Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Saturday, October 31, 2009


1. Almond Joy
2. Heath
3. Reese's Peanut Butter Cups
4. Sweet Tart
5. 3 Musketeers
6. Clark
7. M&M (Plain, Peanut, Peanut Butter
8. Milky Way
9. Snickers
10. Baby Ruth

What's your favorite?

Proverbs 25:16 When you're given a box of candy, don't gulp it all down; eat too much chocolate and you'll make yourself sick... (message)

FUNNY!! i also started a weightloss blog!


I lost 7.2 pounds this week, and I hope i never find it EVER again!

The leader today told us that if you drink the daily amount of water (8 - 8oz glasses) you reduce your risk of Breast Cancer by 72%!!!!! Can you believe that?

My goal for water is 160 oz (I almost always exceed it!)... that does not include any other beverage I drink... and I drink 32oz of iced tea first thing in the morning! I can see my little fat cells riding out my pee screaming 'weeeee' as they leave and flushed down the toilet!

Read more about the benefits of drinking water...


and here

I think i should get exercise points for getting up and going to the bathroom...

I believe that water is the only drink for a wise man. ~Henry David Thoreau

Today's Scripture in my journal:

...fix your thoughts on what is true and honorable and right... Phil 4:8 (NLT)

This week!!


I gotta great post! but I'm going out with Phyllis!

Friday, October 30, 2009


I'm sitting at my desk and all of a sudden I am completely overwhelmed by my two friends Amanda and Katie! I started to cry! Yikes!

We met via Youth Ministry.

I don't really have a "best" friend, which I miss, but I have these two friends who are really the best friends anyone could ask for!

Katie (and her hubby - the best youth pastor EVER! Adam) are adopting from Rwanda and last night I dreamt about the babies! One boy, one girl! I didn't get to see their faces but its amazing to me how we can love each other so much that we share their dreams (literally).

Amanda (and her husband Drew) have two of the most beautiful girls you've ever seen in your life! Ava and Lana! Amanda actually co-leads Phyllis's life group (why is it so hard to call it that now?) and honestly I couldn't think of a better woman to lead my daughter into a woman of God.

I am just overwhelmed by how blessed I am to have them in my life, we are all hanging out on Saturday doing scrapbook stuff and I am SO excited!

Ecc 4:10 If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up!


I love eggs and it's a good thing...

I used to eat...

2 pieces rye toast (estimated 4 points)
butter (estimated 3 points)
scrambled eggs (5 points)

Total: 12 points (that's roughly 600 calories)


Two pieces rye toast (2 points)
1 egg (2)
2 egg white (1)
pat of butter (1)
low fat cheese (1)

Total: 7 points (350 calories)

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Yummy good for you cupcakes

1 cake mix

1 can (15oz) punkin (not punkin pie mix)

Mix together! Bake according to cake box directions... Batter will be thicker than you're used to.

That's right baby! No oil, eggs, or water...

Butter Cream frosting

1 cup butter, softened
1 cup white sugar
4 tablespoons all-purpose flour
1 cup milk
1 teaspoon vanilla extract

In small saucepan cook flour and milk until thick, stirring constantly.

Cool to room temperature.

With an electric mixer, beat butter and sugar until fluffy. (like 15 minutes!!)

Beat both mixtures together on high speed until fluffy and smooth.

Add vanilla and beat until combined.

Refrigerate for about 1/2 hour, until it is of spreading consistency.

Hanging out with a peanuthead!

Tonight I am having dinner with Phyllis... and we're hanging out on Saturday going to JoAnn fabrics. I can't wait!

She brings me more joy than I deserve!!


I have a new journal for all my food logging. The one they gave me at WW wasn’t big enough to log all the food I eat, HA! I do eat a lot of veggies and a lot of 1 or 2 point food snacks. Yes, I write down EVERYTHING!! And I have a label at the top that says water goal: 160 oz with 5 flowers (5 – 32oz glasses each day!)

This journal on the front says “The path of the righteous is like the first gleam of dawn, shining ever brighter till the full light of day” Proverbs 4:18

It was something I found that I thought would work and every other page has a scripture, reminding me that I am not on this journey alone, because God is in the details, He loves us, and it reminds me that I am with a few friends on this journey to encourage each other.

The first one… Eph 2:10… I am God’s masterpiece. I am wonderfully made. He is with me.

The one I turned to last night… Hebrews 4:12 For the word of God is alive and powerful. It is sharper than the sharpest two-edged sword, cutting between soul and spirit, between joint and marrow. It exposes our innermost thoughts and desires. NLT

The title of this blog is that it’s not about the food. It’s not. It’s about the struggle I’ve had, having people say to me “you’ll always be fat” the loathing, the stress-eating, the addiction to eating when I’ve said “I can’t stop” or that I look in the mirror and I hate what I see. I remember that letter that was written to me that said “sometimes you stand in front of me and I don’t like the person I see” and that came from someone who is supposed to love me the most. And sometimes I look in the mirror and I don’t like the person I am, because I know where I’ve been in my heart and what my body looked like before. God is exposing my innermost thoughts and desires and he has given me those desires, they are good, and I can’t wait to see how He fulfills them.

Gluttony is an emotional escape, a sign something is eating us. ~Peter De VriesYou Said a Mouthful, Ronald D. Fuchs, ed.


God makes me smile.

Yeah, I know, He probably makes you smile too. It’s funny that in most of the times of my life that have had turmoil, I feel far from God. Reminds me of that church sign that says “if you’re far from God, who moved?” Meaning it’s not God, it’s you. A lot of times I cause my own turmoil, and when things are calm I slowly drift, read the bible less, listen to ‘regular’ music, don’t read or socialize with my “Christian friends”, and then it gets all tramatic again. But lately it seems that I have some turmoil, but it doesn’t feel like God is far away or that I’m reading less or focusing on Him less, and it surely doesn’t seem hopeless.

It makes me laugh when you ask someone how they are and they say “GREAT! God is good”.

Duh. God is good, but do you recognize the greatness of God when things aren’t going your way?

God is always good.

Life is better, it is good, truly good, when God is the center. It keeps us centered, it’s good but not easy, it means that we shed our junk to be more like Him.

In all things.

Hebrews 4:12 For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009


I love Qdoba... fresh ingredients, so yummy!

So now I plan everything I eat. Oui! How boring! I like the smakin' my lips together I think I feel like _____ for breakfast/lunch/dinner.

No wonder I'm fat.

So I decided that I had a coupon for Qdoba. SO GOOD and I'd use it. Until I did the nutritional info on it. They have an interactive guide so you can pick what you want to eat, how many calories, etc. OH MY WORD!!!

Can't eat it unless I know I'll be exercising!

It's really no wonder I'm fat. I thought I was doing well when I ate that, I knew it was a lot but it was filling and fresh... and I always ate it naked.

NAKED??? Just so you know... From their website:
First of all, you could go Naked. Our Naked Burritos® and Naked Taco Salads™ contain all of the delicious ingredients in our burritos and taco salads — just without the tortilla or tortilla bowl. By simply ordering a Naked meal, you've cut 330 calories and 54 grams of carbs.

So now Qdoba yet... or I'll eat it on a Saturday... AFTER I weigh in.

Brain cells come, and brain cells go, but fat cells live FOREVER!! ~Unknown

1 egg + 2 egg whites
pat of butter
2 pieces of rye toast
1 slice low fat provolone cheese
celery with babybel cheese (snack)
half ham sandwich
2 oz ham
1 piece rye bread
1 slice low fat provolone cheese
mustard (oh mayo... how I love you!)
chic peas
homemade balsamic salad dressing
string cheese & tomato (snack)
Popcorn (snack if I want)
Dinner?? not sure yet probably a veggie with feta omelet because I have the points!

And... I'm not going to write out my food to you everyday, if you want to hold me accountable, I can show you my book :)

Oh... and I love Qdoba... Oh Qdoba... Mi Amor!

Sharing a great resource!

Loving Coffee with Christine Caine Podcasts!!

She has a website... Equip & Empower

They are refreshing... and thankfully I can drink iced tea instead of coffee!!

You should check them out for yourself!!

She's got a new book coming out... can't wait to get it! AND READ IT!!
2 Chronicles 29:2 With all my resources I have provided for the temple of my God—gold for the gold work, silver for the silver, bronze for the bronze, iron for the iron and wood for the wood, as well as onyx for the settings, turquoise, stones of various colors, and all kinds of fine stone and marble—all of these in large quantities


I don't think I have high expectations...

and then I realize I do when I'm disappointed.

As my friend says, no one ever died from disappointment.

And... Jesus never disappoints!

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Are you excited for Christmas?

Kind of...

I'm excited about reading Isaiah 9:6

6 For to us a child is born,
to us a son is given,
and the government will be on his shoulders.
And he will be called
Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God,
Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.

I'm excited about other people opening their gifts. I'm excited about seeing my family. I'm excited about putting up my tree, the time off around Christmas.

I'm not excited about...
stressful shopping.
Or spending money
About me opening my own presents (believe it or not I don't really like presents)

it will be here before we know it!


Yesterday I was hungry most of the day…

Too scared to use my points to early and then be hungry at night… what a mess!

Its hard because I don’t like oatmeal, I normally eat scrambled eggs and toast (with lots of butter) for breakfast. You gotta change the way you think, and you’ve got to cut calories and fat where you can. So this morning I had two pieces of whole wheat toast with 2 fried eggs in a small pat of butter.

I’ve got a turkey sandwich packed for lunch with a salad that consists of lettuce, grape tomatoes, beets, chic peas, cukes, and homemade balsamic vinegarette dressing. Celery sticks with a light babybel cheese, sting cheese.

I don’t want to be hungry today.

I don’t want my day to consist of thinking about how hard this is, it’s about GOOD choices. Its about a way of life, it’s about eating real food, not a bunch of processed crap. It’s about not letting my circumstances affect the way I think about things, about how being hurt does not justify going to the vending machine and eating cheezits.

I am a planner. I know that in planning it makes things easier. We plan our time, we plan a lot of things, and that includes what we eat.

Today’s dinner: Turkey Mignon’s (from Aldi’s) with brown rice with carrots/celery and broccoli

The one way to get thin is to re-establish a purpose in life. ~Cyril Connolly, The Unquiet Grave

Monday, October 26, 2009

It's a journey

I've made so many bad choices in my eating that they have become habits.

today was my first day in my regular routine that I had to follow the new plan. It was hard. When you feel restricted, you're afraid you'll go over your points, and it stinks! I was hungry most of the day and I had a headache because I didn't drink my iced tea in the morning.

Hungry and a headache. What a horrible combination.

I have to continue to remind myself... eat to live not live to eat.

I hate that I weigh so much
I hate that I can't move around like I did
I hate the way my clothes fit
I hate the way I look

It's a journey. A journey begins with a single step.

Here I go...

Dieting is not a piece of cake ~ Author Unknown

Sunday, October 25, 2009

measuring up

Now, don't we all feel at some point like we won't measure up? I think I could write a book about it just in my own life... but that's not what this is about.

Yesterday I joined Weight Watchers. I gasped when I looked at the number they wrote on my card. OH MY... big fat butt! Butt (ha!) I'm hear to tell you, I'm changing that, with the help of God. You see, I've struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember, at least 5th grade.

I sabatoge myself. I hate the way I look, I hate that I don't have as much energy as I'd like (some would say that's crazy), but here's the deal... if I know I'm an emotional eater and I admit that food is an addiction for me, AND I say that I'm a Christian and that God can help us overcome anything (Mark 9:24, Luke 10:19) what does that say about my witness? Don't I want to be different, not just want to be different, but I AM DIFFERENT! I was bought by the blood of Christ, there isn't anything I can't do in Christ, but yet, I sit here, fat rolls and all! It makes me crazy. I know that people say I'm beautiful, but really, I know that YOU believe it, but I don't. Because I know of the ugliness that lies beneath.

So, in small things, I'm going to overcome. And I won't quit overcoming, and I say to myself when I think of that day, in the driveway, wearing white pants "you'll always be fat" ... NO I WON'T. I am an overcomer! I am a conqueror!! It might be small battles in measuring out my peanut butter, in using smaller containers when I transport and prepare my food... I will win, because I will except no other alternative.

Romans 8:37 in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.

Friday, October 23, 2009

catching up...

It’s Friday and this Friday is no different from any other… I’m tired.

Tonight we’re going to watch a DVD at some friends… Its supposed to be funny but I hope I don’t fall asleep.

I haven’t slept well the last week or so… last night being the first night in a week I slept all the way through the night in my bed (meaning I didn’t sleep on the couch). I’ve got way too much on my mind… coupled with the fact that whenever I talk to someone about it (I’ve got just a few people I trust to talk about such things) everyone has a different opinion…. AHHHHHHHH!!! I need to have dinner with Sara!

When people ask me if I’m “ok”… I think… I wear my emotions on my sleeve, so you’ve got to know that I’m not. I’m doing my best (which really isn’t all that great) to keep it together. Christ is my glue, and seems to be speaking to me and I’m blown away by His word (yes, I’m still reading it in the mornings) but He’s not speaking to me about what I keep asking Him. Ugh! I hate when the answer doesn’t come when I want it. That means I’m still supposed to be still. Ugh! I hate being still.

I keep thinking about this one ministry opportunity… I’m standing on the edge… waiting to make mention of it… I want to and I think God wants me to… I’m just waiting…

Phyllis is selling Subi Beads again for Light Gives Heat, I love to see her excited about it. Oh, I know that everyone thinks their children can change the world… but I really think my can and does. If only in my world, she’s changed it, she brings light to my life that I never thought possible. I think about in how many ways she has made a difference, even in just selling necklaces or loving in Colombia, and in her school. I said to her this morning “you’re a World Changer” and I meant it. I can’t even tell you how awesome I think she is. She even brings light to the boring periodic table when studying for Chemistry.

I’m overwhelmed with thinking about the holidays coming up. I can’t believe it’s almost Halloween and Christmas will be here before we know it. I love the holidays, I love being off. I hate snow, but I love that the earth is at rest preparing for the spring.

And thinking about that, isn’t it amazing how God just orchestrated it all. How in His greatness, He knows that we need rest. He knows that no matter how glorious and beautiful things are, they need to rest. And thinking about just the earth, how He has designed us, that we are wonderfully made, that He knows everything about us. And in knowing all about us, He loves us in spite of ourselves.

So that’s a whole lot of rambling and I didn’t really even scratch the surface of what’s rolling around in the dark and scary place I call my mind.

And I'd like to know when the babies are coming! that's driving me crazy too!!

Thanks for tuning in… peace out.

I ordered this book on

I was going to get it in Borders the other day, but decided to wait, and check the price. At Borders... $26.00 on Amazon... $14.97... 42% savings... and they shipped it for free... For that kind of savings... I'll wait.

I love the Biggest Loser show... and I am going to start going to Weight Watchers... oui... I hope I don't break the scale.

I've got to get myself right... mind, BODY, and soul.

I hate being FAT... I want to be PHAT...

Thursday, October 22, 2009


Rarely do i do this... but this post I read was so good, it challenged me to really think about the things that I need to let God work on me...

Oui... buckle up, it's gonna be a bumpy ride

The Eight Question MEME

Got this one from Aunt Pat....

Six names you go by:
1. Mom
2. Margie
3. Marg
4. Aunt Margie
5. Mumma
6. Brat

Three things you are wearing right now:
1. Black shirt
2. Black pants
3. Shoes and socks :(

Three things you want very badly at the moment:
1. Joey back at Grace
2. to feel at ease
3. babies from Rwanda!

Three things you did last night/yesterday:
1. Great training
2. cleaned house
3. ate Panera

Two things you ate today:
1. eggs
2. Qdoba

Two people you last talked to on the phone:
1. Herb :)
2. gail

Two things you are going to do today/tomorrow:
1. work
2. dinner.

Your three favorite beverages:
1. Iced Tea
2. Iced Tea
3. Iced Tea

Here's what you're supposed to do. Copy and paste the questions into your blog. Then delete my answers and type in your answers.
You don't have to if you don't want to, but when you can't think of anything else to blog...this works!


When I don't know what to do (which is what I feel like right now) I am thankful for this verse:

Isaiah 30:21 Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, "This is the way; walk in it."

And I'm thankful to know that I have a God who loves me until... always.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

More like Him, less like me

Lately reading the bible just hasn’t been good enough… GASP!

Ok, when I say that I mean that I have had this craving for wanting to know more about the history of each book. Who wrote them or to who, what was going on at that time. Today I was reading a little about the book of Acts written by Luke. The author of this commentary said that Luke thought that Paul was a great speaker, while Paul thought he sucked (my words not his).

And it got me to thinking… I hate when people say that I’m awesome because really I know that I could probably do more or be less selfish. Thinking about how God continues to work in me and how greatful I am for that.

I was also reading in Acts 12 about how Herod was speaking but it was the voice of God and he didn’t give the credit to God. And God struck him and then worms ate him. GROSS!! So going back to that whole me thinking I’m not that great, I’ll be clear. The good stuff in me, that’s ALL God, the vile stuff that should be eaten by worms… that’s me. I love because of God, I have talent because of God, and the annoyed angry part of me… that’s me.

I wanna be more like Him and less like me.

“I desire to do your will, O my God; your law is within my heart.”- Psalm 40:8

Monday, October 19, 2009


I love to serve people. I do, but I don't like to people to make it a big deal.

I also HATE it when you do something and people say "you're awesome" for what you do, not who you are. It's SO annoying to me, really, you have no idea how mad it makes me.

Awhile ago, Adam said that as youth staff, we should serve the students, serve the church, and serve each other. And in that, I thought 'how could I do that?" So each week I make dinner. and I format these papers, and each week the dinner part goes well, and the leaders lose the papers... and I get SO annoyed, why because you wasted my time (and you're irresponsible)! Something that is such a premium for me, to me it's like if I made you food and I didn't really have any and you threw it away for no reason.

And then i was mad at myself for being annoyed, really for being angry. There is so much in my head and I'm overwhelmed with it all, and really yesterday I lost it. And I certainly didn't want to talk about it. And we're singing a song at Alive, Come Home. And it's about how God calls us home. Yesterday as I was singing the words (don't steal the words, they belong to the Alive Band)

I feel You calling
Your grace surrounds me
It's beckoning me
back to You
I hear You say...

Come home, I love you
Come home, I forgive you,
Don't give up, my love for you is eternal,
My love, come back home

It was like God was saying come back to Me, that heart of yours, don't let it become overwhelmed with anything, especially not anger. I forgive you, but seriously, remember why you're doing it, not for them, but for me. And slowly I could feel myself becoming more at ease.

I'm still overwhelmed, but it's my own fault, I need to let go and come home...

Exodus 33:14 The LORD replied, "My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest."

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Just breathe!

I feel like I got a lot going on in this pea-brain of mine. More than I need to handle.

I wonder, is it really worth this stomach ache I'm giving myself.

I just gotta breathe, and let go of it as I exhale.

This scripture always reminds me that all I have to do is stay focused on Jesus.

Matthew 11:29-30 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Things that made it possible to see God today...

1. Adam's brother came into town
2. Youth Staff Training was cancelled
3. I was blessed to hang out with students
4. A mom called and said she was concerned that a student posted she was home alone
5. I was lead to call a student and say want to invite student in #4 to join us
6. I met Netta Chilton a year & half ago and have been reading her blog also reading her pastor husband's blog too
7. Real church has a Saturday night service
8. The heart of Real Church is Jesus and His love
9. Sarah said her prayer request outloud (after I popped her in the leg)
10. Our hearts are open to God and His love

Thank You Jesus for moving in my life! And letting me see You move in other's lives as well. I love You, and I think You are AMAZING.

Friday, October 16, 2009

oh POO!!

so it seems completely normal to me that Adam would ask me to make poop! Most people know that i will do almost anything to bring kids to Christ, i even volunteered to puke! Not that I wanted to but I would have!

I like poo! Do i want to clean it up, no not really, but pooping is good, gets the waste out of you, and you feel better after a good poo! HA!

So today I made poo in a pot!

2 cake mixes
1 can pineapple (crushed)
green, red, yellow food coloring
black beans
rice (no need for this!!)

Later I will add some corn, I've got to go to the store and get some! HA!

I can't wait to see what God does with poo! He's made me into something beautiful!

Neh 4:10 (message) But soon word was going around in Judah, The builders are pooped, the rubbish piles up; We're in over our heads, we can't build this wall.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

My fruit fell off and nobody saw!

I was in Kroger today and ran into a woman that was the mother of Phyllis's friend when she went to Christ the Good Shepherd school. I looked at her and all her meanness came flooding back to me! All the mean things her daughter said to Phyllis when I had to pull her from that school. Which, by the way, was a GREAT school, and the church was great too! So this post is not a bash on the school or the church or the Catholic religion... please note that!

Her daughter said to Phyllis "my mom works in an ice cream shop and your mom is a business woman, how come my mom can afford it but your mom can't?" Let me just say that my taxes were going up AND tuition has more than doubled in the 5 years that she had attended there. I had my house which was a bigger expense than my apartment (mortgage, utilities, etc). And I really already felt bad enough, but I felt like we just couldn't afford it. I have NEVER recieved not one penny of child support, and I believe because of God's unending grace, that I have made a good life for us, not perfect, but good. And please also not, it's because of God's grace, not me!

I think this woman tried to dodge me in the aisle way, but at that moment I decided to go to the high road and just say hello! So I did. And then was trampled by all these feelings of remembering about how the parents of Phyllis's friends acted like they were my friend, and the day after I made "the big announcement" I could feel a difference with a lot of them. Very disappointing. That says a lot about their character if you ask me. And then... she got stuck at the Uscan next to me, I tried making conversation... but it was difficult. I really wondered, "what did I EVER do to you to make you so hateful towards me?" and then I just wanted to say "its because of people like you that people are driven from church!" but I didn't. (I could hear my fruit falling if no one else could) I walked away.

I thought about how it's so much better to build someone up instead of tearing them down. How I was JUST reading today about encouraging each other. You know it's not always when people are at the top of their game that they need encouraging, it's when they are low. If you're at the top of the hill do you need someone to boost you up? NO! It's when you're at the bottom of the mountain, in the valley, that you need that boost to stand on the top and see God's vast beauty.

“How great you are, O Sovereign LORD! There is no one like you, and there is no God but you, as we have heard with our own ears.”- 2 Samuel 7:22

Dear Lord, thank you for where I am, thank you for never giving up on me, thank you for your grace, and your unending mercy. God I thank you for changing the way I look at things, I thank you for your word that is encouraging, I thank you for the friends that you have put in my path to love me, and to teach me to love. God, I thank you for your son. I just thank you, I'm forever Yours.

2 Thes 2:16-17 16May our Lord Jesus Christ himself and God our Father, who loved us and by his grace gave us eternal encouragement and good hope, 17encourage your hearts and strengthen you in every good deed and word.

Say His Name within the darkest hour
And see His light illuminate our path
The road is narrow but our gaze is set
On the love of Christ ‘til the very end

We walk in the truth that overcame our sin
Leaving our past and how we once had lived
Giving our lives to see
Your Name made known
‘Cause the love of Christ is what the world needs most

So Lord
Lead us in the ways of Your love
To lead a broken world to Your cross
Lead us in the ways of Your love

We are Yours forever
Our lives won’t be the same
Yours forever our eyes won’t turn away
Yours forever
[ Hillsong Lyrics are found on ]

We sing Your praises ‘til our lungs give out
To the hope of the world
The One who gave us life
Giving our lives to see
Your Name made known
‘Cause the love of Christ is
What the world needs most

We are Yours forever
Our lives won’t be the same
Yours forever our eyes won’t turn away
Yours forever our lives won’t be the same
Yours forever our eyes won’t turn away

We’re living in the One who gave
His life to see our sin erased
We know
We know
Our hope is never gonna fade away

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Rice Krispie Treats

1/4 c butter or margarine
4 cups marshmallows (I prefer minis)
5 cups rice cereal (rice krispies)
1 t vanilla

Melt margarine in large sauce pan over low heat. Add marshmallows and stir until melted and well-blended. Cook 2 minutes longer, stirring constantly. Remove from heat.

Add cereal (and sprinkles if you're feeling crazy!). Stir until well coated.

Using buttered spatula or waxed paper, press mixture evenly and firmly in buttered 8x8 inch pan. Cut into 2 x 2 inch squares when cool.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

just love

I have a dear sweet boy that is in need of prayer. I won’t mention his name here.

He relapsed. Its weird how I notice people’s behavior so I know when something is up. And I thought he might be struggling, not knowing if he had relapsed but I knew something wasn’t right. I wish he would have told me. He said he was embarrassed, that he let everyone down. He didn’t let me down.

The sooner that you realize and accept that people will let you down, seriously, the easier it is to love. It makes it a lot easier to let go, and just love. No judgment, maybe sorrow, but not judgment, it’s a pain pulling that plank out of your eye to point out someone else’s speck. That doesn’t mean that they don’t need to change, it just means you’ll support them through it.

My heart is breaking for that young man, but so thankful he is where he needs to be, and getting help, and prayer. And I love him just as much today as I loved him yesterday, possibly more.

If you have something you are holding on to, guilt from something you’ve done or pain that someone else has caused, let it go. And just love.

It's no wonder...

I have a headache.

My brain feels jam packed with a ton of crap! I have quite a few decisions to make... and I have some homework to do before I make them.


Monday, October 12, 2009

Be Prepared!

We live a busy life. I like it that way, I think a lot of people don’t like it, but it works for us. In order to have a busy life, there are a few key things that must be adhered to otherwise everyday will look like, what I refer to as, “hurricane season”

Hurricane’s are costly. They can cause you to go over budget, keep you from things you love, and even, believe it or not, cause you to gain weight. And no one is happy during a Hurricane (unless you’re a kook).

Feeling a hurricane coming on, and wanting to get rid of it, planning needed to be put in place. One of those things… meal planning. Now honestly, I am not the best at this. Sure I can cook, and I can “plan” the meal, but follow through… eh….

This weekend was some prep to do so.

Yesterday we had spaghetti for Alive dinner and while I was cooking and assembling that, I also cooked the rice and ground turkey for Tuesday’s crockpot meal of Stuffed Peppers. YUM!!

Today I go out with Liz and Phyllis goes to Miss Kerri’s and the rest of the VanWallegens so no dinner at home tonight. But today’s lunch… Cheeseburger soup and a small roast beef with havarti cheese sandwich.

Tomorrow (nothing on the calendar!): Lunch: more soup; dinner: Stuffed peppers

Wednesday (life groups): Lunch: Caeser Salad; Dinner: Creamy chicken & Veggies in the crockpot

Thursday (getting ready for Phyllis to go camping): Lunch: Funeral Luncheon; Tacos (I think)

Friday: I’m off, we have an Alive Assembly so I’m trying to decide what to bring the team for lunch to eat before the assembly that is quick and easy. Dinner: with Mike

Next week I’m making this!

2 Corin 9:6 Remember this: Whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows generously will also reap generously

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Overwhelmed with thoughts of love

Warning... reading this might cause your head to spin, because mine is!

I was walking into "the building" today on my way into church. It's still funny to me that we don't call it church we call it a building, because we are a church, it really is just a building that holds a whole bunch of love!!

OK! Focus Margie!

I was thinking about how this building, this church, binds a whole bunch of people together. People who might have never met each other, but have come to love each other. I was walking in front of this great family who just recently had a baby, and how fabulous they are, and how blessed I am to know them and how blessed I am to serve with them.

People who are broken by the world, people who have been healed by Love. People who have been there from the beginning, those of us who came in the middle, and those who are newer. Those of us who serve, those who don't. Those who put this building together, those who have their names on the floor and are now walking in.

I think about my friends who I probably never would have met but because of His grace and Love, are such dear dear friends of mine. Who I cry with, pray for, those who pray for me, those that we celebrate together! When it may seem like there is nothing to celebrate and BIG things to celebrate.

I think about how my heart changes everyday because of them. Because of Him. How everyday I hope that my life points a little bit more towards Him and a little less towards me.

I think about how blessed I am to love and be loved. Because I chose to live out the greatest commandment because Jesus chose to live it out for me!

Matt 22:37-38 37Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.'38This is the first and greatest commandment

Saturday, October 10, 2009


Saturday's are always busy!!

1. Nails
2. Pedi
3. Concessi's
4. JCPenney
5. Home
6. Lunch with Pean (Phyllis)
7. Kroger
8. Home
9. Drop Phyllis off at Card's
10. Home
11. Pick Phyllis up
12. Home
13. Metro for wedding shower
14. Adam & Katie's
15. Home

And somehow I made time to make Cheeseburger Soup (with turkey of course!!) and Hummus!

Titus 2:5 5to be self-controlled and pure, to be busy at home, to be kind, and to be subject to their husbands, so that no one will malign the word of God

Friday, October 09, 2009


I don't know what happened to me this morning but I got up, took a bath, and then got distracted and almost didn't do my morning reading... yikes. I could have just blown it off but I stopped for 5 minutes and read 1 Thes 3

I was glad I took the time. How easily we can get distracted. And really who am I hurting by not reading His Word? Me, but also those around me because I know I'm more pleasant when filled up by Him.

I was reading Pastor Chilly's blog today and I was doing some catch up... I loved the quotes listed below, there are some really good ones.

So glad I took the time today. Also gonna plan a little better this coming week for dinners. I think I'm gonna break out the crockpot a couple times, since one of Phyllis's favorites is Stuffed Peppers, I'm gonna make them again this week, since last week I screwed them up by making them in the oven. That will probably be Tuesday. Not sure what the rest of the week will look like... And I think it's mostocolli for Sunday's dinner, quick, cheap, and easy. My favorite quote about my mostocolli is by Katie she says it's so good, it's like I kiss every noodle :)
  • “The Word of God well understood and religiously obeyed is the shortest route to spiritual perfection. And we must not select a few favorite passages to the exclusion of others. Nothing less than a whole Bible can make a whole Christian.” ~ A.W. Tozer
  • “God can’t break his word. And because his word cannot change, the promise is likewise unchangeable. We who have run for our very lives to God have every reason to grab the promised hope with both hands and never let go.” ~ Hebrews 6:18

Thursday, October 08, 2009

Really busy!

I've been really busy! And today I'm tired... I had plans but they were cancelled... so tonight I'm staying home, getting the house in order and probably will be in bed by 9PM!

It's my sabbath time :)

Time to rest!!

Funny how God works, I probably would have pushed myself, but I decided His Word is relevant, and it might not be a whole day, but it will be time spent at home doing what I love, taking care of my home, getting some rest.

Mark 2:27Then he said to them, "The Sabbath was made for man, not man for the Sabbath

Monday, October 05, 2009

Don't get so caught up...

You know I'm busy when I don't blog... I'm changing some things in my life...

This Sunday our pastor preached about the 4th commandment, honoring the Sabbath. Some people believe you can make it any day you want, for instance, it would not be a great idea if our Youth Pastor decided that Sunday was his "sabbath". Not really all that great of an idea for me either...

I've been struggling with it ever since I heard the message. Not because I was convicted (because I wasn't) but because I thought I should have been. What could I give up? Nothing. Really...

I've decided that I am where I am supposed to be. I'm thankful I've made time in the morning for God, that He is how I start my day... And I am reading Colossians and today I read:
Col 2:8 8See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the basic principles of this world rather than on Christ
Col 2:16 16Therefore do not let anyone judge you by what you eat or drink, or with regard to a religious festival, a New Moon celebration or a Sabbath day.

I am certainly not saying that I don't need to rest, but what I am saying is that I guess for me, I've got to go as I am called. I've got to live this life as God intended, to rest in Him, not so much on any given day but to rely on Him for grace, love, and strength. I am not saying that the Word of God spoken in Exodus 20 is not relevent because it certainly is, however, I must not get so wrapped up in it that I forget to listen to His voice.

Psalms 46:10 "Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth."

Saturday, October 03, 2009


1. Brakes
2. Chicken Soup (noodles seperate)
3. Funfetti cupcakes and mini-bundts
4. Homecoming
5. Lunch with my dad & Cheryl :)
6. Dinner
7. Stuffed Peppers for a friend and her beautiful children
8. Maybe Metro
9. Work
10. Jesus at the heart of it all!

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead,”- 1 Peter 1:3

Thursday, October 01, 2009

I loveyou Jon Whaley!

I used to blog about a few of our leaders, this morning I felt so compelled to write about 'my sweet boy'.

I never say to him "i loveyou Jon", I always say "I loveyou Jon Whaley". (ever notice that I always type loveyou as one word?"

I have loved Jon Whaley for as long as I've known him. He intentionally loves Jesus and it shows in what he does. Is he perfect? Oh, no, sometimes I'd love to give him the spoon! (those of you who know anything about our youth ministry know about the spoon) You know what I like most about him? that he isn't perfect and that he is honest about it (even when it's hard!)

Jon has probably single handldly brought more girls to Alive than anyone. I've literally seen them take a picture with him and do that whole 'girly thing' and be so excited. It makes me laugh because I just think "you have no idea how great he really is, all you see is the outside". And I've said "if they come to Alive because of Jon, they'll hear about Jesus and stay".

Jon loves. He loves in what he does. He loves people, he loves Jesus.

He even loves in eating fruit snacks! makes me just want to buy them! makes me smile just by walking past them. Literally, I bought him a box for his birthday and he was so happy you would have thought I bought him a new tv or even car.

Jon has this ability to make me smile even when I don't want to. Sometimes I could just cry and I don't want to smile but I do because the love that shines through him.

Jon helps lead a choir of angels singing every Sunday at Alive and because of him, I get to hear a small portion of what God hears when our hearts are open to Him. Amazing.

I love to see Jon worship by singing. There are certain songs that I hear and think "oh my sweet boy". This past Sunday he sang "there is nothing like" and I don't know why but of all the songs he sings, that is one of my favorites.

He's a great guy. If you ever get to see him in action, the action of loving, you'll be blessed more than you could ever put into words.

Matthew 5:14 "You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden

You're killing me smalls...

That's one of my favorite lines from a movie... (sandlot)

I was reading Acts 9 today. It's the one about Saul==>Paul. About how he kills Christians and Jesus comes down and WHAM! He is converted, not quite like that, but you get the picture (if not go read Acts 9)...

So I'm thinking how much we are like Saul/Paul. How we live this life of destruction and we hurt all those in our path and then Jesus comes into our lives and we try to tell people about Him, we try to live our lives for Him and people say "wasn't she the one who ______". And we just have to keep living and loving until they see the change in us, and it's not us, it's Jesus.

But what about the people we "kill". We talk about Jesus but our actions don't match, and that leads them to the whole "hypocrisy" thing and that keeps them further from Life, real Life. I know in my own life I probably do that more than I'd like to admit or even sometimes more than I even know.

That scares me. To think the people in my life that I love might not see Christ through me, not because I want it to be about me, but that I want what I do to point to Christ. To life, to love, to grace.

To be more like Him.