Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Tuesday, July 31, 2007


There is this girl, man, oh man, do I love this girl. If I could have any daughter besides my perfect (HA) Phyllis (I only laugh because no one is perfect, but my little Phyllis, she's pretty awesome)... it would be this girl. I love this girl. She's got a heart of gold.

I met her one day at the building, when we were putting it together. I worked with her for a little while, she needed direction, a lot of it, and a lot of reminding to keep focused. But she wanted to serve. I remember that day... then she asked me if I would give her a ride home. She didn't even know me. I met her that day, and she didn't even know Phyllis, I was pretty new to the church. I don't know why on God's green earth she would have gotten in a car with someone she didn't know, but at least with me, she was safe (and she better NEVER do that again!). I took her home. She told her a few stories about her family, I must have prayed unceasingly for this beautiful wide eyed child. She didn't come from the best of backgrounds.

I've watched her in the last 10 months become... there's no word. But God has done amazing things in her life. Her and another kid organized 30 kids, yes, 30 kids to go to Grace Centers of Hope on Friday to serve where they are needed. Can I tell you, I am so proud!!! I did help out a little with some of the details, because it's the first one they ever organized, but they totally took the iniative.

If you know me, and most of you do, I may love big, but I am a little short on patience... I find it hard to have people other than Phyllis and a few others live with us because I am kind of particular about some things... This girl, we always joke that at 5PM "tomorrow" she will be moving in. I would take her in a minute. Maybe 30 seconds. God not only planted this girl in my heart, He rooted her deep in there.

I look at this beautiful young girl, who has been forced to eat more than her fair share of crap, and it's the really smelly kind, but NEVER once have I heard her make an excuse, she's the queen at overcoming obstacles, with a smile, she probably reaches up to God more times than we know. She praises through happy times.

I love this kid. Ashley, my darling, you are wonderful and I love you. There will always be a place for you to lay your head in our home.

John 1:12-13 “Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God— children born not of natural descent, nor of human decision or a husband's will, but born of God.”

Monday, July 30, 2007

Did you know?

Read my blog below for my actual entry today... but did you know that if you pre-buy Casting Crowns next CD at Family Christian, they send a copy to a member of the Armed Forces?

If I ran the zoo

I came across this book this weekend at the Rummage Sale, I had originally bought it for someone, it was in rough shape, but it was an original copy. It was going to be a surprise, someday down the road. I was enjoying the book with a 3 year old, the cutest little boy on the planet, Elijah. And he accidently ripped the pages when he was getting down. This may offend a lot of people, BUT first of all, I paid $.25 for the book (yes, I was going to give a gift that I paid $.25 for, it's the thought that counts and there was a lot of thought behind it) and secondly, it was an accident, and most importantly, we were reading the book! Books were made to be read, they were made to be used, and a well worn book is a road well traveled.

But the lesson that came from the book was great. If I ran the zoo said Gerald McGrew... it would be bigger and badder, and have the coolest animals from places YOU'VE never EVEN heard OF! I asked someone if they ran the zoo what would they do, and you know the answer "I would do it just like Dr. Current Zoo Runner". How is that for respect? I think that is the ultimate compliment. It seems that sometimes people come in and they think they can do it better, whether it's a birthday party or anything, but how about sometimes just giving credit where credit is due. This person I asked, is incredibly smart but never makes anyone feel stupid, and mostly, and one of his greatest qualities, he's incredibly humble.

It was a great lesson for me. Someone really wise (Katie) said "pride comes before the fall". I think its a great lesson that we need to learn. Be humble, boost others up instead of tearing them down. How great would the world be if we always boost each other up instead of beating and knocking each other down? I gotta remember this lesson.

Micah 6:8 He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the LORD require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.

Friday, July 27, 2007


Thank you MSUgal for tagging me, I didnt' know what to post today...

MSUGal has tagged me to write eight random facts about myself.

.I have to post the rules:
1. We have to post these rules before we give you the facts.
2. Players start with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
3. People who are tagged need to write their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.
4. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
5. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.In no particular order

1. I sleep with 5 pillows, two under my head, the rest randomly scattered in the bed
2. I love to watch General Hospital, I DVR it every night, and watch it while I get ready for work
3. When I was young, I wanted to be a teacher
4. I really like my new haircut
5. I love to Scrapbook even though I am not really that good at it.
6. I am addicted to serving God. I'm a LUV addict
7. I am predictable, usually, except when I'm not
8. Sara didn't really invent me

You are Tagged:

Mrs. Mac
Kaymac (are you still there?)

I can't wait until the Thailanders come home!! I haven't been posting my prayers but I am certain God is tiring from hearing from me...

Thursday, July 26, 2007


I never forget a face, sometimes a name, but not a face. I even remembered someone I hadn't seen since 6th grade and I was like 30. I totally remembered him when he walked in the Tiger Suite one year and I was there for work (I know... rough life :) )

But whenever I go somewhere, people always recognize me. This amazes me. Really, I don't think I am that memorable. I went to Grace Center of Hope last night, saw a few people I had met before and they are so welcoming, they always remember me. Cracks me up. I told them "I'm like a bad penny, you just can't get rid of me". One of the guys said "we collect pennies". HA! That was a good one.

I remember going to Metro, and Stacy, ALWAYS remembered my name! This just amazed me. Now that I co-lead first five, I still wondered how she did it, I meet 2-10 new people every week, it's so hard to remember their names. But I try!

At Grace Centers of Hope the pastor talked about... living our love for Jesus... ready for this... OUTLOUD. He talked about Baptism and how even though the water does not save you (only Jesus saves us) but that Baptism is a way to say to the world "I love Jesus, He saved me" OUTLOUD!

I think that God is giving me a message, keeping living Me outloud. I think it's awesome how He speaks to us in so many different ways.

John 17:24-26 24"Father, I want those you have given me to be with me where I am, and to see my glory, the glory you have given me because you loved me before the creation of the world. 25"Righteous Father, though the world does not know you, I know you, and they know that you have sent me. 26I have made you known to them, and will continue to make you known in order that the love you have for me may be in them and that I myself may be in them."
Ok, I know that picture is nuts! Cracked me up and literally made me laugh out loud! Just made me think... live your faith OUTLOUD, like underwear on your head!!

Wednesday, July 25, 2007


I think Pat's gone mad... honoring me on her blog. Let me tell you, I don't think I'm worthy, but THANKYOU for loving me with my whole heart! And thanks to Sara for inventing me, she has no idea how much she's gotten me to where I am today, I think Jesus will tell her someday...

My day didn't end with winning the contest. I also got an email stating that someone was going to leave us tickets for the WARPED Tour. Nice, I know, taking my daughter to a big rock and roll festival. Surely it will be nuts, and surely we will love it. Someone told me to play the lottery but the surest way to lose a dollar, is to play the lottery. So as "J" would say, I doubled my money by folding it in half and sticking it in the other pocket. It's a long story why someone was leaving me the tickets, I am SO not deserving, but thankfully we don't always get what we deserve :) The funny thing was that on Saturday Phyllis said she REALLY wanted to go, I said, "Phyllis we can't afford it, we're saving money, remember?" I know some don't think it's a God honoring event, I don't care. We're going, we're going to have a great time, we're taking some friends with us, we're going to fellowship, praise God for the blessing, sounds God honoring to me...

I read something yesterday, heard a few things on the radio and wondered, does everyone live their faith "outloud"?

I look at Sara who could have easily buckled under pressure, but she was convicted, she knew she was right, and lived her faith right outloud.

I think of Pat, who lives her faith outloud everytime she visits her mom, or does something for her mom or her family and friends.

I think of Deb who shows her daughter the love of Jesus that Miss O passes it along to strangers in the post office.

I think of Cheryl who loves her family like crazy, who lives out that love everyday.

And Heather who has made mistakes but she knows God loves her, and that new miracle will be loved like crazy.

Or Miss Terry who did something wonderful for me and she doesn't even know me. And she never misses a birthday!!

Mrs. Mac, I could dedicate a whole blog to Mrs. Mac who is a constant encourager!!

Arlene, who while being healed, helps bring Jesus to so many who need Him. ISAIAH 53:5
But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment of peace was upon him,and BY HIS STRIPES WE ARE HEALED

I know there is so much more! Sorry if I didn't mention you on blog, but you are in my heart!

I wonder, when you live Jesus outloud, do you realize it, or does it become so much of who you are that it's natural?

I think that at first, if you are a new Christian, it's a little more difficult because it's a new way. Sometimes it means leaving old friends behind, but I am telling you for every friend I pray for now but don't hang around with, I have 10 who are more equally yoked.

Decisions soon become easier to go the "Jesus" way but that doesn't mean easy, I just said "easier" because we remember the consequences more clearly, and we also know WHO got us out of the real danger.

I love living outloud. I think I have more joy than I ever did before. I think I have more love than I ever did before. And I know, I can feel Jesus a WHOLE LOT MORE than I ever did before.

James 4:7 (msg) So let God work his will in you. Yell a loud no to the Devil and watch him scamper. Say a quiet yes to God and he'll be there in no time. Quit dabbling in sin. Purify your inner life. Quit playing the field. Hit bottom, and cry your eyes out. The fun and games are over. Get serious, really serious. Get down on your knees before the Master; it's the only way you'll get on your feet.


Here's the essay that won...

Why I Walk by Margie Maierle

To try to put my finger on why I am walking in the 3 day breast cancer walk is like trying to nail down jello. There are so many reasons. I walk for those who have passed before us, I walk for those who have survived. I walk for those who held their breath during a breast exam or a mammogram, and who held their breath waiting for the results.

My mom died when I was 16 months old, she was 31. Both of these ages seem too young. I walk in the hope that one day I hope that I can truly celebrate Mother’s Day. I am a mother of a beautiful daughter, but when I think of Mother’s Day, I think of all the projects made for someone else, not my mom. I think of the flowers brought to her grave. I think of all the times when someone would hear that I didn’t have a mom and ask me about it.

I walk because the one thing my mother taught me long after she was gone was how much you can love your children. I walk in honor of my mom who knew love so big that she chose my life over hers. She didn’t have the option of treatment, She was pregnant when she found out she had breast cancer. Well, she had the option, but it would have killed me, because she was pregnant with me. She chose my life, in doing that, she chose to give up her own. She loved me before she knew me, that much. After she died, the doctor told my dad that even if she would have had the treatment, she wouldn’t have survived anyway, that was almost 33 years ago. In honor of her choices, I named my daughter Phyllis, after her. A name that in my mind, only means one thing, love.

For most of my life, I thought I would die young, I thought that before the age of 32, I would too, die. I celebrated my 32nd birthday, not my 30th. I held my breath the entire day that my daughter was the same age as me (to the day) when my mom died. It sounds silly, but to me, it didn’t seem silly. I walk so that Breast cancer will not be a death sentence. I walk so that no other child will know the pain of losing a mother.

I walk in honor of my dad, my cousins, my aunts, uncles, and all of my family who miss her. I walk in honor of my daughter who never had the opportunity to meet someone with that much love. I walk in honor of myself who has daily struggles of missing her mom, and misses that I can’t just pick up a phone and call her.

I walk for hope.

I walk for a mother’s love.

Tuesday, July 24, 2007


I am so excited!!

I won the essay contest I entered for my walk! Amazing. I can't believe it! So after my spaghetti dinner, whatever I don't make of the $2200, the contest will cover. What a relief!! I have to say that I completely wrote from my heart. I don't think I am that great of a writer (especially if you compare me to my sister Sara) but I love to do it. I can't believe I won! Amazing.

Yesterday at Fuel, I was walking in with one of my favorite 6th graders, actually she's going into 7th this year but for Small Groups she stays with the 6th graders until Fall. It's great because she's so open with her faith, she is not afraid to talk and helps the others open up. She reminds me a a star! She's bright and beamy. So we're walking in, she says "Margie will you Baptise me?" ARE YOU KIDDING ME? in my head I am thinking. I am so not worthy. But truly honored. Maybe it's not a big deal to everyone but to me, oh my gosh. It's such an important day for someone and SHE ASKED ME to share it with her!! My answer of course was yes.

1 Cor 2:9 No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him

Just looked up Biblegateway's verse of the day: “Good will come to him who is generous and lends freely, who conducts his affairs with justice.”- Psalm 112:5

Monday, July 23, 2007


There are many times I am accused of being too nice, for going out of my way too much. For being too thoughtful. For those of you who are laughing, stop.

There are many times when I turn the other cheek only to be slapped on the other. And most of the time I don't mind. Really, I just figure that it's a lesson I have to learn. that is until I completely as fed up, when I am handed a pile of crap, and then forced to eat it.

Have you ever seen my calendar? It looks crazy, hence, why I had to institute the "no leaving on Tuesday and Thursday" rule. We stay home those days. Sun, Mon we're busy, Wed we're busy, and then Friday and Saturday come, and we seem to always have something scheduled.

Hence why I tell people, if you want me to be at an event, you cannot wait until the last minute to invite us. And then if it's on a Sunday, it's probably really not going to happen (Regular Metro and Alive). I told you before, my family forgot to include me in the family reunion stuff, seriously, can't figure out how people forget me, but whatever. Then my family (dad's side) got together on Sunday, I got an email the Monday before. Way to go prior planning, last I heard, they were going to pick a couple dates, see what worked but apparently, that plan got thrown to the wind. That being said, Margie & Phyllis were not there. We all have to make choices in life, and my cousin (mom's side) was here from Nebraska and we only see her every 4 years or so. My issue is not that I had to make a choice, my issue is that I was forced to. I got a voicemail from my dad "don't be mad".

I wasn't. You know why? Because I am used to it. At least they invited me this year, last year, I found out because my dad didn't know I wasn't invited and asked me if I would take the cards or if I was picking up gramma or something.

I am learning that sometimes our families just don't care one way or another. Maybe it's one of those things that they think that I don't have anything to add or contribute, so why bother. Maybe they just don't like me. I have always felt like they didn't think I was good enough or I was the white trash in their pretty pictures. And you know, we all gotta be something (you probably won't hear me ever say this again) but I am not white trash. A few bad choices along the way, covered in God's grace, bought by His blood.

And here's the thing. I'm missing out, but THEY ARE MISSING OUT TOO! I don't know what their rationale is. I don't think I will ever know. But leaving me out only hurts everyone. It's hurts them, it hurts Phyllis, it hurts me.

So today, I am choosing to see myself the way God sees me. Not close to perfect, but loved just the same. By Him.

Psalm 13:5 But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation

Sunday, July 22, 2007

How does God speak to you?

God speaks me in so many ways. Sometimes in through song, through word, through hugs, and sometimes through purple daisies.

Let's start quite simply. I think satan is mad. I think I've pissed (sorry mom/Pat) him off, really bad. that little booger is using a lot of people to upset me, and yesterday, it was working. Even this morning, I was pretty much armed with everything because he was hitting me where it hurts.

I said last week that I was tired of people telling me I do too much for God. Back off jerks. I told you, I've the energizer bunny for God, I am going to keep going until I die from this world, get used to it.

Today during a song, God knocked me over and again, as He always does, blew my socks (ok, sequinned flip flops) right off. Then Jeremy said some stuff that probably was supposed to be about money, and our futures, and somehow, God's word stopped me dead in my tracks. I was going to send Sara an email when I got to the computer, but as always, she's better, and faster than me (and older! ha!) and she sent me one first.

I got about 10 messages from God today letting me know that no matter what EVERYONE else says, to remember that HE is first in my life and that if I follow Him, it's going to be better than great.

Romans12:2 Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Becky's talents

Now I have to post two today...

Becky has a million talents! And somehow she has no clue. Saturday's are list day but today is Sunday... I am going to do a list of Becky's talents... so she'll know.

1. She's a good prayer
2. She's an encourager
3. Food Preparer
4. Snack Deliver-er
5. Bring you down from the ceiling-er
6. Smile maker
7. Good mother
8. A joy finder
9. A good listener
10. A good friend

Thanks for today Beck, love you. Your tea-sista

Proverbs 17:17 A friend loves AT ALL times

Saturday, July 21, 2007

Somethings are better left with the dead

I went to a memorial service as part of the normal Wednesday service this past Wednesday. The pastor made mention of "why do you want to know why he died, so you can talk about it?" I am completely paraphrasing.

There are things about me that I hold very close, there are just things in my past that I struggle with because I never should have done them. That was before. It was before God moved in permanently to my heart and became my friend, savior, redeemer, and the whole ball of wax. I think, I KNOW, God has forgiven me, He has forgotten, and maybe someday those things will find their way out to help someone else come to know Jesus, but until then, I think I am going to put them where they belong, on the ocean floor until God decides He needs to use them.

2 Corin 5:16-17 16So from now on we regard no one from a worldly point of view. Though we once regarded Christ in this way, we do so no longer. 17Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!

Friday, July 20, 2007

What's your favorite gift?

I know that Pat got new doors... but that's not the kind of gift I mean. Of all the gifts that God has given to you, what's your favorite?

I love cooking, I love to give, but really my favorite gift is encouragement. Even though sometimes I don't always say what I mean but that I can help someone through a tough time or help them to see themselves the way God sees them, that's probably my favorite.

What's your favorite gift?

Romans 12:5-7 5so in Christ we who are many form one body, and each member belongs to all the others. 6We have different gifts, according to the grace given us. If a man's gift is prophesying, let him use it in proportion to his[a]faith. 7If it is serving, let him serve; if it is teaching, let him teach;


I'm ready for the weekend! No boating to be included in this weekend, what the heck? Just kidding! I am excited for so many reasons.

My cousin is here! Woo hoo!! I cannot even tell you how excited I am to see her! We don't see her that often, part of that is my fault because I never go see her in Nebraska, though she always invites us!

My baby cousin graduated from high school and we're having her graduation party, it's going to be great! I can almost guarentee I will eat too much, but what-eva!

I am going to GCofHope tomorrow morning to serve Breakfast and help with the rummage sale, I got a few bags of stuff for them. I love going there. I think if they are not careful I am going to become a permanent fixture there :)

And as always, we end our weekend with Alive! Can't wait to see the kids! After spending a week with them, I really miss them!!

I cannot lie, I am in the greatest mood!! I've been sleeping great! I've been eating well, taking my vitamins, I feel like a million bucks!! God is good, all the time!

1 John 1:7 “But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin.”-

Lord, please watch over the Thailanders. Lord, I ask that around the world, please gag, tie up, and kick satan so that his plans may be bound. Lord, I ask that Your plans be loosened up and that the whole world can see ALL Your glory. Lord, please take special care of those I love. Lord, they need You! In Your Mighty Son's name, AMEN!

Thursday, July 19, 2007

For my girl, Sara...

I'm praying for you!

Fire Fall Down by CT & Hillsong

You bought my life with the
Blood that You shed on the cross
When You died for the sins of men
And You let out a cry
Crucified now alive in e
These hands are Yours
Teach them to serve as You please
And I'll reach out desperate to see
All the greatness of God
May my soul rest assured in You
I'll never be the same
No I'll never be the same
Cause I know that You're alive
You came to fix my broken life
And I'll sing to glorify
Your Holy Name
Jesus Christ
You changed it all
You broke down the wall
When I spoke and confessed
In You I'm blessed
Now I walk in the light
In victorious sight of You
Your fire fall down
Fall down
On us we pray
As we seek
Show me Your heart
Show me Your way
Show me Your glory

God above all the world in motion
God above all my hopes and fears
And I don't care what the world throws at me now
I'm gonna be alright
Hear the sounds of the generations
Making loud our freedom song
All in all that the world would know Your name
It's gonna be alright
Cause I know my God saved the day
And I know His word never fails
And I know my God made a way for me
Salvation is here
Salvation is here
Salvation is here and He lives in me
Salvation is here
Salvation that died just to set me free
Salvation is here
Salvation is here and He lives in me
Salvation is here
Cause You are alive and You live in me

It is not a human right
To stare not fight
While broken nations dream
Open up our eyes, so blind
That we might findT
he Mercy for the need
Singin Hey Now
Fill our hearts with your compassion
Hey Now
As we hold to our confession
YeahIt is not too far a cry
To much to try
To help the least of these
Politics will not decide
If we should rise
And be your hands and feet
Singing Hey Now
Fill our hearts with your compassion
Hey NowAs we hold to our confession
Woah-oh-oh,God be the solution
We will be Your hands and be Your feet.
Yeah, yeah
Higher than a circumstance
Your promise stands
Your love for all to see
Higher than protest line and dollar signs
Your love is all we need
Only you can mend the broken heart
And cause the blind to see
Erase complete the sinners past
And set the captives free
Only you can take the widows cry
And cause her heart to sing
Be a father to the fatherless
Our savior and our king
We will be your hands, we will be your feet
We will run this race
On the darkest place, we will be your light
We will be your light
We will be your hands , we will be your feet
We will run this race for the least of these
In the darkest place, we will be your light
We will be your light

(Verse 1)Father true and merciful
Bound to me with love
Adopted in free from all sin
Jesus Saviour glorified
Your offering none could give
I stand before You humbled and in awe
And allTo You God
For all You are to me
(Chorus)There is nothing like
There is nothing likeYour Love..
Your Love
(Verse 2)
Holy Spirit gift of God
Teach my soul to soar
Train me in Your Holy ways oh Lord
I love you forever
I love you forever
I love you forever Lord

Set this place on fire
Send your spirit, Savior
Rescue form the mire
Show Your servant favor
Yesterday was the day that I was alone
Now I'm in the presence of Almighty God
yes our God, He is a consuming fire
And the flames burn down deep in my soul
Yes our God He is a consuming fire
He reaches inside and He melts down this
cold heart of stone.
Set this place on fire
Send Your spirit, Saviour
Rescue form the mire
Show your servant favor
Yesterday was the day that I was alone
Now I'm in the presence of Almighty God
Did you realize that inside you there is a flame?
Did you ever try to let it burn?

And lastly, one of my favorites, because darling, you are glorious!!

The day is brighter here with You
The night is lighter than it's hue
Would lead me to believe
Which leads me to believe
(chorus)You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
And I am Yours
What does that make me?
My eyes are small but they have seenthe beauty of enormous things
Which leads me to believe
there's light enough to see that
(chorus)You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
And I am Yours
From glory to glory
You are glorious
You are glorious
From glory to glory
You are glorious.
You are glorious

Blessing my socks off!!

I can't even tell you how much I have been blessed in the last week (ok my life but we are just talking about the last week).

I gotta tell you a couple of stories, so please bare with me.

First is Mrs. Kim MacNish. I met this wonderful woman when Lear acquired UTA. I was the executive assistant to a few VPs and had no idea how things worked about Lear, had complete knowledge of UTA, but this wasn't UTA anymore. I got the name of Kim from the VP who thought she was AWESOME, "Kimmy knows everything" and he was not wrong. Not only did Kimmy know everything, she was SUPER nice too. I had met her years prior but didn't remember because she was friends with my uncle who helped raise my mom but I met her when he was dying, like one time. So my cousin (my uncle's daughter) said if you ever meet a Kim MacNish tell her I said hello. Now, you know me, you can only imagine my "ohmygosh, she's the greatest EVER". Kim has continually supported me through the 7 years at Lear, she has given beyond my wildest dreams to my Breast Cancer walk, and I am completely blessed. Work is more than just a career, it's a place where we meet people that touch our hearts forever.

My cousin is coming in from Nebraska, and I am so excited!! Haven't seen her in awhile!! WOO HOO!! another blessing.

I have received so much support for my Breast Cancer walk, I cannot even tell you!! My heart is overwhelmed.

I started working with Grace Centers of Hope. It was a blessing serving. I love it there, it's a great place and have shown people the hope in the Lord that they might never have come across. Last night I went to their Wednesday Service. What a blessing!! I didnt' realize I met so many people because I must have said "hi" to what seemed to be a million people last night. But really, that was a blessing, but the biggest blessing came from the heart of Pastor Clark. Oh my!! That man can open his mouth, and the word of God just flows from it. He spoke of so many things, mostly about our faith in God. And how we live our lives for God. And if we truly put our trust in God. What a blessing last night was, a lot of people don't understand why I would drive all the way to Pontiac for a service, I don't understand why someone wouldn't drive all the way to Traverse City from Florida if God called them.

There are many more blessings going on in my life, I'll be praising God forever.

Psalm 30:12 Lord, my God, I will give thanks forever.

Lord, I ask the you bring safe food and water to the Thailanders. Lord, keep them healthy and strong in You to do Your works. Lord, help them to fall into Your arms for Your strength, because Lord, we know that we can do anything through You. Lord, I love you more than I could ever say, hear my heart, and speak to me, and Lord, speak loudly to them. In Jesus' mighty name, Amen.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Sleep! woo hoo!! Salvation, Thailand, & Arlene

I'm a total dork, thank you, thank you very much!!

I have slept good for the last two nights! I am so refreshed!

I was driving in today and had the Hillsong United CD, it's the Pink one, Look to You. I was JAMMING!! Loud, singing, be-boppin' whipped around the corner, think I actually scared some people standing there, but I wasn't even CLOSE to hitting them... SAALLLVVVAATTIIIOOONNN is here and it lives in me, I am sure I was quite a sight, I don't care. I was loving on Jesus, and if you don't like the way i drive, get off the sidewalk... lol... How can I not be excited about Jesus? How can YOU not be excited about Jesus? I can't get to Youtube from work, so the words will just have to do for today.

I am excited about my fundraiser spaghetti dinner, can i tell you, I thought I would be lucky if 20 people showed up, total, and I think I will have WAY more than that! how great is that? Even if I only make $20 total, the fact of all that love and support is COMPLETELY overwhelming.

The Thailanders have arrived in Bangkok, safe and sound. Thank You Jesus. Lord, it's just the beginning of this leg of their journey. Lord, I am so thankful to You for taking special watch over these, Your children. Lord, thank You so much for letting them do Your work. Let the lives they touch open their hearts to You. Lord, I ask wisdom to the leaders, I ask favor for all of them, and Lord, please keep them safe, place protection over them. In Jesus' loving name, AMEN.

Salvation is Here - Hillsong United

God above all the world in motion
God above all my hopes and fears
And I don't care what the world throws at me now
I'm gonna be alright
Hear the sounds of the generations
Making loud our freedom song
All in all that the world would know Your nameI
It's gonna be alright
Cause I know my God saved the day
And I know His word never fails
And I know my God made a way for me
Salvation is here
Salvation is here
Salvation is here and He lives in me
Salvation is here
Salvation that died just to set me free
Salvation is here
Salvation is here and He lives in me
Salvation is here
Cause You are alive and You live in me!!!
Isaiah 53:5 But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. -Romans 12:2

I know I already posted today. Sorry, I am all behind and have all this going on in my heart, and believe it or not, putting it on here helps me sort it out. I know it's dumb but this is my journal and I don't keep one anywhere else.

Here's the deal I am wore out with people around me telling me I do too much for God. They don't say the "for God" part but since I don't do much outside of church and home, that's all there is.

Most of you didn't know me before. You didn't know the person I was, you certainly don't know all the choices I made, and you may never know, but someday you just might.

I have been growing a lot in the last 2-3 years. I've figured out where to use my gifts and what I like to use them doing. I sometimes feel like my calling is ever changing. Doesn't mean that I love the things I did before any less, it just means that I am continually growing.

I've had to almost turn a deaf ear to those who say that I do too much. I think that I can't do enough, I think I just don't have enough time. I think about all God has done for me, how Jesus got up on the cross for things i didn't even do yet, He loved me that much!! Yikes! how can I even think of putting myself before that?

I think of Phil 3:12-14 12Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

I'll be like the Energizer bunny for Jesus. I will stop when it's time for Him and only Him to recharge my batteries. I will be still, when He calls me to be still. And I'll run like crazy until He brings me home!
I expected that there was going ot be something earth shattering that happened on a Mission Trip, you know like that big WHAM! but in serving God, there isn’t always a big WHAM! I know better, but I still expected it. Sometimes our job in the Kingdom is nothing like that. Sometiems we are just laborers whose job it is to just ‘do’.

I never look at myself as extraordinary, maybe extra-ordinary (you know like average) but not extraordinary. You know what I mean? Please don’t say that I am because that is not the point (you can tell me how great I am in another blog…lol…). I will probably never be a Pastor like the 3 J’s or Adam, I will never be a Worship Leader like Dean, Chad, Katie, Jon, Jim or Chris Tomlin. I probably won’t do something great like Grace Centers of Hope, but if God wants me to clean toilets, I’ll do it, if my job is to make my muscles big by making the biggest pot of oatmeal I have ever seen, I’m there.I guess I am ok with being an onion chopper, rummage sale worker, word doing person. I’m really sometimes thankful that God uses me all. I’m thankful that He loves me and LETS me do His work. I was talking to Katie & she compared the work we do to a little child who draws a picture for his/her mom and the mom smiles and puts it on the fridge. The mom could probably do a better picture and God, He can do ANYTHING, He doesn’t need us, but it’s great that He uses us. I think that God looks at what I do, and He smiles (at least I hope He does!)

I’ve learned a lot on the trip I just took. I’ve learned more about a God who gives 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 5th, 100th chances (and I am thankful for every one). I’ve learned more about Hope. I’ve learned more about the kids, and I’ve learned how important it is to pass on the gifts I’ve been given and to teach others, all of these things for the Glory of God.

Right now, I’ve got a lot on my heart. I kind of feel like I can see the path, more like I see the end of the path (not the end of my life, but the end of this leg of the path) but not the actual path. I feel like I need to be quiet for awhile at least take some rest in Him, hear His voice, time to spend more time in the Word. These are all going to take some rearranging of time, it’s going to take focus. I’m excited about new things, and I am excited about what God is going to do to me and through me, all for His Glory.

1 Sam 16:7 The LORD does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart."

Lord, I am asking that You give peace to the families and friends of the Thailanders. Lord, the Thailanders are arriving today after a long journey please give them strength, team unity, and Lord, let the work they did to prepare for this trip stay with them for Your Glory. Open the hearts of all those around them. Lord, we love You, see our hearts Lord, and help us to do Your will. In Jesus' Mighty name, Amen.

Monday, July 16, 2007

A big day of prayer

Today the Thailanders leave for Thailand. How exciting!! I have a whole prayer list for each day and another one coming that is a little more specific.

I've got a lot on my mind as far as me. I've got Sara on my mind, as I usually do.

I've got a plane full of kids and adults that I love more than I can tell you on my heart and my mind. Not to mention all those i love that are around here (including blog land).

I can tell you this, satan will try to stop all of us. he doesn't like what we do or why we do it. This I know, Jesus is amazing, His love and grace astonish me.

Heavenly Gracious Father, I come to You because You are a God of all. All knowing, all loving, all sin covering, and all safety. Lord, I ask that today especially, You lift us up, You carry us through, and Lord, keep those Thailander's safe, let customs go smoothly, let it be a smooth flight, Lord give them rest on the plane, help them to get their safely and ready to do Your work. We love You Lord. In Your Son's mighty name, Amen.

Sunday, July 15, 2007

Being a good steward

If you live in the Detroit area, you know what a beautiful day it is! If you have ever read my blog, you know how much I love going on the boat. I had to pass it up today. I can't believe it, but I did. I have too much to do. Maybe balancing checkbooks and grocery shopping will wait, i know they will wait, but I am trying to get my poop in a group. We were gone for a week, which means i didn't really buy groceries two weeks ago (except for the VERY essentials) so that nothing would go to waste. I am in need of a nap (I don't normally sleep, so if I need a nap, it's bad!) One thing I love and hate about me? I'm usually responsible. I get the work done and then I play.

I have some new things in my life that I need to squeeze in (my dad is going to pound me!) but I want to serve more at Grace Centers of Hope, I also want to check out their bible study on Wednesday nights so that means I need to get it together in order to not kill myself during the week.

We are learning at church about being good stewards of our money, but I also need to be a good steward of my time as well. So today I will enjoy my day by cutting the grass, grocery shopping, and snoozing on the couch. It'll still be a good day, because today is the day the Lord has made, let us REJOICE!!

1 Chronicles 16:31 Let the heavens rejoice, let the earth be glad; let them say among the nations, "The LORD reigns!"

Saturday, July 14, 2007

Things I learned this week

1. Teenagers are even more awesome than I thought
2. Rummage Sales are the greatest!!
3. Kids just want to be loved
4. If you have a gift from God and you teach someone else (such as cooking) the gift just keeps on giving
5. Lunch is not lost if the bolgna gets soaked in the cooler water
6. Kids like to work and see the fruits of their labor
7. When kids ask you crazy questions and your answer is "peanut butter and Jelly" every time, they will eventually stop asking
8. Love is all around
9. Grace Centers of Hope is even greater than I imagined
10. Hope is essential
Psalm 31:24 Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the LORD.

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Be the light

You go on Mission Trips for many different reasons, you learn even more than you ever thought you ever could. This is my first mission trip, and yesterday I was exhausted. I was tired of asking over and over for the same things to be done. I was tired of a lot of things, I haven't slept good in longer than a week. I even worked in the kitchen at Grace Centers of Hope so tired that I even had a hard time smiling.

Today, I am tired in such a different way. I wish that I could tell you in words what my heart is saying, my heart is aching. It's aching for girls who feel abandoned by their parents, for girls who have trust issues, for kids who have parents who may be getting divorced and they think it's their fault. And my heart aches go on and on.

I stand here today knowing that my dad didn't do everything right, but he loved me. I stand here today telling you that I don't do everything right but at the end of the day, I hope my daughter knows how much I love her.

I stand here telling you that I am a statistic. I am a single mom that by the grace of God is saved. I am the wretch the song refers to. I am those girls who have trust issues. Who for a long time blamed herself for her mother's death. I am someone who built up walls, who needed prayer who still needs prayer.

Katie was playing the song below on the piano as I started to blog. The songs words resinated through my heart. I am on my knees tonight in front of, behind, with these girls, crying with them and for them. Lord, they are the rays of sunshine that you made them to be. Lord, they shine brighter than all the stars in Heaven. Lord, in You, they have hope and a future. And Lord, Oh God, hold them in Your arms tonight, rock them to sleep, and Lord, let them feel that they are loved. In Jesus' loving name. Amen.

Eph 5:8 8For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Live as children of light

I need you by the Swift
My heart is restless in me
My wings are all worn out
I'm walking in the wilderness
And I cannot get out
I need You, Oh, I need You
Blessed Savior come
I need You, Oh, I need You
Fill the every longing in my soul
Oh, how I need You, Lord
I need Your perfect Word
With tearful eyes to see
The sin that I afford
I need to weep and pray
For all the thousand ways
That I have failed You just today
My bed is soaked with sadness
My sadness has no end
A downward spiral of despair
That I keep falling in
I need You, Oh, I need You
To You my soul shall fly
I need You, Oh, I need You
Yaweh, how I love You more than life
Your silence is like death to me
So won't You hear my desperate plea
Today my soul is soaring
Way over mountains high
Though I can see the valleys
They're all just passing by
It's not that I am stronger
Look at my feeble wings
But I've been lifted higher
Yaweh's lifted me in His own strength
Oh, how I love You, Lord
I love Your perfect Word
With tearful eyes to see The God who always will endure
Now I will celebrateFor all the thousand ways
That You have shown me grace
And made my heart in grace to stay
You've made my heart in grace to stay
Lord, make my heart in grace to stay
I need You, Oh, I need You


Maybe I am just too old for this type of thing...

I'm tired, sleeping on floors, staying up until midnight. I'm tired. I love these kids so much, but I feel like the biggest nag. I must ask for something to be done 5 times before sometimes it gets done. I want their trip to be great, but I don't want to have to do everything. I don't think they would get the point. I'm struggling. I love these kids so much, but I'm tired.

I don't want you to think it's been a bad trip, because it's been awesome. Working at Grace Centers of Hope has been an amazing experience, and whatever you think about them (assuming you think it's great), it's 10 times better than that.
The church that we are staying at is small, they are trying to grow. they are shackled by the "we've always done it that way" mentality but their pastor is amazing, I think His heart is as big as the block the church sits on.
I just keep thinking aobut GCH. I can't believe the bravery the people have their and the hope that in Jesus they will be healed of whatever their issues are. Some struggle with addiction, others just major pain. And when they walk through the doors, they have hope. Hope for a future, hope to get back on the plan that God has for them. There probably will be consequences due to their choices but because of this great place they will learn what is to be forgiven, and to forgive. They will learn the skills they need make it. The will learn Grace. Whether you want to believe it or not, it could have been you, and it certainly, on more than one occasion, could have been me.

This trip has taught me a lot, I've cried, and at one point, laughed so hard I fell off a pew, I've literally made 60 grilled cheese in 2 days. I can't believe what a blessing its been, driving an hour away.

Psalm 25:5 guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long.

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

For tomorrow...

Isaiah 53:5 But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed
The kids did one of two things, worked at the church where we are staying or went to the Salvation Army. I stayed back at the church, got ahead on the cooking so that tomorrow we just come and heat stuff up, dessert for hte next couple days is done. I spent the day in the kitchen doing a lot of nutty things because I didn't have all my stuff, had my trusty frying pan that I used for everything, and I used the coffee pot (you know those big suckers) for a strainer and the lid for a pot to boil potatoes. It was too funny. We had baked chicken, mashed potatoes, cheese potatoes, corn, and pudding pies. It was YUMMO!! If I do say so myself.

I went to go take a shower and suddenly I realized that I am only a mile from my gram's old church.... so down memory lane I went. The park on the corner, the mailbox that we always walked to after dinner. Funny things that just seemed to always happen.

It's been a blessing of a day, thanks for your prayers, I love you.

2 Cor 13:14 The amazing grace of the Master, Jesus Christ, the extravagant love of God, the intimate friendship of the Holy Spirit, be with all of you.

Monday, July 09, 2007

my kind of mission trip

DUDE!! I got a computer! well, I am using Collin's...

So we go to Grace Centers of Hope, they are having this HUGE rummage sale. I was looking through some stuff and thought, wow, that looks like some stuff I donated to SVDepaul. Yeah, they're partners, I ended up buying my own game back.

back in the day, my gram and I hit every garage sale ever, it would take us 2 hours to go 5 minutes because of all the stops... lol... When she died, I found these great dessert cups that had a million memories of a million scoops of ice cream. At Grace centers of hope, I found 2 more that completely matched! I am so excited!!

I am learning in big ways lately that being rich and famous isn't all it's cracked up to be, but love builds a legacy that lives on and on!

1 John 3:1 (you have to look it up because I can't figure out this Mac computer. 1 doz cookies to the first person who finds it and posts in the comments. NIV please.

Sunday, July 08, 2007

I'll be back...

Going on a Mission Trip to Pontiac... lol... yeah... I know (for those of you not in Michigan Pontiac is only an hour away!!)

No need to look to far to help those in need!

Pray for us! I've got a lot on my heart, hoping to get some answers while I am gone!

Love you!!


Saturday, July 07, 2007

Beautiful Day

I started my day walking 9.24 miles!! In 2 hours and 45 minutes!! Made sure I didn't get blisters and stopped for an ice cream on the way back. You know... Ice cream prevents blisters!

Making spaghetti for Brynne & Adam's wedding. If you would have asked me a month ago, I would have said no way... but... God gave me the talent, now I gotta use it... so spaghetti for everyone!

Enjoy your day! God is good, no, He's awesome!!

Beauty of Saturday

1. Flowers
2. Water on Grosse Ile
3. House on Grosse Ile
4. Fresh Veggies
5. Phyllis in her new dress
6. Green grass and blue skies
7. Brynne
8. THe sight of the van when we were done walking
9. Blueberries
10. The ENTIRE day!

Friday, July 06, 2007

I know you guys are so probably sick of hearing about my walk. You can click that little X in the upper right corner.

I've been just so blessed by millions of things during this walk. I can't describe how much I've been touched by each donation, even the the one can at a time donations, I've raised about $50 in pop can donations!! About double more than I thought I would get (and I still have a couple months to go). I am amazed by the generous people in my life.

The walking has also made me feel much better though the scale is not showing it. And that's a little discouraging but it's made me get a grip on my health, so I guess that's good too!!

The greatest blessing though, the one that hits my heart and can make me cry more than ever (which is quite a bit, thankyou)? It's the blessing that I said I wanted to walk for the Glory of God and His descision to bring my mom home. And it seems nuts, but that's what I wanted to do, I wanted to praise God in a storm, I wanted to change my heart for the anger and sadness that has hung around there too long. I wanted to not think when I hear people complain about their moms think in my head "how blessed are you, you got to know your mom". I heard someone speak the other day (Tawnya) and she said that she's still here because of all those who have died and survived before her. God's not done with her yet, and I would like to think that even though my mom is gone from this earth, that He hasn't finished using her love either. It's a crazy thing how long love can last. And God's not done with all that love.

Jer 31:3 The LORD appeared to us in the past, saying: "I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving-kindness.

Thursday, July 05, 2007


Summer is made for boating. Don't like that it messes up your hair? Get over yourself I tell you.

Back in the day of wood boats (we had two, Margie Lou IV & V) and small fiberglass ones (Margie Lou too, & Margie Lou 3) we boated in rain, sleet, snow (Ok, there was no snow but it's Michigan and it's entirely possible). It didn't matter. Times were much simpler. I washed my hair in the lake, we only used Ivory soap (it floated) and there were times when I smelled like smoke from the campfire all weekend after we pulled up and set up camp but slept on the boat!

I miss those days. I will be honest, I didn't even know people got married in the summer. Maybe my dad just told them, don't invite us, I didn't know about family reunions, because HELLO! we were on the boat. We left every Friday as soon as my dad got home from work and we rolled in Sunday night, tired as heck, just waiting for it to be Friday again!

I have the busiest of weekends coming up, blessings I am so glad I am not going to miss, but I long for simpler days. We're going out on Sunday after church, if only for a few hours (I have to pack for our Mission Trip that we are leaving for on Monday). I long for sunburns, and crazy hair, I long for that refreshing feeling of being all sweaty and jumping in the water to cool off. I long for a good book, and raft, and a diet pepsi. I even long for hauling up the anchor after a beautiful day out on the lake. I don't like to wish my time away, but I can't wait until it gets here!! Come on Sunday!!

Luke 21:29 (msg) He told them a story. "Look at a fig tree. Any tree for that matter. When the leaves begin to show, one look tells you that summer is right around the corner. The same here—when you see these things happen, you know God's kingdom is about here. Don't brush this off: I'm not just saying this for some future generation, but for this one, too—these things will happen. Sky and earth will wear out; my words won't wear out.

My Training

I walked 6.95 miles in 1 hour and 58 minutes (a little under a 17 minute mile)!! Not too shabby. I left a little late and ended up walking in the dark. Got stuck by a train, had to walk along the tracks, 3 blocks out of my way, which in a way was good because it was a little extra to my walk.
Did you know that Wyandotte hospital employees cannot smoke on campus, so they walk across the street... so those of us trying to get fresh air can gasp and choke through their smoke. maybe they should just quit... hhmmm....

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

in 12 days

Psalm 33:12 “Blessed is the nation whose God is the LORD, the people he chose for his inheritance.”

In 12 days we have 15 students/leaders going to spread the love of Jesus to Thailand. It's going to be a great trip for them, I know it. Last year, our Mac went, and we had specific things everyday to pray for, I've stolen Sara's list, modified it a little bit for this year's trip. They leave July 16 and return August 4th.

1. Bethany
2. Adam
3. Jessica
4. Ashley
5. Kirstin
6. Megan
7. Shannon
8. Penny
9. Jamie
10. Mark
11. Selena
12. Katie
13. Ian
14. Rita
15. Shane

Matthew 28:16-20 16Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go. 17When they saw him, they worshiped him; but some doubted. 18Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. 19Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."

Monday, July 16, 2007 Safe Flight, smooth sailing through customs
Tuesday, July 17, 2007 Peace for parents, family, and friends at home
Wednesday, July 18, 2007 Wisdom, favor, and safety for leaders
Thursday, July 19, 2007 Safe food and water, no illness
Friday, July 20, 2007 Satan's plans to be bound, God's plans to be loosed
Saturday, July 21, 2007 People of Thailand to receive salvation
Sunday, July 22, 2007 Kids & Leaders to understand the real meaning of "doing for the least"
Monday, July 23, 2007 Kids to receive a special blessing/lesson from a life they touched
Tuesday, July 24, 2007 Team unity
Wednesday, July 25, 2007 1/2 way mark - renewed strength and excitement
Thursday, July 26, 2007 Kids & Leaders to grow closer to God
Friday, July 27, 2007 God to reveal His plans for the kids lives
Saturday, July 28, 2007 God to use the kids in mighty ways to change the lives of the people they minister to
Sunday, July 29, 2007 FUN! Pray for joy in serving the Lord
Monday, July 30, 2007 Safety
Tuesday, July 31, 2007 Families at home to have peace
Wednesday, August 01, 2007 Team to have increased love for each other
Thursday, August 02, 2007 Quiet to Hear God's voice
Friday, August 03, 2007 Team to see the great works God did
Saturday, August 04, 2007 Safe Flight, smooth sailing through customs

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

For Arlene

Isaiah 53:5 But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed
Lord, we're marching for Arlene and her health, and for her family. Lord, give them the grandest of news!! Lord, walk before us, with us, and after us for our dear friend Lord. Hear my heart Lord, my words just aren't enough! Lord, I ask that You make Your presence known while Arlene is having her PET scan. Lord, I ask that if there is someone who needs to hear Your story, that You place them in front of Arlend and her family today for Your glory. Lord, watch over her, fill her with peace. Dear God, please... In Jesus' healing name. Amen.

Packin' Up

Do you know what the first thing I do when I'm hurt. I retreat. Some people run, I look inward, put up a couple bricks and run in a different direction (all this after I cry- sometimes at the same time). Yesterday, I was on my knees, literally, God, "what do You want me do?" I can easily walk away or I will stay if this is what You want. I really wanted the answer that said - go ahead and go, but that's not the one I got. In my heart I felt His words even though I didn't HEAR one. "I need you here" just speak up.

I know someone else who is going through a rough time, and I think they could pack up too, but for different reasons. I hope they don't but if God wants them to leave, I will help them pack.

It's a series of lessons, and from yesterday's post, there's no easy days. Do you sometimes feel like Stretch Armstrong? Resistant to the stretching and pulling that bring you to your best? I look back on my life, and even on the last year and all the growing and all the lessons, and I'm thankful for each lesson and each mistake that brought me a little closer to who I am today and the creation that God is making me to be.

I'm not leaving. My feet are planted firmly on this most amazing rock. The rock of peace, wisdom, and most importantly, salvation.

Matthew 24-25"These words I speak to you are not incidental additions to your life, homeowner improvements to your standard of living. They are foundational words, words to build a life on. If you work these words into your life, you are like a smart carpenter who built his house on solid rock. Rain poured down, the river flooded, a tornado hit—but nothing moved that house. It was fixed to the rock.

Monday, July 02, 2007

Easy days... yeah right...

"stop looking forward to easy days" - CM

Proverbs 13:11 Easy come, easy go, but steady diligence pays off.
We were in a sales meeting on Friday and the Vice President of our division said that in a meeting. It is so true. We work hard, at least I do. And he basically said that when you're in the trenches, and you get through it, there's usually another trench that needs digging.

You know like the times in your life when you think "if I just get through this, it will be much easier". I'll give you a quick example of potty training, we, as parents, think that if we can just get our kids potty trained, then it will be so much easier. Then you spend the next 1-2 years "checking out" every bathroom known to man (or woman!) because your child has to ALWAYS go to the bathroom!! Then it's off to Kindegarten, then grade school, and with each truimph comes a little turbulance.

Easy days never come. Jesus carries us through a lot of them, and each trench we dig out of has a lesson to help us with the next one.

I was talking to Phyllis about finances and the economy and our plan to save $X for the next 5 years for our next step. And I said it will take at least that long for this economy to turn around. She said, you mean it can get worse, "oh yes, huney, and putting away our money is the best way to prepare for it, just in case".

Most of you know my philosophy on me & Phyl, I'm her mom, but we're a team. Every team must have a leader. This leader has shown her what it's like to live paycheck to paycheck, not a very good lesson, I might add, BUT soon, I will be showing her what it looks like when you save and how money may not buy you happiness but it sure does help with the worries of paying for necessities.

I don't know if my plan will look like I expect in 5-6 years, I know this, I will if it's God's plan. I may end up in 5 years with a big fat nest egg. Not really sure. But it begins with a small step in the right direction, and it also means that I will stop looking forward to easy days.

Proverbs 6:6 You lazy fool, look at an ant. Watch it closely; let it teach you a thing or two. Nobody has to tell it what to do. All summer it stores up food; at harvest it stockpiles provisions. So how long are you going to laze around doing nothing? How long before you get out of bed? A nap here, a nap there, a day off here, a day off there, sit back, take it easy—do you know what comes next? Just this: You can look forward to a dirt-poor life, poverty your permanent houseguest!

Before & after

Got my hair cut on Saturday, totally love it! Erica @Ventura's in Dearborn did it, go see her, you'll love her!!