Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

put your money where your mouth is...

There are a few lessons that I know... 
You don't need someone to say they are sorry to forgive them.  Forgiveness is sometimes more for the forgiver than the forgiven.   
If you give something, that is between you and God, and what the receiver does with the gift is between them and God.
Never give anything that you can't do without. 
Its not the healthy who need a doctor...
Out of the overflow of your heart, your mouth speaks.
Its just tile

Doesn't mean that any of these are easy when given the opportunity to use them, but thankful I know them and got to put them to practice today.

you gotta start somewhere

So I gained like 8 pounds since 'falling off', still down 9.6 and I'll call that a victory!  And I'm calling it a victory that I am 'back to it'.  Its really been hard since my kitchen is a mess, but I can take snacks with me whereever I go... celery and apples seem to be my favorite snacks these days!

Another thing that is difficult is that to eat well is not cheap.  Friday I need to make dinner for everyone in the Good Friday production, well, I don't have to, I want to, the problem is that I have to make something different for them than I make for me.  I think I'm making them mostacolli, I'll probably have salad with chicken.

So... I'm working on it, working on my heart, and my body.

Monday, March 29, 2010

its coming...

I came home to my cabinet up, and the floors in the kitchen and the landing are done.  I was able to bring my canned goods upstairs. YEAH!

I know that the sanding is not done, but I just couldn't stand it anymore, I wiped down the cabinets, and the floors.

Everything should be done on Thursday!  I'll never be so happy to clean :)

Getting back on track

so I started this journey in October 2009, I've been up and down, and for about a month, probably more up than down.  It's been difficult because my schedule is not really permitting me to make it to my WW meetings on Saturdays, but that's really just an excuse.  I've changed my weigh in days to Fridays to be accountable because I need that. 

I've also been back to "Dr. Voodoo" who is a chiropractor and he also sells nutritional supplements, I actually feel better than I have in probably a year. Eating back the way I should, naturally, as 'The Jillian' (that's what I call Jillian Michaels) says "if it doesn't have a momma or come out of the ground you shouldn't eat it"

I'm really feeling well, funny swallowing all those supplements again.  My mood is better, I have more energy, sleeping better. 

Dr. Gill (aka Dr. Voodoo) said the other day "eat right and the pounds will melt off of you" and so that was all the re-motivation I needed. 

So hear I go... again...

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Mildred's other surprise!

I love Mildred, I'd rather drive her than Patricia, but during the week, its Patricia because she gets better gas mileage.  Today I took Mildred to Walmart and I opened  the back to put my groceries in, and lo and behold, Mildred had these cool molded things to hold the plastic grocery bags.  I was so excited.  Thank you God for continually surprising me and blessing me over and over!!

Saturday, March 27, 2010

when you make plans... God laughs...

1.  Get Sarah's passport - no check
2.  Work at the musical - no check
3.  Make noodles - no check
4.  Grocery Store - no check

I like to check boxes.  It's what I do. 

I had the day planned that I would take Sarah to get her passport today, or at least send it out in the mail.  WRONG!  Due to some unforeseen circumstances, no luck.  However, I did get to spend 3 1/2 hours with her and 1/2 hour with her mom, talking about Jesus.  That was cool.

I got a text last night asking me to do words, they didn't really need me at the musical, so I did that instead.  It was such a great service and so glad to be at the first night of Saturday Experiences at Metro!

I was gonna make noodles, ok, boil them for dinner tomorrow...  no such luck.. because why?  I didn't go to the store...  so tomorrow.

What a great day!  I love when we make plans and God rearranges our schedules.

BTW countertops are being made tomorrow!!! it's almost done!!!  YEAH!!!

Pictures are from the outing of Sarah & me!  The smaller building is the old Johnny's Ham King, where if you asked the guy for a substitution, he'd yell at you 'this ain't burger king, get out!'

Friday, March 26, 2010

overflow, baby!

I'm crabby today, for no other reason that I just didn't get enough sleep this week.  Ok, and that my kitchen is tore up.  And my house is a mess....  I'm just trying to be quiet.  At one point I got up to go tell someone off, I was stomping, and then...  I simply sighed and sat down.

I'll tell you the truth, this is so weird to me.  I didn't think that not swearing would be such a big deal, I too have said "its only words" but really, its kind of odd, I don't even really think the words that much.  Though I am sure that people think I'm a little weird when I call people 'knuckleheads'.  Or when I just order the headset for someone who talks on their speaker phone too loud.  

There was one moment yesterday when this guy in a really ugly coat tried to shove me and Phyllis into a wall that I ALMOST told him off but I just held my ground and kept walking.  Weird.

Did you know me before?  I'm betting that if you knew me in Dearborn I bet you think I was nice (I had the biggest purse everywhere, and always had everything in it, just in case you needed it), I bet if you knew me after that... not so much.

If you knew me in Lincoln Park, the whole 'overflow' thing completely applies.  I hated living in Lincoln Park when we moved here.  I didn't want to be away from my friends, I had reverse culture shock.  In Dearborn it was very diverse, I never looked at someone else's skin, religion, race, clique as a way to judge them, and I really don't think anyone I knew did either.  I still don't.  You win or lose on your own merit.  When I moved to Lincoln Park, it was a bunch of white people...  very cliqu-ee and there was a bunch of wanna be thugs.  I remember talking to this one kid and he asked me if I wanted to go 'coon hunting'.  My response 'there's racoons in Lincoln Park?' Seriously, that's what I said.  He said "no, we're chasing the blacks (though not the word he used) out of Lincoln Park'.  My answer "NO WAY, ARE YOU NUTS, THAT'S WRONG!?!?" Welcome to Lincoln Park High School.  I did things like wore my Fordson Jersey on Fridays, oh, there was a huge issue with Fordson and Lincoln Park the year before.  Lucky me.  I did find some really good friends, but a chip on my shoulder I had.  The overflow of my heart spoke really loud. I was a jerk.  I think in a lot of ways if I'm being honest, I thought I was better than them because I wasn't from Lincoln Park.  Funny now, because I still live in Lincoln Park.  I still do say "just cuz your from downriver, doesn't mean you have to act like it".

It took a long time for me to figure out who I really was/am (in Him).  When I look at people now and their attitude, I instantly think "out of the overflow of his heart, his mouth speaks".  It's amazing how different my overflow is when dealing with theirs... 

What's your overflow?

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Waiting... and being silent

Ok… so if you know me, you know that most of my life I have loved structure. I love the tradition of the old church, because there is something to be said for knowing what’s going to happen next. But never let the tradition squelch the Holy Spirit. The funny thing is that this post has nothing to do with church, but it’s just an example.

If you understand that, you understand that I’m seriously trying not to lose my mind with a tore up kitchen. You must also know that I love my kitchen, even when it was ugly. Even at its ugliest.

Yesterday I came home to underlayment being down on the landing and the kitchen! Woo hoo!! Tile soon!! The opening is being prepped for completion. Its coming along until… Home Depot ordered the wrong laminate… oops!! Ok. Really, not the end of the world. Will anyone die? Nope. Is it annoying? Yes. But really, seriously, it was just a mistake. I think the guy on the phone thought I would go off on him, but I didn’t., it truly was an error. How about we just have a little grace… and so… I did. Ended up with a credit because they charged me for the more expensive laminate too, but I didn’t know there was a price difference. So woo hoo!!

And then… someone asks me to do them a favor because someone else couldn’t. Did I want to? No. But I said I would. Then while I was doing something else, the original person did it, but no one told me, so I got knee deep in it, had to double check something, and it was done. In my head I was thinking (very loudly), “ARE YOU KIDDING ME!?! SERIOUSLY???”

And everyone thinks I’m gonna lose it on someone, and I might have dropped some F bombs prior to all this, but I didn’t. I just simply breathed, sighed, and moved on. But this I’m telling you… I don’t know how long this will last – meaning me not freaking out… but I’m trying. And somedays I’m more trying than others.

Thank God for nutritional supplements, or someone might be hurt.  And I'd be spending the next 5 days telling them, and God how sorry I am...

Micah 7:7 But as for me, I watch in hope for the LORD, I wait for God my Savior; my God will hear me

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

For Jack!! Red Velvet Cake

2 tablespoons unsweetened cocoa powder
2 ounces red food coloring
1 cup buttermilk
1 teaspoon salt
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
1 c oil
2 cups white sugar
2 eggs
2 1/2 cups all-purpose flour, sifted
1 1/2 teaspoons baking soda
1 teaspoon white vinegar
1 cup milk
5 tablespoons all-purpose flour
1 cup white sugar
1 cup butter
1. Grease two 9 inch round pans. Preheat oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C). Make a paste of cocoa and food coloring. Set aside.
2. Combine the buttermilk, salt and 1 teaspoon vanilla. Set aside. In a large bowl, cream together the shortening and 1 1/2 cups sugar until light and fluffy. Beat in the eggs one at a time, then stir in the cocoa mixture. Beat in the buttermilk mixture alternately with the flour, mixing just until incorporated. Stir together baking soda and vinegar, then gently fold into the cake batter.
3. Pour batter into prepared pans. Bake in the preheated oven for 30 minutes, or until a toothpick inserted into the center of the cake comes out clean. Allow to cool completely before frosting. Refrigerate until ready to serve.
4. To Make Icing: In a saucepan, combine the milk and 5 tablespoons flour. Cook over low heat, stirring constantly, until mixture thickens. Set aside to cool completely. Cream together butter, 1 cup sugar and 1 teaspoon vanilla until light and fluffy, then stir in the cooled milk and flour mixture, beating until icing reaches spreading consistency.
Do I often realize how blessed I am? Probably not as often as I should! A rug got all jacked up in my washer, first of all, you know I’m blessed to have a rug or a washer, and I have both?! But anyway, how inconvenient… and then add to the list of blessings that someone came and fixed it for me! I just can’t do that stuff, and no one in my household can either. So blessed to have my washer back!

For the next few days I won’t have use of my kitchen. New flooring. Yes, its inconvenient, my house is a mess. It’s a mess because I just have too much stuff. I have 4 kinds of flour for crying out loud! I’ve got tons of pots and pans and lets not even go there with kitchen gadgets… sheesh! And hello! I’m getting a new floor just because I don’t like it! And new countertops! I am SOOO blessed.

And hello… I have TWO vehicles. Patricia (the corolla) and Mildred (the mini-van) – we have to name our cars… it all started with gramma!

I could probably go on for days about the blessings I have. Sometimes I look back and think “wow!” I mean just the whole minivan thing, people think I’m nuts because I’m excited to have a grocery getter, and its not even brand new! HA! I think that I am kinda weird, but if you only knew how great it was to get the girls all piled in Mildred, go to the park, enjoy a beautiful day and one of God’s greatest creations (Dairy Queen) with God’s greatest creations (my girls)! I know that the ‘things’ of this world will never satisfy us, but when God blesses us with those ‘things’ so that we can focus on the things that matter, Him, His love, doing things for His Glory, directing people to Him so He can move in their hearts.

Ever answered that question… what do you do when you’ve gotten everything you ever wanted?

I think of Psalm 37:4 Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. I think that sometimes people think that scripture means God will give you what your heart desires, I think about it like God will give you the desires… If you delight in Him, won’t what He wants become what you want? He wants to be worshipped, you’ll worship Him, He wants to love, you’ll love and be loved, He wants those far from Him to draw near to Him, you will want those you love (and don’t) to have a life that only He can give them. And in all that, He will make sure that He gives you want you need to do to fulfill the desires He has given you.

So what do you do when you’ve gotten everything you’ve ever desired?

You praise Him! Because He is worthy!

Psalm 48:1 Great is the LORD, and most worthy of praise, in the city of our God, his holy mountain.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

To wrap or not to wrap

I hate buying wrapping paper. I hate buying those bags things, but I hate buying bags less than wrapping paper.

I've decided that gifts now should come in those recycle bags from wherever (Meijer, walmart, Joann). I don't care if its a baby gift, a wedding gift. THey can be reused. Some stores give you a 5 cent credit if you bring your own bag, some stores like Aldi's charge you if you have to buy a bag.

So I might seem like a dork, and that's because I am one, but I don't care! Its practical, its cost saving, and its saves the environment.

Be the change you want to see in the world ~ Mahatma Gandhi

Monday, March 22, 2010


I can't wait til the kitchen is done!  Day 1, I'm hoping its done by Easter!  I am sure it will be, I want to have a BYOHBE Party! (bring your own hard boiled eggs) so we will see!!!

you can check out the progress at this website

Sunday, March 21, 2010


I have regrets about redoing my kitchen.  Dumb, huh? 

I guess when I moved in this house, it wasn't perfect, but it was home.  It's not fancy, but its home.  There are mismatched picture frames and a giant pink piece of paper that says I love you, and scripture verses on 3X5 cards taped to the cupboards, my friend Amanda has made (or her beautiful daughters) things that I have put up, a card that my sister Sue wrote, a card that my friend Marliyn gave me that's taped to the door jam. 

I feel like my house is transforming, but I like the way my house looks, and I'll like the way it will look when its done.  But its making me sad to think that some of those things are coming down, and won't go back up.

Fake it til you make it

I struggle with this...

I think sometimes when our flesh is fighting our spirit, and we just don't want to do what we should do, we need to fake it til we make it.  Fake it til our flesh catches up with our spirit.  However, sometimes when its just words, people notice, and they know we're struggling, they know that our words are fake, and it makes us look like a hypocrite.

Sometimes I think we just need to say "this is who I want to be, I'm not there yet, but that's who I want to be!  I'll get there.  By the grace of God go I."

Dear Jesus, Your love is better than life!

Matthew 10:39 Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it

Saturday, March 20, 2010


1. Baptism!!!!!
2. Potluck - Pasta with Pesto, Chicken, veggies. Peach cupcakes!
3.  Kitchen Construction starts Monday!!
4. New Sink/Faucet
5. Once Upon a Mattress
6.  New CDs came in the mail, Israel Houghton (2), Brooke Fraser
7.  New Prospects
8.  A choice about what vehicle to drive
9.  God's moving!!
10.  Love!

“Like newborn babies, crave pure spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation, now that you have tasted that the Lord is good.”- 1 Peter 2:2-3

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

How He loves me

So many people say to me that I'm such a blessing.  I think they don't really know me... lol.

We took our first (of many) 9th grade life group field trip. We did scripture races on the way to the park, and then to diary queen.  And on the way back, we sang "He loves us" and as I was driving I was just thinking how blessed I AM!  It was so awesome that I could get Bri's wheel chair in the back of my new van.  I was thinking how blessed I am to love these girls, and how blessed I am that they know I love them.

I seriously don't know how people don't like teenagers.  Sure, I'd like to get the spoon out, but really, they are awesome!  They are sweet, and beautiful, and I just can't believe how blessed I am.  I think of the things I've done, and I just think of the part in the song,

"I don't have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the way.... HE LOVES US!!!

I don't deserve it... but I'll take it.  I can't think about those things that happened before, I'm focusing on how HE LOVES US!!
1 John 4:9 We love because he first loved us.

I'm only one person, and I'm a good mom!

"A mother is she who can take the place of all others but whose place no one else can take." -- Cardinal Mermillod

I’m only one person. I know ‘surprise’.

Normally on Thursdays I clean up, after about 4 days of running, our house looks like Hurricane Busy Hit it. Well, I’m just gonna tell you that a lot of times, I sacrifice fun for cleaning or responsibilities. Whatever they might be or what might need to be done.

This weekend, I had one of the best weekends I’ve had in a long time. Nothing crazy, no crazy drinking/partying, it was just good ol’ fashion love at its finest. Now, I will tell you, I did have a longer than normal weekend so that made it even better!

Saturday morning/afternoon hung out with Pean (Phyllis), Saturday afternoon I picked up Phyllis, Emiwy, Rosie, and Melissa, we went to Joann’s, Carinos, they dyed shirts, and we had a good time. Sunday, church, Sarah/shopping/Alive, amazing. And Monday, was spent getting tires on Patricia (that’s what Phyllis named the Corolla), Roma’s, a new (to me) mini-van, running around, foos balls, and ending with my favorite boys and my dear dear friend!

Needless to say, I slacked off on my duties. And yesterday, after spending 2 hours cleaning house, picking up, packing up the kitchen, matching Tupperware, I was just too darned tired to make 100 cupcakes. And so I did something I normally don’t do, I bought cookies. Lots of them. They whole time I was talking myself off the ledge saying “buying cookies doesn’t make you a bad mom, a bad steward of your money but not a bad mom” and really, I was going crazy in my head “what kind of mom are you?” and let me also say this, if you buy your cookies instead of making them, I don’t think poorly of you, I only hold that standard for me! I know that its not that big of a deal, but really, I was beating myself up pretty bad, and then I just finally said (to myself) “Sister, you can do what you can do” and just left it at that.

I know that I’m a good mom, not because of me, but because of the way God leads me. Buying cookies, or making them, doesn’t matter. It all comes down to love. And I love my daughter and on any given day, I do my best. And that’s all I can do.

I’m only one person after all.

"A mother's love for her child is like nothing else in the world. It knows no law, no pity, it dares all things and crushes down remorselessly all that stands in its path."  -- Agatha Christie

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

He's got my whole world in His hand

I guess it’s a good thing when God works on your heart and what is truly living inside you.

I had quite a morning this morning, not going to go into the details, but as far as jerks go, I could have won an award… And you know what the cool things is? My daughter was like – really mom? You’re being a jerk. She didn’t say that exactly but I knew exactly what she meant. And I must have said sorry to her 5 times! Because I really was! For out of the overflow of his heart his mouth speaks (Luke 6:45)

I am excited about my new van. But you know what crazy, even though I know this is totally a God thing, I’m scared because I’m thinking “it is used, something could go wrong”. And so I started to wonder… the overflow of the heart. People have asked me “are you afraid of being happy?” The answer “maybe”. Its like that question “what do you do when you have everything you want?”

I’m always waiting for the next shoe to drop, for the last straw that breaks my back, you name it. Maybe its because I’ve always had some kind of fear in my life. I feared my father would die, I feared something would happen to Phyllis because my sister died, I feared that something would happen to Phyllis and she’d be alone.

Maybe I have a fear issue or maybe I have a trust issue. I say that I believe that God provides, He protects, and yet, I still fear. UGH!

Josh 1:6-9 "Be strong and courageous, because you will lead these people to inherit the land I swore to their forefathers to give them. 7 Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. 8 Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. 9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

He says be strong and courageous. I want to believe Him. And some days I totally do, and sometimes I’m like really? Ugh. It makes me crazy. The things that are messed up in my life are because of me, or someone else. And here I am fearing. One of my favorite things I ever spoke on was ‘do not fear’, I think because the Lord spoke to me and then I felt like I breathed it right out.

Matthew 6:25-34 25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? 28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

I need to live in the moments that God gives us, to focus on the blessings that God gives to us, and not to worry about the things around me or what can or cannot happen. To remember that there is not a thing in my world that God doesn’t have His Mighty hand over.

Monday, March 15, 2010

My 'new' van

Things I love about my van:
No payment
God picked it just for me
I can get 6 of "my kids" in it
Sitting higher
My company worked on the OSRV (Outside Rear View) Mirror
I can go to Ikea and now worry about getting the stuff in the car

A couple of weeks I wrestled with God about letting me have a mini-van, I thought I found one that was perfect.  There was a lot that went into the reasons I didn't get it, but the main one:  I wasn't supposed to have it.  Maybe it was someone else's blessing.

But today, because God set me up, I got a new to me van. It's pretty blue, and I've been tooling around in it.  I take no credit for it.  It was all God. 

I can tell you, its not new, its got a few rust spots, but I love it.  I love that it was given to me by the best Gift Giver EVER!!

Psalms 71:8 My mouth is filled with your praise, declaring your splendor all day long

Friday, March 12, 2010


Luke 6:44-45
44Each tree is recognized by its own fruit. People do not pick figs from thornbushes, or grapes from briers. 45The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and the evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in his heart. For out of the overflow of his heart his mouth speaks.

Ok, seriously, are you ever just BLOWN away by God's Word?  I mean really, it speaks to me everyday.  I've given my words to God, He is in control of everything and now my words.  I've been doing well, i repeated (Like a parakeet) the poop word and I almost said the "F" word however after I got the fu sound out of my mouth I said "oh, I don't say that anymore".   And that was it. 

Yesterday after reading an email, I thought those words, although I didn't speak them.  And I instantly thought "For out of the overflow of his heart his mouth speaks." and I thought "yeah, I don't like her, I think she's an idiot" and then UGH I thought "she's made in God's likeness too"  UGH!! but really, I'm having a hard time... she doesn't give me all the information then she sends a CYB email (Cover Your Butt) to try to make me look bad.  But here's the thing...  I didn't let her make me look bad.  And I'm not going to let it bother me. 

Here's the thing, I've learned one very important lesson in life.  Eventually, the scum always rises to the top.  And for those of you who don't know, when you make chicken soup, for example, and you use a whole chicken or chicken parts and you boil it, there is this disgusting stuff that always rises to the top, I call it scum, and it's gross and foamy.  When making soup, you skim it off and discard.  And that's what happens in life, and I try to teach my girls (all my kids) that, when someone talks bad about you, or does something to make you look bad, or lies about you, you keep on the path, you do the right thing.  Because eventually, that person is found out for who they are, and your character is revealed.  That's just the way it goes. 

“Be more concerned with your character than your reputation, because your character is what you really are, while your reputation is merely what others think you are.” ~ John Wooden

But back to the overflow thing... I think that if your heart is overflowing with love, your words will be loving, and if your heart is loving, I believe that you will want to do the right things and your character will prevail!

I always think of my one friend who had an issue and she said "I'd turn in my own sister" and let me tell you, I was blown away by the character of my friend, that she knew right and wrong and would always do the right thing.  And really, I remember thinking, "her parents must be awesome!" (and they are!!).  and in case you're wondering... the truth really does set you free!

See, my friends heart, pure.  And loving.  and because Jesus lives in her heart....  For out of the overflow of his heart his mouth speaks.

Boy do I want to be like that.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Mountain Climbing

“Know therefore that the LORD your God is God; he is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love him and keep his commands.”- Deuteronomy 7:9

Sometimes we have mountains we have to climb. I know a lot of people climbing mountains these days.  When you look up at them, they seem impossible. I’ve never climbed a real mountain before, but in my life I’ve climbed quite a few. Never on my own. There’s a few things I know from my experience:

God is in control of all mountains. He formed them all. If He formed them, He’s more than capable of helping you climb them, He’s already got the path figured out, just go His way instead of your own, He’s got the best views in store for you at every level.

Gen 7:18-19 18 The waters rose and increased greatly on the earth, and the ark floated on the surface of the water. 19 They rose greatly on the earth, and all the high mountains under the entire heavens were covered. 20 The waters rose and covered the mountains to a depth of more than twenty feet.

He has the paths figured out, and He’ll give you the tools to get there. And never climb mountains alone. It’s not safe. Sometimes you don’t see the whole view, you need someone to check out the other way.

Proverbs 20:24 A man's steps are directed by the LORD. How then can anyone understand his own way?

Jer 10:23 I know, O LORD, that a man's life is not his own; it is not for man to direct his steps.

In weather that seems a little less than desirable, find Shelter.

Psalm 55:8 I would hurry to my place of shelter, far from the tempest and storm."

Isaiah 4:6 It will be a shelter and shade from the heat of the day, and a refuge and hiding place from the storm and rain.

Dress appropiatlely.

Eph 6:10-18 10Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. 12For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. 18And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.

Know who to follow, you should never try to climb a mountain by yourself, it’s dangerous!  And don't just follow anyone, find a good leader!

John 21:19 Jesus said, "Follow me!"

Know in all things, God will be glorifed!!

1 Peter 1:21 Through him you believe in God, who raised him from the dead and glorified him, and so your faith and hope are in God.

Long days...

I won't bore you with the complete details (but if you want to know you can ask) however yesterday was one of those long days.  The kind you know are going to be long so you put a lot of preparation into to make it the best it can be.  And then... while you plan, not only God laughs but so does everyone else.  And sometimes that just hurts.

Sometimes, especially when it's the week before Aunt Flo visits, its hard to hold it all together.  And its hard sometimes to say (or scream) "What about me?"  And then I remember, its not about me... its about Him

I've got to figure out some things, I've got to figure out what's best.  Really, I have to be quiet enough for God to speak and me to hear.  And I have to take the emotion out and be Purpose driven.  That's not always easy for me, but its not impossible, because what is impossible with man is possible with God.

So, if you get a minute, I need some wisdom.

Proverbs 4:6 Do not forsake wisdom, and she will protect you; love her, and she will watch over you

Tuesday, March 09, 2010

I’ll never be famous for my decorating. I find a frame, I buy it, I put a picture in it, that’s decoration… Or I find something, I like it, I put no thought about where it should go, other than ‘on the wall’.

That being said, I’m ripping down the wall between my kitchen and my dining room (well, not me, but you get the point). I picked the colors, the tile, and the counter top. Ok, I picked the colors (handfuls of them), 7 tiles, and 5 sample counter tops. I asked someone woman if one of the countertop laminates would go with my cabinets, her reply “uh, no”. She took what I had put together my tile, colors, and a totally different counter top than I would have chosen.

And now, I’ve got the materials, but I’m nervous. And hopefully the person I'll have paint (well, they are giving me an estimate) will know what to do with the colors I've chosen, because I am sure I would mess it up. Yikes.

I’ve also decided that I want pictures of Detroit around my house, did you know that I love Detroit? So I’ve heard that this beautiful talented woman in our church has some… and I found another photographer. If you check out the link… I love the photo that says ‘I love’. I really want that one! BIG! And then maybe I’ll put pictures of people I love near/around it. I told you, I got no idea what I’m doing…

So that’s it for now, thank goodness I have friends like Katie who can decorate…

Oh, and did you know that if you’re looking for counter top laminate, WilsonArt is made in Michigan unlike Formica. Just a little tidbit of information.

Monday, March 08, 2010

James 3 - No more garbage! In or Out

So, if you know me, you know that on any given day I could (I’m using past tense for a reason!) drop enough bombs to blow up a small country. I can’t even remember how long I’ve been swearing, but it’s been a long time, I think since at least 4th grade. Yikes about 28 years.

God’s been really working on me with this… I used to tell Muscle Mike that as long as he smoked I could swear, well, he quit smoking and I didn’t quit swearing. It’s been 14 months since the deal that I didn’t follow through with… Yikes.

Last night was a big step. I broke down “I don’t want to swear anymore’, though I am not sure how Muscle Mike understood me. To you that might not be a big deal, but it is a big deal to me, ‘for out of the overflow of his heart his mouth speaks’ (Luke 6:45). So I was thinking if someone judged me by my mouth, they might mistake me for someone who doesn’t love Jesus. Yikes.

Please pray for me, I’ve compared swearing to walking around with a lit cigarette in your mouth, and trying not to smoke it… I don’t want to swear anymore. This is a big hurdle to jump over. But Mark 10:27 says Jesus looked at them and said, "With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God."  Woo Hoo!

This is not impossible with God.

Sunday, March 07, 2010

Psalm 51:10

Everyone who knows me, knows how much I love the D. I believe it has the most beautiful heartbeat ever heard, stronger than people think. I've been in this weird withdrawal from it.

Today I was off to Detroit. It didn't take long before I felt my spirit lift.  I was by myself so there was some good conversation with God going on in my car.  As I sat in the Penthouse my spirit was lifting higher and higher.  I really needed a few moments of peace and with no distractions from God.  As I worshipped, all I could do was pray Psalm 51:10 Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.  The message was great, as I am sure it was at my home church (I'll be getting it on CD).  I felt like God was speaking so loudly to me, about everything. He was saying to me "Margie, I'lll give you everything and by that I know He meant everything I need, not everything I want.  I did a whole lot of wrestling with God this last week, and at the end, I took a big deep breath, sighed and said "I know You're way is the best way" but I'll be honest, I said it in a defeated way.  I know that's not the way it should be, but that's the way it was.

After today, that prayer was answered...  Psalm 51:10 Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

I've got some great things in my head to this week, pictures and just crazy ways God has moved in my heart.

Friday, March 05, 2010

His way not mine

I’ve been having a little fit over here… I found out for a couple of reasons that I am getting neither the Windstar or the Caravan. Its kind of funny how I can give a list to God of why I should have something I want.

There are a few things I know…

1. If God doesn’t make it happen, it wasn’t meant to be. Something better may come along OR maybe I just shouldn’t have it.
2. His ways are better than my ways
3. I should be thankful for what I have

No need to stress about it. No little (or big!) tantrums need to happen. If God is in the mix, the best will always come about. You can guarantee it.

So I’m not a new (new to me) car owner and while I am disappointed, I know that greater things are yet to come.

Friday Fave

I don't have much to say that I'm ready to share...  my heart seems to be in my throat.  That's not my friday fave...  I bet you'll never guess... 

MY BREADMAKER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Door Stopper Whole Wheat
Cinnamon Raisin

Who knows what will come this weekend!!   I hope 'my' boys (really Adam and Katie's boys) like bread and waffles!!!

Thursday, March 04, 2010

Homemade is bestmade

I know that I seem ridiculous with my bread making... I made one last night and got up and made a new kind this morning... it will be ready when I get home.  I brought the other loaf into work for everyone to eat :)

I didn't have to pay for the breadmaker, but after tasting this yummy bread, it would have been worth it to pay for it. The bread tastes better AND (this is a very big and) I know what is in it!

I also am now into homemade cards :)  Thanks Kathy and Wanda for getting me into Stampin' up! I also like getting homemade cards too!!

Homemade is best made... for sure!

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

Going Domestic...

My car is rather...  I'm looking into two different vehicles, a Windstar or a Caravan.  I'm excited to get a new car (new for me but not brand new). 

I'll tell you the truth, I never thought I'd buy a 'domestic' vehicle.  I love my Toyota Corolla.  It's made in the USA (Joint Venture between GM & Toyota) and I am keeping the vehicle.  If you would have asked me, I would have sworn to you that my next car would have been the 4 runner or Highlander, however, this time, I am going domestic. 

The Windstar is made in Canada and the Caravan is made in the USA.  Not sure which one yet, but I am excited to get something A) newer B) bigger C) can haul all "my kids".  And to be honest reason C is the main reason for the minivan.

I'm super excited.  Possibly a new car AND a bread maker, in the same week!!!!  I am one blessed Girl!!!

Mark 10:16 And he took the children in his arms, put his hands on them and blessed them.

Tuesday, March 02, 2010


If you know me, you know I’m not good at asking for help…
Last week I asked someone if they had a bread maker and that if they were going to get rid of it I would be happy to buy it from them!

And lo and behold today when I walked in there was a bread machine and some really cool other kitchen gadgets!

Matthew 7:8 For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.

God is working on my mouth and my heart… He’s got His work cut out for Him, but I am surrendering everyday (sometimes every minute, I mean second) and sometimes I’m better at it than others, but I really want to be more like Him and less like me.

No matter how much I succeed or how I fail, I am thankful that God never gives up on me. That He loves me with an everlasting love.

I’m standing on His Word and in His love!

Jer 31:3 The LORD appeared to us in the past, saying: "I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving-kindness.

Oh… and my planning for the week is going well!

We have a Colombia meeting today at 7, so instead of ‘planning’ to go out to dinner, I made dinner last night (chicken with whole wheat noodles, zucchini, mushrooms, spinach) and we will just heat it up at Metro before the meeting instead of spending money to go out and its good for us! Yesterday was chicken quesadillas on whole wheat tortillas with spinach & veggie cheese!

Matthew 25:13-30 14"Again, it will be like a man going on a journey, who called his servants and entrusted his property to them. 15To one he gave five talents[a] of money, to another two talents, and to another one talent, each according to his ability. Then he went on his journey. 16The man who had received the five talents went at once and put his money to work and gained five more. 17So also, the one with the two talents gained two more. 18But the man who had received the one talent went off, dug a hole in the ground and hid his master's money.

19"After a long time the master of those servants returned and settled accounts with them. 20The man who had received the five talents brought the other five. 'Master,' he said, 'you entrusted me with five talents. See, I have gained five more.'
21"His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!'
22"The man with the two talents also came. 'Master,' he said, 'you entrusted me with two talents; see, I have gained two more.'
23"His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!'
24"Then the man who had received the one talent came. 'Master,' he said, 'I knew that you are a hard man, harvesting where you have not sown and gathering where you have not scattered seed. 25So I was afraid and went out and hid your talent in the ground. See, here is what belongs to you.'
26"His master replied, 'You wicked, lazy servant! So you knew that I harvest where I have not sown and gather where I have not scattered seed? 27Well then, you should have put my money on deposit with the bankers, so that when I returned I would have received it back with interest.
28" 'Take the talent from him and give it to the one who has the ten talents. 29For everyone who has will be given more, and he will have an abundance. Whoever does not have, even what he has will be taken from him. 30And throw that worthless servant outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.