hours. But in my defense I also had to paint the ceiling.  I still have to put the cover for the doorbell back up, and the light switch cover...  and pics, but here it is.

Sprucing it up!

I don't believe that I can paint very well.  I actually don't like it at all, probably because I am not good at it.  But today, I am going to paint my hallway.  Not sure how it is going to turn out, but I am going to try, going to take my time. 

First I had to sand the ceiling and walls in a few spots because of a leak I had upstairs.  So... That's done, I cleaned it all up with warm clean water.   Did I mention...  I need to fire my maid (my none existant maid that I blame for the mess around here!) because there were some dust bats up there!  But now it is ready to paint. Fun stuff.

So... I'll post pictures later. I hope it comes out! 

My advice, do something every day that scares you, even if it's lame like painting. 

It is true, you can do all things through Christ who strengthens you... (Phil 4:13).

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Muffin Day!

Today is muffin day! It’s one of my favorite days of the month! It is the day I go and read to the best second graders on the planet! I call them ‘my muffins’. Today we are going to read “Horton hears a who’. I am so excited! Seriously! So excited!
And this time… I remembered my camera! So you’ll get to see my muffins too! I bet you’ll fall in love with them just like I did from the first moment I laid my eyes on their beautiful faces!

Hate in your heart will consume you too!

One of my favorite songs is ‘Just the Two of Us’ by Will Smith (I love it by Grover Washington Jr too). There is one part in the song that says ‘hate in your heart will consume you too’. That part of that song rings in my heart when someone is a jerk to me or I see someone be mean to someone else.

I could easily be one of those people who are jerks all the time if I let those who are mean change the way I think.

Yesterday I had an experience with two women. Note these two women must be the unhappiest women EVER. Oh boy. I just thought to myself, I remember when I was like that, my life sucked, and somehow when I was mean to others it brought temporary relief for me though, I often felt terrible. I won’t say that I didn’t get mad, but today, I can say that I prayed for them. I prayed that they would stay out of my path. I pray that whatever hurt is in their hearts, is healed, that God can bring joy to their lives. That whatever they think they need to prove, that God already proved who is on top. The first will be last I was reminded in prayer this morning. I think that they decided to chose someone ‘weaker’ to pray on, forgetting that I have someone who fights my battles for me everyday. He walks before me.

I choose love. I will always choose love. Prayer = love.

Sitting here thankful. Thankful for a God who has showed me the biggest love ever, and allows me to walk in it daily.

Sending love your way!

Psalm 23
1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,[a]
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6 Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

A visit to the doctor!

So in the fashion of being honest and open… I went to the doctor yesterday. I was having these weird chest ‘twitches’ and since I’d never been for a complete physical and I’m old, I thought I should… Thanks to some friend’s recommendation, I found a doctor, and so far (after one visit) I like her.

The results:
My BMI is too high (shocking, I know!)
I have borderline high blood pressure (considering I have to squelch the fight or flight reflex daily, not shocking)
I may have PCOS (blood tests today but its highly likely – my friend Sara is praying it away)

I’ve started to read a little about this, and actually, I thought I had it last year, but the gyno I went to just wanted me to go on meds without actually checking with blood work and getting confirmation – I was like no way and never did anything.

I also hate medication, I think that a lot of times, it doesn’t actually help your body to heal, it just helps. So I did start doing some research on what I should and shouldn’t eat, what I can do to prevent it. I will go on the medication if needed with a plan to get off it with diet and exercise if possible. No more refined food… I’m going to do some major cleaning out of my pantry this weekend. Someone is going to be quite the benefactor of free food. It means that it will alter the way we eat at home for dinner too. And most importantly, I need to find a recipe for Spanish rice that tastes like ‘old el paso Spanish rice’ but made with brown rice or quinoa since that’s our favorite side dish with tacos (mine will be with light or no cheese- do you know how much I love love love cheese?)

So that’s it. I know that this is a wake up call to take better care of myself.

Luke 5:31 Jesus answered them, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Care packages!

I’m kind of excited about my care packages going out to some soldiers that I know and love! I’ve got to go pick up a few more bags of jelly beans and non-melty candy but are almost ready to go! I’ve got to write a couple cards to go in them, but I’ve packed homemade Easter cards and some candy so that the soldiers will know that they loved and prayed for back home!

It doesn’t really seem like much in comparison to the way they risk their lives for the freedom and safety of others. I always get so irritated by people who protest the war, it doesn’t matter if you are for or against the way, there are brave men and women out there fighting, risking their lives, put down your sign and write them a letter and send them a bag of jelly beans! And if you need an address, I know a few that you could love on!

In comparison

It doesn’t really seem like much in comparison to the way they risk their lives for the freedom and safety of others. I always get so irritated by people who protest the war, it doesn’t matter if you are for or against the way, there are brave men and women out there fighting, risking their lives, put down your sign and write them a letter and send them a bag of jelly beans! And if you need an address, I know a few that you could love on!

Meal Planning... oh boy...

I didn't do a good job of meal planning this week, our schedule seems a little out of control!  So here it is for the remainder of the week....

Tuesday - Tacos & Spanish Rice
Wednesday - Me - subway, Phyllis out with Muscle Mike
Thursday - Spaghettie
Friday - Bible Study - so that means Fattousch!
Saturday - Chicken Stirfry with Brown Rice

Sunday's dinner for Alive - Sloppy Joes, chips, & cupcakes

Monday, March 21, 2011

Things you should know...

I pray when I run, it’s a benefit of running slow, I can pray for a lot of peeps

I always want to quit the first block in, and the last one!

I praise my peeps when I run, so many people have encouraged me

I don’t think about food

I think I look hot in my running pants and big sweatshirt

I also think I look graceful

I listen to worship music and some funky stuff too, but if I listen to things that do not honor God, it makes me tired

I love that I inspire people (sometimes I just run so I don’t let them down)

I don’t want to run the marathon, I need to

In my mind, I’m a size 6 when I run

I hear people cheering me on who have cheered me on before

I purposely run past the Povlich’s house because they were all on the porch one time cheering for me (and since they are on the 2nd to last block I run, it helps me finish!)

I do love running

God speaks to me the most when I run

I always throw my hands in the air and yell ‘wooooooo’ as I hit the steps at my house

Sunday, March 20, 2011


Its not really others that make me feel less than awesome, it’s me.

Yesterday I was getting ready to go see my friend in federal prison (why are people so shocked that I have a friend in federal prison) and I was thinking about how when I used to go there I was thin and beautiful and now… well, I’ve put on a few pounds and I hate when I see anyone that knew me before, I wonder what they think ‘oh boy, I guess she really let herself go’.

Yeah, like all I do is sit around and eat bon-bons. Seriously, I am one of the busiest peeps I know. I do know that I make poor choices sometimes when I eat, or that I don’t exercise like I should, I totally stress eat! TOTALLY!

Here’s the thing, I don’t have to wonder what my friend is thinking, because he’s gonna tell me. I knew he would. And a lot of people might say ‘he should love you for who you are, it shouldn’t matter’. Here’s the thing, he does love me for who I am, I have known him since the summer before sixth grade (I was 11). And he loves me enough to say to me ‘you need to be healthy’. He knows how hard it is for me to watch my dad and his health if I don’t take care of myself now, it will be worse in the future.

It was a great visit. We laughed, caught up on a ton of stuff, it had been over 4 years since we were there to visit. He was shocked to see Phyllis, the last time he saw her she was STARTING high school, and now she’s almost done.

Anyway, its been a busy weekend. Got home last night, made Easter Cards for some soldiers (over 70 of them) they are almost done, just gotta print out the Easter story to put in each one and get some candy to send tomorrow while I am out at lunch. I hope jelly beans will make the trip. Please remember to say a prayer for our soldiers, whether you agree with the war or not, they are fighting for freedom, risk their lives for us everyday.

Watched my little muffins tonight, they are such a joy, Levi and Judah. Soooo cute! They were extra snuggly today so that was really really awesome!

When I get home I’ll make some cupcakes!

Hope you had a great weekend! Lovetoyou!

Thursday, March 17, 2011


so I went running today, I haven't been running in a long time, or at least it seems like it since winter has been soooo long and I love running outside.  I thought 'wow it is warm today', looked up at the ctm in my car and it said 72!!  woo hoo!  Decided that I should slap myself if I didn't go running.  So, thankfully my schedule opened up and I did go for a run (funny how that happens) so I threw on my favorite pants, favorite shirt, ponytail, and my3 player. And off to the Trenton Track I went. I only ran about 1.5 miles out of the two that I completed (I know 'only' right), I did sprints, jogged, walked, but really I felt good about myself and my accomplishments.  I could have (and almost did) beat myself up about how I can't run as far, how I slacked over the winter, but I decided to focus on my accomplishments for today.

It was a beautiful day, and focusing on the good, makes for a very happy ending!

Phil 3:12-14 (NLT) 12 I don’t mean to say that I have already achieved these things or that I have already reached perfection. But I press on to possess that perfection for which Christ Jesus first possessed me. 13 No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, 14 I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us.


Yesterday was quite a day!  To say the least. I can't remember the last time I had someone put their hand up to me because she was too busy to help me.Yikes.  And the list of the days events could go on and on... but it won't.

I know that somedays will be battles and somedays paradise.  It is always best to be prepared for such days.  It is not that I enjoy those days, but I must be prepared. Thankful for the lessons.

Today I sit at my desk, thankful for the gift of forgiveness.  And thankful for His Word that is sown into my heart like the most beautiful tapestry.

I was so angry yesterday, at a lot of things, but one being my friend who put their hand up to me, I thought 'you wait til the next time you need help...  do you know how many times i've stopped to help her?  More times thatn she can count.  I'll never...'

And then...  I began to think of Phil 2

3 Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, 4 not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others.

OH!  I love/hate that.

Today I sit at my desk, not really sure what will come of today, but thankful for a God who forgives me, and has taught me how to forgive.  Thankful for a job that not only challenges me mentally but spiritually to help me to grow.  Thankful for a job that provides. All these things...  are God's provision.

Dear Lord, I am thankful for Your story, for Your life, that makes mine so much greater.  loveyou.  Amen.

Psalm 23

1 The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6 Surely your goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

You matter

There are somedays that I just don't feel like I matter.  I text my friends to hang out or tell them that I miss them... nothing.  I make an effort because I believe in doing things that are worthy of my time.  And I believe that my friends are worthy of my time.  I love them and am so thankful for them.

Time is precious to me.  Its because things that are rare are precious.  But sometimes I'll be truthful some of my friends make me feel like I don't matter.  I left and thought 'it's going to be hard not seeing everyone every week for a hug or a smile or an I love you' to give and receive, it wasn't just the students, it was the awesome staff that I served with.  I sometimes barely felt like I mattered then.  I felt like I was defined by the things I did not who I was.  Until God opened my eyes and my heart, 'you do those things because of who you are'.  Maybe some only thought I was 'awesome' because of what I did, I don't think they really ever saw the 'who I was' part.

I cannot be measured by someone else's ruler. Here's the thing. I was wonderfully made.  It doesn't matter that I don't get a response to my text or a phone call.  I matter. Who I am matters. 

I do not have an 'official' ministry these days.  I've been on the Evangelism Board, Youth Leader/Staff, VBS Co-director, First Five Co-leader I've always had an 'official ministry'...  my ministry these days... to love where I am at. When God sets an opportunity before me, love.  Seems crazy sometimes.  Shoes, tea, meals, snow, jam, hugs, prayer, just love, whatever comes up, however that looks.

I say all this not because I want you to say to me 'you do matter' I say all this to say that you matter to me.  If you're feeling lonely, if you feel like people only love you because of what you do (and there are people out there), I want you to know that you do matter!  You matter to me, and you matter to God, and if I've done a poor job of showing that to you, I am very sorry, I'd love to sit and have coffee with you, and hear what's going on in your life and share a little of mine.

I love you.

Psalm 139:13-24
13 You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body
and knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.
15 You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,
as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.
16 You saw me before I was born.
Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out
before a single day had passed.

17 How precious are your thoughts about me,[b] O God.
They cannot be numbered!
18 I can’t even count them;
they outnumber the grains of sand!
And when I wake up,
you are still with me!

19 O God, if only you would destroy the wicked!
Get out of my life, you murderers!
20 They blaspheme you;
your enemies misuse your name.
21 O Lord, shouldn’t I hate those who hate you?
Shouldn’t I despise those who oppose you?
22 Yes, I hate them with total hatred,
for your enemies are my enemies.

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 Point out anything in me that offends you,
and lead me along the path of everlasting life

Monday, March 14, 2011

more miracles

I was driving yesterday thinking about miracles. I was thinking about how no one in my family ever talked about miracles, sure they said ‘pray’ but no one really told me about the great things that God had done in the lives of my family. Please note, I am not blaming anyone or saying what they did was necessarily wrong, though, I wonder, why would you think I would want to follow Jesus if you never told me what He did for you.

Often you will hear me pray, if someone asks me to pray, I try to say ‘let’s pray right now’. I know the power of two. I know that when two or more are gathered in His name, He is there (Matt 18:19-20). Also it says that a a cord of three is not easily broken (Ecc 4:12), so if there is two of us, and Jesus is there, that third strand of that cord is pretty strong. I know that the power of prayer is huge, and I have many answered prayers, though some not answered how I asked, God still answers them, for His good. I talk about those miracles.

I talk about the miracles in my life, I talk about the miracles in others. I want people to know what God has done for me, I want them to know what He can do for them!

If you would have known me in high school, even though I was nice, I probably would have been on the list of ‘least likely to follow Jesus’. I just didn’t get it, and I didn’t want to get it. I didn’t see the greatness of it all. Sad, but true. No one ever really told me in a relevant way.

Now, you can’t get me to shut up about it. He’s changed my life.

I never had a desire to go to Asia before, and not that I feel called to go there now, but I do want to go and save babies, and hold moms who lost their babies. He’s changed my heart. He’s performed miracles in my life, so many, big and small. I’m waiting for a few now. I can’t wait to tell you about them! I was reading Mark 14 and thinking about the woman and the perfume. I was thinking about how her story is told over and over, the miracles that Jesus must have performed in her life to make her take this super expensive perfume, and pour it out on Him. I want my life to be poured out all over Him, and if someone were to ask me why, they get comfortable, because it’s a long story!

Ecc 4:12 
Though one may be overpowered,
two can defend themselves.
A cord of three strands is not quickly broken

Matt 18:19-20 19 “Again, truly I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything they ask for, it will be done for them by my Father in heaven. 20 For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them.”

Mark 14:1-10 1 Now the Passover and the Festival of Unleavened Bread were only two days away, and the chief priests and the teachers of the law were scheming to arrest Jesus secretly and kill him. 2 “But not during the festival,” they said, “or the people may riot.”
3 While he was in Bethany, reclining at the table in the home of Simon the Leper, a woman came with an alabaster jar of very expensive perfume, made of pure nard. She broke the jar and poured the perfume on his head.
4 Some of those present were saying indignantly to one another, “Why this waste of perfume? 5 It could have been sold for more than a year’s wages[a] and the money given to the poor.” And they rebuked her harshly.
6 “Leave her alone,” said Jesus. “Why are you bothering her? She has done a beautiful thing to me. 7 The poor you will always have with you,[b] and you can help them any time you want. But you will not always have me. 8 She did what she could. She poured perfume on my body beforehand to prepare for my burial. 9 Truly I tell you, wherever the gospel is preached throughout the world, what she has done will also be told, in memory of her.”
10 Then Judas Iscariot, one of the Twelve, went to the chief priests to betray Jesus to them. 11 They were delighted to hear this and promised to give him money. So he watched for an opportunity to hand him over.

picture from here

Sunday, March 13, 2011


I’m believing for a few miracles these days. Some seem so big that they seem impossible and a few others that may not even seem like miracles to others. But they are, miracles are everywhere. Somedays I have to open my eyes a little wider to see them.

In my life it is not God who messed it up, could He have stopped it? Sure, nothing happens without His permission, but He uses our mess for His good so many times.

I often believe that good really will happen for others but sometimes I have a hard time believing it will happen for me, I know what I’ve done, and I know what I deserve, but somehow God forgives me and loves me anyway, in spite of me.

I’m believing for some miracles in my life and the lives of others! I’m believing so much in God that I believe I just may see a mountain do a cannonball!

Mark 11:22-24 22 “Have faith in God,” Jesus answered. 23 “Truly[a] I tell you, if anyone says to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and does not doubt in their heart but believes that what they say will happen, it will be done for them. 24 Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.
Also, if you are reading this, in order to protect privacy... if you know what the miracles are please do not mention them on my facebook or blog...

Meal Planning 3-13-11

Its gonna be an easy week! (list modified from original post)

Sunday - Lunch - Lasagna
               Dinner - Alive Staff - Tacos & Spanish Rice
               Dinner for me (phyllis is working) - Not sure... maybe Panera

Monday - Tacos
Tuesday - Antipasto Spinach Salad
Wednesday - LG @ Pete's Place in Brownstown
Thursday - Leftover Lasagne
Friday - ?
Saturday - ?

Friday, March 11, 2011

Its Friday!

Oh boy, I haven't blogged much this week, not because I didn't have anything to say, but I didn't have anything 'good' to say, if you know me, you know I ALWAYS have something to say, but just kept to myself, ended up crying two days in a row, ugh.  What is it that I'm all stressed about? lots but it doesn't matter!  Sometimes you just gotta hand it over to Him, and let it go.

So by now you know, we're going to New York, I'm excited and nervous, please pray for good weather, won't you?  I ordered our Wicked tickets and next will be the walking food tour in Greenwich Village.  I think we might do that on Sunday... is it weird that I was looking for a church to go to on Sunday... may just run, God does some amazing things when I run... who knows.

Random stuff:
Want to order the TV Show The Closer, really, I love that show.
Had dinner with my girl and Emiwy Ferg
Glad its the weekend
8 dozen cupcakes left our house this weekend
Taco Dinner for the Alive Staff this week
Holding fast and believing in a rescue
So sad for Japan.  Am I the only one who thought 'oh the babies'?
Seeing my friend Christie tomorrow and her new 'muffin' Tessa
New black shoes purchased today
Why does JCPenney never have the brown sketchers I want???
I want an Ipod touch, but I'm gonna turn 'my wanter' off
Meal planning was 'a guide' this week
my house is a mess, I really need to fire my non-existant maid
I wondered when I got home if the snow was a test for me this morning to see if I'd love... I did

Phil 4:8-9 8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9 Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

That's my girl!

I love my girl. I don't just think she's pretty special, I know she is... I even get teared up just writing this!  So many people think she's great, but no one is more proud of her than me!  it's one of those 'by the grace of God go I' things... 

Things I love about my girl:

She works hard for things she wants
She's cheap! 
She helps others
She is smart
She is beautiful
She is talented
She loves Jesus

She is in the News Herald this week... and blogs too (see the link at the side)

I'm really looking forward to spending time with her in New York!

I'm blessed beyond belief!

Wednesday, March 09, 2011

New York Here We Come!


Wicked (Of course!)

Times Square
Yes!  We are going to take the ferry to Hoboken! 
Central Park
My friend's fave - Magnolia Bakery!

Tuesday, March 08, 2011


I love to win stuff… I also like to give stuff…

So… that being said… I’m giving away something that is one of my very favorite things!

Crockpot liners!

These gems have made my life so much easier! Bag in, food in, serve food, throw away bag.

I’ve spent HOURS and HOURS cleaning out my crockpot! NO more.

Simply tell me your name, and how to contact you (email I guess) and your favorite kitchen aid as of late! And on March 31,I will put all the names in a hat and draw three winners!

Monday, March 07, 2011


This weekend I made a lot of homemade stuff. For a couple different reasons, one being that I am cheap.

I have been looking at Strawberry Jam/Preserves lately, we eat a lot of PB & J in our house, and I don’t know why but it completely annoys me that there is corn syrup in my Jam. Especially when I now know you can make it with 3 ingredients. Strawberries, Sugar, & lemon. I love that I’ve learned to can, food tastes so much better when its homemade. Meijer had strawberries $1 per pound, so I bought 5 and made homemade jam. Yum. So I’ve got 1 pint open in the fridge, 3 pints in the cupboard, and one pint at my friend Netta’s house 

I also made homemade bread for the Alive leaders. I found a recipe that makes 6 loaves at one time. The problem is that my mixer couldn’t handle all the ingredients so I had to knead the dough with the last two cups of flour, but it was good! I think next time I may let it rise a little longer. Everyone really seemed to enjoy it. I’ve learned that making homemade really is so much cheaper than buying store bought, and yes, I realize that it takes time, but I think it is SOOO worth it (though I did ‘cheat’ and used jar spaghetti sauce when I made mostacolli)

I love making homemade goodies for people. I love when their bellies are full and they are able to do what they need to do because they have energy. 

I believe that everyone has a different gift, I believe that some people are great seed planters, some waterers, I also believe that some people need to fill the watering cans (encouragers) of 'waterers'.  I believe that there are so many ways to love people, and I love the gift of encouragement and sometimes that looks like a compliment, or a hug, and sometimes it looks like mostacolli, bread, & cupcakes saying 'I love you, I love what you're doing, keep it up, keep striving, keep loving'.

Encourage someone today, even if it doesn't look conventional.
Proverbs 31:15 She gets up while it is still night;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her female servants.

Saturday, March 05, 2011

Homemade bread!

No bread machine needed (that's how I normally make my homemade bread).  I couldn't fit the last two cups in with my mixer so i had to kneed by hand, but so worth it!  I made this to go with the spaghetti I made for the Alive Leaders tonight.  Got the recipe from here.


1/2 cup warm water
3 (.25 ounce) packages active dry yeast
1/4 cup bread flour
1 tablespoon white sugar
2 cups quick cooking oats
2 cups whole wheat flour
4 1/2 cups warm water
1 1/2 tablespoons salt
2/3 cup brown sugar
2/3 cup vegetable oil
10 cups bread flour


1.In the mixing bowl of an electric mixer, stir together 1/2 cup warm water, 1 tablespoon sugar, 1/4 cup bread flour, and yeast. Let grow for about 5 minutes. It will bubble almost immediately.

2.Measure oats, 4 1/2 cups warm water, whole wheat flour, salt, 2/3 cup sugar, and 2/3 cup oil into the mixing bowl. Mix on low speed with a dough hook for 1 to 2 minutes. Increase speed slightly, and begin adding bread flour 1/2 to 1 cup at a time until dough pulls away from sides of bowl. Humidity determines how much flour you need before the bread pulls away from the edge of the bowl. It is normal for the dough to be sticky.

3.Place dough in an oiled bowl, and turn to coat the surface. Cover with a damp cloth. Let rise in a warm spot for 1 hour, or until doubled in size.

4.Divide dough into 6 pieces. Shape loaves, and place in greased 8 x 4 inch pans. Let rise until dough is 1 inch above rim of pans, usually 1 hour.

5.Bake at 350 degrees F ( 175 degrees C) for 35 minutes, or until tops are browned. Let cool in pans for 10 minutes, and then turn out onto wire racks to cool completely.

Feed my sheep

I feel like I don't have any extraordinary gifts... I have plenty of gifts mind you, God has blessed me with some great ones! maybe to some, they don't seem like much, but I like them just fine.

Often I wish I was like my friend Katie, who has an encouraging spirit. Today I saw her in the van next to me, and her smile was just energizing, and we didn't even really talk, lol.

I can cook, I feel like it's one of my best gift. I know a lot of people can cook, and I don't make anything really fancy, just things that taste good, and I guess that's good because I will choose good over fancy ANY day.

I've had this dream for so long to pass on to others what I know. Some of my tricks of my trade, some great recipes, and just some great things I know. Today while having breakfast with a great friend/sister, I was reminded of that dream. I wonder how God is going to make it come true... I can't wait to see!

John 21:17 The third time he said to him, “Simon son of John, do you love me?” Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time, “Do you love me?” He said, “Lord, you know all things; you know that I love you.” Jesus said, “Feed my sheep.

Picture from here.

Strawberry jam

4 lbs of Strawberries
2 c sugar
1/4 c lemon juice

Throw strawberries in blender and smash to your desired consistancy.  In a heavy bottomed saucepan, mix together the strawberries, sugar, and lemon juice. Stir over low heat until the sugar is dissolved. Increase heat to high, and bring the mixture to a full rolling boil. Boil, stirring often, until the mixture reaches 220 degrees F (105 degrees C). Transfer to hot sterile jars, leaving 1/4 to 1/2 inch headspace, and seal. Process any unsealed jars in a water bath. If the jam is going to be eaten right away, don't bother with processing, and just refrigerate. (or buy Ball freezer jars like I did and dump cooled jam into them and freeze)

I adapted this recipe from Kelly.  I reduced the sugar (by using twice as many strawberries).

Please note... I'm not a whiz or amazing... I'm just annoyed that strawberry jam & strawberry preserves are filled with a lot of stuff that is not natural.  That's just me.  And Meijer happen to have 1 lb of strawberries for $1.

Meal Planning 3-6-11

Lunch - Leftover Crockpot Chicken Enchiladas & Spanish Rice
Dinner – with the family at Dad’s

Alive Dinner: Mostacolli, homemade applesauce, & homemade rolls, and possibly cupcakes

Monday: Keilbasa Potato Chowder

Tuesday: Chicken Stir fry with Brown rice

Wednesday: Spaghetti

Thursday: Tacos

Friday: ?

Saturday: Chicken Sausage, Pasta/spinach/broccoli

Friday, March 04, 2011

Ice Carving

Today I witnessed a new kind of ice carving.

I was on my way to work, and there were something like 27 freeway closures due to ice, I happen to be in the middle of one. At some point I just decided that I was going to spend my time in the car, praying for those I love. I have a mighty long prayer list… And so I just prayed for those who came to mind. It was a very good use of my time.

It was one of the longest commutes I’ve had this year, but it seemed like it went by in a minute.

I felt like God carved that time out just to spend with me. Maybe you’re rolling your eyes right now, but I believe it to be true. I believe that prayer is essential to our walk with God, and peace for others.

Its just another one of those things that is true, noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable, excellent AND praiseworthy.

Psalm 144:12 Then our sons in their youth will be like well-nurtured plants, and our daughters will be like pillars carved to adorn a palace

Thursday, March 03, 2011

Healing and peace

I was reading Mark 3

1 Another time Jesus went into the synagogue, and a man with a shriveled hand was there. 2 Some of them were looking for a reason to accuse Jesus, so they watched him closely to see if he would heal him on the Sabbath. 3 Jesus said to the man with the shriveled hand, “Stand up in front of everyone.” 4 Then Jesus asked them, “Which is lawful on the Sabbath: to do good or to do evil, to save life or to kill?” But they remained silent.
5 He looked around at them in anger and, deeply distressed at their stubborn hearts, said to the man, “Stretch out your hand.” He stretched it out, and his hand was completely restored. 6 Then the Pharisees went out and began to plot with the Herodians how they might kill Jesus.

and thinking about how Jesus healed on the Sabbath, and how people (the Pharisees) were up in arms about it. Well, I’m hear to tell you that quite often, Jesus heals me on the Sabbath. He takes this broken down, tired, beat by the world, and heals me with great teaching from Pastors, with worship with other believers. He heals my heart, like no one else, or like no other time. I used to serve a lot on Sundays, but now, I spend the time (most of it at least) resting, preparing for the week ahead. In the time of preparation He reminds me that I am a Proverbs 31 woman. I love my family, and taking care of them is a huge blessing. On the Sundays that I run, He speaks to me and molds me and loves me, and breathes life into me.
We finished John yesterday in life groups, and at the end of John 21, I love the very last scripture (John 21:25).

25 Jesus did many other things as well. If every one of them were written down, I suppose that even the whole world would not have room for the books that would be written.

I realize that most of the world doesn’t know me, or think even once about me, let alone twice about me, but in life, I am loved by a God who thinks more than once of me a minute, and when I think of all the things He’s done for me, there aren’t enough rooms for all the books I could write.
That is true, noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable, excellent AND praiseworthy. And that brings me peace!

Phil 4:8-9 8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9 Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

Wednesday, March 02, 2011


Sometimes I just feel like the biggest jerk, and there are probably lots of reasons why I should feel this way.  Last night I was awaken by a crying girl, flu, back ache.  I took care of my girl, awaken again to pray.  I think I did mumble 'really, God, don't You know I'm tired'.  Fell asleep praying.  That's a good feeling.  Woke up... praying more.  Prayed on my way into work.

One thing I have learned about when there are storms around me, keep your focus on the horizon.  I say so many times that it is important to know God's Word.  It is His love letter to each of us.  Learn the stories, and to tell you the truth, sometimes I don't actually get it the first time I read it, but then the next time, Truth is revealed.  Sometimes I can read the same passage 4 times in a month and more and more love is poured out from the pages in to my heart.  I love that.

Things are crazy for me right now, I can't even begin to tell you.  But I've learned in the craziest of times, to pick a verse and focus.  I've decided that Phil 4:8-9 will be my focus.  Last week it was Mark 4 and He kept revealing it to me in different ways.

I know that if I focus on what is true, noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable, excellent and praiseworthy I will come out with a good attitude, HOWEVER, it doesn't just say, think about those things, it says PUT IT INTO PRACTICE and the God of peace will be with you.  I have to say, that I find that to be true.  When I focus on the things of Him, prayer, kindness, love, encouragement (all things that are  true, noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable, excellent and praiseworthy) and put them into practice, I can feel His peace around me. So look out, there may be some practice coming your way <3

Lord, be my focus, today, tomorrrow, always. I loveYou.

Phil 4:8-9
8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9 Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

Tuesday, March 01, 2011

Focus Focus Focus

Phil 4:8-9
8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9 Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.