Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Monday, April 30, 2007

Checkin' in

I ate like crap this weekend. I did good, getting back to it Thursday and Friday - Day after the funeral... BUT come Friday night, it was the pizza that got me. Oh, I love pizza. After the lock in, it was a bath and a trip to McDonald's. Yum, I love McDonald's. I ate a hot dog at the game, which was super yummy and taco bell for dinner Saturday night. Sunday, it was McDonalds breakfast again, did i mention, I love McDonalds? We ate Wendy's on the way home, and meatloaf and mashed potatoes on Sunday night for dinner, and Big Boy mud pie for dessert at 9:30PM.

So do I want to weigh in this week? Nope. Will I? Yeap. One week skipped is ok due to funeral, but two weeks ago begins a slippery slope of weight gain, and I've worked really hard for this 11 pounds.

Today, I started with a spinach/tomato/cuke cucumber on flat bread, 3 points... and it will be good for the rest of the week. And weight watcher's enchiladas and a walk for lunch.

Summer is almost here and I am not nearly where I would like to be, and I do not want to buy new clothes that are sizes I just don't want to wear.

Sunday, April 29, 2007

I can't believe I'm not tired!!

I did the Fuel Lock In, I must have worked non-stop for 8 hours to feed those kids!! I peeled 6 pounds of carrots, 10 cukes, and way more!! I took a 1 1/2 hour nap. And was good to go for Saturday, 9 hours. Slept 20 minutes on the way home, and kept going until 9:30 where I sat down on the bed, and instantly fell asleep until 6:30AM. Got ready, went to worship with those beautiful girls, cleaned house, mowed the lawn, cooked dinner, now I walked to my dad's checked my mail, and now I am going to take the dog back home.

More tomorrow.


And i am not tired!!

Friday, April 27, 2007

This is my last post before the weekend. My internet at home is screwed up and it's a busy weekend, but rest assured I will be praying for all of you.

Tonight is our Rockin' Fuel Lock-in, 9PM-7Am. I hope we have a ton of kids and I hope we have enough snacks (since I am in charge of snacks) and mostly, I hope that their friendships grow, they are touched by the music, and the Word of God resenates in their hearts.

Tomorrow I am working (9AM-~5PM) at a fundraiser for Phyllis's New York Trip so if you are at the Tiger Game, come up to the Wilson Middle School booth and buy a hot dog.

Sunday, is probably one of my favorite things in the world, I am giong to do worship service at Adrian Training Facility for Girls. YEAH! I love those girls and even though I only see them once every 3 or 4 months, they have grabbed great holds on my heart and I can't wait to see them again! We're going to talk about the unlikely people God used in the Bible. I pray these girls realize that we're all unlikely people that God can use. And I hope in all my tiredness He uses me.

I can tell you that this has been a very tiring week, emotionally I have run in circles and I should have dropped about 10 pounds but I didn't weigh in yesterday. I did try on a pair of Capri's I had in the closet, that i haven't worn in YEARS, about 5 more pounds and I will be in them, and I am excited!! To be honest, I don't really like them, but I am excited of the chance to get to wear them :)

Thank you all for praying me through this week. You are all amazing friends and I love you!

1 Peter 2:16 Live as free men, but do not use your freedom as a cover-up for evil; live as servants of God.

Thursday, April 26, 2007


I know yesterday was her birthday, I took her a present early, just some coffee & an African Violet to put in her window (she probably thought it was hocky but my Gram always had one in her window).

I met Sara at P&P. We met at a time when I had so much conflict in my life that most people would have run (really fast) as far away from me as they could (and to be honest, I still always have something going on that is probably annoying). She sat with me in Opa Opa and we cried over greek salad (her) and coneys (me). And then somehow we became friends and as she calls it "posse".

If i was to buy her stuff to show my love for her, I'd have to fill the sky with balloons, I'd have to turn lake erie into coffee (even though parts of it already look like it), and I would have to make enough cookies to fill Ford Field. I'd have to plant enough flowers to cover the state of michigan (maybe Texas), and I'd change all the words in the dictionary to I love you Sara..

But instead, I snuck into the life group she was leading, just in time for cake, and celebrated with her.
Happy Birthday, one day late, Sara. I love you. I'm so glad we're sisters!!
Proverbs 17:17 A friend loves at all times, and a sister is born for adversity.

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

I have to let it go

Today was the final day. I had a tough spirit because I was not going to let anyone hurt me today, enough of that has gone on. But I think, like most days, God has a specific plan and great accomplishment for me, every day, but my heart needs to be open to it.

My heart sang all morning, praise songs to God because I indeed know how good He is, all the time. There is a song I never heard before on WMUZ, it was something from psalm 46, 46:10 to be exact, be still and know I am there. That's right.

I was a Catholic for 31 years. I left the Catholic church to be fed somewhere else, and I have been chasing God like crazy ever since. I fall a lot, because that's what happens when you run, but then you get up, forget about those scraped knees and you keep going. And the funny thing is that I dreaded the service today because it's so repetitive and quite frankly, pretty boring. But I listened today, I listened to the words. God's word is always beautiful, even if you say it in a pretty monotone voice, His word is wonderful.

I opened my heart today, and my arms. My daughter needed her mom and my cousin needed me to hold her and hug her and love her. So we stood there, the three of us, hugging and crying, all together. In love.

I prayed for the last 5 days that my cousin Tom would be there, I haven't seen him in 5 1/2 years since my great-uncle passed away. He wasn't doing well then, he was in a broken marriage that has since ended in divorce. I prayed that he would be there today, I have been trying to find him, I've prayed for him for a long time. I was so happy to see him today. My heart about lept out of my chest, I gave him my email, both home and work, but I know that some people are a little nutty about my email since it's 'Christdrivenmom', but I just told him if it made him feel uncomfortable (because he had a wierd look when he read it) that he could email me at work. The day went on, the service went on but as we left, I hugged him and I told him that I wanted him to email me and that I had been praying for him, and he got a little chocked up and misty. I can't wait to see how God works in his heart. I love him.

We came home after an exhausting day. I am tired, I know that God never left my side today. I know that heaven probably ran out of duct tape keeping it over my mouth, but I am sure they have an endless supply.

Jer 29:11-13 11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart

I wish

I wish that I could tell you that I have spent the last day in sorrow but in happiness at the funeral. Those who have spoken to me, know this is not true.

In January I was told that I could do the eulogy for my Gram. I was told that "we're just putting her in the ground" (yes those exact words) we're not have a eulogy. Only to find out on Monday, we are, apparently, I wasn't good enough to do it, the priest in doing (and oh, by the way, they wanted me to tell him stories so it would sound good - YFR). You think I did? Nope. not one. THEN yesterday, 5 minutes before the scripture service (which my family is so original and probably doesn't know any scripture - we did the same ones we're doing today - ones "approved" for funerals) they said if I wanted I could say my eulogy. "No" was my answer, and I am quite sure that Jesus then put duct tape over my mouth so I wouldn't say anymore. THEN after speaking with my friend who I assured, I am adopted, I walked in to hear them talking about me. OH! that was nice.

And my last pleasantry of my blog today someone said, and I quote "I'm surprised you turned out so good, I heard about all the bad things you've done". That was nice. How do you EVER recover from that, it's rolling around in my head like a ping pong ball.

So today, I am singing loud and proud, "I'm not who I was" AND "you never let go". I'd Youtube it but my computer is malfunctioning and I can't do it at my dad's house. SO sing it with me.

And the funny thing, they have no idea of the REALLY bad things I did, I only got caught by having a daughter. And God used that for His glory, because why? Romans 8:28 God works for all those who love Him. **not approved for Catholic funerals

Monday, April 23, 2007

Let me save you...

some time and from embarrassment.

1. let me save you some time. If you are ever asked to read at a Catholic funeral, do not spend your time trying to pick out a scripture that has a good message and would honor the person at their funeral. You probably won't be allowed to read it anyway. Scripture can only be read if it's approved for funerals. I for one did not know of this rule, though I did have a strong feeling that this might happen, I studied, researched, and listened to God anyway, only to be stomped on because apparently scripture about how great God is and how if we are strong in Him that nothing we come against can beat us is not approved. Don't waste your time. I can say that I could never in a million years hear Pastor J say "sorry, that's not approved scripture for a funeral, here's a list of what is approved". All I can say is "are you kidding me??"

2. In case you happen to be related to people who are Catholic and are part of the "Basilian Order" that's Basilian - like a lot of money, I am sure you have heard me say that, NOT "Brazilian Order" like all the priests in Brazil (And don't say "Oh, I have a friend from Brazil" - you will be completely stomped on). Apparently, I am THE dumbest person in my family because I thought Basil was something you cooked with, not a guy who was named a Saint. And PARDON me for not knowing all the saints by heart, and besides, I have a hard enough time remembering the guys in the bible, let alone some guys that they make saints for crying outloud. So in case this ever comes up and someone talks about it, consider yourself educated. You can google it if you need more info.

Apparently, all you praying for me, God didn't hear the wisdom part or maybe He did, I don't know because apparently, I am the DUMBEST person. And for those of you who know me, you know how HIGH strung I am, do you know how many times I had to say "be the light, be the light" and sing "let it rise" tonight????

AND one final thought, in case you were worried about all those babies who die before they are baptized, the new Pope has decided those babies now go to heaven instead of hanging around in limbo until someone prays them into heaven. Now, can someone PLEASE explain to me, and I am being totally serious here, why anyone would follow a God who would leave innocent babies hanging around in limbo land, what if no one prayed for them. I don't get that. I just don't get it. Those babies go to meet Jesus early, my mom, now my Gram, my aunt dee, sara's g-ma's & g-pa's rock them. right?

I had a rough day, but Jesus was with me. AND He had His hand over my mouth, a lot. Today was only 4 hours, tomorrow is 8. He might need duct tape. Don't stop praying.

Thought I would share

I love taking pictures, I thought I would share some oldies but goodies with you. I was tasked to do a picture board for my gram and I figured since I was getting the images scanned and printed for that, I would do a ton others that I want to scrapbook. Enjoy!

After bobbing for apples at one of our Halloween parties

Carousel @ Tiger Stadium


With Gram at her 1st Communion

Getting ready for the pool!!

On our porch

Phyllis got to tryout for the Rockettes. It was so cool!!

Her first time out on the ice!

She had the boys mesmorized from the very beginning! I actually had no idea that was going to happen at the recital

I love this pic of her and my dad!

The girl cousins, they love each other!

We had a Halloween party! Bobbing for apples

2 Tim 1:5 That precious memory triggers another: your honest faith—and what a rich faith it is, handed down from your grandmother Lois to your mother Eunice, and now to you! And the special gift of ministry you received when I laid hands on you and prayed—keep that ablaze! God doesn't want us to be shy with his gifts, but bold and loving and sensible.

Sunday, April 22, 2007

never more...

I will tell you something very important. In my Christian life, it hasn't been perfect. It's been up and down, right and left, and sometimes even upside down.

I'm coming up against some big days (the next four). I have the opportunity to spread God's Greatness. There will be times I am sure that I will feel all alone.

But one thing I am sure of today.

I have never felt more loved by God.

Exodus 19:5 5 Now if you obey me fully and keep my covenant, then out of all nations you will be my treasured possession.

Saturday, April 21, 2007

How I Know God Loves Me

This is the song of my heart. You have to go to the link because they disabled the embedded thing...

Everytime I Breathe - Big Daddy Weave
I am sure all of heaven's heard me cry
As I tell You all the reasons why this life is just too hard
But day by day, without fail I'm finding everything I need I
n everything that You are to me
(Chorus) Every time I breathe You seem a little bit closer
I never wanna leave I wanna stay in Your warm embrace
Oh basking in the glory shining from Your face and
Every time I get another glimpse of Your heart I realize it's true,
that You are so marvelous God
And I am so in love with You
Yeah, so in love with You Now how could I,
after knowing One so great
Respond to You in any way that's less than all I have to give
But by Your grace, I wanna love You not with what I say but everyday
In the way that my life is lived
(Chorus) Wrapped in Your mercy I wanna live and never leave I am held by how humble,
yet overwhelmed by Your majesty
Captured by grace now I'm finding I am free
You are marvelous God and knowing You is everything
(Chorus) Every time I breathe You seem a little bit closer
I never wanna leave I wanna stay in Your warm embrace
Oh basking in the glory shining from Your face and
Every time I get another glimpse of Your heart I realize it's true,
that You are so marvelous God
And I am so in love with You

Friday, April 20, 2007

I must be adopted`

Today I came to the conclusion that I must be adopted. I know it sounds crazy but there are somethings about me that are just unexplainable that just don't match with the rest of my family.

1. I like my music, loud. Really loud
2. I am not Catholic, and even though I was raised Catholic, I always thought the rituals and "religion" was nuts. I like that book of basic instructions before leaving earth book. It makes total sense to me.
3. I have my selfish moments, but almost always, I put everyone else first.
4. I don't believe that kids should be seen and not heard
5. I don't have glasses or contacts or the need for them.
6. And one last reason, I don't think that family should be alone when someone dies.

I am quite sure that my dad, aunts, and uncles have all been talking the past two days, but it's funny, they aren't talking to me. I guess they just figure I will be ok. And they are right I will be ok. At our last family funeral, they all made sure they had a seat to have lunch, and forgot about me & Phyl so we sat by ourselves. I decided during the awesome worship today at Metro, that it is indeed true that I was adopted. I was adopted into the Metro family. There's more brothers and sisters than I could have ever imagined. There's a bunch of nieces and nephews, and a few adopted kids of my own.

I know that somehow tonight was delayed because even though we worship for HIM, He knew that I would need the music, my friends, and a bunch of kids around to heal me.

How great is our God?

It's gonna be a bad week

I am still going to record what I eat... but I think I may need a 5 section note book instead of a WW booklet.

I am quite sure that there isn't anything that an ice cream can't get you through.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Gone Home

My gram passed away this morning at about 6am. I got to say good-bye yesterday. One of the last things she said to me was that she loved loving me. How cool is that?! Not just that you were loved but that someone loved loving you.

I'm thankful I got to say goodbye and now she is up there, eating Easter candy with my gramps, Sara's gramps, my sister, my mom, my aunt dee and countless others. A life well lived.

You know it's funny because I called two people and asked them to pray. One I know hates to talk on the phone and I wasn't going to call, but I did anyway (my sister Sara) and I am so glad I did. And the other was the Pastor from my old church. It's funny because before both phone calls, I almost didn't but I think God nudged me a little. It was like being surrounded by God's love.
I asked her yesterday if she wanted me to read her Psalm 23, my bible was in my purse, she said she would like that. And I said to her that I bet she never thought she'd hear me say that, and she said "you're right" and we laughed.
1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,

he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he restores my soul.

He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.
4 Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me

in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6 Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
July 19, 1918 - April 19, 2007
She was a woman who put her family first.
We crowded around a dining room table for holiday dinners, we sat in a small living room on Christmas and opened presents.

I’ve heard my dad tell the sweet story of how the doctors told her he’d be blind. She wouldn’t take that as satisfactory, she taught us all to fight for our families, to not take no for an answer. I think somehow we can thank her for great laser surgery we have today because she had given her son the opportunity for experimental surgery back in the day.

She exuded joy with each marriage of her kids and was thrilled with the birth of each grandchild, and one great- grandchild.

She was proud that her son was a Captain of the police department and a firefighter. IF you knew my gram, you know she would follow a firetruck.

She was proud of her Mercy nurse daughter who gave her life to God.

She taught us each about Jesus and the importance of Him in our lives, even when we didn’t want to hear about it, and I got to eat lifesavers during church because gum wasn’t allowed in Catholic Church.

She might not have always liked our choices, but at the end of the day, she just wanted us all to have the same joy in our families as she had in hers. She was proud of each of us even if she didn’t always tell us, you could tell by the smile we were greeted with on each visit. And she loved us all.

There are many great things in our lives that we don’t even know how they got there, but she planted the seeds in each one of us. To love our families, and eat mixed vegetables.
WW Update, down 2.2lbs this week. -2.2/-11.6

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Week One - Fuel Explosion Tour

I thought I would share my pics from last night of the Fuel Explosion Tour. It was an amazing night! When Adam asked if any kids wanted to give their hearts to Jesus there were a bunch of hands (at least 6) raised. I am amazed at how God uses us all for His kingdom, still can't figure out why I got to be so lucky, but I am thankful.
These words from Everything by Lifehouse is just a brief description of how my heart feels.
And how can I
Stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me
How could it be
Any better than this

Doors Open!!

Various Pics of Phyllis (in the black T), 'Cole in turquoise, Jessie Mick (in orange), Timmy (plaid), & Mark (hoodie)

The Barbarshop (yes, it's supposed to be spelled that way).

Slurpee Chugging Contest

Running to Games (first team there gets extra points)

Running to Worship (and if you look close, you will see Jesus running with them)

And even though it seems like all fun and games (which I believe is a form of worship), Adam does an amazing teaching. He taught the kids who God is, and asked them who they were based on Matthew 16:13-18
13When Jesus came to the region of Caesarea Philippi, he asked his disciples, "Who do people say the Son of Man is?"
14They replied, "Some say John the Baptist; others say Elijah; and still others, Jeremiah or one of the prophets."
15"But what about you?" he asked. "Who do you say I am?"
16Simon Peter answered, "You are the Christ,[
b] the Son of the living God."
17Jesus replied, "Blessed are you, Simon son of Jonah, for this was not revealed to you by man, but by my Father in heaven. 18And I tell you that you are Peter,[
c] and on this rock I will build my church, and the gates of Hades[d] will not overcome it.[e]

Monday, April 16, 2007


Joel 3:9-109 Proclaim this among the nations:
Prepare for war!
Rouse the warriors!
Let all the fighting men draw near and attack.
10 Beat your plowshares into swords

and your pruning hooks into spears.
Let the weakling say,
"I am strong!"

We are starting the Fuel Explosion Tour tonight. I am not competitive at all. I could careless about a free trip to Kings Island. Now, of course, I am all in. I will do everything in my power to help the kids on my team win, but I do not hide the fact that my goal is not to win a trip, but to win those kids over from the hands of satan to the hands of God.

I am always amazed at how many kids just aren’t loved, real or perceived. The scary thing is that it is real. They are not loved at home or at school. And that’s what I love about Fuel, they are loved here. I love the kids (I hate to admit it but I can’t remember half their names but I still pray like crazy) I love them, I see their beauty and all they can be in the eyes of God.

I checked on the web to find 31 college students killed by a gunman who took his own life. And do I wonder, where was God? Not really, I wonder how many people had the opportunity to let that man know he was loved by God, and passed on the opportunity because they weren’t comfortable or it wasn’t convenient. I hope that in the future, I never say “I wish I would have…”

If a free trip to Kings Island gets one kid into the right hands, I’m all in. And even though I am not competitive in a games sort of way, I am totally competitive against satan, and this is war. he will not win.

2 Corin 10:2-4 2I beg you that when I come I may not have to be as bold as I expect to be toward some people who think that we live by the standards of this world. 3For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. 4The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds.

Sunday, April 15, 2007


I'll tell you something... I am 34 years old, and God teaches me over and over...

I wanted to be a leader of Alive. I love working with the Youth. But over the last couple weeks, God really put it on my heart, "Not now". I almost laugh when Jeremy preaches about people who need to step up and serve. That's not my issue, really it's not. Sometimes I use serving as a way to avoid going deep with people. I serve like crazy. I love serving God, I know that I can't make it up to Him for dying for me, but I love Him to know I love Him and I would do anything for Him.

So, I had to tell Adam, "sorry, I don't think I can do it, I got too much going on" and I really felt like God was telling me that I would be overwhelmed and could not do it all right if I did Alive too. I trusted in Him, and so I did what He said.

Tonight I went to learn how to use the word program at the building. It's not hard, but different that what I usually use. I picked it up. There is someone who does the words a lot, and so we decided to split the responsibility. I feel like this was EXACTLY what God wanted me to do. Being at Alive, the kids will see me around, a lot of them already know 'of' me and I will get to worship God in serving, but not being overwhelmed. It's a small commitment.

It's funny how I just needed to get out of my own way, let God guide me, and I ended up right where He wanted me. He's amazing, don't you think??

Psalm 37:4 Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart.

a day in the life...

Usually every weekend is packed solid with a bunch of stuff, starting Friday night and going well into Sunday. The only thing I had planned this weekend was to have lunch at the local Taco Bell with some friends from our old church. We get together every 3rd Sunday. It's a standing appointment. We don't try to pick a date in the future, we don't get out our calendars. 3rd Sunday, with the Burtons. It's one of my favorite times of the month. The funny thing is if you know the story of me & Alice Burton, you would never in a million years think we would have ever been friends, and now, I trust her with the most important thing in my life, my girl Phyllis. I'll save that story for next third Sunday.

But anyway... This weekend has been sort of relaxed. Phyllis babysat on Friday so I went and hung our at Casa de la Mink and had chicken salads & then waited for Phyl to be picked up. Yesterday, we did some shopping, we went for her and the funny thing (which hardly ever happens) is that I walked out with 2 shirts. And then we went to see Disturbia. It was great. I would definitely recommend it if you like suspense movies. There's not a whole lot of gore, a few parts here and there, but it's SCARY!! Totally worth the price of admission.

Today, is another day of sitting around, I need to do some house cleaning but I am going to scrapbook. I did a few pages yesterday (and doctored up some old pages) and I am going to do some today, my goal is to get caught up for 2007 and do at least 4 activities in other years.

Have a good day. Relax and enjoy doing 'nothing'.

Psalm 116:7 (msg) I said to myself, "Relax and rest. God has showered you with blessings. Soul, you've been rescued from death; Eye, you've been rescued from tears; And you, Foot, were kept from stumbling."

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Great things about Tonya Mink

1. She makes a great chicken salad

2. She has a great smile and she's beautiful (inside & out)

3. She is very loving

4. She's a great listener

5. She has a wonderful family

6. She always makes you feel welcome

7. She makes you laugh

8. She's supportive

9. She loves music

10. She loves God

(and she's going to blog today [this is wishful thinking on my part])

1 Samuel 20:42 42..."Go in peace, for we have sworn friendship with each other in the name of the LORD, saying, 'The LORD is witness between you and me, and between your descendants and my descendants forever.' " ...

Friday, April 13, 2007

Giving money

I was at the Subway today (I went to a different one than usual) and there was a guy standing outside asking for money. I told him I would catch him on my way out. Then another guy comes in trying to sell me some crap, apparently I look like I am the giving kind (they are right). So I tell the guy I don't want his stuff, here's a $1.

The woman at the table was like "that was nice of you". Do I think they are going to buy something nutritional with that money? Probably not. But you know what? that's not for me to decide. I try to remember that every blessing is from above, and who am I to keep it for myself. I gave a couple of bucks away. Big deal.

But you know, sometimes I am kind of stingy with giving my money up. I'm not talking about being frugal, I am talking about helping others. Sometimes, I will give up my last $1 and sometimes, I have a pocket full and will not give it up because they might use it to buy something else. You know what? I'm a jerk. What they do with the money is not my concern. Who the heck am I to judge them. Why because my addictions are 'legal' or easier kept behind closed doors? That's nuts.

I needed to check my gut. It's not my money anyway. It all belongs to God, because all blessings come from above.

In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. Gen 1:1

Thursday, April 12, 2007

Well, duh!

Phyllis is on track (running). This mother, in a million years, never would have thunked it.

As a mother of a daughter who had JRA (Juvenile Rheumatoid Arthritis), I honestly never thought the day would come that she would do more than T-ball or softball (and even then, sometimes she batted and someone else ran for her). It's just the way it goes. She has talents in so many other things, I was ok with it. But she decided to try track, it's a no cut sport, and she really gave it her all. She has chin splints and her knee began to swell up.

This is probably normal for someone who does not do the whole sports thing. Get it checked by the doctor and be good with it. Here's the thing, there is nothing normal about me and my worry. We already had a doctor's appointment scheduled for the 20th. I was going to cancel it but now have decided to keep it, get this thing checked out, run some blood work, make sure the ol' RA factor is where it's supposed to be - nothing.

I would be lying if I said that I wasn't worried or concerned. It was a tough fight. A really tough fight. A fight fought on my knees. I believe that God healed her. I believe she was delivered from this. But it still has me concerned, I'm her mom, and I love her.

I didn't want to say it in my outloud voice because I thought that if I did, somehow, this might come to fruition. How dumb is that?! And besides, I know God heard my heart before I prayed the prayers outloud anyway. I asked one person to pray for her, and then I asked my life group, and so, I have now decided, because I will not let my fear take over, to hand it over to God, and to ask that you pray. Pray like crazy (I know your prayer lists are long, but it's a short term thing- only until the 20th). Keeping something to yourself, doesn't make it go away, rather it festers inside and causes stomach aches, it helps satan win. I know the power in prayer. I know that God answers them. And He will answer this one.

I know better than to keep something this big inside. Fear is a terrible thing, God can deliver us from anything, He's shown us a million times, and He will show us a million more.

Isaiah 65:24 Before they call, I will answer
WW update... I gained 2, overall, still down 9.4