Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Wednesday, April 30, 2008


Sometimes in our lives, we are most disappointed by those that we wish we could trust, but we learn lessons over and over that prove otherwise. Today while speaking to a good friend, I was told this joke.

Enjoy! May it lighten your heart as it has mine.

Twin boys of five or six. Worried that the boys had developed extreme personalities -- one was a total pessimist, the other a total optimist -- their parents took them to a psychiatrist.

: First the psychiatrist treated the pessimist. Trying to brighten his outlook, the psychiatrist took him to a room piled to the ceiling with brand-new toys. But instead of yelping with delight, the little boy burst into tears. "What's the matter?" the psychiatrist asked, baffled. "Don't you want to play with any of the toys?" "Yes," the little boy bawled, "but if I did I'd only break them."

: Next the psychiatrist treated the optimist. Trying to dampen his out look, the psychiatrist took him to a room piled to the ceiling with horse manure. But instead of wrinkling his nose in disgust, the optimist emitted just the yelp of delight the psychiatrist had been hoping to hear from his brother, the pessimist. Then he clambered to the top of the pile, dropped to his knees, and began gleefully digging out scoop after scoop with his bare hands. "What do you think you're doing?" the psychiatrist asked, just as baffled by the optimist as he had been by the pessimist.

"With all this manure," the little boy replied, beaming, "there must be a pony in here somewhere!"

Proverbs 3:3-6
3 Let love and faithfulness never leave you;
bind them around your neck,
write them on the tablet of your heart.

4 Then you will win favor and a good name
in the sight of God and man.

5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;

6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.

My own words

I have no words, or no words that are positive so I've decided that I will stand on God's word today.

2 Chron 20:15-17 15 He said: "Listen, King Jehoshaphat and all who live in Judah and Jerusalem! This is what the LORD says to you: 'Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God's. 16 Tomorrow march down against them. They will be climbing up by the Pass of Ziz, and you will find them at the end of the gorge in the Desert of Jeruel. 17 You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the LORD will give you, O Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the LORD will be with you.' "

Monday, April 28, 2008

First, and foremost... HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELIZABETH!!!!

May your birthday be as wonderful and beautiful and fantastic and special and extraordinary and exceptional and fabulous as YOU!!!

P.S. Please pray for Geri, she was just diagnosed with breast cancer. Pray for healing, but also please pray that she leans on the Lord. And pray for her friend Sally (my co-worker).

Saturday, April 26, 2008


A couple of our girls went to Prom today. Phyllis did their hair so I was blessed that i got to see them in their b-u-ti-ful dresses... thought I would share since some of you are a little attached to one of their dates...

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Happy Birthday! Sara!

Tomorrow is my sister Sara's birthday!!

Tomorrow is one of the reminders of how much God loves us, because He sent us Sara.

Now Sara can take sarcasm to a new level. I love that about her!!

I also love the fact that I love that I can send her an email crabbing about something or hurt about something, and Sara, being Sara just "listens" and I think she knows she can do that to me too.

I was blessed to meet Sara and somehow we instantly bonded over coneys and greek salad, and tears. Sara has helped me grow and stretch, and helped me through the growing pains of it all... and I will be eternally thankful!

Sometimes there just aren't the words to tell someone how much we love them, but right now, I got the tears.

I love you Sara. Happy Birthday!!! Thank You Jesus for Sara, please make this her best year yet!!

Ecc 4:10 If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up!

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

fake it til you make it

Psalm 51:10 Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

I heard this saying, and I thought at first it was a cool saying. And in the context I heard about it, it was about being in a good mood, having faith, just saying the words until you really start to believe it.

This was something that I had been told by a friend because he thought I was beautiful and I thought I was UG-LY. He said everyday look in the mirror, and say, "you are beautiful" and do it until you believe it. Didn't work.

And not that long ago, I heard it said, and I thought "oh, that's cool, get your attitude in check until you get out of your funk". I guess it's ok, but then I started thinking "I hate fake people". I mean I hate them. Ugh, it's frustrating. And here's the thing, I am not fake, if I am sad, you know it, if I am mad you know it, but boy when I am happy and my heart is full of joy, YOU KNOW IT! And besides you can't be a great hugger if you are fake. People will feel right through it. And let's face it, a lot of people think Christians are hypocrites, and that's why, because some, not all, act fake. I'm not saying be in a bad mood all the time, but sometimes we have issues, we must deal with, and sometimes emotions go with them. I believe, though I have no proof of this... all those emotions... God gave us, think about how you feel after a good cry, your soul opens up, its a complete release. And I think it can be compared to a good rain, the earth is cleansed, and in a good cry, our soul is cleansed.

So... I guess what I am saying is be truthful, if you got issues, go to the Word, cuz that's where the answers are.

John 1:1 In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.

Monday, April 21, 2008

oh Lord, help me!!

Dear God, I know You love me, and today, I have one request (of many requests but this one needs immediate attention!) .... please put one hand on my shoulder, and the other over my mouth, and hold tightly. And Lord, I'm not kidding. Please help!

Balsamic Vinaigrette

I feel like I am always trying a new salad dressing, most of the time actually tasting the chemicals, or they are too sweet (ick!). I love this one, just like usual, homemade is usually best!!

1T Sugar
1T Salt
1T ground pepper
1T ground mustard
1 clove of garlic, minced
1/3 cup balsamic vinegar
2/3 cup olive oil.

You can add more oil/vinegar to your tastes!!! it's SOOO yummy!! Perfect for marinades or salads!!

Sunday, April 20, 2008

feeling better

I don't think a day has gone by in my life that I haven't thought about my weight in some way or another. In January I started weight watchers. I've done "good" and "bad". I didn't do it completely because I wanted to lose weight, I did it because i wanted to get in the habit of making healthier choices. And I know that in those choices would mean there would be less of my butt.

The week before last, I stuck to my points, however, I didn't eat enough fruits and veggies, I didn't walk. Last week, I decided that if I am going to make better choices, it takes preparation. It means planning what I am going to buy, preparing my food (I am one of those dorks who has ziplock containers with fruits and veggies ready to go), it means saying no to ice cream if i don't have the points left or I already ate something that took my points.

But it also means, making yummy recipes of pasta primavera with whole wheat pasta and turkey sausage, with vibrant green zucchini, the brightest pieces of carrots, it means fresh basil that reminds you that with all that flavor and aroma, God was thinking about you today, let's not forget and super yummy fresh mushrooms, it means breaking bread with friends who bring over yummy, good for you dessert with fresh yummy strawberries. It means cutting up pineapple that's not all going to make it to the container because you just can't control yourself, it's so good. It means feeling better and pooping more (and that's good for you too!!). It means quenching your thirst with water, and sleeping well... and hopefully it also means on Thursday there will be less of me than last week.

It also means that your daughter will be made because she went to eat tacos and she wanted to eat what I made...

Check out the recipe... I added a couple extra cloves of garlic, mushrooms, and grated carrots I had from making carrot cake.

Friday, April 18, 2008

Quote of the Day

"We can't solve problems by using the same kind of thinking we used when we created them."

Albert Einstein

Thursday, April 17, 2008

Keep quiet

Sometimes in our lives I think we should just keep quiet. I love to write, though lately, I've kind of had writer's block, or I write it, post it, reread it, hate it, delete it.

Sometimes I think that just like watching a beautiful sunset, there aren't words to describe our lives. Ups and downs, a few unexpected curves, a journey of exactly what we've expected. And lately, I've got no words, and some days I don't have that much of anything to give.

Things have been good, truly excited about the youth ministries I'm serving on, and how God is working, it's amazing to watch and hear (the other day Fuel was so loud, my ears were still ringing at midnight!! Jr. highers are LOUD!!).

I've been doing a lot of thinking, a lot of praying, a lot of praising, and a lot of keeping quiet and sometimes not quiet enough. Working on my loud crazy spirit to be more quiet and meek (and there isn't much about me that's quiet or meek) when I'm supposed to be. More butterful, less bull in a china shop.

2 Corin 10:1-6 (msg) 1-2And now a personal but most urgent matter; I write in the gentle but firm spirit of Christ. I hear that I'm being painted as cringing and wishy-washy when I'm with you, but harsh and demanding when at a safe distance writing letters. Please don't force me to take a hard line when I'm present with you. Don't think that I'll hesitate a single minute to stand up to those who say I'm an unprincipled opportunist. Then they'll have to eat their words.

3-6The world is unprincipled. It's dog-eat-dog out there! The world doesn't fight fair. But we don't live or fight our battles that way—never have and never will. The tools of our trade aren't for marketing or manipulation, but they are for demolishing that entire massively corrupt culture. We use our powerful God-tools for smashing warped philosophies, tearing down barriers erected against the truth of God, fitting every loose thought and emotion and impulse into the structure of life shaped by Christ. Our tools are ready at hand for clearing the ground of every obstruction and building lives of obedience into maturity.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Positive Outlook

I've decided that no one can change my outlook but me... so I've decided to think of positive things and do more positive things...

1. Spend time and think of Phyllis
2. Count my blessings not my burdens
3. Think of encouragers
4. Pray
5. Walk
6. Worship & Sing
7. Do my bible study
8. Laugh
9. Bowl
10. Praise God

Phil 4:8 Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

It feels better to smile than frown anyway :)

Friday, April 11, 2008

April Showers bring... worms

I came into work today and was instantly reminded of 6th grade. One day in 6th grade we walked to school, Erica, Kristel (Gayle), and I, it was after a big rain in the spring. There was worms everywhere. Kristel would not walk, she didn't want to step on a worm, Erica being her older sister was like "I'm not carrying you", so I carried her because we never would have gotten to school. Everytime I see a worm, I think of Kristel. And I smile. And when someone says "I forget" I think of her too because she always said "freeget" and that's how she spelled it too. F-R-E-G-E-T... freeget.

In Michigan it can be 68 degrees one day and snowing the next, literally. I don't know how it happens but it does.

Worms aren't the coolest creatures on earth, they are kind of stinky, slimy, but necessary. I think I remember that if there are no worms in your soil... no flowers, no plants... they are important.

Just thinking about that reminds me of some of my current situations going on. It stinks, it's really nothing I'd like to hold on to but it's necessary. Necessary for me to bloom stronger and better, to provide more beauty than before.

Sometimes we have to be thankful for the storms, or even just the showers, and the worms in our lives.

Ezk 34:26 I will bless them and the places surrounding my hill. I will send down showers in season; there will be showers of blessing.

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

I'm on my way out

I wish that I could tell you that I haven't written because things are so great that I just haven't had the time. Unfortunatly, the last week or two or 4 haven't been a bed of roses. Not even close.

Probably the last 3 days have been the worst. Stomach aches... headaches... ugh. Until today, I can't remember smiling since Sunday morning. Today was the first day I was able to smile without forcing it, and there wasn't that many of them, but I'm coming out of the dark. I will tell you that not once did I feel alone, confused and frustrated but never alone.

I love this song.

Why be afraid if I’m not alone
Though life is never easy the rest in unkown
Up to now for me it’s been hands against stone
Spent each and every moment
Searching for what to believe

Coming out of the dark, I finally see the light now
It’s shinning on me
Coming out of the dark, I know the love that saved me
You’re sharing with me

Starting again is part of the plan
And I’ll be so much stronger holding your hand
Step by step I’ll make it through I know I can
It may not make it easier but I have felt you
Near all the way

(repeat chorus)

Forever, forever I stand on the rock of your love
Forever I’ll stand on the rock
Forever, forever I stand on the rock of your love
Love is all it takes, no matter what we face

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

At my desk in plain site

Sometimes, I need to have positiveness around me to survive... so in front of me, taped to my computer screen is simply:


1 Peter 4:11 11If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. If anyone serves, he should do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen.

If you have got a good verse for me, put it in my comments, I will tape it up too!!

Sunday, April 06, 2008

I don't need

How many times do we say we ‘need’ something. Like some would say I ‘need’ a new car. No, I don’t need one, I just want one.

I need to eat everyday but I don’t need to eat Panera. I need to drink water everyday but tap water is fine, I don’t need my water to come in a bottle.

I think sometimes about how much I waste or how I take the blessings I have for granted. I’m not thankful enough.

There is a song by Shawn MacDonald, I had heard it before, but listened to it at Life Group a couple times. All I need is Your love, to fill this heart of mine. I fell asleep singing that song, like I’ve fallen asleep many times in prayer, I begin a conversation with God, and it brings me peace. I fell asleep singing this song to God, I love music, when we don’t have the words, someone else writes them for us.

That’s my prayer, God, fill my heart today with Your love, and Lord, let me fill someone else’s heart with that love, only You can refill our hearts with what we need.

All I Need
Written by Shawn McDonald

As I sit here and think
About all that You've done
About how You gave me Your one and only Son
And I'm trying to fathom
All that You are, but so far, Lord
You're so beyond me
I fall down in reverence
And I fall down in fear
And I'm asking You, Lord, won't You please draw near
Won't You open my eyes
So that I can see
The way that You are working in me
All I need is Your love
To come and fill this heart of mine
My heart is a desert that has gone dry
And I need Your love to carry me bye, bye, bye, bye, bye
To carry me bye, bye, bye, bye, bye
To carry me bye
And I lay down my life
And I put it before You
All that I am is in Your hands
And I'm not going to question, why You're so faithful
Why that You give me the blessing that You have
Let the glory be known, let the glory be shown
Lift You up unto the throne
You are my God, You are my King
To You I give, I give You everything
All that I need is Your love, my God

Saturday, April 05, 2008

Its 9 at night...

Today was beautiful. Spent it just relaxing but I just looked at the clock and wondered... where the heck did the day go? I did sleep in until 9AM which really was a treat.

It was a long week, seems everyone had a long week... and an exciting one.

I sit here, tonight, I've had a stomach ache for well over a week... And I'm mentally exhausted and wishing I was a better 'forgiver'. It's up to me and for me to forgive... ugh... I'm a work in progress... I'll get there.

1. Wiped down the hallway and kitchen floors
2. Use my Cuttlebug
3. Pray
4. Go to Roma's
5. Grocery Shop
6. Pick up Lexi
7. Laundry
8. Dishes
9. Dinner
10. Sleep

Good night...

Lam 3:42 "We have sinned and rebelled and you have not forgiven

Friday, April 04, 2008

This week

I've always gone above and beyond at work. I got a new job, I loved it, I got new accounts, I was so happy, completely busy at work, but not overwhelmed as I had been in the last year or so. Then it all came to a head, on Tuesday (and it was UGLY!). Last week I was asked to take some of it back over for a week because one person went on maternity leave, "it's only temporary, I can keep it at bay" I thought. And it was all fine, until Tuesday, when I got the other half of my old job back (they filled my old position with two people) and let's just say it hasn't been pretty. I've been putting out fires all week, and I've gone from being down-right angry to be disappointed to taking the attitude of "no one can eat an elephant in one sitting, one bite at a time it can be finished". Yesterday I was so sick with work, I could barely eat (and you know that's when it's bad).

I'm glad today is Friday, I am glad that God gave me the brains to complete this job, this task.

2 Corin 9:8 And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.

Thursday, April 03, 2008


The author is unknown, my world is nuts right now, a good friend of mine sent me this, and I loved it!! I had to share.

Because He emptied Himself of all but love,
. . . you can be filled.

Because His body was broken,
. . . your life can be whole.

Because His blood was shed,
. . . your sins can be forgiven.

Because He submitted to injustice,
. . . you can forgive.

Because He finished His Father's work,
. . . your life has worth.

Because He was forsaken,
. . . you will never be alone.

Because He was buried,
. . . you can be raised.

Because He lives,
. . . you don't have to be afraid.

Because He was raised,
. . . you can be strong.

Because He reached down to you,
. . . you don't have to work your way up to Him.

Because His promises are always true,
. . . you can have Hope!

- Author Unknown

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

I'm not willing!

I’m not willing to let one soul go.

I’m not letting one kid not hear.

I’m not willing to let one kid be pulled back or attacked!

I’m just not willing.

Maybe this seems selfish to you, this may seem stubborn. But let me tell you this… I am not willing to let the kids of Downriver not hear about Jesus, and the ones who know Him, I’m not willing to let them be hurt or attacked but that little red booger. I’m just not.

We have two major things going on in our Youth Ministry right now, and one about to start.

For the High Schoolers, it’s the Pure Sex series, and giving the kids the Word of God to live their lives sex free until they are married. To teach them the consequences and about forgiveness. To teach them about love and Jesus. It’s huge. HUGE! We had a lot of new kids on Sunday because as crazy as it sounds, the kids want to hear what we are going to say about sex!

And for the Jr. Highers, we have our biggest outreach, the Fuel Explosion Tour beginning no the 14th. It runs 6 weeks, and we’ve been known to double (and hopefully this year, triple) our numbers. Not for numbers sake, for the sake of a bunch of kids who need to hear about Jesus.

And so I am asking everyone I know, and even those I don’t know, pray for us! Pray for our students, pray for all the leaders, for the bands, pray for the moms and dads who help us with t-shirts, for the moms and dads who help with snacks, for car-poolers, for parents who don’t know God but will come to Him.

We need strength, bravery, wisdom, protection, joy, and love.

It’s ugly out there, but it’s beautiful in His Kingdom. And there is only One way in.

1 Thes 5:17 pray continually