Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Tuesday, June 30, 2015

The joy of gardening

That snazzy garden needed more tomato cages and so... I ordered 20 tomato cages from THE FOURTH Lowes I tried!! So I picked them up and headed over to the garden and put them up...

There was a woman walking with a baby in a stroller she shouted "it's looking good" and so I offered her the first squash that was ready for picking. It was a little small but it hadn't grown much since last week and it would just get hard and unedible if it wasn't eaten. So I asked her if she liked squash, she shouted "yes" so I walked it over to her and she was so excited (almost as excited me!!!!!) and I was so very happy I finished caging my tomatoes today. 

I have been so pleased with all aspects of this garden. The building, the community, and just watching it grow. Things that I seem to do for others always seem to be more of a blessing to me.  I mean this crazy garden makes me soooo happy and brings me joy and peace. I will never understand why God chose me or even chooses me to do crazy things but I'm so blessed! 

I love this silly garden!!! And that lady is gonna eat a "home grown" squash!! My heart is over flowing!

Saturday, June 27, 2015

You're awesome!

I have to tell you about something that really bothers me. 

I'd like to tell you about one of my biggest pet peeves.

I hate when you do something nice for someone and they say "you're awesome". In my head to the average person who says this to me (buckets and a few people excluded) I want to take back what I did and say "bite me".

I know I'm awesome, I'm a Masterpiece (eph 2:10), God created me, but that "you're awesome" you just threw at me just said to me "I only like you because you do things for me.

You know where it's the worst? Church

When we say to (especially new believers) "you're awesome" when they do something for us, they find their value in what they do not who they are. When their schedule doesn't allow them to do something, they stop being awesome and start being hurt.  They see no difference in the church and the world, they both used them.  

There are few people that I actually believe them when they say "you're awesome" to me (unless you're a bucket or a Beck(y or ie) I probably don't believe you and want to say "bite me" as my response to you... Maybe I'll start doing that instead of saying the uncomfortable "thank you" I usually say ;)

Sunday, June 21, 2015

thanks dad!!!

i have a millions things to be thankful for when it comes to my dad!!!  Here's just a few!

Thank you for not giving me up for adoption

Thank you for raising me

Thank you for always feeding me first when you cooked breakfast on the boat

Thank you that I always had clean clothes

Thank you for teaching me how to do laundry

Thank you that you always made sure I was fed

Thank you for teaching me how to cook

Thank you for sacrificing so that we could have a boat

Thank you for naming 4 boats after me

Thank you for teaching me to swim

Thank you for teaching me to brave

Thank you for teaching me how to drive the boat

Thank you for teaching me how to be the best first mate

Thank you for believing that I could

Thank you for teaching me to stick by family

Thank you for teaching me to be the human GPS

Thank you for bringing incredible women in my life

Thank you for teaching me to be independent

Thank you teaching me that color doesn’t matter

Thank you for all your support with Phyllis

Thank you for financially supporting us

Thank you for keeping Phyllis overnight when I needed a break

Thank you for supporting me with my job

Thank you for picking up Phyllis when I had to travel to Chicago (and got stuck there!)

Thank you for supporting me when I went back to school

Thank you for believing that I could be successful

Thank you for teaching me to serve others

Thank you for taking care of me when I was young

Thank you for teaching me that you measure the rice and then the water when making rice.

Thank you for helping me to believe in Santa until I was in 4th grade

Thank you for Easter baskets

Thank you for always keeping me in touch with Mom’s family

Thank you for letting people take me to church

Thank you for all my Barbie stuff

Thank you for teaching me to take care of others

Thank you for showing me how great Detroit is

Thank you for taking me to Belle Isle

Thank you for teaching me to never settle

Thank you for teaching me to love to travel

Thank you for bringing me a great step mom

Thank you for calling me when you make Beef Barley Soup
Thank you dad! I l loveyou!!!

Saturday, June 20, 2015

Happy heart!

I am not naturally "sporty". Nothing sporty comes easy for me, except for cheering!! Now I'm great at cheering!!! Except if Netta and I are watching a Red Wing's game, then we cheer when everyone else does because we were talking!! One time I went canoeing and I had never been before and literally was told to sit there and look pretty (I was a lot skinnier then)!

That being said I don't tend to like to do "exercisie" things with people because, well... I suck at it. Really bad. With really the exception of doing things with Katie. Katie is one of those people who seems to be good at everything, but i don't mind doing things with her because she's so encouraging!! I went kayaking last week (I think it was Sunday) and today we tried (both of our first times) paddle boarding. I knew it wasn't gonna be easy but why not try it?!?

So like most exercise things, I wasn't that great at it. So much so that the guy said (after teaching other people cool turning things) - "you'll probably just have to only focus on paddling for the next 6 or 7 times you go out". It seriously took everything I had in me not to cry!!! Yes it's true. I was so nervous, everyone who went was fit, and I am a chubster. My core is not as strong as it should be ( and this was a great motivator to work on that) and I hate looking stupid, which I'm sure I did. (Id also like to say that I bet that guy can't make food for 100
People like he's making food for 4 like I can).

I've had some people say some pretty discouraging things to me in the past, which always makes me nervous about starting/trying new things but it makes me especially thankful for friends who do half marathons with me or who do the incline with me and don't make me feel stupid when I can't finish, or who go paddle boarding and aren't embarrassed to be seen with me (or at least don't act like it)! Or the millions (ok maybe not millions) or people who supported my dream of starting a community garden!!! 

Good Friends make my heart happy!!

Friday, June 19, 2015


Its they day after the mission trip and I'm tired and to be honest this was the easiest mission trip I think I've ever been on (with the exception that I worked almost 18 hours while being on vacation)

We worked at the coolest community garden and walked around downtown Denver learning about the homeless. And some other various projects. 

Honestly I forgot how much I loved and missed youth ministry which scares me. Lol

It was a really great week and I am super thankful that I was able to serve Jesus this way. My life just seems different, running until I can't run any longer, trying to sprint a Marathon are just not things I want to do. 

A lot of people seem to be reading/studying Lysa TerKeurst's book "best yes" and loving it because I think it strikes a cord with so many because we push ourselves to exhaustion trying to be everybody's everything (or maybe it was just me) and I am all for loving and serving others but sacrifice is not the same as people pleasing. I've learned because God made me, that serving at a normal capacity (I think my normal might be more than others - but remember we measure ourselves by God's ruler not anyone else's) is fun, heart changing, fruit growing AND bearing.

There's lessons in everything. I have learned that God really speaks to my heart on mission trips, near or far and anywhere in between! Especially when our lives are lived missional.

This verse has been all over my heart this week!!

But someone who does not know, and then does something wrong, will be punished only lightly. When someone has been given much, much will be required in return; and when someone has been entrusted with much, even more will be required. (Luke 12:48 NLT)

Friday, June 12, 2015

My shirt my heart

Today I leave to go to Colorado for a mission trip and to visit my framily. I'm wearing my Cody high school tshirt, well because it's clean and I love it.  

Sometimes I have the hardest time deciding what to wear because my wardrobe consists of mostly t-shirts. And the truth is, I like it that way. It's easy, economical, and people know what I stand for... But the latest one people might not like lol. But I don't care.

Today's shirt got a lot of attention. "Are you a Cody alumni?" No... Then I'd explain and talk about how great Cody HS is!!! But the last person or maybe latest person said "are you a Cody girl?" Why yes, yes I am :)

I've worked with a lot of organizations and I've done "good" in the name of Jesus, and there are always great moments and not so great moments.  Working with life remodeled was no different. But the other day "the buckets" and I watched the Cody High School and I remembered a lot of the good, and of course movies pick out the best parts, but I saw the end result, and my heart smiled, and I remembered the faces like Herb and Miss Ernestine who were so thankful that we were in their neighborhood helping and clearing blight.  I will always have a connection to that neighborhood because I drove through it my whole life and was there with my my gram, and investing my heart and time there. 

Am I an alumni at Cody HS? No.

Am I a Cody girl? Absolutely.

I wouldn't mind living over there. Lol but everyone else might if I do. 

Tuesday, June 09, 2015

After awhile

This is posted on my fridge at home...  Enjoy, let it speak to your soul

After a while you learn
The subtle difference between
Holding a hand and chaining a soul
And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning
And company doesn’t always mean security.

And you begin to learn
That kisses aren’t contracts
And presents aren’t promises
And you begin to accept your defeats
With your head up and your eyes ahead
With the grace of a woman
Not the grief of a child

And you learn
To build all your roads on today
Because tomorrow’s ground is
Too uncertain for plans
And futures have a way
Of falling down in mid flight

After a while you learn
That even sunshine burns if you get too much
So you plant your own garden
And decorate your own soul
Instead of waiting
For someone to bring you flowers

And you learn
That you really can endure
That you are really strong
And you really do have worth
And you learn and you learn
With every good bye you learn.

Veronica A. Shoffstall – After a While

Monday, June 08, 2015

Being my best me

Today it was one of those days, it started out pretty rough and by noon the only thing I felt like I did was have lasagna delivered to my favorite tshirt peeps.

Even things I thought I tried to do the right thing... Ended up messed up.

I had one of those "I never do anything right" days.  And if it were anyone else I'd probably say "don't be so hard on yourself" but for me, I don't settle for that. That's not my best me.

So I kept on, doing what I know to do, moving in a forward direction, self propelling. Finish strong.

So... I bought a new air conditioner for my daughters room, put it and the other one in, ran the dishwasher, and threw in a load of laundry... And started packing for my mission trip. 

A few things done that needed to be done. Getting those things accomplished or not actually doesn't make me good or bad, right or wrong, for me, it's being my best me and not letting the voices in my head beat my best me.

So today might not have been a complete success but moving forward to be my best me!