Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Monday, January 30, 2012

Product Reviews - Noodles and Snackage

As promised, I would do some kind of product review of Gluten free products as we try them.  I will tell you, I am new to all this. I can only tell you what I like, and what we don't.

I have heard SO many things about gluten free noodles, none of them good.  but I like pasta, we like pasta in our family so thinking that we would eliminate this from our diets wasn't really an option.

I've purchased a few different kinds and this was the first I've chosen!  I must say that I was pleasantly surprised.  I actually followed the directions, it said it was important not to over cook.  So I didn't.  I was making this for baked spaghetti.  It was kind of mushy in the baked spaghetti but still tasted good, and it was kind of just like I overcooked the noodles. I also tried the noodles by themselves.  They tasted really good!

This product was a success.

On for snackage...

I bought Envirokidz Crispy Rice - Peanut Choco Drizzle for Phyllis. (the one with the Lemur) on the box.

She liked these and said they were good.  I know that's not much a description... but let's put it this way... there were other things she could have chosen... and she chose to have these for a snack.

Cinnamon Swirl Banana Bread

This recipe is NOT G-Free but I made it for some peeps yesterday.  I adapted a few things from this recipe.

Please note:  When I made cinnamon swirl part... I used one batch's worth of sugar/cinnamon for 3 loaves.

For the bread:

3 over-ripe bananas, smashed up
1/3 cup melted butter
3/4 cup sugar
1 egg, beaten
1 tsp vanilla
1 tsp baking soda
dash of salt
1 1/2 cups flour

For the swirl:
1/3 cup sugar
1 Tbs cinnamon

Preheat oven to 350. Butter and four a loaf pan.  Just keep a close eye on it in the oven, and adjust the time as needed

Mix bananas, butter, sugar, egg, and vanilla together. sprinkle baking soda and salt around on top of the banana mixture. Then gently stir in flour. Be careful not to over-mix!

In a small dish, mix together the 1/3 cup sugar and 1 Tbs cinnamon. (if you are not a crazy baker like me, just put the leftovers in a small ziploc bag or container)

Add 1/2 of the batter to the loaf pan and then sprinkle the cinnamon-sugar mixture all over the batter in the pan.
Bake for 50-60 minutes, but remember, if you’re using a different-sized loaf pan, be careful and keep a close eyeball on it!

One heart, one blog

I decided that I am only going to keep up one blog. God is stirring my heart towards something, not really sure what it is. 

I will only keep up one blog.  I've imported my posts from the other blogs, and have provided a label on the side for easier finding!

I hope this isn't too inconvenient for you.  However, if it makes THAT big of a difference in your life, you may want to seek God regarding your priorities.  LOL

and sorry if you follow by email and you've received like 10000 emails from my blog.


Not Afraid...

1 john 1:7 But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin.

Does fear snag you? It gets me EVERY time.

I could have a list a mile long about the things I could be afraid of. And sometimes I just have to shout “I WILL NOT BE AFRAID”.

My foot has been hurting. Usually if I am in my heels too long. So I am trying to limit wearing them, and DON’T post something crazy like I should give up my heels, that would just be silly. I ahven’t registered for the marathon yet, however, I am going to do it but I am a little fearful. UGH! :/ I hate that.

I was also fearful about the post I wrote yesterday. I thought before I wrote it that people are going to think I’ve gone off the deep end. And then I thought ‘oh, they probably already think that’ so I posted it anyway.  Sometimes I am even afraid to ask people to come to church with me, so dumb!

I’ve lived my life choosing the following: not following God, half following God, and following God the best I can (I am not, afterall, perfect). And following His ways and listening to His direction and being obedient is truly the way to go. I’ve heard it said so many times ‘Either He is the Lord of all your life, or none of it’.

I am not saying I am perfect because I am NOT! But I strive to be more like Him everyday.

But that stupid fear thing, gets me. I paralyzes me. And even though some may say that it is not a true commandment. I have heard that in Hebrew fear is another word for idol. And it does call out in the bible not having any other Gods (idols). What am I afraid of? What could ever happen to me that God couldn’t rescue me out of? And besides, if you read Job, I’m not him (praise the Lord!) and I do believe that God will never leave me nor forsake me.

I am going to keep walking in His light, and when darkness overshadows me, I will remember that a shadow is not real. And you can’t have a shadow without light.


And today… I was reading at a school (public) about Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr and it talked about his gravestone… And I was actually a little fearful about telling the class about the scripture, but he was a Pastor, and a peace came over me to recite the scripture... do you know what it says? ( I quoted John 8:36 to the class!!!) 

I will keep walking. Keep living. Keep loving. IN HIM. There is nothing to be afraid of.

John 8:36 So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Ruined :)

I remember the day. I don’t remember the exact date, but I remember the day that God said to me (while I was dating someone), “I want you to love only Me”. That was a hard day. Number 1, the guy I was dating was a great guy.  And Number 2, I had no idea what the heck that looked like.  I’m no Mother Teresa for crying out loud, nor do I want to end up in life without a husband I thought…

Yesterday I was talking to a dear friend, and that day was brought up again…  And then today, it was AGAIN, only this time in a discussion with God.

After a crazy day of prayer, I think I was crying about 30 seconds into the Praise & worship singing of service today.  I was thinking about how good God is.  I was praying the names of Jesus that I’ve been focusing on this week:

ABBA Romans 8:15
ADVOCATE  1 John 2:1
ALPHA Rev 22:13

I was thinking about how He much He is in my life!  I was just crying!  What a mess I would have looked like, and I found myself wondering a lot of things, including, ‘why did you put mascara on this morning?’. 

I know that day, the day He told me that He wanted me to love only me, I know that it was for my own good.  I know that when I am lonely, it is because I am not seeking Him like I should.  He’s always there, it’s just whether I turn to see His face or pursue Him.  And it also means I need to stop looking at Love like the world looks like it.

I know that I am not really a prize the way that the world views things. I own a home, but it’s not huge.  I am not rich, I am average looking, I am overweight, I drive a mini-van (and most think the reasons I bought it are RIDICULOUS!).

But God ruined me that day.  I will no longer settle.  I will no longer think that someone is ‘good enough’.  I know that I am beautiful in His eyes, that I am not measured by the world’s ruler.  I know that I am not defined by someone else’s standards. I used to think that I’d be lucky if I found someone who allowed me to serve in various ways, now I know that God will find someone who encourages me to serve.

I don’t look for advice by the world’s standards. I look for biblical teachings. I look for my answers from God.  Wisdom, discernment.  I know not only where my knowledge comes from, but my hope as well.

God ruined me. I won’t settle for someone who looks great on paper but is a man that God has worked in and through.  He will have integrity.  He will know that His strength comes from Him not anywhere else.  He will know that excellence honors God and is a reflection of His character, but not only will he know it, he will live it.

Do I think that the man I marry will be perfect?  No, but he will strive to be more like Jesus everyday.  He will be a man after God’s own heart.

I know that everyday loving Jesus, following Him, reading His word, living my life striving also to be more like Him, will make me into the woman that I was created to be.  A woman after God’s own heart.

I am thankful for that day.  It hasn’t been easy.  But it has always been worth it.

Jer 29:11 (msg)  I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.

Meal Planning Week of 1-29-12

Sunday - Mostacolli with my girl and the Dorband Boys!
               Alive Staff - Ham & Broccoli casserole, Cinnamon Swirl Banana bread (I only used about half of the cinnamon mixture!)
Monday - Chicken Chili
Tuesday - Leftover Dorito Casserole with Rice (I made it for lunch!)
Wednesday - Italian Sausage Soup (from Family Feasts cookbook!)
Thursday - Leftovers
Friday - Bible Study - Lebanese Salad with Chicken
Saturday - TBD
Sunday - TBD
              Alive Staff - Mostacolli & bread

Friday, January 27, 2012

Week in my heart!

It’s been a crazy week! Aren’t they all? I often feel like I just can’t get it all done!

Adding moving towards G-free and organic and the extra work that goes into that just adds to the confusion. I’ve been blessed to have some ‘down’ time at home without appointments every day of the week. I’ve started going to a bible study on Wednesday nights, and I absolutely LOVE it. Going deeper into God’s word is always amazing to me, makes my soul leap and move closer to Him. There are things that I carve out of my schedule that don’t move unless it is ABSOLUTELY necessary. Wednesday night Equip is one of them.
I’ve been reading Job starting this week. Doesn’t really make life seem so bad, even when it is hard! I was looking at Job. I have to say that I am a little annoyed that the doctor that was meeting with my daughter ignored her issues, which is EXACTLY why I started going to a new Orthopedic for her. We got the MRI back, it’s not good, but all treatable, and I know God is faithful and He guides us, takes the steps before us, and never leaves us. I find myself clinging to that these days. I hate that my daughter’s body is not full of strength, but we will get through it.

Started praying names of Jesus this week (yesterday). Yesterday was ABBA scripture reference Romans 8:15. I started crying when I read it. The Spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again; rather, the Spirit you received brought about your adoption to sonship.[a] And by him we cry, “Abba,[b] Father.” When I got the news on the MRI, I kind of started to panic, number 1, I had no idea what all those medical terms were… but I didn’t know when she had JRA, but I learned them, and I will learn them again. And how crazy is it that this 19 year old has her whole life ahead of her, but her knees are old. What will become of the future. And then I read that scripture. There is no reason to be afraid. It says that we don’t have to live in fear. And fear robs me of the freedom I have in Christ, and I will NOT live in fear. I TRUST HIM!
Today’s name: ADVOCATE 1 John 2:1 My dear children, I write this to you so that you will not sin. But if anybody does sin, we have an advocate with the Father—Jesus Christ, the Righteous One. I was told before that there is a fine line between worry and sin. And because I have so much going on, so much to take care of, I feel like I am always worried about messing it up. But I have an Advocate to go before me, to speak on my behalf. Jesus is my intercessor for everything that comes against me. Again, with Him, what is the reason for fear. I have peace. I know it won’t be easy, but I have no fear, I have peace because He is in me!

And this morning, I was reminded of His faithfulness! I got to see a new muffin in my life! He is absolutely beautiful! I wish I could share more with you, but this morning I saw the most beautiful face. I have been praying for him for so long (and his momma and daddy). It was like a note that came just in time, to remind me of His faithfulness!

Thank You Jesus for this week. Thank You for Your love, Your faithfulness, Your mercy, Your grace, Your Word. I am not worthy to speak Your name, but I am so thankful that I can worship You with my life. Forgive me for my fear when I forget how faithful You are. You are Holy. You are Worthy!

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Moving towards Health - Pressure Cooker

You’ll have to pardon me with all my new talk about going Organic and Gluten Free. I believe in sharing information… What I find out might be helpful to others. My dear friend, Mrs. Mac is a total inspiration to me when it comes to canning and taking care of her family. Honestly I don’t know how she does it!

I ordered a pressure cooker today to get going on canning beans (how great is it that I can do this in the winter instead of waiting till all the harvest comes in the fallish time. I was going to get a Nook Color (which I really wanted!!!) and had the money to get it but instead I bought this SWEET pressure cooker (yes, I know that I could get the ‘old fashioned’ kind for cheaper but let’s not get crazy people!) maybe I will start selling “margie’s organic stuff” eventually if I ever get good at this! LOL (don’t count on it).

I am going to start posting products as I find that we love (and don’t)! I’ve got quite a bit of new things that we are trying. Might as well share the wealth of information, though maybe some peeps will soon tune out, but it’s ok.

Here is a list of things that we have switched over:
Yogurt – I buy Kroger brand organic vanilla yogurt, Phyllis adds her own fruit. No more buying those little convenient full of poison (aspartame) yogurts. BTW, I know that aspartame is NOT a poison, but it’s not good for you!! And I don’t mean to be radical, but if you know me, you know I hate that stuff!
Milk – we buy Organic 2% milk in the half gallon from Kroger
Pamela’s Chocolate Cake (this came from a recommendation of my friend Amanda)– is SUPER yummy! (we are trying the brownie mix soon!)
Let me remind you, I am NO expert, I don’t claim that I will ever be! I am just trying to do what is best for our family! And I also know that I am not the first to go through this and I will be happy to accept wisdom that others have!
Proverbs 31:15-17
15 She gets up while it is still night;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her female servants.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks.

Slow but down

I've los

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Gluten Free and Organic

The more I watch Dr. Oz and the more I read... I am thinking about taking my family Organic & Gluten Free.

I don't want to get all crazy, I don't want to be a radical, I just want to do what is best for us.  To give honor to our bodies that God has given us.  We got some health issues that need to be dealt with, and I have been praying about wisdom and discernment.

 I am scared when i think about the fungicide (that was banned in the US!)  that is in oranges from Brazil, and Tropicana and Minute Maid continue to use these oranges, and they both told the FDA about it... and no recall.  So we will buy Florida's Natural from now on, it's a little bit more expensive, but I ask myself, what is the cost to my family if I don't.

The more I read about Gluten Free the more I think it is right for our family.  And Organic... all those poisons...  yikes!

I went to Whole Foods today, which I love but I began to get overwhelmed by the cost of everything.  I have also decided that I am not throwing away what we have, I will use it up, and then go from there. I've gotten a few different kinds of rice noodles to try, a few packages for cakes & brownies that are GF (Gluten Free), I spent quite a bit of time at Kroger this evening checking prices (which I am going to make a matrix for pricing). I am also going to start googling for coupons.  Also going to invest in a pressure cooker to start canning my own beans because it's expensive to buy them in a can if they are organic, I can just buy them bulk (organic) and do it myself.

I am transitioning because going cold turkey will make me crazy, though I already don't eat bread (wheat) but Phyllis does, and we've got to get some cereal choices too.

I am going to start Organic with the Dirty Dozen.  And go from there.

Yes, I know it's more expensive but again, what is the cost of our health. Also know, we are not going to be those kind of people who show up with food at your house.  We will be happy to eat what you make us :)

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Margie's Money Saver - Buying a vehicle!

So I thought I'd share some wisdom with you about buying a car.  I am no expert but I've gotten quite a bit of wisdom from others and I thought I'd pass it on.

First, like all decisions, pray.   Ask the God to punch you in the gut if the deal is not for you.  AND DON'T GO AGAINST THIS!  God knows what's best for you!

One owner cars are best!  If someone has the mind set that they are keeping a car for a long time, they are most likely to have taken care of it.

Low Mileage.  On average, you can figure out what a car mileage should be if it falls between 12-15,000 per year, but remember, there are people out there that don't drive much, so watch for those. 

Check for stains in the car.  I'll just tell you this...  If someone did not take care of the inside of the car, MOST likely, they didn't take care of the things on the outside where they can't see.

Get in touch with your bank.  I have my bank practically on speed dial, even though I do finance my cars.  I usually put a HUGE down payment on my car, I finance $2-3000 pay it for one year.  But your bank can tell you if you are getting a good value.  Remember, they know money, and they would not finance something if they could possibly take a loss.  And sometimes even just $1-2000 over what you have in cash can get you a better car, that's less than $1-200/month paying off in a year.  Might be worth it. That is up to you and your budget and your family needs. 

Check your car insurance. I literally called on 8 cars and how much the monthly insurance was going to be (I didn't care if I was annoying, it is more important to make a correct decision than worry if you are being annoying).  Remember, small cars like the Focus - they make a lot of them, they have higher theft ratings, they smoosh easier (higher payouts), less safety items (higher chance of injury) so you might get a 'better' deal on a car but pay much more in car insurance.  It might be better to pay more for a Fusion or a G6 than a Focus or an Aveo or Cobalt.

Clean title.  Make sure that the title is clean. A Salvaged title means that the car was totaled, someone bought it, and cleaned it up.  Cars are NEVER the same after an accident.  Stuff gets bumped, things like leaks can show up because of misalignment.  Unless you're getting a car for a steal, clean titles are best.  But remember, you get what you pay for.

This is not an emotional decision. THIS ONE is hard for me to remember.  I am all about the emotion.  But when buying a car, details and facts are important.  I've really had to step away sometimes. I use excel to figure out payments, how much of a deal I am getting.  It's about value not emotion.  (this coming from someone who names her cars)

Check out, they help determine how much you should pay for a car and how much the value is. I'd also advise that you google issues with a certain car.  There are MANY websites that tell you what certain things are wrong with cars.  For instance, certain minivans in certain years have transmission problems.  SO YOU THINK you can tow with it, but you could end up really hurting your vehicle, causing you lots of money.

Take someone with you.  This helps because you have someone on your side.  Even if they don't say a word.  And if you're a female, I suggest you take a male. A mean looking one.  Not someone who looks friendly.  Someone who is intimidating.  I happen to take my dad, who is not intimidating looking, however, he's my dad, so even though I make the decisions, I do the bargaining, just having him there, gives me confidence.  I would also recommend taking me. HA!  I'm intimidating. I speak with data, and I don't waiver, even if I act like I am :) Plus, I'm a mom, mom's a intimidating.  No one messes with the momma bear.

Monday, January 23, 2012


I hate making decisions.  Isn't that funny coming from me?  I make decisions at work, at home...  I plan a week ahead for dinner so those days... I don't have to make a decision.

I have to tell you, I NEVER EVER regretted buying Patricia our 2002 Toyota Corolla.  She was really a great car.  Do you know how that came about??  I called two dealerships - a Ford (for a focus) and a Toyota (for a corolla).  I told them both, I want a Dark Blue car, intermittent wipers, cruise control, & a CD player.  I'd prefer a sunroof.   Seriously, that was my criteria.I said whoever gets me the car first is the one I'll buy.  READY SET GO!   30 minutes later, a Corolla. And that's how she came into our lives. I've taken a lot of crap about her 'not being American' - my usual reply - get an education - she's 80% US content (more than you could say about that focus) and Toyota was my customer!  And then I'd throw in a 'you can tell me what kind of car to drive when you make the payment'.  I know not very nice, but I wasn't saved then, however, my answer would still be the same, I'd just be nicer in the way I said it  She was a good car for us.  Not much in repairs (other than the time the oil change place didn't put oil in her, and even then...  I haven't put much $$ in her).

I have been riddled with anxiety until yesterday when I decided that I was/am going to overcome fear in my life, it keeps me from true freedom. This morning was quite a test to that...  but joy won!

So today, I went out confidently (or pretended) to find a new car for our fleet, I walked in knowing what I could afford to spend, knowing what I know (and really I know more than I thought I did) and made lots of decisions (quite a few no's but one YES!) and found (what I think to be) a good, reliable, good rated, vehicle for our family.

She's not named yet, but here are her details:

She was born in 2002 by Ford, he named her Escape, but we will give her a proper name
She has driven 78,000 miles
We are her second owner
She is Hunter Green with Gray UV stable bumpers
She has new tires
And she's clean & quiet

I am thankful that I have so many people in my life that pray for me (even in silly things like this), I am thankful that people who have wisdom about cars have passed some of it along to me.  I am thankful that I know how to figure out a budget and to think about all the things that go into buying a car (the price, insurance, and maintenance & gas).  And I'm thankful to know when to hold em, know when to fold em, and know when to walk away!

So there you go!  I'm exhausted! Good thing dinner is planned and pretty much half cooked!

Sunday, January 22, 2012

My heart over the last week!

I haven’t written, not because I haven’t had anything to say, because I ALWAYS have something to say, which is often a hinderence.

It’s been quite a week, and for the most part, I’ve tried to keep my mouth shut because my Aunt Flo was about to visit, and she brings with her nastiness if you know what I am saying…  Yesterday while in the D after… losing my license (the card not the privilege to drive) so a trip to the Sec of State on W. Grand and Cass (great service, quick, friendly, well organized, Jesus music – Bebe & Cece Winans – ‘addicted love’ playing in the background), I wasn’t there for more than 10 minutes – how many times can you say ALL that about a SOS – baby –that’s why I love the D!), a trip to the bank, and off to my small group with a bunch of lovely ladies – I was hungry AND I hadn’t had any iced tea (a girl – well at least this girl, gets crabby in those conditions) I stopped at Starbucks and got not 1 but 2 iced teas.  I was wound up like a top!  Not good.  I got to my end destination and drank some tea and read the bible before my friends came!

So back to my week, I know that people think I’m this strong woman, but yesterday, I was sad, tired, angry, and fearful.  But I only really have one choice, because it’s the only option I give myself, trust God.  Because I know that He works it out for my good (no matter how much I screw it up)

Let’s go to the car situation! I am completely afraid of making the wrong choice in a car.  I am thankful that I don’t have $1000 to spend (I have more than that!) but I don’t want to make the wrong choice.  I wish God would just have someone call me and say ‘I’ve got this great deal’ and it be in my price range and I will then go on my merry way.  This is stressful and as much as I try to make the right decision for our family, it’s stressful.

Phyllis had her MRI this week, I’ve been praying and reading about what this whole knee thing could be…  I am still at a loss.  Again, fearful of making the wrong decision…

My friend asked us in our small group when you have gone through something, after it’s all over, do you now see the joy and the Glory in it? And when it comes to Phyllis’s health, the arthritis, I can see the Glory, I can see the good, but I don’t see the joy.

In this whole car thing, even though I hate it, I KNOW God is working it out for our good. I prayed that if it was best for the car to be totaled – then total it God, if it’s best for it to be fixed, then have that be that answer God. Whatever it is, I trust You.

I do trust God in all these things.  I trust Him in every trial. I was reading about Joseph last week, and through everything (and there was a lot of everything in Joseph’s life) over and over again it said ‘And the Lord was with Joseph’.  TROUGHROUGH IT ALL!  And I remember that. 

I was thinking about how many things I am afraid of!  Oh it drives me crazy!  At the core of most of the issues I have, there is some kind of fear.


A lot!!

I’ve been afraid so much of my life, that sometimes I don’t even know how NOT to be afraid.  But I also know that God’s word is true.  And for me, worrying is sin, because it means I am not trusting Him.  I believe that Jesus OVERCAME sin! And that means He has OVERCOME my fear too.  And so today as I was worshipping through song and through tears, I am going to just give this fear to Him.  Because He can overcome it!

He’s given me life!  He is my God of ALL things in my life, and I will trust Him.  And while I may not be completely successful at giving this to Him, I will strive to OVERCOME, through His blood, through His mercy, through His grace, through His love, this stupid fear that keeps me from going forward.

He WILL work it out for my good.  I believe that it was no coincidence that my scripture of the week last week was Romans 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

Look at The Message Version:

Romans 8:28 That's why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.

Meal Planning

This week is a few make-ahead dinners.  We are both really busy, we've got to find a car this week!

Sunday - Tacos, spanish rice
Monday - Chicken Teriyaki Chicken breasts, brown rice, and broccoli and carrots (making rice and marinating Chicken Breasts on Sunday)
Tuesday - Black Bean and Corn Soup (making this Sunday) (BC p 240)
Wednesday - Leftovers
Thursday - Tomato Sauced Ribs (crockpot) (BC p240)
Friday - Lebanese Salad and  Hummus
Saturday - Dorrito Casserole and rice (thanks Netta!)

Friday, January 20, 2012

Preacher's Cake

I adapted the cake from here

1 1/2 c sugar

2 c all-purpose flour 2 eggs
2 tsp baking soda
1/2 tsp salt
2 tsp vanilla
1/2 c nuts - walnuts or any that you prefer
3/4 c raisins
3/4 c coconut
1 can(s) 20 ounces crushed pineapple - undrained (i use pineapple in it's own juice)


1 pkg 8 ounce cream cheese - softened
1 3/4 c powdered sugar
1/4 c butter or margarine
1/4 tsp salt
1/2 c nuts - walnuts or any that you prefer
2 tsp vanilla

CAKE:  Combine dry ingredients; add remaining ingredients
Bake in a 9 x 13 prepared pan at 350 degrees for 30-45 minutes - depending on variables. Do not over bake or it will be rubbery, but still delicious :)

FROSTING: Mix well and spread on cake in pan while warm

* If you would like to save calories, instead of using the frosting, just sprinkle  top of cake with a bit of powdered sugar and enjoy!

NOTE:  * There is NO milk, butter, or oil in the cake.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

YAY! for good food choices!

2.2 lbs this week!

Since Dec 29 I've lost 4.6, I feel like it's going slow, but at least in the right direction :)  Weightloss is one of the few things in life that is a positive when it's a negative :)

Yesterday my world was a little crazy. The car place called, totaling our Corolla, my computer was running super slow so the thing that should have take me 1/2 hour, I spent close to 2 hours on and its still not done, tons of choices, everyday stress.  And just the thought in general that I am going to disappoint someone... ugh:/

I needed a minute. A minute of peace.  So after work, I went to Roma's.  Soup and Salad.  That's it, not gnocchi, no pasta, no dessert.  It was so good. It's hard when you stress eat to make good choices, to change your 'I want' to 'I need'.  I want carbs and sauce to I need veggies and protein, but like all good choices in life, I am not sorry I made that one.

So there you have it this week's results.  Also think I am going to start drinking apple cider vinegar!  click the link and read!  Good stuff!

Wednesday, January 18, 2012


I'm ready for football to be over, not because I don't like the game but quite frankly I'm tired of hearing about Tim Tebow.  There I said it.  I'm thankful he's a Christian, I am thankful he is speaking out, but jeez louise, he should be the norm!

You see, my issue is that our lives should reflect Jesus.  I think of so many men that I admire, now my list could go on and on so don't be offended or hurt if you or your hubby didn't make the list. It doesn't mean I don't admire them, it's just that I don't have all day to list out everyone I admire.

I'd like to start with Adam Dorband.  I only know one other person, personally, who has a life that reflects Christ like Adam's does.  He is the best Youth Pastor - EVER (but don't ask him, he won't say that - but he is), he is an outstanding husband, friend, (I'm sure) son, dad.  He serves and serves and grows and grows Christ.  He is wise with his money, though everyone gives him a hard time about his expensive coffee, I'd just like to say it's Starbucks, it's not that expensive.  He is an amazing man.  And he has great integrity.

I've been lucky to serve (since I was saved) under 3 awesome Pastors, they are not perfect, but they their lives reflect Jesus.  Pastor Jim, Pastors Jeremy, and Pastor Chilly (he is the other one who has a life that reflects Christ like Adam).  These men give and give, and serve and serve, like Christ. They are amazing husbands, and their lives reflect Christ's integrity.  I could go on and on about all three of these men.

My friend Drew is the husband of my friend Amanda.  He is not just funny and wise, he also has great integrity.  His life reflects excellence and is a testimony to how he trusts God, and lives in Christ.  He loves his wife like Christ loves the church.

Ron, or fruitcake, boy, when I think of the saying 'excellence is honoring to God and a reflection of His character' I think of Ron.  He is not loud or boisterous, but he is of strong character and Christ's love.  He doesn't talk a big game, he LIVES it.

And three men that are in my life group, Darryl, EJ, Brian, and Mike.  Not perfect, but great great men, their lives reflect Christ. Strong work ethic, smart, loving, servant-hearted.

And there is Cecil.  Oh, my facebook gets blown up every morning with inspiration from the Word of God.  Some might be annoyed by it, but I LOVE it!  It's a great way to start my day!  I know parts of his story, and Christ changed him!  and his life reflects that!

When I tell you about these men, I thought of one word.  REFLECTION.  God shines on them, and like a mirror they reflect Christ to their families, to the world.  Their lives are full of hard work.  These men know and live the saying 'Excellence is honoring to God and a reflection of His character'. They depend on God for provision, and they know that hard work pays off, doing the right thing brings success, the right thing being hard work, prayer, living a life integrity.  They seize the opportunities that God has placed before them.

And let me also say that their wives - shine because of the reflection of Christ in their husband's lives and because they are loved like Christ loves the church. They are amazing wives, moms, friends, and I am blessed to have them in my life!!

I can't say much about Tim Tebow, and this isn't a debate, write your own blog, I'm just saying that I know a bunch of men who don't worry about a spotlight, but their lives reflect Christ everyday.

Proverbs 27:19 As water reflects the face, so one’s life reflects the heart.

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

This Man! This Love!!

Let me tell you about this man, His name is Jesus!!!

Yesterday my daughter was in a car accident. She is fine. Car is a little crunched, but she is fine. That’s all I cared about. It’s just a car, and after all, that is why we have car insurance, and full coverage at that.

I knew that this week was going to be a challenge. I was up in the middle of the night, I’ve learned to cure my insomnia with intercession. So, I prayed! Then I was up at 3:30 this morning, I was getting picked up at 6 because of our logistical challenges. I was up so early that I got to spend some time with God, me & Him, snuggled up, eating breakfast together, He was speaking to me. He blew me away with Gen 32 & 33! I was seriously jumping out of my skin in rejoicedment (it’s a word).

Then I get a call from State Farm, but I missed it, I call them back. I’m talking to the lady, she’s got nothing for me and then all of a sudden, she says ‘oh, wait, I can’t talk to you about your claim’ I’m nervous now. What’s wrong? Is something wrong? OH MY WORD! She transfers me. I’m on hold for something like 6 hours (or 6 minutes, not sure) and the whole time I’m nervous! I’m reciting (outloud) ‘The Lord is my Right and Salvation, I am not afraid, I am not afraid, I am not afraid’. It’s even on my facebook! You can check!

So the guy is working on my claim, I’m still a little nervous, I’m praying while he’s typing!! And then he says ‘Iet’s get your car rental hooked up’. Now, I would have bet you money (good money) that I didn’t have car rental insurance, but somehow, some way, God worked it out for my good! I’m hooked up! I pick up the rental!

Let me tell you something about this man named Jesus.

He died on a cross to save me from… myself.

He died on a cross for you.

He has spared my life and my daughter’s life on more than one occasion (just yesterday)!

He blows me away with His love and His word.

All those things (and many many more) are enough.

But car rental insurance, that just takes the cake! He is my provider!!!

Why do I worry? I don’t know. I’m stupid.


I’m still blown away because this week’s scripture verse? Romans 8:28!

Menu Planning Week of 1-16-2012

Our life kind of feels like a whirlwind… Just trying to keep things together and in order as much as possible. We are going to have some up-heavel, crazy running, extra expenses, etc until the car stuff is worked out.  We also have lots of veggies left over from Phyllis's party so I will do my best to use those up!

Monday – Beef Barley soup

Tuesday – Meatloaf (made with a mixture of ground turkey & ground chicken, red potatoes, & cauliflower

Wednesday – Chicken Teriyaki (using chicken breasts, brown rice, broccoli & carrots)

Thursday – Leftovers from Tuesday

Friday – Supposed to go out (but might eat in due to car rental expenses)– going to the DIA to see the Faces of Jesus exhibit.

Saturday – Tacos, Spanish rice (made with brown rice I'll make extra on Wednesday)

Sunday – Chicken Enchilada Soup (was not on the menu plan for the month, but I have everything) Look at me I’m SPONTANEOUS!!! LOL

Worrying for Nothing!

I read Gen 32

I asked God to speak to me before I started reading.  Isn't it crazy...  the whole chapter.  Jacob, who God promised blessings is still wrestling with God? He's afraid of Esau and sends a whole bunch of peeps and gifts ahead of him.

Don't we do that?  don't we try to buy our way out of trouble?  but really we can't.  We can never do enough!

I am so thankful that in my mess, God is.  God is what?  He is everything.  He was/is the gift that went before me to get me out of my mess!

Just one more reason to praise Him!!

Then Gen 33

Jacob and Esau meet.  And here all that worrying that Jacob did was FOR NOTHING!   And even though Esau saw favor upon Jacob, Jacob is still trying to say 'here, take it, it's yours, I'm just so glad you spared me'.

Makes me think of serving and our (my) reasons why... I always want my reasons of serving to be pure (worship) not something that I am 'trying to pay back' to Jesus.  He doesn't need me.  but... HE WANTS ME, HE LOVES ME!!!  that's another reason to praise Him.

As part of communion in the Catholic church, they say "Lord, I am not worthy to receive You, but just say the word and I shall be healed".  I am not worthy, but how many times God has come into my heart and healed me from my own mess, or something in my past. Nothing I can do will work it out, but He does!  So many times He tells us not to worry... It reminds me, once again, that God is working it out for my good.  AMAZING!

My heart is rejoicing this morning!

Romans 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose

Monday, January 16, 2012

Crazy Day!

It’s been a crazy day! Our long awaited Orthopedic visit came.  The doc seemed concerned about her knee, he said it was warm to the touch (past experience tells me there is some fighting going on in the joint), and was happy to hear that we were going to get an MRI, but we don’t get the results probably for another week.  He even wanted a specific reader to do the report.  Apparently this guy is ‘the best’.  I’m all about that.  We need to get into the doctor  and get blood work done, because we need to know about her RA factor and I’m still not ruling out Lyme disease until I get the negative on the blood work.   Moving healthy food into our diet, eliminating aspertame (it’s in yogurt! So we are moving to the big tubs of yogurt and adding our own fruit – also moving to removing the dirty dozen from our home and buying organic)

On the way to work, Phyllis crunched Patricia (the Corolla).  She is fine, and the car is smooshed, but she (Patricia) is already at the doctor (the collision shop) and it might be a logistical nightmare of a day or two (or seven!) we will get through it.  That’s why we have insurance.

Here’s the thing, Pastor Chilly asked “What is your Isaac?”  What is the thing that if God asked you to sacrifice it, give it back to Him, what would you be like ‘uh, no’.  I really thought about it, money. 

I don’t want to make decisions based on money.  And I don’t mean to wildly make decisions that are stupid.  Let’s be a good steward with what He has provided, but at the end of the day, when He calls, we should just say ‘Hello’ not think about what it is going to cost us. 

Phyllis is fine, no one else was hurt. My insurance will go up.  But oh well, it’s just a car.  

We are making strides towards improving our health everyday.  

I will go to bed THANKFUL and praying!!

On the right track

People give me a weird look when I tell them 'no bread/no dairy'.  So much so that it makes me doubt that I am making the right decision.  It's not easy, I LOVE dairy! LOVE IT!!  Thank God I love lebanese salad with chicken (Fattousch without chips)! Because it seems that it is a once a day staple in my life!  Need to learn to make the dressing myself!!

Yesterday we had Phyllis's party!  The menu: Lasagna and bread, salad, veggies and dip, hummus, and we had fruit!

I will tell you that after I ate the Lasagna, my stomach HURT!  and I gained a pound!

And so, I know I am on the right track for MY BODY!  I don't know about your body, but I know mine.  And it is telling me, no bread (wheat), no dairy.

So this morning's breakfast?
Eggs with broccoli & green pepper & a side of tomatoes! and iced tea of course!

Sunday, January 15, 2012

I am able...

Ever get caught up in the 'I do' mess?

I do this or I do that for someone.

I can assure you for every 'I do' I've dropped the ball somewhere, and I don't like it when people bring that up.  No ma'am.

I think that just gets us singing the 'meme' song and makes us feel entitled, gives us justification for whatever.  I have been caught singing that song too many times in my own head or out of my mouth.  And when I do, that makes it about me, not about Jesus.  By myself, I am a big mess.  Who would want to follow me?  But following Jesus, now that's something!

What if we changed 'I did' to 'I was able'. I think that would change my attitude because truly, anything I am able to do is a pure gift from God and really had nothing to do with me.  That's much better.  I am so blessed because I am able to do a lot of things, just a few months ago, I couldn't even walk on my own two feet, let alone able to bring someone a meal, or grocery shop, or do the dishes.  But thank God I am able.

I choose Him. I choose His strength.  I choose his love.

He is able.  and in Him, so am I.

Eph 3:20-21  Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21 to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

I won't lose my mind!

When Phyllis comes home from school she instinctively puts her coat down on the arm of the couch.  It drives me nuts. I don't know why, but it does.  I hate hanging up my coat too (in the closet).  I don't know why but I do!

So while I was at Target yesterday (for $2.50!!) and they had these cute over the door hangers in a multitude of colors (black, silver, aqua, pink).  I needed one from my closet in my room and then I saw the black one and decided that i would put it up in the entry way and then Phyllis could hang her coat up there.

While I realize that this might not be the most attractive thing, I am willing to compromise here.  As long as it stays neat looking (it's on the outside of the closet door), and we don't have a ton of coats anyway so I am thinking that would not be a problem, I think it's a good solution.  Some battles are not worth fighting!

2 Chron 26:14 Uzziah provided shields, spears, helmets, coats of armor, bows and slingstones for the entire army.

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Margie's Money Saver - Green Peppers

photo 2
I think I learned from Mrs. Mac that you could freeze green peppers.  You might already know this wonderful tidbit of information... but it never occurred to me.  But I'd like to share with you this wonderful money saver - thrifty living tip!
photo 1

Often when I cut a green pepper for veggies and dip there are some 'not so attractive' parts.  See photo 1.  or sometimes a green pepper does not get eaten in time so before it goes bad (and sometimes I have to cut out yucky spots) I cut it up and throw it in the freezer. There is always a bag going (see photo 2).

I use it for Messy Margie's (aka sloppy joes), stuffed pepper soup, chili, or whatever calls for green pepper that will be cooked down!

Waste not want not!

FYI - I also keep a bag with the taco meat we can't finish (there is usually only two of us), and there is usually a bag of strawberries or blueberries going as well that we save for smoothies!  OH and don't forget you can freeze bananas skin and all and when you've got some saved up make banana bread!  YUM!

Bread Machine Garlic Bread

I got the recipe from here.  I adapted... NOTHING!  It's so good!

1 cup warm water (70° to 80°)
1 tablespoon butter, melted
1 tablespoon nonfat dry milk powder
1 tablespoon sugar
1-1/2 teaspoons salt
4-1/2 teaspoons dried parsley flakes
2 teaspoons garlic powder
3 cups bread flour
2 teaspoons active dry yeast


In bread machine pan, place all ingredients in order suggested by manufacturer. Select basic bread setting. Choose crust color and loaf size if available.
Bake according to bread machine directions (check the dough after 5 minutes of mixing; add 1 to 2 tablespoons of water or flour if needed). 

Yield: 1 loaf, 16 slices (about 1-1/2 pounds).

Nutritional Analysis:One slice (prepared with margarine) equals 108 calories, 1 g fat (0 saturated fat), trace cholesterol, 229 mg sodium, 21 g carbohydrate, 0 fiber, 4 g protein.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Small Choices

So I am reading today Gen 19 I get to verse 20

"Look, here is a town near enough to run to, and it is small. Let me flee to it—it is very small, isn't it? Then my life will be spared."

That town was small, and Lot wanted to flee to it to have his life spared.  

Do you ever think of your sin as small?  Like someone else is doing something much worse?  Last time I checked there isn't a rating system.  And a lot of times it isn't big things that get us.  it's eating a few little extra pieces of chocolate  or deciding not to exercise, it's only one day right?  


little things do add up.  Just like losing 1 pound leads to 2, 2 to 4, 4 to... you get the picture.  It can go in the opposite direction.

Today I went to the Auto Show, Supplier preview days.  I could have easily hit up one of my favorite places, oh, it's just one time.  Except that while I was changing my clothes, I was HATING everything I put on.  Making poor choices, no matter how small they are takes us from where we want to be, or who we want to be like (insert Jesus here).

Tomorrow some of my friends and I are gathering for dinner and bible study, and it was supposed to be cake because it was my birthday.  You wouldn't think it would be a big deal, but I didn't want cake.  I wanted fruit, because cake just isn't a good choice. And I think most of us in our group are trying to better our eating habits. What is the point of having cake if no one eats it??  So I asked for fruit, because, this small choice is important to me (I want my friends to be healthy too!)

This Sunday we are celebrating Phyllis's birthday.  Lasagne and Cake.  Oh boy.  I will have a really nice salad (I make awesome salad with lots of veggies!), homemade dressing (so we know what's in it), cut up fruit.  I might even have chicken, just so it's a better choice for me to eat.

And you want to know a funny new thing I've decided to do because my friend Lindsay inspired me...  After I go to the bathroom, I do 10 squats.  Minimum of 60 a day (which isn't hard, I usually round out about 100 a day EASY!) and my friend Vicki is going to show me some quick exercises too!

Wednesday, January 11, 2012


If the Son sets you free, you are free indeed! John 8:35

So today, the day that I decide that the only choice is a good one! I am sure that there will be days when I want ice cream (and get it) but not today!

I posted earlier about no bread and no dairy. It is what is best for me!

Did you know that stress can make you fat?

Oh, I’ve got a double scoop of stress today.

But my God is bigger than that!

Yes, I struggle with food. The first thing I want to reach for when life gets a little crazy! Ice cream, pizza, yum! But I know that is no way to live, trapped in a prison I built myself! I am an overcomer! I have overcome so much because of His love and grace, and this too will be overcome! I will be free!!!

I stopped today and got a Lebanese salad with chicken today and it was sooooo good! I think I could eat them EVERY day! And I just might.

You see, my life is different. I have joy and peace and it lives in me! But who can see it hiding behind all this fat. I wonder if people judge me, heck, I judge myself. I hate that about me. I hate that my pants are too tight, that I don’t look cute!

I hate a lot of things… but one thing I know of… whatever is ahead of me is NOT bigger than the power behind me!


And God be with me, I am meeting with some beautiful ladies… and they chose to go out for Milkshakes… that will be a water for me please!

Making progress, using wisdom

Praise the Lord!  those two added pounds are gone. 

I've been praying about what to do about this weightloss and this life changing stuff going on.  I've been thinking about times when I've felt my best.  I've been thinking about nutrition...

I am going back to the way that I know I feel better...  No bread no dairy.  Limited carbs. Carbs that are only whole.  No processed crap.

Go ahead and debate me on this.  But this I know...  bread (pasta too) and cheese make me sick.  When I eliminate those things from my life and then try to re-establish them, make me sick.

Wheat makes me run to the bathroom (you get the picture)
and cheese keeps me out of the bathroom (I think you're smart enough to catch this too).

So why do I want to put things in my body that make me feel crappy? 

Oh I don't know.  I'm stupid.

I've been talking to Phyllis about it. 

So that's where I am.  No bread.  No dairy.  20 carbs a meal.

I can still eat yummy potatoes! 

That's all I got.

I get by...

What would you think if I sang out of tune,
Would you stand up and walk out on me?
Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song
And I'll try not to sing out of key.

I was reading Gen 14-15 today. Abram Rescues Lot
Crazy good story.
I have been thinking about my friends. The people in my life that have come and gone. The ones who have been with me for so long. How people in my family have gone from being my cousins to being my friends.
I have also been thinking about how when we don’t reach out to others when we need help (usually because of pride) that our mess is bigger than it needs to be. I am one of those kind of people who try to get themselves out of their own mess. But in that, it takes longer to dig out. Not only that, we need people in our lives to encourage and love us (and kick us in the be-hind sometimes!)

Pastor Chilly posted these scriptures the other day! Wow! So good! This is how we should love our friends!

We are to “build each other up”. Romans 14:19
Let us therefore make every effort to do what leads to peace and to mutual edification

We are to “serve one another”. Galatians 5:13
You, my brothers and sisters, were called to be free. But do not use your freedom to indulge the flesh[a]; rather, serve one another humbly in love.

We are to “share each other’s burdens”. Galatians 6:1-2
Brothers and sisters, if someone is caught in a sin, you who live by the Spirit should restore that person gently. But watch yourselves, or you also may be tempted. 2 Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ.

We are to be “forgiving one another”. Ephesians 4:32
Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

We are to “submit to one another”. Ephesians 5:21
Submit to one another out of reverence for Christ

We are to “warn each other”. Hebrews 3:12-13
See to it, brothers and sisters, that none of you has a sinful, unbelieving heart that turns away from the living God. 13 But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called “Today,” so that none of you may be hardened by sin’s deceitfulness.

We are to “motivate one another”. Hebrews 10:24-25
And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds, 25 not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching.

I’m so thankful for friends and family that I can send out prayer requests to, share joy with. It’s funny how as soon as I read the title of my reading I started singing ‘I get by with a little help from my friends’. I can’t imagine my life without all the beautiful people that God has planted in my life. Some annuals and some perennials, each blooming at different times.

I am blessed by the grace of God.

P.S.  I also loved the part when Abram said 'I don't even want the straps of your sandals, so that you cannot take credit for my riches.  All the glory will go to God for my blessings!' (of course, I paraphrased)  How great is that!!!

Tuesday, January 10, 2012


Sometimes I am so overwhelmed by God that I could cry.  I am thankful for His goodness.  In everything.

Today one of my kids posted something on their fb page, and I could read the hurt in their heart.  As I was praying, I thought of the times when I had met that boy.

So many times a student would walk past me and I'd be immediately be called to pray for them.
So many times a student would come to my heart and I'd spend the night praying for them.
Or what about the girls that I was on my face before God because of their hurt.
And the amazing parents I met and the love I brought to them too.

I knew that I was not always the coolest leader. I knew that some (most) of them would really ever know the capacity of love that my heart held for them. I knew it.  And I just kept loving them.

There are even times now when they are hurtful or I see them doing something that breaks my heart and I cry.  But I love them anyway.

I think of all the smiles and the hugs.  In letting them know that they were important to not only me but to God.

I can never go back to those times, I don't think I'd want to.  But I can tell you this, I still love my kids even though I don't see them nearly as often as I did before.  I think about their sweet faces at check in, the times I had to clean up their puke, the hugs, the laughter.

I'm so thankful.  So very thankful.

I was reminded of this song.  In our loneliness, in our laughter.  In our tears, God is always there.

I feel that it wasn't me who was doing the blessing when I loved those students, I was the one who was blessed.

1 John 4:19 We love because He loved us first

This song reminds of great times!  Kids jumping around for Jesus like little Tiggers.

Discipline - Week of 1-9-12

Monday - 30 min walking 1.72 miles; Read Gen 8
Tuesday - 60 push ups, 100 sit ups; Read Gen 10-13

A friendship in the path of Jesus

Proverbs 16:9 In their hearts humans plan their course, but the LORD establishes their steps.

I met her in 2007.  She was leading a bible study.  I dropped off the kids as part of our mission trip.  The church just happened to be having a bible study lead by her.  I was so impressed by her heart that I started following her blog.  I also began following her hubby's blog because he's the pastor of the church.  You can tell a lot about people about what they write.  I love these two because they are not fake, they admit when they fail, but they also tell you exactly what they do when they fail.  Go to Jesus.

That seems like such a long time ago.  

I have a heart for missions. But God established my steps to walk into that little church with the big heart so many years ago.

I can tell you that I am so thankful.

I serve with this church.  We learn there.  We love it.  It's heartbeat is Jesus.

Now back to my friend.  Our kids laugh and joke that we are BFF's.  I love her.  She's encouraging, and funny, and beautiful, and amazingly talented with a sewing machine, she inspires (she's why I do meal plans), she likes tea, just like me!  She will even tell me when I need a little correction.  We laugh together, cry together, pray together, we pray for each other, spend our Saturday mornings together, we encourage each other!  

I'm so thankful for her!  As I was getting ready this morning, praying for her, and thanking God so much for her, I thought I'd share my heart about her.

Thank You Jesus for my fabulous friend, I am forever thankful!!

Thanks Netta for being my friend! I loveyou!  

Monday, January 09, 2012

what a day!

What a day,
Oh what a day.
My baby brother ran away,
And now my tuba will not play.
I'm eight years old
And turning grey.
Oh what a day, Oh what a day.

Whenever I say oh what a day instantly that poem repeats in my head.  LOL  It's by Shel Silverstein. 

Today was not about food.  It was about Jesus. I clung to Him all day! It was a rough day, a day I wanted chocolate, and cheese and tortilla chips, and arabic food... and... but instead I stuck with it, knowing that success = doing what is right/long periods of time.

My plan was a walk in the morning, but I missed my queue to get out of bed.  So I went in the evening.  I even didn't want to do that at 8pm but I reminded myself that it was part of the plan, and in order to hit the goals I have set out, a walk was needed.  30 minutes, 1.72 miles.  I wasn't setting any speed records, but I was out!  and about!  I was moving faster than I have moved in quite awhile.

I had a good weekend, I ate very well.  However, I weighed myself and I was up two pounds, that's frustrating.  But I'll keep doing what I know is right!!

So that's it. A little frustrating, but I know what to do. Going to just keep doing it.

Phil 3:13-14 Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

Stepping Out

I'm behind in my bible reading.  That's why i stress out about bible plans, but whatever, I think me being 'behind' was right on time with God.

Decisions Decisions

I always have lots going on.  There is always something I have to decide.  It almost always means that I have to step out in faith and trust God.  A decision is coming up that means I have to step out in faith.  Ohmyword.  Can't I just stay where I am and be comfortable for just a minute?  SHEESH!  And then God says.. well then you'll be like you, not like me.  Is that what you want? UGH :/ No.

And here I am reading about Noah.   There are a lot of lessons in Noah.  The one most residing in my heart? Trust God.

I read about Noah in Gen 8:15-21

15 Then God said to Noah,16 "Come out of the ark, you and your wife and your sons and their wives.17 Bring out every kind of living creature that is with you—the birds, the animals, and all the creatures that move along the ground—so they can multiply on the earth and be fruitful and increase in number on it."
18 So Noah came out, together with his sons and his wife and his sons' wives.19 All the animals and all the creatures that move along the ground and all the birds—everything that moves on land—came out of the ark, one kind after another.
20 Then Noah built an altar to the Lord and, taking some of all the clean animals and clean birds, he sacrificed burnt offerings on it.21 The Lord smelled the pleasing aroma and said in his heart: "Never again will I curse the ground because of humans, even thought every inclination of the human heart is evil from childhood. And never again will I destroy all living creatures, as I have done

God doesn't ask me to do crazy things like build this ginormous boat, stick your family on it, and watch all the people you know, drown in a flood.  Because of Noah's obedience and God's \love...  we have God's promise, and a rainbow as a reminder.

God does ask me to go out and make disciples.  He tells me to love Him above all else, to love my neighbors.  I am not a hell fire and brimestone kind of person, I know that there is a purpose for those Jesus loving peeps, but for me, it's about love.  Which kind of looks different everyday (which makes it harder sometimes for me).  I know that more people will come to love and know Jesus because of how I behave than what I say.  They will see me stumble and fumble, and tremble in the corner and see His grace better than anything else I could do.

Then why is it so hard?  oh I don't know. because I'm an idiot.  Today I was having one of those moments, the kind that satan likes to use against me, so I sent out my life line.  I called my sisters to pray (they might even think the reasons I ask for prayer are a little kookie - but it's what I need - I figured I've asked people to pray for the delivery of car parts - so if I need help I'm asking!!). I reached out called out, cried out to God, He answered.  He doesn't leave me.

I don't always know if I do the 'right' thing.  I try to live by the standard of which Christ has put before me.  I know I will never reach that standard because I'm a sinner, saved by grace.  I do know that I will love Jesus when it's hard, I will obey His commands, I will follow Him, ALL my days.  He is my rock and my redeemer, in no one else will I trust!  He is the rock I stand on.  He is my strength, my love, my joy, and my peace.  And I strive to be more like Him, everyday.

Phil 3:13-14 Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.