Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

I love internet cards!!!

Ok... so I ate wiener snitzel! YUMMY!!! Ate some disgusting cake-torte thing, spit it right out in my napkin! Don't worry, I chased it with a better dessert!

Going to the zoo tomorrow, ALL BY MYSELF on the underground!

Met the person I 'met' via blogdom. That was cool! Hi Lori!!

Saw so many cool things, have blisters on the BOTTOM of my feet as big as quarters!

Two beautiful churches! GORGEOUS!!!

I only took about 100 pics or so, you have to wait until I get back to see them! I'm too busy enjoying the sites and i forget to get out my camera!

I'm relaxing!

we are here!

we made it through... I thought I could sleep anywhere. sleeping on the plane was difficult but I managed.

slept through bride wars and valkarie. it was hot! on the plane.

ate local pizza yesterday!! SSOOOOOOOO good with spinach!

love to you!

and... the z and the y are in different places on the keyboard, that is SO wierd!!

Sunday, June 28, 2009

So here we go!

We're leaving today, it's 4:00, and I am SOOO nervous!

Yes!! So nervous! I just want to get there! And I want to have a great time, and then come home! Yes, I'm already thinking about coming home, you know why?? There's no place like home, if there was, that's where I'd be! LOL!

Don't forget my funeral arrangements

While I'm gone, I want you to think about the fruit of the spirit. You can do a study on it, read it everyday. Since that's what I'll be studying, you can study it with me! I'll also be in Philipians!

Hey, I love you!

I'm still honestly in awe that I'm going on this vacation! I can't believe that God would bless me with this trip! I surely don't deserve it!!

Gal 5:16-25
16So I say, live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature. 17For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that you do not do what you want. 18But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under law.
19The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; 20idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions 21and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.
22But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. 24Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the sinful nature with its passions and desires. 25Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. 26Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other.

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Before we leave!

1. Clean the house so it's cleaner when we get back then it ever is
2. Clean the car (even the upholstry) someone will think we got a new car from the inside
3. Pack
4. Drink lots of iced tea
5. Wear clothes i never wear because everything else is packed
6. No laundry will be left undone
7. No dirty dishes in the sink or the dishwasher
8. Pray
9. Praise God for 'the surprise'
10. Be thankful for this HUGE blessing, remembering the day I found out about this trip and thinking "how will I ever do this?" and God simply saying, 'haven't I always provided? I brought this to you, I will provide" AND PROVIDE HE HAS!!

Romans 5:17 For if, by the trespass of the one man, death reigned through that one man, how much more will those who receive God's abundant provision of grace and of the gift of righteousness reign in life through the one man, Jesus Christ.

Friday, June 26, 2009


So in 48 hours we will be on the plane to Austria.

I am nervous and excited!

I can't believe that God blessed me with this trip and this time with Phyllis.

Tomorrow is the Alive CD release! Check out the video!

If you don't have anything to do, you should check come!!

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Self Talk

Do you talk to yourself?

I do.

And usually it's not nice.

You know what happens when you don't talk nice to yourself or you don't demand that others talk nice to you?

You believe the worst about yourself. And you even believe things that aren't true. And it makes the fruit fall off your tree (fruit of the spirit). (BTW, thanks Lynnette for giving me that catchy phrase)

And then "the jerk" uses that to stop you.

It's not good.

So, I taped the 'encouragement' paper on my wall outside my bathroom so I can read it while I brush my teeth, yes, it's wierd but I brush my teeth while reading whatever scripture I have outside the bathroom on the wall or the scripture that's taped to the mirror. And I wrote out Phil 4:8 and put it in a frame. Some may say it looks ridiculous and very homemade, but until I find something better... there it will be.

Only POSITIVE self-talk

Phil 4:8

8 Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things.
8Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.
8 And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise.
8-9Summing it all up, friends, I'd say you'll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious—the best, not the worst; the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse. Put into practice what you learned from me, what you heard and saw and realized. Do that, and God, who makes everything work together, will work you into his most excellent harmonies.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009


1 Thes 5:11 11Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing

Last night we had our Alive Staff Meeting, but it wasn't like it usually is... We did almost a whole night of encouragement. We put our names on a piece of paper and then we passed them around the circle and everyone wrote something encouraging about us. You can see mine. You can also see that it is folded. To tell you the truth, I folded it with every intention of throwing it away without reading it. I know, horrible. That's what happens when you rent out space to satan in your head (see Adam, I already listened to the CD!!) but I didn't throw it away, mostly because I told Mark who didn't want us to have his sheet that you are robbing someone of a blessing if you don't let them encourage you. And I didn't want to be a hypocrite (wierd things motivate me!). So I read it. And then I thought back to the post I wrote about wanting God to speak to me about my worth in Him. And how I would have missed His voice had I thrown that away (and I NEVER want to miss His voice!).

2 Cor 7:13 By all this we are encouraged

God's working in me! And I am blessed!! And encouraged!!!

“But the Lord is faithful, and he will strengthen and protect you from the evil one.”- 2 Thessalonians 3:3

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

I can stands what I can stands

Gal 5:16-25 So I say, live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature. 17For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that you do not do what you want. 18But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under law.
19The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; 20idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions 21and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.
22But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. 24Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the sinful nature with its passions and desires. 25Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. 26Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other.

You'd never know it, but I hate to argue.

Now, don't get me wrong, I can throw down with the best of them. But if I have my choice, I'd choose to just let there be peace. And LET IT BEGIN WITH ME!! For crying out LOUD!

God has really been working on me and the fruit of the spirit. And keeping my fruit on my tree (as Lynnette says). Have you ever shaken an apple tree for the apples to fall? I can remember doing that as a kid. And as your shaking the tree you're kind of bent over face clenched because at any moment one of those apples could 'bonk!' you in the head.

And so in order to keep my fruit on my tree, it means that I must have the qualities that the 'fruit' is to assist others fruit on their tree, otherwise we all look like the trees in the Wizard of Oz (NO THANK YOU!!) And you certainly don't want to be cause of a 'fruit fight'.

And something I never noticed...

Paul writes "I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God"

Yikes. And I think about the 'eternal' kingdom, but don't you just want a little 'heaven on the way to heaven' (Pastor Clark GGF). You can't have that if you live like Paul warns us not to...

I want peace and 'a little heaven on the way to heaven'... I don't know about you.

Monday, June 22, 2009


Yesterday was one of those days... YOu know the kind I'm talking about.

It's kind of amazing to me that I know my worth and where it comes from and I still fall into the trappings of feeling worthless and stupid because of something someone says or does. Makes me angry with myself.

I am sure that this is not what was meant in Mark 9:23-24 when it says
23" 'If you can'?" said Jesus. "Everything is possible for him who believes."
24Immediately the boy's father exclaimed, "I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!"

But sometimes that's what I need God to help me overcome, that feeling of being stupid because no one believed in me as a child, as if to say "you've had too many crappy things happen to you, you'll never make it" or "you made too many wrong choices, you'll be a loser... always". In the last two days I even said "I guess I am the loser everyone thinks I am". And then last night, I thought "why do you speak such things about yourself? You would tell a student that their worth is not of this world but in God, and He makes no mistakes".

Everyone has something that DAILY, sometimes HOURLY and maybe even minute by minute that they need to put at the foot at the cross, and not pick back up. Sometimes I let satan pick it up and then with open hands I accept it back. UGH! So stupid.

I feel like sometimes I just can't stop struggling with this. I am in a video for the Detroit Mission Trip and I thought as soon as I saw myself "you ruined the whole video you big fat ugly pig". Now what drives me crazy about myself... I love the Detroit Mission Trip, I see what's around me and I want to do something because it's what God called me to do. To be His hands and feet. To love those who people think are unloveable. And in Him, I have such great gifts! Learning what my spiritual gifts didn't take long to learn, but accepting them seemed to take me a little longer to grasp, and I even had to see them in others to accept how great they are. And sometimes I even doubt that they are worth anything.

I wonder to myself, why do you keep getting in your own way? Why don't you just step aside and let God be who He is in you?

Maybe it's because I know what I've done, and even though I know my sins are forgiven, they still have real consequences.

Dear God, today, I'm begging you to help me in my unbelief God, just as I ask You to reveal Yourself to the students and those I love, God I am asking You to show me my worth, God, however it is that you know I need to hear it God, please show me your glory God. Let me see the beauty you've made in me so that I can take that beauty and bring you glory. Lord, I love you so much, God I want my life to be one that brings glory and honor to all that you are, and that others can see how Great, Mighty, and LOVING You are. Lord, thank you for this day, thank you for your son and all that He was, is and is to come. Let be a day lived for you Lord. God, you are amazing, move in my heart Lord, in those who need to hear your word today. I love you, and I praise Your Son's Holy name! It's in Jesus' loving name, I pray. AMEN!

Sunday, June 21, 2009


We leave in 7 days! I can't believe it! In 7 days we will be on a plane to Austria.

And to tell you the truth I am going into this completely blind. You'd think I'd research a whole bunch of things, NOPE! I decided that I am going to be prepared with what I need to prepare but I'm going to take things as I go, I have books to check out when we're there and I think "I'd like to see that" as reference, but I'm just going. This is completely unlike me. When I plan our trip to New York it will be completely different, but this time... I'm just wingin' it!

Had I known what the economy was going to be like, I probably wouldn't have spent the money for either of us. However, I think that God opened this door, and who am I to close it?

I'm looking forward to going to Austria, I'm looking forward the performance, the scenery (I have enough memory cards to take 1500 pictures!!!!!!! I hope that's enough HA!) and I am looking forward to relaxing.

I'm not as thin as I'd like to be, but oh well...

I can't believe it's finally really almost here!!

Saturday, June 20, 2009


1. Last day of Garage Sale (did pretty well so far!)

2. hangin' with Katie

3. Praising God for His goodness (in ALL things!!)

That's it!!

8 days until we leave for Austria!!

Psalm 147:1 Praise the LORD. How good it is to sing praises to our God, how pleasant and fitting to praise him!

Friday, June 19, 2009

Cracks me up!

Ever have someone in your life that they act like they have to love you because you're family. I have someone in my life like that.

They don't call unless they need something. They don't listen to me when I talk. They don't care about me enough to ask me what's going on in my life. When I do call to tell them something they say "that's nice" (even when it's bad! lol) and then they change the subject.

And you know what?! It used to hurt, now it makes me laugh.

Thankfully I've learned that they are not where I find my value.

They have no idea what they are missing!

Song of Solomon 1:15 How beautiful you are, my darling! Oh, how beautiful! Your eyes are doves

German Chocolate Cake Frosting

I got this recipe from here and adapted it a little. I made a box german chocolate cake and covered it with this. I had to make 2 boxes, this covered both cake pans (9X13) with PLENTY of frosting.

1.5 cup evaporated milk
1.5 cup white sugar
5 egg yolk, beaten with 1 teaspoon water
1/2 cup butter
2 teaspoon vanilla extract
1.5 cup chopped pecans
1.5 cup flaked coconut

In a large saucepan combine evaporated milk, sugar, egg yolks, margarine and vanilla. Cook over low heat, stirring constantly, until thick. Remove from heat and stir in pecans and coconut. Spread on cake while still warm

I added more coconut to get it to the desired coconutty that I wanted, and added more pecans because I figured the coconut to pecan would not be correct.

God is good ALL the time

In our suffering... God is good
In our rejoicing... God is good
In plenty... God is good
In want... God is good
Sick... God is good
Healed... God is good

Yesterday I got a text that said 'God is good all the time'. And I thought He really is, even if Phyllis's news would have been different, God is good. Is it easy for us to say He is good when we 'get' what we want? Yes. But we know, at least I hope we do (the person who sent me the text surely does) that God is good ALL the time. Even when we don't understand.

And in this instance... and all other instances... He is good!

His love and mercy reign forever.
His grace abounds our lives.

He is good... Always.

Eph 2:3-5 3All of us also lived among them at one time, gratifying the cravings of our sinful nature and following its desires and thoughts. Like the rest, we were by nature objects of wrath. 4But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, 5made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Quick update!

It's official!



PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This momma is FULL OF JOY!!!

Those who hope in the Lord

I've done a lot of hoping in my life...

Today I hope that Phyllis's trip to the Pediatric Rheumatologist is her VERY last.

I'm hoping to make some money to help prepare for our trip to Austria, we've got to buy a few things, including a floor length black skirt (unless one of you have one of those size 3) for Phyllis, a white long sleeve blouse, and some odds and ends (I'd REALLY like to get a new pair of sneakers for the trip (mine are from my 3 day walk) I don't need them but I'd like them.

I've hoped for so many things, the first one I listed for today is my top priority, and the send... it's there but it's really not THAT important, that being said, I think that God cares about a lot of things in our life, I think that as our Father in heaven, He loves us more than we will ever know.

I never really hoped for a trip like Austria before i knew about it. But God knew. I hoped that the resources would be provided for such a time as this. I wonder why people don't live their lives for God (when I was younger, I wondered why people did), His way is MUCH better. The things we do while living for Him do not bring much consequence, though we sometimes lose some friends, but He did not call us for an easy life, He called us to live in the light to a world that is surrounded by darkness.

I never thought things like Austria would ever be possible, I was SHOCKED about how quickly the money came for Phyllis's trip for Colombia.

And the crazy thing is that none of these blessings are ANYTHING in comparison to SALVATION!

Amazing Love
Amazing Grace

Isaiah 40:30-31 30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Its surgery day!

“Sing to God, sing praise to his name, extol him who rides on the clouds — his name is the LORD— and rejoice before him. A father to the fatherless, a defender of widows, is God in his holy dwelling.”- Psalm 68:4-5

It seems when it rains, it pours.

I happen to be one of those people who love rain. Not everyday, but you don't get flowers if there is no rain (and you don't get flowers if there is no sun!)! You've got to trust that whatever God has designed, it's for good reason. Rain also reminds me of Noah, and God's promises. But did you ever stop to think about being on that ark? Rain = bad hair, smelly animals. And where did all the poop from those animals go? GROSS! But you've just got to trust that God has it all under control.

I was reminded today by my friend Mend (spelled Mende - pronounced like Mindy) that when we were younger I would refer to her friends as "church people" how funny is that because now I am a "church people". OH I know that everything works for God's purpose but looking back, I wish I would have been one of those "church people", how life may not have been easier, but i might have made better choices.

Today two people I love are set for surgery. Praying for them, the doctors, nurses, even the cafeteria people!, compassion, love, wisdom, and HEALING!! How different my life and outlook is to know that God has everything under control. Do I worry still, sometimes, but I've learned you can't pray and worry at the same time, so PRAY PRAY PRAY!

God loves us, He cares for us, from surgery to surgery to cutting vinyl tile!


Matthew 6:25-34 25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Monday, June 15, 2009

Joy.. the lesson that just keeps learning!

Oh! I am amazed! It is truly amazing to me how God teaches me the lessons of "others" only to be reminded how much I need those lessons for myself.

I was talking with Liz quite awhile ago about Joy. I actually got us both a study. I started mine and have been working on it. SO good. We even broke the whole book down on Saturday. I couldn't believe the wisdom God had given me that day. Shew!

I am emotional. This child of God is easily moved, even though I really don't like to admit it. I often tell people that you can't be moved by your circumstances, and believe me, I am often moved off the X of that which God asks me to stand on.

I don't know where it came from, I think out of no where, this study on the Fruit of the Spirit was on the buffet in the dining room. I just picked it up to look through it, maybe as my next study. I started looking through it yesterday, Love, was first. Great study. And then today after a really long meeting, I picked it up, in Panera, and read about Joy. It said read Luke 24:33-43.

Luke 24:33-43 33They got up and returned at once to Jerusalem. There they found the Eleven and those with them, assembled together 34and saying, "It is true! The Lord has risen and has appeared to Simon." 35Then the two told what had happened on the way, and how Jesus was recognized by them when he broke the bread.
Jesus Appears to the Disciples 36While they were still talking about this, Jesus himself stood among them and said to them, "Peace be with you."
37They were startled and frightened, thinking they saw a ghost. 38He said to them, "Why are you troubled, and why do doubts rise in your minds? 39Look at my hands and my feet. It is I myself! Touch me and see; a ghost does not have flesh and bones, as you see I have."
40When he had said this, he showed them his hands and feet. 41And while they still did not believe it because of joy and amazement, he asked them, "Do you have anything here to eat?" 42They gave him a piece of broiled fish, 43and he took it and ate it in their presence

I was like "HUH? Lord, You better speak up, 'cuz I ain't gettin' it"

So I looked at John 15 & 16 as the study said.

Did you ever read those chapters, I am sure you have, I'd recommend you give them another look, but anyway...

And that's where that whole Knock, Ask, Receive comes in. All of a sudden a light went on!

"it is not only when we have something do we celebrate" that's a quote that Katie had found, and let me tell you, I've been reminded of it quite often. And certainly when you would like Joy, you better remember that quote, it helps you to remember to not be moved.

Sometimes the things we 'have' are not things that we can see. Hebrews 11:1 says Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. And what a gift that is. Faith. But not only faith but Joy. The love of God in out hearts. God has given us something to celebrate, He gave us the gift of His Holy Spirt, the Wonderful Counselor (John 16:5-16), we certainly do have something, and that is something to celebrate! Joy! I think sometimes the Holy Spirit holds down my feet so I cannot be moved... lol...

I am so excited that I get to see God working in others, and I am excited that God is working in my heart.

I really don't know if all that made sense to anyone but me! LOL!

Share your blessings!

Have you ever tried to pass out blessings? As if to say that "I think you deserve something, and you don't"?

Like the grace I've received was deserved, and I stand in judgement of someone else. Oui! God is working on me and my heart.

I'm blessed. I have food on my table, and I hate to admit it, but I throw out WAY too much because I bought too much and we didn't get around to eating it (although I'm pretty good at freezing what I can freeze, saving it for another time).

I was a jerk yesterday. Plain and simple.

Deciding who I thought should get what, instead of just standing in the greatness of God, be blessed that I can share.

And don't even get me started on what I think of socialized medicine. Oh yikes.

And then today, it hit me, this scripture, I'm quite sure I've read it before but never actually SEEN it.

2 Tim 2:4-7 4No one serving as a soldier gets involved in civilian affairs—he wants to please his commanding officer. 5Similarly, if anyone competes as an athlete, he does not receive the victor's crown unless he competes according to the rules. 6The hardworking farmer should be the first to receive a share of the crops. 7Reflect on what I am saying, for the Lord will give you insight into all this.

Yes, I work hard and in many ways I am rewarded for such work. But let me just tell you, if it were not for God's grace, I'd have NOTHING. No things, and certainly, no life. The kind of life that matters, a life in Him.

So sometimes when you read a scripture, and you're a little offended because you know you're a jerk, just think, it's your flesh that is offended, because God is working in your spirit, to make you more like Him.

Phil 1:21 For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.

1 John 4:4 You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Parting is sweet sorrow

I have decided to get rid of a bunch of "stuff".

I normally donate it, but I decided to have a garage sale. I could use the extra cash for spending money in Austria. I look at all the "stuff" I have, CDs, precious moments, scrapbook stuff and I think WOW! how much money have I wasted on things I certainly didn't need?? Makes me kind of sad, just in CDs alone... I'm probably getting rid of close to 350 CDs (including Christian) and holding on to about 100. That's a lot of cake if you know what I'm saying. I want to redo the basement so it's more useful for us (like a giant area for sewing, painting, and scrapping), open it up quite a bit, getting rid of old furniture that we just don't use and even though it's old, hopefully someone can put it to good use.

I think everyday I just realize a little more how blessed I am! I think about how God has showered me with blessings, beginning at a cross that I just can't fully comprehend, completely undeserving, and greatful beyond words.

The things of this world do not matter, it is our heart, that has been changed by God that has the most worth in our lives.

I am THANKFUL! and GREATFUL! That God came down to save someone like me, changed by His love and grace, forever.

Proverbs 10:2 2 Ill-gotten treasures are of no value,
but righteousness delivers from death.

Saturday, June 13, 2009

I LOVE this song

I am getting rid of most of my CDs, I happened to find this one... I love this song! KEEPING IT!!

All I wanna do is just explain
Why that we feel the way we do {Ooh}
What a joy to share with you
For me to live is Christ, to die is gain
If anymore I need to say
The list goes on and on all day
I'll cherish that moment for life
And I know it might sound crazy
It's alright, take a seat, hold tight

Time to admit [Time we should admit it]
I'm so addicted, yeah
You see, He's taken my heart
And showed me the right way
No doubt about it [Doubt it, no doubt]
See, I'm lost without it, yeah
You see this love takes me higher
I didn't know why then
I found it was addictive love, yeah (Woo, hoo, yeah)

Now that we've evened up the score
Hey, what do you mean there's so much more
I need to tell why we adore
The reason why I smile when I, when I wake up
And also the reason why I dream {Reason why I dream}
My love, my joy, my everything
And I'll cherish that moment for life
And I know it might sound crazy {Crazy}
It's alright, take a seat, hold tight

So much love
He's given to me everything I longed for
Everything I need
That means I'm never alone, so glad
And everything I've dreamed and much more
(Much more, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah) So much more
And I'll cherish (Cherish the moment) that moment for life
For the rest of my life, yeah, yeah
And I know it might sound crazy but {It's not crazy}, no
I'm not crazy
I've never known anyone to love me quite the way you do
And I tell you
It's hopeless, I've finally (Hopeless) noticed that
I'm just forever addicted, forever {Forever in love}, hey {Yeah, yeah, yeah}

Time to admit [Time we should admit it]
I'm so addicted, yeah
You see, He's taken my heart {Taken my heart, y'all}
And showed me the right way [Showed me the way]
There's no doubt about it [Doubt it, no doubt]
See, I'm lost without it, yeah
You see this love takes me higher
I didn't know why then

For sale at Garage Sale Next week!

1. Scrapbook magazines (2 for $1)
2. Stickers
3. Cordless Phones
4. CDs
5. Cookie Jars
6. Books
7. Clothes (Teenage - size small and med) & Shoes
8. Household Goods
9. Furniture
10. STUFF!!!

Friday, June 12, 2009


Last trip to Ortho with braces ON!
Entering!! We are almost there!!

Just waiting!!
Nurse Terri and Dr. Reynolds!
Getting rid of the glue!

Look at that!!
This is Phyllis's $7000 smile!
Worth every penny!!

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Praise God!!

Yesterday Liz went to court for the custody of her 2 older children and a review of her baby for custody.

The older 2's trial was postponed to another day after the first testimony.

However, Kamari's status was reviewed and the judge gave her custody of him FULL TIME! This is has been quite a battle for Liz and God has revealed Himself to her in many different ways, certainly as the Loving God that He is!

Lift your voice in praise! He is Worthy!!

“Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”- Psalm 46:10

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Just in Case

I actually knew someone named Justin Case, Karen Case's brother, but that's a whole 'nother blog.

I just wanted to be sure that my wishes are clear for my funeral. Yes, that's right, my funeral.

I kind of am always thinking about death. I don't know why, maybe it's because I seem to have seen so much of it in my life. But just in case something were to happen to me & Phyllis while we are in, to, or coming home from Austria (we are flying Air France, so you never know), I want my funeral to be like I would want it. HAHA!

1. Should be at Metro South Church (located in Trenton, MI)

2. Keith Hayes (He's part of Men of Grace at Grace Gospel Fellowship) should sing 'have thine own way' while the casket is rolled into the church

3. Adam Dorband should preach. John 14:6 He is the way, and He wants to have a relationship with you. Because THERE IS ONLY ONE WAY and I'm not ashamed!

4. Alive Band - None but Jesus, Break Free (yes, that's right, BREAK FREE!!), Lead me to the cross, all the Alive songs, because I love them all... Jesus Freak & The Revelation song. You can cry but REJOICE! Please make sure ear plugs are available for all the people who don't like their music loud.

5. Alter call and Communion

6. And if you all want to say a kind or not so kind word about me, that's cool, but not necessary, I won't be there, I'll be in Heaven, rejoicing! That should be a short part of the funeral :)

7. As 'I' roll out Keith should sing 'it is well with my soul'

8. As far as food, someone should make mac and cheese because it's Katie's favorite and she'll be hungry from singing or you could have Panera catered, we love Panera.

So, maybe this is for nothing but its good for you all to know these things just in case.

lesson learned

Today's Verse from “Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.” (Colossians 3:13)

I know better than to trust. I know (and tell others) that people will always fail you, not because they want to or mean to. Sometimes I forget that myself, hence why I was a little upset yesterday.

God is a good God, He is a mighty God, and He has created us for relationships, with Him, and with others, although, with others there will be hurt, and that's ok.

I think it's when we hold on to that hurt, and we can't let go is when it becomes a problem. Holding on to something yucky just doesn't make sense, and really, why would you want to?

Would you hold tightly to a thorny stick? Probably not, because as you hold it SO tight it continues to hurt, and it will open your hands that are already wounded.

So letting go is best. Grace and Forgiveness.

Tuesday, June 09, 2009


trust doesn't come easy for me.

That's kind of something I have to work on.

I became friends with someone I really trusted. And then it happened... trust broken and over the last couple days, I've just found out more and more.

It won't be easy because I see this person on almost a daily basis.

This is why I don't trust people.

I'm going to have to pray. A lot.

Making better choices!

I've had years and years of bad choices. And pounds and pounds of fat to prove it.

When you eat poorly, you take lots of risks.

I'm slowly starting to change my eating habits around. I make sure I eat AT LEAST one serving of fruits and veggies at every meal. I chose the apple instead of the bagette or chips at Panera. 2/3 of my plate is veggies, the rest is small portion of carbs and meat. I log what I eat even if I know it will look bad.

I walk at lunch if I don't have time after work (20-30 minutes is better than nothing).

I drink TONS of water (yesterday 5 quarts).

It takes preparation. I don't always have time for it, but when will I ever if I don't make the time.

I didn't want to pack my lunch today, and I didn't want to walk at lunch. but I did, on both accounts. And it was a great walk, got my blood pumping and some praise and worship music!


Proverbs 21:20 In the house of the wise are stores of choice food and oil, but a foolish man devours all he has

Monday, June 08, 2009


Its funny how our hearts change, without even realizing it.

This is a normal Sunday for me...

Eat out
Alive preparation
Think of something to eat before Alive
Get ready for Monday and the week ahead

I kind of thought this is how my life would always be, and I liked it. I like being busy.

But lately, I don't know what is going on with my heart, but I just want to slow down. I want to be home. I want to have a little more 'normalcy' instead of busy being my normal. Maybe I'm getting old.

And it doesn't mean that I'm not seeking God, but I would say that I'm seeking him differently, I find Him in the LOUD but I find Him in the quiet. I hear His voice so clearly. I soak up His Word as if the bible was written only for me (even though I know that's self-centered). I find myself learning lessons because seek it out instead of accidently stumbling across it because of a lesson I NEEDed to learn, now I find His Word in the lessons I WANT to learn (how 'bout that?!)

I find myself wanting to stay home after church and cook and relaxing instead of running. I am not sure where I'm going or where God is taking my heart, but I'm enjoying it. One day at a time.

Mark 4:39 He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, "Quiet! Be still!" Then the wind died down and it was completely calm

Sunday, June 07, 2009

shew! that was close!

Yesterday I came home and had to cut the grass. For the second week in a row.

That's not my job at our house. And I wasn't happy!

I will tell you, my flesh was hot!

Phyllis always says I'm a 'hot momma' and I always roll my eyes... and yesterday I told her she was right 'hot-tempered momma'. It was a great day yesterday with the exception of that. and the creeper, it was beautiful.

Since I'm really trying to work on not being affected by my circumstances I went to the bible and my study. Asked Kevin for a scripture... and that scripture blew me away. WOW! God never fails. His Word is true, He is faithful, and It and He is RELEVANT! Amazing!

And sometimes, like Sara says, we've got to get out of our own way.

The scripture that blew me away? See below. May it work in your heart like it did mine.

Titus 3:3-8 3At one time we too were foolish, disobedient, deceived and enslaved by all kinds of passions and pleasures. We lived in malice and envy, being hated and hating one another. 4But when the kindness and love of God our Savior appeared, 5he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit, 6whom he poured out on us generously through Jesus Christ our Savior, 7so that, having been justified by his grace, we might become heirs having the hope of eternal life. 8This is a trustworthy saying. And I want you to stress these things, so that those who have trusted in God may be careful to devote themselves to doing what is good. These things are excellent and profitable for everyone.

Hosea's wife - Brooke Fraser

I just spoke silence with the seeker next to me
She had a heart with hesitant, halting speech
That turned to mine and asked belligerently
What do I live for

I see the scars of searches everywhere I go
From hearts to wars to literature to radio
There's a question like a shame no one will show
What do I live for

We are Hosea's wife
We are squandering this life
Using people like ladders and words like knives

If we've eyes to see
If we've ears to hear
To find it in our hearts and mouths the word that saves is near
Shed that shallow skin
Come and live again
Leave all you were before
To believe is to begin

There is truth in little corners of our lives
There are hints of it in songs and children's eyes
It's familiar, like an ancient lullaby
What do I live for

We are Hosea's wife
We are squandering this life
Using bodies like money and truth like lies

If we've eyes to see
If we've ears to hear
To find it in our hearts and mouths the word that saves is near
Shed that shallow skin
Come and live again
Leave all you were before
To believe is to begin

We are more than dust
That means somethin'
That means somethin'
We are more than just
Blood and emotions
Inklings and notions
Atoms on oceans

We are Hosea's wife
We are squandering this life
Using people like ladders and words like knives

If we've eyes to see
If we've ears to hear
To find it in our hearts and mouths the word that saves is near
Shed that shallow skin
Come and live again
Leave all you were before
To believe is to begin

To believe is to begin
(Leave all you were before)
To believe is to begin, do-do-do-do do-do-do-do-do
(Leave all you were before)
To believe is to begin

Friday, June 05, 2009


Did you ever meet someone and love them as soon as you met them? And I don't mean one of those "OH I love you" because someone did something nice for you kind of loves, I mean like your heart breaks and aches for them...


I love Herb. Herb currently resides on Seneca Street as part of the Grace Centers of Hope After Care program.

I met Herb in July 2007. Herb's a big guy. I would also classify him as a 'macker'. And he's very charming, hence why he's a 'macker'. I love him.

Herb's smile is so big and bright that it could be a model for a lite bright!!

I carry a picture around of Herb in my bible. It's a picture of him and Lexi trying on silly hats at the GCH Rummage Sale at our Detroit Mission Trip.

Shortly after I met Herb, he left the mission. I was told that he hung out in Cass Corridor (which really isn't all that safe) and I went looking for him (I was STRONGLY advised to never EVER do that again - they asked "what would have you have done if you found him?" My answer "I don't know "- not my brightest moment!) I prayed nearly everyday (I hate to say everyday because it's possible I missed one day) for him. I would sit in church and pray he would walk in. I remember the day God answered that prayer, that I actually saw him walk into church. It is a day that God showed me, how powerful His love is for him, and that we matter to him. Herb had been back, he had been to church, but I saw him WALK INTO CHURCH!

Sometimes I don't know why I love Herb, I just do.

He knows I love him... but I don't think he really knows how much.

John 13:34 A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another.

Thursday, June 04, 2009

Burdened by Love

Quite often I can't sleep. I'm burdened and I can't stop praying, in that time, quite often I fall asleep praying. I've said it before, if I've committed to praying for you or someone in your family, I'm praying, all the time.

Last night I was burdened by J, L, H, K, P, and a jerk. How's that, I was burdened by a jerk? That person masqueardes as a Christian man, but it seems like some days his heart and his actions say otherwise (just like me sometimes!) so I had to pray for him too. I could see their faces each one. My heart just hurt. I couldn't sleep. I got a text because the person wished I wasn't so burdened. But here's the crazy thing, I'd never sleep again if it meant that I was loving.

I do often sometimes go a little overboard because I love. Some people, like Sara, might say I'm a nag because when she needed to go to the doctor, I bugged her until she did. Not to be a jerk, but because I love her and I intended on her being here a long time for me, and for her family.

I probably take on the burden of hurt a little too much because I know what it's like to hurt. I've left Fuel and Alive and cried myself to sleep because "my kids" hurt. I've also left angry because there is no reason for it.

As much as it hurts, I wouldn't change a thing. Loving is the way I want to live!

Gal 6:2 Carry each other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

I can’t seem to get enough of this song. I just can’t.

I feel as though my heart beats these words. If we ever do this song at Alive, I'll cry through the whole thing!

C.S. Lewis Song - Brooke Fraser
If I find in myself desires nothing in this world can satisfy,
I can only conclude that I was not made for here

If the felsh that I fight is at best only light and momentary,
then of course I'll feel nude when to where I'm destined I'm compared

Speak to me in the light of the dawn
Mercy comes with the morning
I will sigh and with all creation groan as I wait for hope to come for me

Am I lost or just found? On the straight or on the roundabout of the wrong way?
is this a soul that stirs in me, is it breaking free, wanting to come alive?
Cause my comfort would prefer for me to be numb
An avoid the impending birth of who I was born to become

For we, we are not long here
Our time is but a breath, so we better breathe it
And I, I was made to live, I was made to love, I was made to know you
Hope is coming for me
Hope, He's coming

Better Choices

Oui! Oh how many times is it going to take me to get healthy? How many times am I going to 'start eating better'?

As many times as it takes!

I'm back 'on the wagon'. And already feel better... and I lost 3 pounds since Monday :) which is always a bonus!

I've got a new breakfast! I love eggs and toast (with lots of butter) and it fills me up! However, it's not the best choice. I've got a new breakfast. Ezekial 4:9 bread and chunky peanut butter. It's not like the kind of bread I'm used to but it sticks with me! And that's important because by the size of my butt, you know I don't like to be hungry.

Honestly, it doesn't have much taste and it's chewing, and it must be toasted for the PB to melt in a little.

I didn't pay attention to how much it costed until I already paid... yikes! $4.99 for BREAD! Can't put a cost on good health!!

Ez 4:9 "Take wheat and barley, beans and lentils, millet and spelt; put them in a storage jar and use them to make bread for yourself. You are to eat it during the 390 days you lie on your side.
Gotta go get in a quick walk at lunch!!

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

Be Joyful!

Be full of Joy!

Let nothing move me.

Good or bad.

I am only on chapter 2 of a new bible study that I am doing on the book of Phillipians. Be Joyful! It's pretty awesome how God is revealing so much to me. How much I can easily stray from Him based on my circumstances. How when I focus on His Word, I move less, if at all. it's been pretty amazing. I actually bought the study for someone else and then decided that I needed to work on it myself.

The book of Phillipians is written by Paul, I know you already know that. If you think about Paul and his life. And his unwillingness to waiver, why? Because in His life Christ isn't just someone/thing he followed, it was who he was.

How to do that? Honestly, I'm not exactly sure, but this I know, being driven by emotions is no way to live. I want to be Christ-Driven not Emotion-Driven. Much easier said than done because the more I try and pray, it seems the more that comes at me.

One thing I am learning, it is essential to not only read God's Word but to know it. To not only know it, but to live and breath it.

Phil 1:21 For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain

Pleasantly surprised

I was shocked yesterday!

Phyllis and I stayed home from Alive on Sunday, we needed some family time. Yesterday was Fuel and a lot of our high school leaders help at Fuel. I recieved quite a bit of "I missed you yesterday" and "I was hoping to hug you yesterday" from an 8th grader who got to go to Alive for the first time yesterday. I even received a message on facebook "I love you Margie!!".

I know that the things I do probably go unnoticed, I feel like I should use the gifts I have even if no one notices. I even sometimes feel like if I "disappeared" no one would notice until something didn't get done. It may not be true, but that's how I feel.

Yesterday I felt like a leg on a table. All the legs on a table are necessary for it to function correctly, the table legs probably go unnoticed quite often, however if one is missing, you'll notice. Even though it's not about me, it's nice to be noticed.

Numbers 31:49 and said to him, "Your servants have counted the soldiers under our command, and not one is missing