Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Monday, October 31, 2011

More on worship

Image from here

So this may seem so silly… but the other day someone referred to music as worship.  It’s true, music is one way that we worship, but I really think that worship should be the way we live.  I believe we should offer our lives as worship.  But then, I decided I wanted to really look it up, cut it apart.  So I pulled out my concordence (I’ve used it more in the last week then… EVER!) So I looked up worship as it was written ‘back in the day’ whether it was Hebrew or Greek.

So in the Psalms, worship means:
In homage to God, bow, self bow, bow down, crouch, fall down, fall flat, humbly, beseech, do obeisance, make obeisance, do reverence, make to stoop

In case you don’t know what obeisance is (I didn’t) so I looked it up:

1.a movement of the body expressing deep respect ordeferential courtesy, as before a superior; a bow, curtsy, orother similar gesture.
2.deference or homage: The nobles gave obeisance to the newking.

However, in Luke 14:10 (I trust my Strong’s Concordance) it says worship refers to:
Glory, dignity, glorious, honor, praise
In Acts 7:42 it says worship means: to serve, do the service,
In Acts 17:21 show piety (and in case you don’t know what that means- I looked that up too because I wanted to understand if I wasn’t sure, then it wasn’t clear, and that means I didn’t understand.)
1.reverence for God or devout fulfillment of religiousobligations: a prayer full of piety.
2.the quality or state of being pious: saintly piety.
3.dutiful respect or regard for parents, homeland, etc.: filialpiety.
4.a pious act, remark, belief, or the like: the pieties andsacrifices of an austere life.

So then I started thinking about the differences in OT & NT.  I tell you that I’m not that smart… but I came to the conclusion that the difference probably had something to do with who God was in their life. 

I have thought of God as many different things in my life.  I feared Him, I’ve loved Him, I’ve served Him, He’s been Lord in my life, Savior, Counselor.  He’s so many things.  Holy, set apart! 

I don’t know if I got my answer LOL but at least I am informed.  And listened as God spoke to me… 

May we never stop worshipping until the world is full of His glory!

Romans 12:1 Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship.

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Meal Planning for the week

I'm not sure what the order is... I've got to work that out... but this is the schedule of meals this week Mon - Friday (clearly we will eat leftovers):

Milano Bakery in Detroit
Sunday - Meatloaf & Potatoes
Monday (Halloween)- Sloppy Joes on Milano Sub rolls - I scales the recipe way back!
Tuesday - 11th grade life groups or Chicken Pot Pie Stoup with pie crust topping
Wednesday - Chicken, Black Bean, & cheese enchiladas
Friday - Fattousch & Hummus (life group - studying John 1)


wor·ship (wûr sh p)n.1.a. The reverent love and devotion accorded a deity, an idol, or a sacred object.b. The ceremonies, prayers, or other religious forms by which this love is expressed.2. Ardent devotion; adoration.3. often Worship Chiefly British Used as a form of address for magistrates, mayors, and certain other dignitaries: Your Worship.v. wor·shiped or wor·shipped, wor·ship·ing or wor·ship·ping, wor· honor and love as a deity 2. To regard with ardent or adoring esteem or devotion. See Synonyms at revere1.v.intr.1. To participate in religious rites of worship.2. To perform an act of worship.
deity [ˈdeɪtɪ ˈdiːɪ-]
n pl -ties
1. a god or goddess
2. (Christian Religious Writings / Theology) the state of being divine; godhead
3. (Christian Religious Writings / Theology) the rank, status, or position of a god
4. (Christian Religious Writings / Theology) the nature or character of God

From here
I was thinking about worship today.  I am listening to a sermon from Metro this morning as I get ready.  It’s from the Guardrails series.  It’s number 4.  I missed it last week because I just couldn’t seem to get out with that dumb cast anywhere.

But the word worship to me sometimes makes me crazy.  When I was a new Christian, I referred to the music as worship, and as I fell more and more in love with God, worship began to mean the way I live my life. It wasn’t about if the band played my favorite songs or if they hit a wrong key or if the words weren’t right on the screen, it began to be about how I live my life.  Now, let me tell you this, I fall short, every day.  I wouldn’t say that I’ve got this whole ‘worship’ things down.  But if I think of how I live my life, I want, I strive, for everyday to be lead in worship. To put Him first, to do everything in my life for the Glory of God. Folding laundry and making meals to serving in church.  What I eat to how I love people.  Keeping $1 in my pocket. 

I’ve been pulling out my concordance lately. I feel like I need to understand EXACTLY what God meant in some of my favorite scriptures. Last week I looked up every word in Micah 6:8 and then wrote out each definition.  This week, I think it will be the word worship.  According to biblegateway, worship shows up 254 times in the NIV.  I might have to narrow my search a little.

The last couple weeks God has really slowed me down, or maybe it was my own doing, I don’t know, but I’ve found a different way to worship.  And yesterday, I spent some time with some really amazing women and between this post (just mentioned worship) and that time with those women, it caused me to think about the worship of my life. It caused me to think about truly living my life for the glory of God.  So this week, this is what it may look like finishing scrapbooks, making dinner, working hard at my job.  It may take turns and twists as long as it leads me closer to His heart.

Psalm 86:9 All the nations you have made will come and worship before you, Lord; they will bring glory to your name

Saturday, October 29, 2011

Have no other God's!!!!!!

Oh the images God gives to me! I went to an awesome RC United Group this morning we talked about last week’s message that I missed last week but so thankful to discuss it with a bunch of beautiful women! WOW! (PS - if you want to get my blog sent to your email - you can now - there's a place right to the right - thanks Netta for teaching me something!)

Towards the end of our time together Netta (she really is the best!) mentioned something about how when we are self centered we break the first commandment. This totally blew me away. When I’m singing the ‘meme’ song I make things not about Jesus and bringing glory to Him but about me, and if I make things about me and not Him, I put myself before Him. And afterall, if we want JOY – I believe it must be Jesus Others You. How about that?! But I never really thought about it as breaking the first commandment. WOW!

Exodus 20:3
You shall have no other gods before me (NIV)
You must not have any other god but me.(NLT)
No other gods, only me (The Message)
You shall have no other gods before Me (NKJV)
Do not have other gods besides Me (Holman)
You shall have no other gods before or besides Me (Amplified)

Jesus is NOT a bobble head!
He’s pretty clear in Exodus, He doesn’t waver much! And I am pretty sure that He had a reason for telling His people that they should have no other God’s before Him!

I do not know why God put the image of a bobble head in my brain but I am no bobble head! But thinking about worshipping God, and other idols and how stupid it is to worship anything besides Him made me think of bobble heads! Silly, but God gives me crazy images sometimes!

This whole leg thing has had me singing the ‘meme’ song a lot. I feel like Meatloaf singing ‘what about me! It isn’t fair!’. First of all, why would we want to sing a song by a guy named MEATLOAF? That’s silly. Why name yourself after a food eaten on Sunday. And why meatloaf? Why not roast chicken and mashed potatoes? And why not mashed potatoes? They are better than meatloaf anyway! Ok, sorry, I digressed!

The next part of that song is ‘I’ve had enough and I want my share!’ That causes me to think about ‘my share’ do I really want my share? Really? My share of what I deserve? No thanks! What I deserve? An eternity far from God in the pits of hell! That’s what I deserve! But what I really want is a one-on-one relationship with the Creator of the Universe. My Healer, My Savior, MY LORD! That’s what I want. And singing a song about me is not going to get me there! Maybe that’s why we sing Hymns because they are all about HIM!

Singing about me puts the focus on me. Ever stand in a spotlight? Everyone looks at you, it’s hot. A lot of times, people wonder what you’re doing there and start to pick out your flaws. NO THANKS! I’ll be in the back, behind the curtain, making mac & cheese for Him! And for others who need their spirits fed as well as their bellies! So on the way home, I started thinking about my family. Phyllis mostly. I know she’s busy, and she’s got a lot of pressure. What can I do to make sure she has what she needs and make it easier on her. She’s been helping a lot around here and I’d be lost without her with the boot and long before that! The easiest. Meal planning. So she has yummy delicisou food to keep her body and soul fed!

Thankful for great lessons and remembering to sing about Him, not me! I never was that great at singing anyway!

Thank You Jesus for reminding me that it’s not about me. It’s all about You!!

Dear Jesus, thank You Lord for loving me, in my mess. Thank You Jesus for loving me so much that when the world is loud and tells me that it’s all about me, and I start to believe it, that is when You pull me closer, You hold me tighter, Your word is stitched in my heart to keep it from unraveling. Thank You Jesus for being bigger than me! Thank You Jesus for being the strong tower that I need, and the eagles wings that I can hide under when I am not strong enough to do anything on my own. Thank You Jesus for it being about You and not about me. Thank You for all You’ve done in my life, and all You continue to do. I am thankful for You far more than my words will ever say. I loveYou.

Friday, October 28, 2011

The end of the week! Thank You Jesus!

It is Friday!

Josh 1:6-9 6 Be strong and courageous, because you will lead these people to inherit the land I swore to their ancestors to give them.
7 “Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. 8 Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. 9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”

I had and issue that was bothering me so much. I believe that people weren't doing the right thing and I wasn't speaking up. It was eating me inside. You know what held me back? Fear. People think I'm so brave and strong. They are wrong.

God tells us so many times don't worry, don't fear, be courageous, be strong, I am will you always. And here I am sitting in the corner, sick to my stomach, because of fear. Ugh. So if I'm really going to be honest, it isn't others that are making me sick. It's me.

Because I know what to do but I am afraid to do it. I wrote a status today. 'I'm Yours. Help me to remember that today Lord.' I told Him to help me remember it, and I know it, and here I sit, paralyzed with fear.

You know what the first thing I ever spoke about was? Do not worry/fear.

It's funny how God spoke so loudly to me to speak about it. And so many people said to me that's what they needed to hear. It was amazing how God was guiding me through the bible, His real and relevent truth in my life. And how those words STILL many years later speak truth in my life.

I know that His Word says that He handles it all, that He cares about sparrows and lilies. I know over and over how He has protected me, and this time will be no different.

Matt 6:25-34 25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[e]?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Thursday, October 27, 2011

How I'm doin'

In case you're wondering how I am doing...  Here's the scoop...

I'm trying to be patient with this whole boot thing, but let's face it, I'm not a good patient.  I got my boot wet so the bottom is coming off.  Going to the doc to either get a new one (or try to talk her into letting me back in the boot and use the crutches). I've already had two people yell at me about the boot thing.

I'm making Reverse T3.  Read about it here.  Great.  Not only does stress make me crazy, it makes me fat.  Thanks.  Just what I needed.  Got some nutrition (vitaminies as I like to call them) to get me out of this circle...  Yesterday my stress level was through the roof.  Blurry vision for like 3 hours.  Great.

I'm trying to stay positive.  Making 'thankfuls' lists so that I can remember that I am blessed and my burdens really are small.

This weekend going to a 'Remarkable Women' luncheon with my (step) mom. Excited about that.

Feel like such a failure that my friends had a baby and I haven't been able to make them meals!

Also we are still moving ahead with fundraiser ideas for our LWI trip, super excited about that!  Hadn't seen the peeps (who are mostly in my bible study) in quite awhile, it felt like home all being together.

Finishing up scrapbooking this weekend.  It will be another great thing to keep me occupied.

Sending love!

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Thankful giving

“I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.”

~Mother Teresa

I woke up this morning singing the meme song. Wondering why people haven’t ______. I wondered why the people I cooked for almost every Sunday haven’t noticed that I haven’t cooked for them in weeks and haven’t called or facebooked to see if I need any help. It would be great to have one of them help me make dinner for the rest of them. I could spend time with them, cook, and feed others! What a blessing that would be! It really is ok though, I'm over feeling hurt :)

Yesterday I was praying yesterday for a giving heart, one that gave so much that people took it for granted and that I rejoiced in being taken for granted! (which had my heart stirring since I read this) Then today I woke up singing the meme song… What a jerk! But God didn’t take long to speak to me! He said ‘remember your heart yesterday – that’s My heart for you too! Don’t stop, show them what a giving person is’ so I started my list of thankfuls. That's usually how I get out of my meme moods, I make a list of my thankfuls.  All the things I was thankful for! My list was pretty long! It really changed my heart and then before I knew it, I was listening to the Holy Spirit on more ways to give.

Not being able to do the things I am used to do has made me creative & imaginative and relying on the Holy Spirit to remain giving, because I needed ideas. It’s been fun and joy-filled! And it seems never ending! And it’s also made me super thankful for those that have blessed me!

Today my goal is to finish the baby scrapbook that I started on Sunday, start two smaller scrapbooks for some people, and then maybe start making cards for Christmas, birthdays, and thinking of you! Gonna keep the creativity going! In this down time, not only will I be praying for help (and a humble heart to accept it), I will praise God for all blessings, big and small, I will be praying for more ways to give.

Acts 20:35 In everything I did, I showed you that by this kind of hard work we must help the weak, remembering the words the Lord Jesus himself said: ‘It is more blessed to give than to receive.’

Monday, October 24, 2011

Restored Joy in Scrapbooking!

35 pages shown here, finished over 40 pages!
I’m not the easiest person to keep occupied. I like to be on the move. Which means I don’t do things like knit or quilt or crochet, all things I would love to do… someday! I had to find something to keep myself occupied for Sunday otherwise I would have gone bonkers sitting around, and getting out by myself is just a hassle. Can’t go shopping because I can’t crutch and push a cart, I hate using the scooters and not all stores have them. So I finally got around to getting a scrapbook done for my friend Katie, I also organized all my 8.5x11 paper that has been messy and disorganized since l blasted out a ton of scrapbooking pages for Phyllis’s grad party. I don’t know why I felt so accomplished getting that done, plus, now I know what I have and how much. I certainly don’t need any of that paper! Every so often I clean out my scrapbooking stuff and donate it to a teacher or school because I am not going to use it. I’ve got a ton of paper scraps and after I am done with this book that I am making I am going to clean out the 12x12 paper and then I will donate it all!

It was a lot of fun putting together the book for my friends (and my little muffins). Show me your choppers (first teeth), Gotcha Day!, birthdays, Christmas, first food, ya-ya, Grandma & poppa, summer fun, cousins… lots of pages, lots of fun! I laid out all the pages and glued them down, got out the stickers, this week I will pull out my Cricut to do all the page titles. I need to go to JoAnn’s this week, get a book, extra plastic covers, more stickers, and a frame made for a new canvas I bought.

I think I will start scrapbooking again, it was fun and creative. I forgot how much I loved doing it. Also kept me occupied and away from the fridge. Earlier in the day I almost posted “there is a battle for my joy, and I don’t think I’m winning”. I turned that over to God. I told Him “I can’t fight this one, Lord”. He did. He helped me by giving me the time to do the scrapbooking, a peaceful house (that was clean), and the love of my friends as I designed each page and thought about how much joy they fill my heart with. As I finished scrapbooking for the day, my joy was restored!

I’m one blessed woman!

1 Thes 3:6 But Timothy has just now come to us from you and has brought good news about your faith and love. He has told us that you always have pleasant memories of us and that you long to see us, just as we also long to see you

Saturday, October 22, 2011


I went to a Memorial today of someone I never met, but inspire to be like. 

God decided to bring home a guy at work’s wife.  I went to the memorial for her today.  It was a celebration of her life.  And what a life she had!  I think she must have walked, eat, and breathed love everywhere she went!  I want to be like that! 

It was at a Catholic Church and sometimes people who have ‘gone Protestant’ tend to speak terribly about the Catholic Church.  I don’t like that at all. People blame the church for not having a ‘relationship’ with Jesus and say it’s all about ‘religion’.  It may be true in some cases, and I will never say that the Catholic Church is perfect but I do like to go occasionally and breathe in the Majesty of it.  There is a kind of reverence in the church.  It’s beautiful stained glass windows, the tradition.   They read the bible in church.  If you have anything that you’d like to debate about… go somewhere else, Jesus was pretty clear in John 17:21 that all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me and I choose to see the beauty.

They read in the second reading 1 Cor 13
Love is patient
love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
 8 Love never fails.
But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. 11 When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. 12 For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
 13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

That is not normally a verse that is read a funeral, but this woman seemed to have her name synomous with love.  I want my heart to be that way.  I want to be giving and not crabby, I want to look the other way when there is a wrong that is done to me.  I want to be patient, and kind.  I want to be more like Jesus. 

While they had communion (I couldn’t go because I’m not Catholic anymore) I sat and prayed.  And listened.  I let God identify the places in my life where I needed to let Him in, to be more like Him.  Oh boy.  It’s not going to be easy, but it can be done.  He’s done such a work in my life already.  I’m surrendering to Him. 

Here I am! Send me! ~ Isaiah 6:8

Isaiah 40:30-31 30 Even youths grow tired and weary, 
   and young men stumble and fall; 
31 but those who hope in the LORD 
   will renew their strength. 
They will soar on wings like eagles; 
   they will run and not grow weary, 
   they will walk and not be faint.
And we sang this song… which always makes me cry but today, I LISTENED to the words, I didn’t just sing them!
You who dwell in the shelter of the Lord,
Who abide in His shadow for life,
Say to the Lord, "My Refuge,
My Rock in Whom I trust." 

And He will raise you up on eagle's wings,
Bear you on the breath of dawn,
Make you to shine like the sun,
And hold you in the palm of His Hand.
The snare of the fowler will never capture you,
And famine will bring you no fear;
Under His Wings your refuge,
His faithfulness your shield. 

And He will raise you up on eagle's wings,
Bear you on the breath of dawn,
Make you to shine like the sun,
And hold you in the palm of His Hand.
You need not fear the terror of the night,
Nor the arrow that flies by day,
Though thousands fall about you,
Near you it shall not come. 

And He will raise you up on eagle's wings,
Bear you on the breath of dawn,
Make you to shine like the sun,
And hold you in the palm of His Hand.
For to His angels He's given a command,
To guard you in all of your ways,
Upon their hands they will bear you up,
Lest you dash your foot against a stone. 

And He will raise you up on eagle's wings,
Bear you on the breath of dawn,
Make you to shine like the sun,
And hold you in the palm of His Hand.
And hold you in the palm of His Hand.

Friday, October 21, 2011

Give Thanks!

I hate change. Even change I decide. It used to take me months to get used to a change, then it’s almost time for the next change once I get ‘settled’. Thankfully I have ‘improved’ it takes me a couple days now. I am striving for the moment change happens to just embrace it without waiting.

This cast thing is only temporary but it has been quite a change from my very independent life. I have to ask for help. I don’t really like it. But I’m getting used to it.

I had a friend who had a more permenant thing happen to her and every time I talked to her, all she did was complain about how no one ever did anything for her. And it kind of upset me because I knew people were doing things for her, I knew I was doing things for her and she was never satisfied or grateful. I remember thinking, 'I never want to be like that’. She started playing games like blocking people on facebook (me being one of them) so I deleted her off my facebook. I must tell you this, I have only deleted 2 people total off my facebook. That being said, I want to find joy in all circumstances, and I know that God will continue to teach me a lesson until I learn it, if the lesson is joy, I want to learn it, if the lesson is to become humble, I want to learn it, if the lesson is to love bigger during/after this little adventure, I want to learn it. You get my point. I want to trust the lessons God is teaching me that He will make me more and more like Him, I want to strive for that!

I woke up this morning thankful. No migraine (had one yesterday and it was a bad one)! I had a new sweater and shirt to wear (gray to match my crutches and my tennis shoes)! My capri’s fit over my cast! I put dinner in the crockpot, Stevie Wonder was on the radio this morning! A beautiful daughter, fabulous friends, a van, a handicapped tag, iced tea, nieces and nephews born of love into my family, I think a gift for my stepmom (that’s hard!), sale on the sewing table Phyllis wants – it’s half off and I have an additional 10% coupon, a home, a great job, it didn’t rain, medical coverage, a God in heaven who loves me! I have a ton to be thankful for!

In the midst of your crazy life, what are you thankful for? Tell me about it!

Romans 5:1-5 Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we[a] have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, 2 through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we[b] boast in the hope of the glory of God. 3 Not only so, but we[c] also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5 And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

The blessing is in the blessing! Lessons from Day 2

So I woke up this morning with the kind of migraine that was debilitating... the kind that keep me from seeing and usually make me puke.  Great... wet ground, cast, migraine. This super woman put away her cape and laid back down.  No use in being stupid.  I slept a little longer, drank an iced tea, took an excedrin migraine and worked from home.  How about that?  the world did not end because I put my cape away!  Here's a few lessons I learned (and kind of already knew).

I'm a giver.  My friends had their baby today... my second thought... how am I going to get them meals?  Oh, I've got a plan... but it's weird, I can't even walk without crutches and I want to serve.  Crazy!

The blessing is in the blessing!  I sent an early Christmas gift Tuesday, it's already at it's destination... I think I'm more excited than the recepiant. 

If you ask for help, you won't die.  I needed to go to Sam's (Ok needed/wanted) and so I asked my dad to take me...I have this ridiculous thing... I don't ask for help and then get mad when no one helps.  Duh!  SO I asked for help, I got it.  I'm happy, and I didn't hate it.  I didn't love it, but I didn't hate it :)  And another thing done!

I also needed help with getting the air conditioner out of Phyllis's room.  I asked someone to help me... he's coming Saturday!  How about that?  Pretty Sweet! 

The blessing is in the blessing!

Acts 20:35 In everything I did, I showed you that by this kind of hard work we must help the weak, remembering the words the Lord Jesus himself said: ‘It is more blessed to give than to receive.’

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

It's the end of day one...

I hope that for the next two weeks (until I go back to the doctor) my life and my blog doesn't revolve around my cast but right now it does...  so here's what I've learned (somethings I already knew).

**Two friends were willing to take you out to the grocery store in the rain, at 8PM because they love me.  That's love.Instead, Phyllis took me.
**Kroger floors are slippery when wet... almost fell.  Riding in those carts is not as easy as it looks.  And don't take them for joy rides... people really do need them.
**People who don't walk around quoting scripture saying they love Jesus offer more to help you than people who do...  that really shocked me...  I mean I know people are busy... but if the world knows us by our love... I think we may be in trouble. This for sure has hit me, let this be a lesson to me... walk the walk...  (I didn't even mean to be funny).
**I asked for help a lot today... water, lunch, grocery store, holding doors, taking out the garbage. It was hard to ask but it sure made life easier.
**All those times I said my daughter was helpful and great... she's walking my talk these past couple days.
**I realized I can't make dinner.  I'm wired to be a caregiver and a provider, it's hard to unwire that... I can ask for help... I can ask for help... I can ask for help...  or I can eat out :)
**A good rollie office chair can get me around the house quite well, way better than crutching or crawling.
**This is temporary
**There is joy in all circumstances... because God is good

It is well with my soul...

I WILL find the joy!

Even though I've had a few moments this morning of wishing I never went to the doctor I refuse to let my circumstances beat me (and I think I may have been a drama queen yesterday - so if you were forced to be part of that... sorry!  Just the thought of getting a cast was stressing me out!

I am blessed to have a bathtub, if i only had a shower I'd be stinky! (and I've also discovered that because it's my left leg, it's more comfortable to sit width-wise instead of head at the faucet handles)

I have a beautiful daughter who is more than willing to help, she's dealt with this before!

I have a few friends that told me if I needed anything to let them know!

I have trash bags until I find the thing I bought to keep the water out.

I have great medical coverage

I have one good leg

My pants fit over my cast!

Almost everything I need is on one floor!

I sent off my first Christmas present to its destination

It's my left leg so I can still drive!

Psalm 143:10 Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

I'm having pizza

MY FOOT!  :/
Yes, I’m having pizza for dinner.  I know it’s not the best choice, but listen.  This cast thing?  It sucks.  My daughter made using crutches look easy.  That… and I’m old.  Did I mention? This sucks.  I’m thankful for my dear friend Pretty Sarah who kept me from falling and got my van for me.  Do I know it could be worse?  OH OF COURSE I DO!  But I really don’t like this AT ALL!  I go back in two weeks.  By then I might have muscular arms. 

I am only allowing people to sign my cast for a $20 donation to Hopeworks!

Monday, October 17, 2011

Cast Survival

I will be getting a cast on my foot tomorrow.  I could opt not to, but it will aid in my healing so I am choosing to be inconvenienced for healing.  I am not looking forward to it.  To be honest, I'm almost starting to panic.  Almost.

Planning will be key to everything I do.  Planning meals.  Planning trips. planning, Planning, PLANNING.  Good thing God wired me to plan! 

Things I need to do:
Plan meals for the week (my food is all in my basement so I'll bring up what I need weekly) - see below
Get a backpack (easier to carry stuff)
Get crutches ready
Clean house (including
Be prepared to kick anyone who tries to sign my cast (it's gonna be black if I have a say)
Take car to get detailed (Star in Detroit)

And probably more I just haven't figured it out yet!

Monday - Maybe out to eat, maybe stirfry (if I go out - stirfry will be tomorrow's lunch)

Tuesday - Panera with life groups
Wednesday - Crock pot chicken with carrots & rice
Thursday - Dinner with Sheila
Friday - Fattousch & Hummus
Saturday - Lunch - Memorial luncheon
                 Dinner - Chicken with Asparagus & broccoli
Sunday - Lunch - Thai
               Dinner - Tacos

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE pray for me....  For quick healing and for peace as I navigate through all this.  And that I will be humble to ask for help when it's needed and not hurt when people can't help.

Psalm 94:18 When I said, “My foot is slipping,” your unfailing love, LORD, supported me.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

My cup overflows!

I can hardly believe that it has been since Tuesday since I posted! I was a busy girl the last couple days!  Prior to Thursday I was getting ready for the Sisterhood reunion.  I was so blessed to prepare food for a bunch of my sisters!

I need this weekend way more than I thought I did.  In addition to having the blessing in the blessing of food.  Lately I've really been feeling like I didn't know where I belong or who I am because I don't look like anyone I know.  And by look I mean my life doesn't emulate anyone else's life.  I feel sometimes like a mis-matched puzzle piece.

I spent the weekend with 9 other women learning that we are stitched together by God's grace and mercy, and His True Love.  That each one of us is different and as we grow in Him, we love and support (and laugh with) others.

There was one point when we were worshipping and praying when God was speaking to me, and we were supposed to have communion. It wasn't something that we had planned.  I thought 'I am not prepared for communion, we have bread but no grape juice'.  I looked over and breathed a sigh of relief to see that we had 'Welch's'... until... I noticed that it was Cherry Juice :/  ugh.  Then I remembered we had grapes!  At real church in Detroit, we have communion with torn bread and grapes. When we bite into the grape, we remember that it is our action that caused His pain, and the reason for His sacrifice.  I was so excited about being able to fulfill what God had directed in my heart that I yelled 'we have grapes'.  Then laughter broke out, and then I said we could have communion!  I didn't really know what the ladies would want to do, however, I knew that it was God breathed, and everyone thought it was a good idea.

I learned this weekend, from so many women, that God made me the way I am to fulfill His purpose.  That I am not 'look' like others but as He created each one of us, it is by His perfect plan.  I felt so loved this weekend!  I learned so much this weekend, about myself, and about others.  About sisters from other mothers but the same Father.  I'm forever thankful!

My cup overflows!

Eph 2:10 (NLT) For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.

Eph 2:7-10(MSG) Now God has us where he wants us, with all the time in this world and the next to shower grace and kindness upon us in Christ Jesus. Saving is all his idea, and all his work. All we do is trust him enough to let him do it. It's God's gift from start to finish! We don't play the major role. If we did, we'd probably go around bragging that we'd done the whole thing! No, we neither make nor save ourselves. God does both the making and saving. He creates each of us by Christ Jesus to join him in the work he does, the good work he has gotten ready for us to do, work we had better be doing.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011


I found this on my friend Ashley's blog.  Who posted it from Phyllis :)
It's Truth!

Monday, October 10, 2011

You've been boo'd

Tee hee!  I love doing silly things like 'booing' people.  In our office we started last year booing people.  Leaving treats for people in our group in silly bags or buckets.  I was one of the first who started it this year :)  And I had an accomplice :)  But then I got boo'd again!  At first I thought 'oh know i have to do it AGAIN!' but then I regained composure did a little skip and said 'oh I get to do it again!' same words, different attitude!  And then I thought about my neighbors, I think I want to do one for them!  So I hand picked out some sweet treats!  The little guy next door is so cute and instead of a bunch of candy... i got him some animal cracker bags & a cup with a straw and his mom a soap and a table decoration!

For the new bags at work I got one for a man and one for a woman.  The guy's bag has a football :) and the gal's bag a reuseable cup with a straw :) and some candy of course!

Fun stuff! I know some people don't like Halloween because it's a 'pagans' holiday...  This is how I look at it... It's just another excuse to show people we love them!  That's my kind of holiday!

Sunday, October 09, 2011


How are you defined?  During Worship today I was thanking God that I am only defined truly by one decision I made in my life.

The one to follow Him.

It seems that every decision before and after that is overshadowed by Him. Sure the decisions before Him are covered in His scarlet cloak.  And the ones after that are usually (but if I am honest not always) made to bring Him glory.

I had no idea what Pastor Chilly was going to preach about today, and I almost didn't go.  I'm chuckling to myself because I actually had to talk myself into going.  I don't know what I was going to do in place of going to church, but there was a chance I was going to be late, I hate being late to church.  So instead of the chance of being late, I was not going to go.  I'm such a dork.  But I remembered Netta telling me on Saturday how excited Chilly was to share the message that God was going to deliver through Him (those are my words not hers) and so I thought 'Chilly always brings it, so what if I'm late I'll blame the boot'.

During worship I found myself so thankful for the God of forgiveness.  And then Chilly read/taught Joshua 2, Rahab.  You've heard the story, if not, read it here or here.  I love the story of Rahab, a woman redeemed.  I thought it very interesting there was one point that Chilly brought up that I either never noticed or knew...  The guys who stayed at Rahab's house?  They stayed on the roof not in the house.  They stayed out of the area where the trouble happened.  I wonder who had that idea.  But glad they did.  (Chilly always notes cool stuff like that - God's eye view kind of stuff - our God is a God of details - He counts hairs on heads).  Rahab had made quite a mess of her life (sound like anyone you know?  - Pick me pick me) but even though she was not in a time of grace (she's an old testament kind of gal), God worked in her heart and USED HER!  Love that! I know that I'm a mess but God has done some amazing things in and through me (with no help from me).  She could have said 'sorry guys, I've messed up so keep going' but she was able to be used by God.  SHE HAD A PURPOSE!   And if you check the lineage of Jesus - she's in it!!  (another point made by Chilly)

Chilly asked towards the end.  What did God call you?  I'm going to be thinking of that this week.  Why did God call me?  What's my purpose?

I'm defined by God, can't wait to see His definition.

Friday, October 07, 2011

Thoughtful Friday

These are my thoughts on going to the gym first thing in the morning.  I really don’t like it.  I do it because it is necessary.  My goal also is not to be healthy, ok, there I said it, my goal is to be thin-ner.  Sure, I want to be healthy, but really, it is about the way I look (and feel). Feeling good = looking good. There I said it.  I don’t like going at 5:00AM but I hate going at any other time of the day, so getting up at 4:30 works ‘better’ for me. And now since I am confined to the bike, I read my bible while on the bike, the last few days I’ve spent the whole time in the bible, no music, just words.  It’s been pretty great!  Me?  Inspiring?  Not sure about all that, but it’s important to me, so like all things important to me, I make time for them.

Happy the Tigers are progressing in Post Season.  I’ve been to one game all year, I don’t pretend to be some mighty fan, I am glad they are winning but someone wrote on their facebook ‘glad I live in the D’.  They don’t live in the D and to my knowledge, they never lived IN the D, they’ve lived close to the D, they are not even in the 313 area code…  Now, I love the D, I spend my time there, but I don’t LIVE in the D, no matter how much I wish for it, until I’m willing to do something about it (and God gives me the green light to go)… I won’t.  So please, in the future, get your facts straight, or I’m calling you out right there on facebook.  Just saying.

I had an opportunity, maybe I never really had the opportunity, but I thought I might have.  It’s gone.  I was pretty shocked that I would be willing to even take it (or be considered to take it) but it’s gone now.  I really think God was just nudging me a little to say ‘do you trust Me?’ I do. I did.  My goal is to make a difference wherever I go, in all parts of my life. I’m willing to do that, wherever.  So I guess, I will continue to strive to do that… here.

Meal planning is really working out, if you don’t do it, you should.  It’s a little work up front, but well worth it especially on dinner days. 

I want this! (I ordered the canvas version of it!!!)

Can’t wait for my Sister weekend!  Meals planned, grocery list made, going to start packing the things that are already in my pantry and making my packing list.  Grocery shopping this week.  I think I decided on our dessert for Friday night… Brownie Sunday Bar.  Not sure yet, but I think so!

It's almost time for me to be an Auntie again!  I'm excited! I feel like I already have the invisible string!

Proverbs 16:9 In their hearts humans plan their course, but the LORD establishes their steps.

Thursday, October 06, 2011

Meal planning

I'm super excited because next week I am having a reunion with some sisters friends that I blog with.  Guess who is doing some of the cooking :)  I'm stoked! I think it's funny that some of them are so happy, but I'm happier and this really does seem like a piece of cake!  I'm making favorites and easy stuff!  So that's my meal plan for the next week & a half...

My meal plan starts tomorrow (friday because I started late last week and that's as far as I planned)

Friday - Lasagne (I had made one and frozen chunks of it)

Saturday - Dinner - Mexican - either tacos or quesadillas

Sunday - Lunch - Lansing with Christie
               Dinner - ?

Monday - Chicken with cream of mushroom soup, carrots, potatoes

Tuesday - ?

Wednesday - Possibly Trish's (depends on how much I get prepped for the reunion)

Thursday - Lunch - Zehnder's
                  Dinner/Snack (we are playing this by ear) but it's snackie stuff, hummus/bread, cheese/crackers, chips& salsa,
grapes, ham rolls, cookies

Friday - Breakfast - Breakfast Casserole & Fruit
             Lunch - Potato/Keilbasa Chowder & bread
             Dinner - Lasagna, Veggie, Bread
              Dessert - oh, we will have something just not sure yet!

Saturday - Breakfast - Waffles & Sausage
                 Lunch  - Stuffed Green Pepper Soup, bread
                  Dinner - Out
(I'm actually leaving Saturday afternoon and possibly hosting a spaghetti dinner for my friends who are running the marathon :) - yes, I realize I'm ridiculous but I had to come home early to pick up my packet of stuff that I paid for the marathon).

Sunday - Breakfast - Cinnamon Rolls

Life plan?

I taped my life plan up in my kitchen, so I wouldn't waver.  I waved.  Like a Disney Princess in a Parade.  :/

So here I am today, back on the life plan.  So many people are dying around me, having strokes, cancer.  It sucks.  So I am going to do something about it... so here I go!

Last night I did my 100 situps. Went to the gym Monday, and THIS morning!  Read my bible.  Acts 6-8, and 3 days in my chronological bible, God spoke!  I love it!

So here I go... again!  You can check out my plan!  Plus people keep telling me I'm inspiring... so I better be!

Monday, October 03, 2011

Taco Stew

Another recipe from the Crockpot girls  on Facebook!  I modified it a little (their ingredients in ()


1 lb. Ground Turkey (already cooked hamburger meat)
1 15 oz can drained black beans + 1/3 can water (pinto beans)
1 15 oz can ranch style beans
1 10 oz can Rotel or diced tomatoes with green chiles
1 14.5 oz can stewed tomatoes rough chopped (diced tomatoes)
1½ cups corn -1 can
3 T homemade taco seasoning (1 packet of taco seasoning)
1 packet of ranch dressing mix


So here's the deal on this one, we hardly ever have ground beef in the house, it's Aldi's ground turkey for us.  Phyllis doesn't like pinto beans - I drained the black ones and added water because black bean juice is so dark. I had stewed tomatoes so that's what I used.  I don't buy taco seasoning, I make my own (while I realize some may find it ridiculous that I make my own - I find it kind of silly that they don't - spices at Aldi so they are cheaper and it tastes better - but to each their own).

Sunday, October 02, 2011

Go live love

The other day I wrote about how I envied people who were selfish.  How they always did what they wanted to do.  That really stemmed from how I was feeling.  I guess I was feeling a little like I didn't matter. And for a moment I wanted to be that selfish. I wanted to sing the 'meme' song.  I wanted to be one of those people.  However, even if I tried, I don't think I can be a person who only thinks of themselves.  I'm not saying that I am not selfish, I am just saying that everyday I embrace a little more that I am who I am. 

Yesterday I greeted by lots of hugs.  People I don't see but a couple times a year.  AKT Theatre.  I know those people because of who I am.  Because who I am is what I do.  I love.  I don't know why this is always hard for me to embrace that people love me for what I do, because it's who I am.  God created me to be a giver, really, I was like this from the time I was young, I can remember in Jr. High I carried a ginormous purse, if you needed something, it was probably in there, and if you asked, and it wasn't, the next day it was.  Unless it was cinnamon gum, because cinnamon gum is disgusting and should be banned and outlawed.

I believe that we should live our lives as Paul says in Phil 2:3-4 Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, 4 not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others.

I believe that we all should.  Not just me.  The world would be a better place if people stopped singing the 'meme' song.  I can tell you about this one time, it is actually silly really, my friend Katie had a few people over and she made iced tea.  I think everyone who was there likes 'sweet tea' (GROSS!) except for me.  Usually I know that I'll just drink water because you can't take the sugar out, once it's in.  But Katie made it without sugar and had everyone ELSE add sugar, and left it unsweetened for me.  Now, in the grand scheme of things and like my grandma used to say 'in 25 years who will know the difference?', I know some iced tea doesn't really matter, but it meant A LOT to me, especially considering that is must have been at least 3 years ago, and I can still remember how everything looked when I realized there was no sugar in the tea.  She probably doesn't even remember.  But I do.  

Sometimes we don't realize how the small things in our lives matter.  But they do. 

Go. Be. Love.

I love this song!  From Edges!

Saturday, October 01, 2011

Life as I feel it!

Sometimes I feel like a stranger in my own life.  I see my friends and I feel like I'm on the outside. I know I am not, but sometimes I feel like it.  Sometimes I stand and observe how lucky I am, how God has changed my heart and changed my life and sometimes I feel like I am that same person I was 10 years ago.  How is that?

Today my friend hosted a 'sprinkle' for a friend and I was so blessed to cook for it.  Those are the times when I think I am right where I belong.  This evening I am helping at a fundraiser and currently there are peanut butter cookies in the oven for it :)

I read a quote, and posted it this morning that said 'people cry, not because they are weak.  It's because they've been strong too long'.  I feel like I carry a lot of stuff, I hardly ever make a decision that doesn't include thinking about someone else, and how it may affect them.  I try really hard never to exclude anyone, because I hate to be exclude, and then usually something happens, something small, and I let it all go.  A couple weeks back, I was sitting talking to an old friend, someone I trust, and I just started crying.  I don't even remember what we were talking about, nothing earth shattering, I just remember dropping my guard for just a minute, and tears just started flowing, It's not often that I let that happen.  And when it does, it's a cleansing release.

Sometimes I realize I'm wound a little too tight and I've got to let go.

Right now as I seem restless and crazy, I won't act on feels but walk in faith.

2 Cor 5:7 For we live by faith, not by sight

On my heart

My heart has a million things to say, but it's just not time to say them.