Passion



Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)


Thursday, March 27, 2014

Thankful for His faithfulness



I’ve had so much to say in the last couple days but never enough time to put ‘pen to paper’ and let me tell you, that’s busy for me, I love writing.

I leave for Haiti tomorrow, and I am nervous and excited and I cannot wait to hug muffins, hand out suckers, and just love people.  I am looking forward to just soaking up the sun, seeing new parts of Haiti that I’ve never seen before.  It’s exciting to serve Jesus.  So many people think that it’s so great that I give my vacation time up to serve others, I promise you, I am the one who is blessed.

I’ve had a million distractions in the last week, craziness has come my way.  I can tell you sometimes I handled it really well, and sometimes… well, I am thankful for God’s grace.
There have been so many moments when I have heard the voice of God, I have seen His miracles all over the place, and there have been moments when I haven’t heard or felt Him at all. 

In Youth Ministry we tell the kids to listen to worship music, we tell them to read their
bibles, to hang out with Christian friends.  You know why?  Because it keeps us close to God, and focused on Him. I am thankful for this advice that I believe in because I do it myself. 
Yesterday, I wanted to listen to Eminem but let’s face it, as much as I love Eminem, I knew that my heart needed to hear Hillsong, to sing it.  The truth is, the CD Aftermath turned my heart towards God, just like a flower turns towards the sun.  

I sang this song without even thinking about it, 


The song resonates in my heart, I always say that music gives us the words our hearts long to sing.  I am so thankful for this trip that is coming at the perfect time.  I am thankful for a God who provides.  I am just so thankful for His faithfulness. I am thankful for His love.  I am also thankful for the way He has wired me to love (and pack in advance), He is faithful to send me people who drop off cards, give me journals, and so many who have followed God and given.  

I am ready. Ready for this trip.  Ready to hear Him, to see His beauty in Haiti.  I pray that my life will never be the same  because of His love.

He is.

Faithful.

I am.

Thankful.

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Prayer List



I leave just in a few days I leave for Haiti!  A huge part of this trip has been prayer and spending time with God.  I am excited to go and nervous!  I would really love it if the people I love pray for the team I am on and for me.  

You are also welcome to pray anything that the spirit leads.

March 28-29  Safe flight, smooth sailing through customs.


March 29 Time at Gradec – Time effective for loving like crazy!  Fun times, sweet times, that our love penetrates any language barriers.  
 
March 30 Safe food & water; no illness.

March 31 Satan's plans to be bound, God's plans to be loosed

April 1 Team Unity/Fun!  Pray for joy in serving the Lord

April 2 During quiet time with God - God to reveal team members some of his plans for their lives

April 3 Team to see the work God did/May the mission continue after we leave
April 4 Safe flight, smooth sailing through customs

April 5 Safe travels, Flight

P.S.  I adapted this list from one that my friend Sara made when her son went to Thailand.  I loved it!

Saturday, March 22, 2014

Wonderfully overwhelmed!

I'm about to leave for Haiti in one week from today!  In the last couple days I've probably had every emotion run through me. 
I've had crazy distractions and God speak to me in the most audible and visual ways.
Today when my friend left after helping me pack, all I could do was cry.
Overwhelmed.
Completely overwhelmed.
By the grace of God.

If you know me, you know I don't deserve the crazy ways God blesses me. You know I've lived a not so perfect life. But you also probably have seen God do some pretty miraculous things if you've been around me.
Today my friend and i packed for my trip and we laughed and talked about serious stuff. And I don't even know, all I could do was cry because she was with me.
I mean really, so many people have donated their money to my trip(s). Today... I got a $500 check!!!! What?! Yes that's right. Do you get that? Who does that? Someone who does just what the bible says, she gives! 
I also got donations this week of $50 and $5 and they meant a lot to me too!!! It all adds up! I'm thankful! My heart is overflowing. Tomorrow I go have breakfast with my friend Katie and tomorrow night I get to watch my favorite person in the world perform. 

And I leave for Haiti in a week! I'm so excited and crazily overwhelmed! 50 pounds of little dresses and britches! Tons and tons of fun stuff! My clothes are packed! 

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Prayer and not worrying

My heart has lots to say but I need to ask you for something. 

Someone once told me, pray don't worry, you can't do both at the same time ;) 

Will you please pray for me? 

I have two more trips to Haiti this year and I'm nervous about the money. I know God has called me on these trips so even though I am not sure where the money is going to come from, I know it will. Roughly my payment per month is $700. That's a lot of money. I had crazy dreams last night about people donating to my trips.

Thinking about doing the cupcake sale again. And some other things, I just don't have a lot of talent to sell things. Maybe a parents night out. 3 or 4 hours of munchkins running around here to make money. How much do people charge for babysitting?

Just pray please. That I'll have peace and trust God and that the money will come.

He's the Creator of the universe. He owns all the cattle on the hill. Just waiting until He sells a few.

It's no coincidence this was the first thing I ever spoke about...

“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life ? “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. (Matthew 6:25-34 NIV)

Friday, March 14, 2014

Preparing for Haiti... I'm rambling a bit!



Well…  I am two weeks out and kind of nervous.  I am going to Haiti but to a place I’ve never been with people I’ve never met.  This must be God… because “comfort zone Margie” would never do this… I am bringing my favorite skirt  <3 span="">

I’ve been kind of nervous because I don’t have any capri’s or shorts after last summer.  So I had to go buy new ones…  I had gone to Dress Barn but didn’t find anything… and today I finally made it to JCPenney after a great dinner with Samantha.  Because I haven’t really lost any weight in the last couple months, I wasn’t really sure what size I’d wear…  Thankfully I didn’t have to go a size up.
There is a lot going on in my heart, I am nervous about going and doing something I’ve never done before… But I know God called me to do this, and I am going to see a part of Haiti that I’ve never seen before, and even though I am nervous, I AM EXCITED!  I am excited because I feel like not only the gifts that God has given me will be used for His glory, but of so many others…

My couponing friends collected nail polish, vitamins, deodorant…  Using their talents and time to help others that they will probably never meet in heaven, but they know it’s for God’s glory!

Along with my new shorts, I have pulled out my favorite skirts. 

It’s getting real people!  I am excited about next week when I pack up my suitcases with my friend Rachel (she’s coming over).  We will lay everything out and packing and praying…

I have a favor to ask of you… My readers…

Before we leave:
Can you please pray for me and my team?
Please pray:
 that God go before us and prepare hearts to feel the love of Jesus when we get there.
 that no one gets hurt or sick before we leave.
 That God speaks to our heart in devotions and reading
That God provides everything we need to go
That we are focused on God
That He speaks to our hearts
That we draw close to Him
Team unity

Also before I leave…  I am focusing on my eating – eating whole foods before I leave and juicing (but I will add some fruit to mostly veggie juice – I tried drinking all veggie juice and I almost puked!).  I’d love to just lose 5 lbs before I leave but mostly I just want to be healthier before I go. I also have to start weaning myself off of iced tea.  I will not have the option to drink 4 teas a day.
So that’s it… just preparing my heart and body for my trip.

Sending love!

Here I am! Send me!!

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Living out dreams... and putting some aside



When I was invited to join the God Sized Dream Team, I really had no idea what to expect… and it was better than anything I could have ever imagined.  I thought I was joining to prepare to write the book that I’ve always felt called to write… but that’s not what happened.  I haven’t even written one page, let alone one word of that book.  I’ve thought about it.  I’ve even thought about going away for the weekend and writing… but that’s as far as I’ve gotten…

In this time, God has given me the vision to open a community center in my area.  This seems way too big for me.  And quite frankly it is.  But it’s not too big for God.

I’m always in prayer about it, asking God what I need to do to get moving. It’s about small things, I need to do my paperwork to complete the 501c3 portion, write the bylaws and all that stuff that doesn’t seem very important or glamorous but it is.  I actually like that kind of stuff, I like box-checking.  Box checking makes for successful adventures and to make sure that things get done…  I like box checking.

Luke 12:48 But the one who does not know and does things deserving punishment will be beaten with few blows. From everyone who has been given much, much will be demanded; and from the one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be asked.

Let’s face it though, it’s not like the movie Field of Dreams, if you build it they will come.  I am not a rescuer, that’s God’s job.  I am an encourager.  And so… that’s what I do… and I have also been blessed with God’s vision of love.  

A few months back I had the vision of handing out 100 lip balms… and God told me to do it… so I put out a request to collect money and lip balm.  And lo and behold!  Enough money was collected to give out 300!!  I was thankful to have someone who could sell them to me cheap!  It was a blessing all around.  We gave the last of them out for Valentine’s day!  How exciting…   

And then…  I saw a thing on coupon site for free deodorant… it was one of those magical coupon deals… the kind you see on TV… So I put it out to people… I’ve collected well over 250 deodorants!  I’ve given 50 of them away so far, I will take some to Haiti and give them out to soup kitchens… and wherever needed.  

(and I now have another huge box of lip balm to give away - I really do believe that the more I give away, the more the Lord gives me)

I don’t know when I will break ground on the community center, but I know that God has called me to be faithful in the small things.  And I know in time He will ask me to be faithful in bigger things.  

 Obedience.

I see it so many times when people have BIG dreams of things but aren’t willing to do the hard work it takes to get to the point of fulfilling a big dream. Anyone can dream something up, but are you willing to do the work? 

Often I ask myself, is this about you being in the spotlight or for the true Glory of God?  Am I serving ‘unto You’? or serving man (or even myself and my own ego)?

I often have to check myself and my dreams… and make sure I am in path of God and what He desires.  

Doing a heart check today… remembering that He gives me the desires of my heart… and pursuing Him and them…  is honoring.  Excellence & obedience in small things!

Psalm 25:4 Show me your ways, Lord, teach me your paths.

P.S.  I have not given up on writing the book, it’s just not the time…

I'm excited that I'm linking up with my friends at God sized dreams!