Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Wednesday, December 31, 2014

it was cold!

I went out running ok today I was walking more than running and I promise you it is crack your face off cold out there! 

I wondered at some point while i have pulled all the strings out of my hoodies.... why I don't have long running pants or a cute Detroit Hat, and a running mask... oh yeah... because I don't normally run in the winter, that's for crazy people.

It was beautiful and sunny out there even though it was SUPER cold and at one point I wondered why I wasn't inside on my eliptical... which really would have been fine but we don't get much sunshine in Michigan in January. 

The truth is that I really wanted to not go today but when my friend Becky asked me if I was going to train today and I told her yes... so then I had to go...

I promise, all my posts won't be about running, but probably there will be lots of posts about what God does in me while I run.

Today is a victory, even if I didn't run as much as I would have liked... I moved!  And that's a victory!

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

It might not look perfect, but it's perfect for me!

Sometimes I look at my life and I think there is something missing (a husband or even a boyfriend) and then I look around and I think I am the luckiest person alive!

It's my birthday on Thursday (2 days!!!) and I'm thankful because I am going to my friends' new house for a little gathering of people I love!!!  Now that by itself would have been enough (really!) - that and hanging out with my beautiful daughter...  But in addition to that...  for dinner my friend's and their beautiful girls, Phyllis and I are having a fondue party planned!  Doesn't that sound like fun?!?  and then I found out yesterday that my friends are coming from Colorado!!!!  WHAT?!  Yes, I did start crying!

I could tell you that sometimes I do feel like I am missing something in my life but I also feel like God has incredible things planned for me (including an amazing husband that will be worth the wait!), the plans He has written for me, and the path that I am walking on is lit up like the Fourth of July (Psalm 119:105).  Isn't it kind of weird that I am not sure where in a church I'll be serving though?  LOL

I'm looking forward to 2015 and some amazing things in the works!

A reading program!
A community garden!
Scripture memorization!
A trip to Haiti!
Trips to Colorado!
A trip to New York!
Monthly meals for MBK & BH!

and probably a lot more!!!

Monday, December 29, 2014

2015 planning!

Today I was walking/running and I was really encouraged because it was a really get run/walk and I pushed myself to do well but not be crazy! I am trying really hard to do this right, not to push myself too much but to push myself to improve. 

I am excited that there are two different options to run the half marathon.  There is the International route and the Detroit Route, and I'm pretty excited about the route and it's some of my favorite parts of the city.  I can't wait!  I'm looking forward to a summer of 5Ks and fun!

I love when I set a goal (I think NY Resolutions are silly) and it's something fun to accomplish!

I wrote out my goals for 2015 today while sitting in Starbucks.  Funny, I don't know why I was having such a hard time this year setting my goals. I have to admit I set some pretty lofty goals for 2014 and I didn't achieve them all, I had great goals but didn't have a good plan to achieve them all (so this year I have timelines for achievement).

I even saved silly encouragement for when I have a hard day!

I am excited about one goal in particular, scripture memorization...  I am following this with Beth Moore.  I prayed about whether I should just play it by ear and just let a scripture speak to me or plan out the 24 scriptures I will memorize.  Some of them are long, and I may condense but maybe not... who knows! 

Here is my list... You can join me in doing this too (it's really Beth Moore's gig) memorize these scriptures or pick your own :)

I hope that you had a great 2014! And I hope that 2015 is filled with love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self control.  May your fruit be ripe and never thrown at anyone!
Galatians 5:22-23 ESV But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law.
1 John 4:8 ESV Anyone who does not love does not know God, because God is love.
1 Peter 4:8 ESV Above all, keep loving one another earnestly, since love covers a multitude of sins.
Galatians 5:22 ESV But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,
Romans 8:6 ESV For to set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace.
1 Thessalonians 4:4 ESV That each one of you know how to control his own body in holiness and honor,
1 John 4:7 ESV Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God.
Ephesians 4:1-3 ESV I therefore, a prisoner for the Lord, urge you to walk in a manner worthy of the calling to which you have been called, with all humility and gentleness, with patience, bearing with one another in love, eager to maintain the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace.
Romans 13:10 ESV Love does no wrong to a neighbor; therefore love is the fulfilling of the law.
Ephesians 5:9 ESV (for the fruit of light is found in all that is good and right and true),
Colossians 3:14 ESV And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony.
Matthew 7:15-20 ESV “Beware of false prophets, who come to you in sheep's clothing but inwardly are ravenous wolves. You will recognize them by their fruits. Are grapes gathered from thornbushes, or figs from thistles? So, every healthy tree bears good fruit, but the diseased tree bears bad fruit. A healthy tree cannot bear bad fruit, nor can a diseased tree bear good fruit. Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire.
1 Corinthians 13:13 ESV So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.
2 Peter 1:1-21 ESV  Simeon Peter, a servant and apostle of Jesus Christ, To those who have obtained a faith of equal standing with ours by the righteousness of our God and Savior Jesus Christ: May grace and peace be multiplied to you in the knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord. His divine power has granted to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, through the knowledge of him who called us to his own glory and excellence, by which he has granted to us his precious and very great promises, so that through them you may become partakers of the divine nature, having escaped from the corruption that is in the world because of sinful desire. For this very reason, make every effort to supplement your faith with virtue, and virtue with knowledge,
Ephesians 2:8-9 ESV For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast.
John 3:16 ESV “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.
1 Corinthians 13:1-5 ESV If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing. Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful;
Colossians 3:4 ESV When Christ who is your life appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.
Luke 23:34 ESV And Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do.” And they cast lots to divide his garments.
1 Peter 1:3-9 ESV  Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! According to his great mercy, he has caused us to be born again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, to an inheritance that is imperishable, undefiled, and unfading, kept in heaven for you, who by God's power are being guarded through faith for a salvation ready to be revealed in the last time. In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith—more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire—may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ.
1 Timothy 5:12 ESV And so incur condemnation for having abandoned their former faith.
Colossians 1:10 ESV So as to walk in a manner worthy of the Lord, fully pleasing to him, bearing fruit in every good work and increasing in the knowledge of God.
Isaiah 9:1-7 ESV But there will be no gloom for her who was in anguish. In the former time he brought into contempt the land of Zebulun and the land of Naphtali, but in the latter time he has made glorious the way of the sea, the land beyond the Jordan, Galilee of the nations. The people who walked in darkness have seen a great light; those who dwelt in a land of deep darkness, on them has light shined. You have multiplied the nation; you have increased its joy; they rejoice before you as with joy at the harvest, as they are glad when they divide the spoil. For the yoke of his burden, and the staff for his shoulder, the rod of his oppressor, you have broken as on the day of Midian. For every boot of the tramping warrior in battle tumult and every garment rolled in blood will be burned as fuel for the fire.
Psalm 92:13-14 ESV They are planted in the house of the Lord; they flourish in the courts of our God. They still bear fruit in old age; they are ever full of sap and green,

Sunday, December 28, 2014

A journey begins with a single mapmyrun

I've been thinking about training for the half marathon... I really loved running. I didn't always love running long distances but I always felt great afterwards. 

Thinking about how much hard work it is to get ready for a half marathon and I'm on the couch... I mean I'm not out of shape, I'm just the WRONG shape. 

But you know who has the power to change all that? Me. 

All of sudden I remembered that I kept the book "non runners guide to marathon running". I remember how encouraging the book was. So I pulled it out... And today I started...

I walked and ran (a little, very little) I'm trying to start safely. The whole time I was praising God. It was so great! There were a few moments when my self talk got a little negative and i shut it down with scriptures.

I was thinking about a few years ago when something awful happened to someone I loved and instead of hitting the fridge, or doing something else destructive... I went and ran. I went and prayed during that time. God has done some amazing things in my life when I've been running, I'm a captive audience ;)

I'm excited about this new adventure though not exactly excited about running during the winter! 

I felt so great after going out today, I forgot how great that it feels to push myself, and maybe i wasn't the fastest ever but it's the first step!

Here's something crazy... I just went to get this exact scripture and it's my devotional scripture of the day <3

Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 3:13-14 NIV)

Thursday, December 25, 2014

Merry Christmas!

We had the best couple days!! We could have probably spent more time at my step brothers house but it's hard when we have two places to go!

It's so funny because when Phyllis was younger it was absolutely nuts!!! We had so many places to go, church, presents, more places Togo by the time it was all over with I needed a week's vacation to be recuperate!

Now, it's about presence with our family and still some gift but it's about time together!

We got home and I've already got one tree down and the other one won't be far behind! I will spend the rest of my vacation doing fun things, relaxing, setting my goals (I didn't do them in September like I usually do).

I'll clean the house and just get things how I like them <3!! I love time off with little plans. I try to get something accomplished and do something fun every day!!! 

I've enjoyed looking for Emmanuel and finding Him in my everyday. I've found Him looking and I've run smack right into Him. I think this Christmas I'm most thankful for His gift of peace this year! I've been known to be wound pretty tight and with some big things lurking just around the corner in 2015 I'm thankful for the peace He brings and I'm thankful for the Gifter of peace. 

Merry Christmas! May your 2015 be filled with Him. He's here. God is with us. 


For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace. (Isaiah 9:6 NIV)

Monday, December 22, 2014

Looking for Him in planning

If you know me I am always planning for the next thing. God made me with some mad organizational skills. The plan A B C and sometimes all the way to Q. Sometimes I can't even help myself. 

I even have my vacation planned out to June.

January a trip to Colorado
March/April to Haiti
May to NYC 
June back to Colorado for a mission trip to Denver :)

Much past that I don't have planned. lol but I do have days tucked away for a buckets retreat if we have another Buck Rogers/wine 5k planned. 

I have started cleaning out to simplify my life in order to move at some point  maybe in two years. I have way too much stuff and I've actually been able to part with much of it. It's been freeing.

The problem with being a planner is that I like to have an end in mind. For winter retreats we pray for kids saved, mission trips we pray for kids to come (and adults), I plan for meals, I have an end in mind. But to be honest I feel kind of open ended and that's an uneasy feeling. What's Your plan God? You know I'll go wherever You lead but can I have a hint? 

Where will I live?
Will I be married?
Will I still work where I work?
Are You gonna blow the doors open to the community center?
Will I feed neighborhoods with the community garden?
Will the provision You give lead lives to You?
What church will I remain in?
How will I serve there?
Should I join a small group?

Shhhh... I'll go where You lead, I'll do what You say.... Word of God speak!!! 

I keep looking for Emmanuel and I seem to find Him in the uncertainty of the future, I find Him in His faithfulness if the past, and I find Him in the now. I find Him in the plan of having no plan.

I don't know what He has planned... Until then... Late night walks dreaming of all the possibilities.

Friday, December 19, 2014

Christmas Holiday!

I am off for almost two weeks…  Christmas and New Year’s (and my birthday!!!)
I love this time off, mostly because it’s a time when I can do things that I can’t normally do because I am so busy.  So here’s a list of the things I’d like to do (and if you’d like to join me let me know!!)

I might not get everything done on my list but at least I have something to shoot for :)

Go to the DIA (it’s funnest when doing a scavenger hunt)
Go to Moo Cluck Moo (I have a groupon!)
Go to Charles H. Wright Museum of African American History (I have a Groupon for this)
Go to Detroit City Distillery
Go to Señor López Mexican Restaurant (I have a groupon for this too!)
Go to Buckley
Celebrate my birthday with Fondue (HAHA! I already have this planned!)
Make Carnitas
Take my tree down and clean house
Clean out more stuff
Get my old Barbies over to my friend’s girls
Go see Ethan!
Visit friends :)

Merry Christmas!  May your Christmas be restful AND FUN!!!!