Passion is a gritty kind of love, tough and

optimistic enthusiasm that overcomes negativity and inconvenience to make it

through to the end. (10,000 Reasons Overflow)

Friday, August 31, 2012


There is something about when fall comes… you can’t seem to pass up God’s provision when it’s fall. You just can’t ignore it.

There are a lot of great things about fall.

I always look forward to a lower electric/gas bill because I don’t turn anything on until October even into November if possible.

I love hoodies

I do really love wearing socks (not shoes) in the house

I love fall harvest, cooking the squash and freezing it and knowing that it will sustain us through the winter.


The beautiful changing of the leaves. I am always amazed about how in the summer, God has given us a million shades of green, but in the fall, God puts away that paint and brings out vibrant shades of orange, yellow, and red.

Football comes in the fall too, I actually love football (yet I have no time to watch it!). I am hoping to make it to a few students sports this year (this is going to take lots of planning – but I am going to try!).

I love the kick off of Alive and Fuel. Praying for tons of love to be spread all over Downriver and TONS of Salvations!! That kids will open their hearts to a God who loves them more than they will ever comprehend!

This weekend, and a few going forward, will be preparation for winter.

Praise the Lord

I was listening to this Psalm this morning, really listening. With every “Praise” my heart was overflowing with the goodness of Him. To love such a wretch like me. To rescue from the daily mess that I make, to give me a love I never thought possible. AMAZING!

He is soooo good to me!

Psalm 135

Praise the LORD.[a]

Praise the name of the LORD;
praise him, you servants of the LORD,
2 you who minister in the house of the LORD,
in the courts of the house of our God.
3 Praise the LORD, for the LORD is good;
sing praise to his name, for that is pleasant.
4 For the LORD has chosen Jacob to be his own,
Israel to be his treasured possession.
5 I know that the LORD is great,
that our Lord is greater than all gods.
6 The LORD does whatever pleases him,in the heavens and on the earth,
in the seas and all their depths.
7 He makes clouds rise from the ends of the earth;
he sends lightning with the rain
and brings out the wind from his storehouses.
8 He struck down the firstborn of Egypt,
the firstborn of people and animals.
9 He sent his signs and wonders into your midst, Egypt,
against Pharaoh and all his servants.
10 He struck down many nations
and killed mighty kings—
11 Sihon king of the Amorites,
Og king of Bashan,
and all the kings of Canaan—
12 and he gave their land as an inheritance,
an inheritance to his people Israel.
13 Your name, LORD, endures forever,
your renown, LORD, through all generations.
14 For the LORD will vindicate his people
and have compassion on his servants.
15 The idols of the nations are silver and gold,
made by human hands.
16 They have mouths, but cannot speak,
eyes, but cannot see.
17 They have ears, but cannot hear,
nor is there breath in their mouths.
18 Those who make them will be like them,
and so will all who trust in them.
19 All you Israelites, praise the LORD;
house of Aaron, praise the LORD;
20 house of Levi, praise the LORD;
you who fear him, praise the LORD.
21 Praise be to the LORD from Zion,
to him who dwells in Jerusalem.

Praise the LORD.

Thursday, August 30, 2012

bible reading

I did so well reading the bible in chronological order… until I got back from Haiti. A lot has changed in my life since Haiti. LOL. I’m not that far behind, but I have skipped a couple days.

my bible - it's looked prettier
in it's day
Well, I have been reading my bible, if I hadn’t been, you’d know because I lose my mind when I don’t. Not kidding. If I don’t have my alone time with God, there is a good chance, someone else might meet Him that day :)

I have tried to read the bible in a year soooo many times and each time I have fallen short. Well, today, I am getting back on track. I will do it in a lot of different ways. (thankful for Youversion and how they track it for me!). I’ve been listening to it and I will read a little extra every day. Shouldn’t take me too long to get caught back up and current. I could take the attitude “oh well, that sucks, I might as well give up” but I know that is not the right attitude… so here I go, getting caught up.

I really do love the bible. I can’t believe how much sometimes. I can’t believe how much God speaks to me through it all! I can’t believe how much He loves me! I certainly don’t deserve it, but I will accept His love and grace (and mercy!)

So… I’m wondering… (answer on FB – if you route through there)

do you read the bible everyday? If not, what determines what you read (if you read everyday)
Are you reading a specific plan?
What are you reading right now?
What is your favorite book?

John 1:1 In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God

No fear!!!!

God tells us so many times not to fear.

He’s a big God.

And yet, I still find myself worrying. Drives me nuts.

It’s easy to say to someone else “there is no fear in perfect love” (1 john 4:18) but sometimes I just still worry. Ken Bussell said to me once “Margie, there is a fine line between worrying and sinning”. I hear that in my head if I start worry.

I mean, come on, I plan my funerals before I leave on major trips, because I fear someone will mis-represent my love of Jesus, and maybe pick the “wrong” song. I worry about a lot of things.

If I allowed myself I could give you a list of “what ifs” and a long list of things that could go wrong but I have to choose not to live that way. Brave. Dumb. I don’t know. Either way, I forge ahead, knowing that there is a God in heaven, He is the Creator of the Universe, and He loves me! And He loves you too! And I know that nothing happens to me without His permission.

Sometimes when I can tell that someone is scared, whatever it is, I simply hold their hand, or put my hand on their shoulder, sometimes I hug them tightly and say “I believe that YOU CAN DO IT”. I don’t know if any of those things is right, but I know that is what my heart says to do.

I have a sweatshirt that says “I choose to live love”. So that means I have to CHOOSE to live in love instead of choosing to live in fear.

So if there is a moment that I am near you and I think you are afraid, I will simply put my hand in yours… and we will walk forward. And even if I’m not there, God is, and He loves you, don’t fear. Because there is no fear in perfect love, and He loves you perfectly.

1 John 4:18 There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Margie's Money Saver tips & stuff

Often I share some of my tips of survival! So I have a few different ones that are kind of unrelated but I feel like I should share!


Ever been to a teaching and the person talking is spitting out scripture like crazy or just tell the scripture before they read it and you can’t seem to get it all written down??

We get the book and MAYBE the chapter, but sometimes by the time we write all that… we forget the verse. I actually have a crazy “numbers” brain. I’m in Sales, remember? I had a boss when I was young that would ask me to call someone for him, and he’d only tell me the number one time! Can you imagine?!? Man, he was a great boss to have a first boss because as much as he liked me he was rough. His way… or His way… I’m not even sure if there was a highway option LOL

My friend Netta taught me this awesome trick while taking notes during sermons or teachings.

When the speaker/teacher/pastor says a verse… Write the numbers first (leave a space for the book) and then go back and write the book. MOST of the time, you will not forget the book, and you’ve written the numbers.

It’s a great trick, and I’ll tell you that it never fails that someone is always asking me “What verse was that?” and this helps me to study during the week or helps me to pass along a scripture when someone doesn’t know my trick (I try to teach people once I realize they don’t know this trick).

Another thing I have just learned and figured out…

Amazon Prime – If you purchase the Free 2 day shipping with Amazon, which makes it not FREE lol but..l am not sure if everyone knows, you can also get movies and tv shows like Netflix… and it’s included in the $79/year. If you have Netflix (you’d be able to cancel it) the cost for a year for streaming is $107.88. I have found that the shows I like are on Amazon Prime but not Netflix (you’d have to check that out for yourself). Also if you are a student… I was told (from a great source) it’s only $39/year! That’s a HUGE savings. Amazon has a 30 day free trial of Prime (make sure you cancel it – or you WILL be charge!) to check out the movies and if you like the service. I would recommend that you do it November/December time frame to take full advantage of the shipping option.

Some people think that I spend a lot of money for convenience (and sometimes I do!!) but I have a few tips that enable to save money to spend it on other things that I want sometimes :) So I can my own beans. I buy organic dried beans (red, pinto, and black). I recycle the jars and the lids, but I buy new tops to ensure a good seal. I line the jars up, add the beans (1/2 c in pint jars) and 1 t salt and hot boiling water. And I throw them in the pressure cooker/canner for an hour (that’s the directions I had) and they taste soooo good!! I realize that things cost more because they are organic, free range, grass fed, etc, but when doing this… you are not eating poison, hormones that you should not, ammonia, pesticides ,etc. I am not crazy about going organic, we do buy quite a few organic products. I also feel like eat less because the food tastes better!!

I love pesto, but it can be expensive and who knows what is in it sometime, especially if it comes in a jar! I planted tons of basil this summer, so I will be making pesto and freezing it to make it during this summer (for those of you who think I’m fancy, I’m bargain fancy so I don’t have to spend tons of money!!)

There are a few nuggets of wisdom! I’m also going to be making some meals this weekend to keep so that we eat at home – or at work in order to save money!

This is a public service announcement! God loves you!

Tuesday, August 28, 2012


Sometimes when we’ve been hurt or left in our past, we feel like maybe if we hurt someone (even when telling the truth) they will leave or be mad at us, and sometimes, if you are like me, saying good-bye is hard, even when it is voluntary.

I always want to be told the truth. I would rather know the truth and deal with it, then be happy believing a lie.

I wrestle with this. A lot of people have left me in my life. Some voluntary, and some like my momma, involuntary, and because of that, saying good-bye hurts. It’s why sometimes when I struggle with something, I don’t always share it, I keep it tucked inside and work through it on my own, even though I know it might be easier to share it with someone, but people leave, and that hurts.

What if they think I am awesome and amazing (as many do – they are nuts!!) and they hear about my crap and they are like “eww… don’t want to be associated with her”. That would hurt.

I am not saying I am fake, I’ve got plenty of mess that God turns into a message, I’m just saying I don’t always lay it all out there. I often wait until God reveals to me that it needs to be put out there.

And I also am realizing that I am a whole lot more than the mess that I created, but I am the daughter of the Highest of High Kings, I am seeing that in Him I am righteous, and He loves me, and created me to be beautiful.  I am someone who receives grace, and I need to learn to be more real so that I can experience the greatness of grace and love, and in turn it will make me more grace giving, more loving, more forgiving.  Just like He created me to be...  more like Him everyday.

I was thinking of a dear friend and a conversation that we had… I wanted to say (and maybe I did in different words) I always want you to tell me the truth, even if it hurts… I’ll always be your friend… and in turn, I will always tell you the truth too…

Proverbs 12:19 Truthful lips endure forever, but a lying tongue lasts only a moment

Lives hang in the balance

I went to a leaders retreat this past weekend and it was amazing in sooooo many ways. 

We were talking about staying energized and going for it every night. And sometimes I'm tired Sunday nights. Long weeks at work, busy weekends, not enough sleep, lots to do... But the one thing that keeps me going? Lives hang in the balance. I know that as youth staff or really even as a Christian, in the end, lives matter. I don't always do it perfectly and I may inadvertently hurt someone but I must at that time say I'm sorry, but I strive to move forward. 
If you saw someone drowning in a lake, would you just sit back, and then look for your bathing suit? And then go get your towel, maybe get a drink of soda?
 No! You'd jump in that water and you'd do everything in your power to save that person. 
All the people who are around us are those drowning people. They are gasping for the kind of air that will bring life to them. They are gasping and floundering reaching out to us to give them life, and some don't even know they are drowning. 
We have people all around us, our families, friends, co-workers, you name it, who need Jesus!  We have got to go after them!
The new school year is about to start and I'm super excited about it!!! Those kids matter to God! They do! And so they matter to me! 

Acts 20:24 However, I consider my life worth nothing to me; my only aim is to finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the good news of God’s grace.

Monday, August 27, 2012

Out with the old!

This morning I stocked my desk with good snackage to prepare for a good week. A lot of times the choices I make are due to no or bad choices because I didn’t prepare. After a weekend of eating stuff that wasn’t really good for me… it was subway on the way home and water and tea for me! This morning I had a yummy oatmeal, a good way to start your day.

But filling ourselves with good stuff isn’t always the answer. Sometimes we have to remove the things that are toxic in our lives. This weekend a dear friend who was concerned for me helped me see that there was someone in my life who makes me sick because they are toxic.

They are the aspartame of our lives. Sometimes we think this person has this good quality or that good quality, they are “sweet” in our lives, however, they are toxic poison – just like aspartame, only we don’t realize they are making us sick.

We need to not only fill ourselves up with good things and people who love us, but we need to remove the bad stuff from our lives as well. People who are toxic in our lives make us sick, and I don’t want to be sick anymore, I want to live a crazy love-inspiring life, and that is hard to do if I am second guessing myself, or reading bad press about myself. I never want to be too full of myself, I want to always know that all my good qualities and beauty are directly from the heart of God but I do want to see myself the way God (and others) sees me.

Becoming Beautiful!

Phil 4:8-9 (msg) Summing it all up, friends, I'd say you'll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious—the best, not the worst; the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse. Put into practice what you learned from me, what you heard and saw and realized. Do that, and God, who makes everything work together, will work you into his most excellent harmonies.

Saturday, August 25, 2012

Whatever is....

I meant to get up at 5:30 this morning however 6:30ish was the best I could do. I wanted to catch the quiet of the morning. Watch God put His hand on the sun to make it rise.

Quiet scares me. God speaks in the quiet times and says things I don't always want to hear. But sometimes in the quietness of the morning He speaks of a love so great for me.

He speaks in beautifully planted trees that let the perfect amount I sunlight through to warm my soul. He speaks in the balancing of fog on the water that rolls slowly towards me so that even just for a second I could imagine what it must be like to sit on a cloud.
Hearing the fish jump from the water to get that morning breakfast that God has provided makes me think of all the ways He provides for me that I must always be on the lookout for His miracles and His constant love.

The smell of the wooden dock, the water, and the crispness of the morning remind me of simpler times when I remember a time when I always felt loved.

For a moment I don't think of the "nots" in my life. 
I think of this...
Whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - if anything is excellent or praiseworthy - think about such things.

I love my super quiet alone time with God, as today I sit before Him and I am reminded of all He is and all the things He says I am.

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

He is always strong

I’m not a good fake it til you make it kind of gal. I try really hard to put a smile on my face but I can tell you that I don’t think that there has been a day since I’ve been back from Haiti that I haven’t cried for some reason or another. Happy, sad, for the goodness of His grace, love, and mercy. I can hear a song and be reminded of someone and cry.

So as much as I’d like to tell you about some great thing like not eating (I did that earlier) I’ll tell you that as excited I am about overcoming my crazy food issues, I’m a mess inside, and I’d be a liar if I told you that I am not struggling with anything.

As excited as I am to start the school year, I am scared. There are a lot of things going on, and there are a lot of opportunities for me to mess things up. And with all that busy-ness I have to make a very conscious effort to spend my alone time with God. Also… I feel like the enemy is knocking down my door, trying to sneak in my windows, and sometimes his dark voice rattles around in my head.

When I was struggling with something, a friend of mine said “why do you think you’re so broken?” and I said “who has told me any different?” most of my life I have felt sub-standard… and I know people say mean things, but no one ever stuck up for me. I needed someone to protect me, and they didn’t. I learned to put in my own protective devices… walls… Most of the time I think of when the last time someone in my family was proud of me, I can’t think of a story later than when I was 11. I just think I didn’t end up the way I thought they wanted me to… It’s ok, God has created me for something way bigger than anything they had imagined.

I called my friend Erin yesterday to see how she was doing, she’s moving, and we were talking, and there is something about her… I just started crying about a few things, and she said “You have to believe who God says He is, and who He says you are”. Now, I know that! I have known that, but like Julia Roberts says in Pretty Woman – the bad stuff is easier to believe. I struggle with the choices I make all the time or I know my thoughts (even if I don’t say them outloud) so when someone says something that is negative it just solidifies what my thoughts are about myself, and the enemy uses that to leave me in the dark. I think that is a reason why God says in Eph 4:29 Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. None of us need someone else to knock each other down.

So each day, I tell myself I am beautiful, even if I look like a dirt-ball or my skin is peeling because I got sunburned. I remember that God created me for care and serving. For hugging and loving. And when I make a bad choice, I am reminded of His amazing grace, because it is afterall true, that if I was perfect I wouldn't need Jesus. I am reminded that if it was only me, He would have gotten up on the cross because I am loved loved loved!

I am weak a lot of days but I remember that when I am weak, He is strong, that He protects me, even when it feels like no one else will.

2 Cor 12:9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
The lyrics of Savior King –

And now the weak
say I have strength
By the spirit of power
And now the poor stand and confess
That my portion is served and I'm more than blessed
And now our hearts burn with a flame
A fire consuming all for your son's holy name
And with the heavens we declare you our king
We love you Lord
We worship you
You are our God
You alone are good.
And now your church shine as the bride
That you saw in your heart as you offered up your life
And now the lost being welcomed home by the saved and redeemed,
those adopted as your own
And now our hearts burn with a flame
A fire consuming all for your son's holy name
And with the heavens we declare you our king
We love you Lord
We worship you
You are our God
You alone are good.
You asked your son
To carry this
The heavy cross
Our weight of sin
I love you Lord
I worship you
Hope which was lost
Now stands renewed
I give my life
To honour this
The love of Christ
 The Saviour King

Becoming Non-Toxic

I have relationships that are toxic to me.

Some relationships are easier to remove from our lives than others. Some it’s almost impossible. And those we have to let God work in our own lives so we don’t become unhealthy. There is one in my life that I cannot seem to escape, so when I deal with it, I just put on my nuclear waste uniform and go forward, praying a lot. I do believe that no one is a victim without your own permission, but I think that sometimes the unhealthiness of others can attach to us without even recongnizing it.

My relationship with food can easily become toxic if I am not careful. When I get busy or have to work a long day, it’s easiest to swing through a drive-thru or grab something completely not healthy. Yesterday was one of those kind of days, I could have easily stopped for something bad, instead I went to Starbucks (I also wanted to surprise my dear friend M) so I stopped and got an oatmeal for dinner. Doesn’t seem like much of a dinner now does it? But who says? Who decided that we need to eat some big meal at the end of the day? Rarely lately have I had a big meal at the end of the day, and you know what? I feel better and I weigh less. I’ve actually even forgotten to eat dinner before because I’m satisfied from lunch. Often lately, I eat only when I’m hungry, and I stop when I’m full. What a concept!

It was not that long ago that I was being applauded for meal planning for a month. You know what? I was obsessed with food. And sometimes I think about it way too much. I still eat the things I enjoy. Like today, I probably should have picked the turkey at Subway but I wanted a spicy Italian sub (who doesn’t love a Spicy Italian over a turkey anyway ;) HA!) but it’s what I wanted and I will offset the calories with a better choice later.

I don’t feel like I am obsessed with eating one way or another, just trying to make good choices so that I feel good. It’s been a long time since I’ve had a healthy relationship with food, and to tell you the truth it feels awesome! I’ve dropped almost 12 pounds with little effort. It’s a combination of walks, feeling good, making good food choices.

I’d like to lose 50-60 pounds from where I started, but honestly I’m not focusing too much on the long term, I think of one day at a time, sometimes one meal at a time.

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Tuesday Ramblings

Started a book study with some wonderful ladies!  So excited!I'm excited to see what God is going to do in all our lives!!  Captivating! God made us captivating!  He loves us!

Youth Ministry starts up in FULL swing next week, this weekend was the baptism!  It was so exciting to see so many people live and love for Christ!  WOW!

I slept last night!  It was amazingly uninterrupted!  From like 10 to 4:30!  that was great!

Peeling is only good for oranges!  LOL!  My sunburn is now peeling.

When I think of the injustice of the world, it makes me nuts! Yesterday I posted on FB about how unfairness saddens me.  I think about the people of the world who don't have enough to eat or access to clean water.  And don't get me started on sex-trafficking...  even though right now I am supposed to rest, it makes me want to put on a cape and a tiara and go save the world!

I'm blown away about how much I loved El Salvador.  Honestly, I wasn't sure of how it was going to be or if I would like it because I loved Haiti so much!!! Two completely different trips!  It was so great!!!  I think one of the biggest things is that yes, we were going to El Salvador with an organization called LWI - Living Water International but I still had in my mind that water was the most important part, which it was super important.  But we brought them Jesus.  A lot of the people did now Jesus, the kids did too, but as Christians we don't bring Jesus once in awhile, we bring Him everyday (or at least we should!).
We are Jesus when we are kind
We are Jesus when we listen
We are Jesus when we speak
We are Jesus when we fall in mud holes and laugh
We are Jesus when we don't get home from digging until 10PM when the day started at 10AM
We are Jesus when we love children
We are Jesus when we are friends
We are Jesus...

So many people came along side me when I felt like i was losing my mind.  I remember before each trip, even The Detroit Mission Trip not just the overseas trips, my heart was wrapped up so tight in all the things I'm not, the darkness was getting a little too close, but so many people listened (just listened), people sent me scriptures, a lot of people prayed!  I don't think I could have gotten through the last few months without my amazing friends! And really, I was often surprised where the love and friendship came from - do you know someone got up and brought me to the airport and they had to drive 15-20 minutes to get me - and I left at 5:30 AM???  that's crazy!  People that I knew were my friends, but I didn't know cared about me that much sent me encouraging messages.  One friend even told me to put on my sass pants and read Phil 4:8 which was soo good.

My ankle is still tender from the trip, not terrible but I am kind of afraid to exert especially since my foot still hurts and the doctor said the MRI didn't show anything was wrong.  So I am going to take it easy on it for awhile and then I am going to start easing back into running and see how it goes.  And of course, I am going to pray about it :)

It has been really awesome in the last couple weeks, God has allowed me to love in ways that as a single mom I never would have been able to.  He has allowed me to fill needs, and that is just crazy because so many times I had a need and random people would help me, the most unexpected people, and in the last couple months (and days) I have been blessed to help someone else.  It's true in the Desert Song... I know I'm filled to be emptied again, this seed I received I will sow.  NEVER

I'm looking forward to some alone time this weekend, and some great time with friends and people I serve with!  I feel like God spent some good time building me up, teaching me, molding me, and now He's sending me back out to love!  (I was serving the whole time He was working in me just in different ways).

Monday, August 20, 2012

Do not worry

There are some things in this world htat never get old.

Yesterday was Metro’s Baptism. It never gets old hearing the story of God in people’s lives. The way He rescued them. When they surrendered. It’s amazing.

Yesterday I went into church after being gone for a week. I said in my last post that I’ve been restless. Yesterday was the first time in a long time that I’ve had some kind of peace. It was so great to walk into the church and take a deep breath and fit perfectly. I feel like I've been trying to figure out where I belong for quite sometime now, maybe I should just sit, be quiet, listen (and breathe) instead of trying to figure it out on my own.

Yesterday J talked about worry. One of the first things I’ve ever spoken on… worry.

Matt 6:25-34 25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[a]?

28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

I remember it. I prayed about what I should speak about… and I kept coming back to the same thing… Do not worry. I remember wrestling with God about it. I said “but I do” and He said “well you shouldn’t” and He spoke to my heart so deeply, and sometimes I still get caught up in it. But I have seen Him work out so many things for my good. Funny to me to lead that teaching all those years ago (I was newly saved at the time, but willing to do anything God called me to do) because as I researched and studied God spoke so sweetly to my heart “I love You Margie, I’ll always take care of you”. I still find myself getting anxious about things and I remember 2 things…

Something Ken Bussell said to me once “There is a fine line between worrying and sinning”

Pray don’t worry, you can’t do both

You could visibly see that people were moved yesterday. Lots of wiping of tears, hugs, God moved in the hearts of many.

I’ve been going to Metro for 6 years (7 in January) and while there are things (like in any church) that may be a little annoying to me, the heart of God is there. The leaders of our church desire people to not only know God but to LOVE Him, to live lives fully devoted to Him.

It never gets old watching people come to Jesus. It never gets old seeing people moved by the heart of a God who loves them! Even though large events are hard for me (they make me incredibly nervous – which can be good because it gives me a shot of adrenaline to help me move tables or clean up.

Lots going on in this heart of mine… but I’m not worried about it… God will work it out for my good and the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose (Romans 8:28)

Matt 6:25-34 (msg)25-26"If you decide for God, living a life of God-worship, it follows that you don't fuss about what's on the table at mealtimes or whether the clothes in your closet are in fashion. There is far more to your life than the food you put in your stomach, more to your outer appearance than the clothes you hang on your body. Look at the birds, free and unfettered, not tied down to a job description, careless in the care of God. And you count far more to him than birds.

27-29"Has anyone by fussing in front of the mirror ever gotten taller by so much as an inch? All this time and money wasted on fashion—do you think it makes that much difference? Instead of looking at the fashions, walk out into the fields and look at the wildflowers. They never primp or shop, but have you ever seen color and design quite like it? The ten best-dressed men and women in the country look shabby alongside them.

30-33"If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don't you think he'll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I'm trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God's giving. People who don't know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don't worry about missing out. You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met.

34"Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don't get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.

Sunday, August 19, 2012

My heart feels like home

My heart feels home. It's a feeling I haven't had all summer. I was so restless This summer I actually wondered if this was home. Really.

I wrote 4 blog posts while on various plane rides or hammock spots this past week that haven't been posted yet. I'm holding them close to my heart right now. 
We were driving through el Salvador on our way to the airport and there was a tunnel in the side of a mountain. I couldnt see what was inside the tunnel only a light that was on the other side. 
I was enjoying the view looking at a breathe taking view. The green that was peeking out of the mountain side,  it was so vibrant. The smell of the air was exhilarating. The waves lapsed against the sandy beaches in a sound that just can't be written with letters.
I wondered what was on the other side of that tunnel. I wondered what was in the tunnel but for a moment all I could think of was the space between me and the tunnel. And all I could think of was enjoying the moment.
Now that I'm home I find myself breathing everything in. I am sitting in church (second row because I have to have somewhere to put my feet - the seat in front of me). Closer. Hugging harder. Loving more. 
I could have never known this feeling was coming and it's incredible. So thankful for the peace and love that is alive in my heart. I can feel God's grace pouring over me.

Praise Jesus!!

Saturday, August 18, 2012

Home soon!!

I can't believe I come home today.

Yesterday I was remembering the day when we were talking about how much dinero ($25,000+) we needed to raise! I remember feeling completely overwhelmed and wanting to throw up in my shoes!

I always tell people money should never be the reason you don't do something. Want to go to Africa? The money will come. Want to drill a well in el Salvador with some amazing friends? The money will come. Want to feed the homeless? The money will come. God owns all the cattle on the hill if He wants you to go, He will sell a few:)

I look back on my life and I see God's absolute provision. It's amazing to me because truly I don't deserve it.

Tomorrow is the super bowl for Metro:) how exciting! I love the Baptism service (even though big events make me anxious) and I'm excited to end my weekend that way :)

Thank you Jesus for an amazing week, for an amazing journey, for an amazing life!!! I'd choose you every time :)

Sending love, hugs, and besos one last time from el Salvador! Can't wait to give them in person!!!

Pean- to the moon and back plus one!!  Cannot wait to hug you!!!!

Friday, August 17, 2012

Friday night update

Well hello! It's our last night in el Salvador and I'm excited about the week we had and I'm excited to go home!

I came home from a great day... We had our well dedication and kissed a lot of muffins and hugged women that god connected is to long ago. I'm not gonna lie it was so hard to say goodbye I was a blubbering mess! 

I miss home... But I'm going to miss the people here and the beauty of it all but I really just want to be home.

I took a shower today and it felt so great to relax and have clean hair and not immediately start sweating right away. 

I'm ready to see the great things god is going to do at Alive this year! I'm looking forward to getting into a routine and looking forward to a book study with some great ladies! Need to prepare on the plane tomorrow :)

I'm looking forward to a long walk in my neighborhood.

I'm looking forward to seeing what God is going to do!!

Sending love, hugs, and besos from el Salvador!

God is working

There are some things that just "shouldn't" have happened this trip

The drill was stuck. No crazy pump could get it out! Tons of pressure and force. Pump stuck.  
However... God is big and strong and mighty.
While two of our guys were sitting there they prayed... Wherever two or more are gathered... The pump came loose with the gentle twisting of the rope. It was the miracle we needed. 

A small yet in my mind significant miracle... The camera battery died right before the well was about to blow... I prayed for some charge... It came and I got a ton more pictures of the muffins. I'm super tired looking in the pictures today... Well it's because I was all day. I didn't sleep well and was up early but I'm saving them anyway... That's kind of a miracle too!
Two of our team members had to fly home however there was some kind o "glitch " in the system and the tickets were issued a credit instead of a change fee. A glitch... Haha

When I think about all the things that happened on our trip I can't seem to think that God was sitting on his throne with my, dawn, and ej's momma saying "watch this"... So that we had this time filled with tons and tons of miracles. It was not an accident that the well was finished when it was. That God's perfect timing had every little thing orchestrated so that each person who is to know his word and truth and experience his love and mercy will feel it. That someone who needed a hug or a smile or to share their story was able to do that because the well took a little longer. 

Our team name... Empty buckets... I can't help but feel how god filled us up so that we could pour love into someone else... And then they will overflow into someone else... And so it goes. 

It reminds me of the song "desert song" I know I'm filled to be emptied again the seed I received I will sow.

Thursday, August 16, 2012

True rambling about love... I think it might only make sense to my heart

I was thinking today... Which is kind of always dangerous....

I was walking down the road holding the hands of three little girls. Yes that right... I have two hands but held the hands of three girls hands twisting and turning them around and around like silly Cinderella. I was thinking about this summer and love. 

I was thinking about I didn't really realize the magnitude of love or my hearts ability to capture it. 

When I came back from haiti I remember sitting on the plane thinking that I didn't want to go anywhere but back there. It was a difficult thing to think I might never have a love so big again. We are not always called to go somewhere or serve somewhere again. It truly scared me. To the point of almost being paralyzed.  
Then two weeks later I left for the Detroit mission trip which was completely different. But so good! Reminding me of how much I love teenagers... It's funny that most people do not love teenagers and me... Well I think they are super fabulous! 
Soon after that love found me in the craziest place. A great friend has helped me to open my heart to so many things including finding God's beauty in all things. In me in others... In the front of the class with chips pushed in <3 div="div">
This trip is no different. The things that have happened have healed my heart in ways I never expected.
I come home on Saturday I am blessed with spending time with my family and my church family. Then a couple days of work then some alone time and a retreat with other people who love teenagers :)
After that... I have no idea... I can't seem to think much further than that...

Jueves night! Clean well!!

What a beautiful day! It's been one of those kind of days where God takes control of the control freaks!

The pump came loose and it was totally Jesus couldn't have been anything else! To see water spit out of the ground was amazing! To watch the drill team work together was inspiring sometimes not a word was said and they were just kicked into get it done mode!

The kids were fabulous today and I super loved giving them besos and holding hands and racing (yes I said racing) down the road. Tickling smooching! Lots of smiles and fun stuff! Lots of praying and lots of giggles! 

It's been an incredible God kissed day! There's lots going on in my heart and I'll be posting a lot more later!

Pean- to the moon and back plus one!

Love, hugs, and besos!!

Jueves ramblings

So last night the team came back and the pump (or some part of it) broke off. It was late like 10 surely it was dark.
It's something that on the first day, and the second day... An the third day they prepare you for. You might not get water.  There could be a million reasons way, and no of it has to do with us. 
Here's the thing... This trip has never been about us. It truly was a natural reaction to do serve Him by serving others because of all that He is. And He is good. All the time.
The well, lwi says, is a tool to reach the people so that they will know the real and true living water. They have said that there may be a reason why we don't get water, no matter the need for clean water in a village. Maybe god needs to reach the one. 
Our first bible lesson was about the lost sheep. He would leave the 99 to get the one and maybe there is one that needs to here Of Him and all He is.
There are two teams here and I find it no mistake (again He is not a God of mistakes) that it was our team that is having issues. Not because of what We have done but because of what He is doing in us. 
Please be in prayer for two of our team members who had to go home because of a death in their family.
Pray for the one. That he or she will experience the greatness of God whether it be this week or another. May God work in her/his heart to open it.
Pray for our in country teams that God would strengthen them an continue to fill them with his joy and love. That his provision is so great that it overwhelms them.
Pray for the team coming next week that their hearts will be open to all God is going to do in and through them. 
For us - team unity
No injuries
God knocks our socks off with his love in us and through us
Please pray for clean water and that we are able to dedicate the well, I'm still believing for it!
Pray for hearts that turn towards Christ today and tomorrow. That they will have hunger for his love and his word. That they will relentlessly advance the good news of Jesus Christ 
Please still pray for my pie (foot)

May we always sing this:
The sun comes up
It's a new day dawning
It's time I sing your song again
Whatever may pass, and whatever lies before me
Let me be singing when the evening comes!
Bless the lord 
Oh my soul
Oh my soul
Worship his holy name 
Sing like never before
Oh my soul
I'll worship his holy name

Love, hugs , and besos!

Pean - to the moon and back + a gazzillion!!

Wow!! This morning Isa 25:9

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Miercoles update

What a great day in some ways and I'm sad because it's 8:30 and the drillers are still there because thing haven't gone exactly as we planned but they are seriously my heros! They are working so hard and Vicki was playing this mud catching game with the kids! I'm not sure who was having more fun!!!

20 women and 25 kids prayed to accept Jesus in their hearts today!!! We taught nutrition and I was able to share my testimony (a small part of it) with a few of the young women it was really great! God is soo good!

Tomorrow is the well dedication and we have 80 spanish bibles to give away to people who accept Jesus! Please be in prayer that we give them all away as God gives them true living water!

That's it for now!

Hugs and besos !

Pean - I Loveyou to the moon and back plus one

Oh!and my Spanish is getting good!!!

Praying for miracles on miercoles!

Ok so not to be whiney but my foot is super HURTING! Like wake up in the middle of the night 'Ohmyword!!!' hurting! It's wrapped at this point but hurts:(

Like all mission trips for me, including the daily ones, if my heart is open, God moves. This one is surely no different. I'm a "I'm nervous or slightly uncomfortable go to the back if the class or to the kitchen gal" and being the only one who isn't a part of a pair (there is one mother/daughter team everyone is married" has proven challenging. Satan has used it to make me feel inadequate however and that's a big however thanks to a dear friend who told me to put my sass pants on (which certainly can be dangerous if I put them on and they are too big) I did. I proclaimed in my cabeza (head) 2 Cor 12:9 his grace is sufficient for me! He is made strong in my weakness! (thank you Jesus).
God did not bring me here to sit in the back unless there is a muffin in the back or a mom that can be communicated to with Spanglish. He brought me to do silly things like put on a fly costume and buzz around (it's true I did that) or to have the kids trust me and me to flash my big smile at them and somehow they were showing off their play doh food creations to me and one of the moms made me a play doh bowl to put it all in (sounds crazy but it made my heart  soar). 
One little girl valeria who I just cannot get to snuggle but she held my hand yesterday as we walked down the street (baby steps) shared her fruit with me. I had this overwhelming craziness of "don't take her food but you can't say no" inside me. I took it because it was a true gift from her heart. Her smile was huge.

We need a few more meters of earth to get to clean water (we hope!)  we are do close. It's been raining all night (it is the raining season!) but I can't help to think that God in his magnificentness had used this rain to  cleanse the earth and clean water WILL be pumped out! I don't just hope clean water - I believe it's coming!!

It's hard to imagine all the things that clean water will bring to this beautiful community - but god sits on the throne established in love (is 16:5) in faithfulness! He is faithful and loving!!! And in this too I truly believe that he will indeed be faithful!

Sending love and besos!!

Pean - to the moon and back plus one!!

Please be praying that we hit clean water, that there are professions of faith (we've already had some!!)
Team unity
One of our team members lost a dear family member pray that if needed we can get her out of el Salvador cheap!!  And that she has peace ad god just surrounds her.


Ok so not to be whiney but my foot is super HURTING! Like wake up in the middle of the night 'Ohmyword!!!' hurting! It's wrapped at this point but hurts:(

Like all mission trips for me, including the daily ones, if my heart is open, God moves. This one is surely no different. I'm a "I'm nervous or slightly uncomfortable go to the back if the class or to the kitchen gal" and being the only one who isn't a part of a pair (there is one mother/daughter team everyone is married" has proven challenging. Satan has used it to make me feel inadequate however and that's a big however thanks to a dear friend who told me to put my sass pants on (which certainly can be dangerous if I put them on and they are too big) I did. I proclaimed in my cabeza (head) 2 Cor 12:9 his grace is sufficient for me! He is made strong in my weakness! (thank you Jesus).
God did not bring me here to sit in the back unless there is a muffin in the back or a mom that can be communicated to with Spanglish. He brought me to do silly things like put on a fly costume and buzz around (it's true I did that) or to have the kids trust me and me to flash my big smile at them and somehow they were showing off their play doh food creations to me and one of the moms made me a play doh bowl to put it all in (sounds crazy but it made my heart  soar). 
One little girl valeria who I just cannot get to snuggle but she held my hand yesterday as we walked down the street (baby steps) shared her fruit with me. I had this overwhelming craziness of "don't take her food but you can't say no" inside me. I took it because it was a true gift from her heart. Her smile was huge.

We need a few more meters of earth to get to clean water (we hope!)  we are do close. It's been raining all night (it is the raining season!) but I can't help to think that God in his magnificentness had used this rain to  cleanse the earth and clean water WILL be pumped out! I don't just hope clean water - I believe it's coming!!

It's hard to imagine all the things that clean water will bring to this beautiful community - but god sits on the throne established in love (is 16:5) in faithfulness! He is faithful and loving!!! And in this too I truly believe that he will indeed be faithful!

Sending love and besos!!

Pean - to the moon and back plus one!!

Please be praying that we hit clean water, that there are professions of faith (we've already had some!!)
Team unity
One of our team members lost a dear family member pray that if needed we can get her out of el Salvador cheap!!  And that she has peace ad god just surrounds her.


Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Tues evening update

An update... There is a rock that can't seem to be broken... God is able! The drilling team was amazing today!!! They are covered in dirt from head to toe. 
The hygiene team is continuing to minister to so many women and children.
It's crazy because I've only been working with the muffins for two days however it seems like getting hugs out of them is so hard! I finally got one I snuggle up on my lap... And one held my hand as we walked back to the van today... It seems like its been a year... Two days! Yikes I'm impatient! Ohmyword they are so cute!! I want to eat them :) 

More later!

Know that you are never not thought of:)

And Pean... To the moon and back... Plus one!!

Tuesday morning

I wonder if my three dedicated readers (are sick of me writing so much) but its my blog so...

There are moments when we are here that it seems so hard. I think for me physically it's not hard except that it's super hot. It seemed in Haiti there were moments when we could escape the heat like sitting on the cool tile floor or a beautiful breeze would start but it seems in el Salvador there is no break from the heat and while the actual temperature is not hotter it sure seems hotter. Yesterday there was a moment (or two because I forgot) that I'd like my lips because they were a little dry an I'd taste the salt.  
An then there are moments when I actually forget I'm on a mission trip. The food is fabulous air conditioned rooms (NOT complaining!!!) sitting in a hammock as the pacific oceans waves break against the sand. For a girl who loves water there is only a few things that could make this better;) one being a Starbucks Trenta black tea (no syrup because I am sweet enough).
As I sit here looking at the beautiful coconut trees that have the most perfectly brown trunks and their green leaves are held together with a perfectly drawn yellow 'stalk' (we will call it that because I'm not a bontinst) and I can't help but to think that God is a I-got-a-plan-for-everything-God. He makes everything beautiful. Even me :) 
I think maybe He brings us the things He does at the right time. He works it out for our good. 
Sometimes I have no idea why God brings me to the things He does. 3 mission trips in one summer- I'm no youth pastor and surely no saint- but in each one He has brought me a different kind if love but all the same. His love surely has no boundaries, from the way He speaks to me (& I've been crying a lot-shocker I know!!!) to the color of palm trees, to the way precious little ones hide behind their mommas until they are loved out with a warm smile and a lollipop. Teenagers who serve, friends who come up along side us to take care of us, people who protect us enough that we can open our hearts. Carrying out James 1:27 as we love the orphans in whatever way He directs us. In the way that when we are alone we feel his embrace and even fun and silly conversations in el Salvador. I'm excited about what god has planned today.

Please be in prayer for our digestive tracks. At this point no one is having issues but it's got to be like the three bear's... Not too hard, not too soft... Just right lol

I also woke up today with a migraine (ptl for excedrin) but it could be a long day for me if I am not healed. 

Continue to pray for team unity-personally I'm loving these peeps more and more everyday and I'm gonna miss seeing their faces everyday. 

Pray that we are able to bring water, the physical kind and the REAL living kind (read John 4).

Pray for breezes and no bugs :) and our ability to have not enough of one and too many if the other.


And Pean I Loveyou to the moon and back... Plus one<3 div="div">


I miss you
I love you
I'm praying for you
Pray for strength
Pray for water
Pray for team unity
Pray for God to move in and through us

Did I tell you that I loved you??

Monday, August 13, 2012

Monday :)

What a crazy awesome day! I'd post pictures but it's not possible because I took them on my camera :)

I basically have no phone service with intermittent wifi. I guess compared to two years it's just a few more days:)

It's been super crazy good. Our well digging team dug 10.5 meters today and we need to be at 20-25 meters :) we will get there;) better yet we are delivering living water. On the street one guy accepted Jesus and we have 80 bibles to give out! Pray that we do!

We prepared for 10 moms in the community (they made piƱata) and we ended up loving 22 moms and 28 children!!! We did some water education a couple crafts an sang some songs:) we played baseball in the street which was totally make shift and totally fun! 

One little girl while we were in the village was totally shy well there were two and I got a hug out of one and a smile out of the other:) I just find myself wanting to hug and kiss them all (imagine that?!?)

It's been really great ! I'm a beautiful dirt ball! Doing exactly what I was created to do... Love! 

Sending love from el Salvador !!

And pray for breezes
More sharing and accepting of Jesus 
Team unity
Demolition of the language barriers!
Good sleep
And I'd like more rice and beans:) we had huevos and frijoles for breakfast  today (yum)

Let me be the light

I'm sitting on the porch of this beautiful resort and the world is dark ahead of me and around me. There is a light that is shining (so we can see) and every so often it seems a bird flies over my head. 
I look up to realize its not a bird it's a small bug but with the light it seems to be so big. 
I was just sitting here thinking how big my loneliness feels. Its not others who make me feel lonely it's all the crazy darkness in my head. And a light shines on it (my crazy self) it seems magnified. I sit and a text to send once I get wifi and I'm crying. Thinking what am I doing here? They don't even need me, they are all doers that's why they are here. But I know I was called I come here! I know I know I know!!! God has a purpose for me here, but I have to look up to see. 
I read my bible- opened to Isaiah 6. And it's talking about how isaiah is a mess he's dirty (unclean) but I can only imagine that he knows god loves him and he loves god and whatever is going on in his heart and life when god says "whom shall I send?" he is like horshack in welcome back kotter "pick me pick me" (send me send me!!)
So here I sit, not knowing what lies ahead, scared, lonely, feeling inadequate and a mess, knowing I'm a screw up and I'll still raise my hand every single time and say

Send me 

Dear God-let me be your light today (John 1:1-15)

Sending love from el Salvador 

Lots of stuff going on in my heart

Sunday - written on the plane

One of the hardest things for me to do is sit still.

I'm a doer. Something needs done I do it. That's also been something that's been hard for me throughout this trip I'm here with other doers, hence, why we are all here. We've heard the Word of God, we've seen what he's done, and our natural reaction is to love like he does. 
I get fidgety and a little nuts when I can't do something. There are few people who ease my soul enough for me to remain calm in those moments. My Pean is one of those but she's not here. Poor thing, she's my mini me. My friend Katie also can do it. And one or two others. The fact that I can drink 6 gallons of strong iced tea in 30 seconds flat doesn't make things easier for me. 
Often I know I should take a break, relax, breathe, and listen but instead I'm a fruit loopy hummingbird flitting around. Then God does it. He says sit. He puts me with people who love me who are doers too so that I must take a minute or seven and listen and breathe Him in, and listen. Which also means I must shut up! He gave us two ears and one mouth so we can listen twice as much as we talk:)
He says it... Be still and know I am God. I will be exhalted among the nations.
As I follow Him, I must stop, sit, and listen. Oh brother, it's gonna get quiet. And loud all at the same time.


Sunday, August 12, 2012

Forgive the grammar or typing... Writing on my phone is not as easy as a computer.

I am not a chips all in kind of gal. I tend to always keep something back. Because I don't want to lose. I've lost enough. I've lost a mom, friends, countless people I've loved. The few times I've opened my heart I've experienced great pain.

Do you know that when someone dies  people always ask me what to do? Flowers, times, church, what should they say? I've been going to funerals since I can remember. Is it not surprising that I plan mine?  I choose songs that I think best bring my heart for Jesus to the fore front. I pick topics for people to speak on based on the fact that while their hearts are vulnerable that they will hear what I  people need to hear - even if there are only 3 people at my funeral, I pick the gospel based on the truth of Jesus, open communion because it's true what they say in John 17:21 that God desires us to be one. A chance to accept Jesus in their hearts because it's that important, because I count nothing a loss that I have Jesus in my heart. My pain my struggles the love the joy may it all be for His glory because he does work it out for our good because he loves us that much.

Hear me when I say this, in the loudest voice I have and the sweetest one too! Feel it like a spoon cracked across your tail or in the sweetness of a kiss in the top of your head, I want to live love and I want that for you too. 

I might not put all my chips out there all at once but I will strive to everyday put one two or seven out there. To live a love bigger than the day before. 

To see the greatness of Him in everything I do see and feel. 

I can't lose if I don't put my chips all in, but I can't win either...

Risking it all for love.


This is really real! I'm super excited and super nervous! I think I've said that before! Like 1000 times lol! This might be my last post for a week! If I can figure out how schedule a post from my phone I will.

Love is overflowing in my heart in so many ways!

I hope you know that I love you!!

See you soon!!!

Saturday, August 11, 2012

One crazy summer!

Tomorrow I leave for what was supposed to be my first overseas mission trip.  It’s crazy the things God does in our lives when we let Him.  My house is clean, the laundry is done, the dishwasher is running and with the exception of my hair dryer, I am packed.  I sure hope I didn’t forget anything. At this point it just might be too late if I did.

I’m excited!  And nervous! (Am I the only one that when they have to get up early, they don't sleep well because they are afraid they will over sleep?!?)

I’ve been doing some crazy reflection, because I always do that!  HA!

I was thinking about how busy my life is and how great that is because there is always always something to look forward to!  Soon after I get back, it’s off to a leader’s retreat!  And soon off to being a leader again on Sunday nights!

Over the summer I have found love in some incredible places.  Places and people I probably never would have thought…  but God knew.

Friends who have come along side me and loved me and prayed for me helped me work through a whole bunch of crap, people who helped me fix my porch steps, falling back in love with Youth Ministry!  It sure has been one crazy summer!

A funny thing I do is that whenever I go away, I plan my funeral.  People get weird texts that say “hey I know this is weird… but just in case I die… will you ____?”  It’s true.

This time was no different, the most different thing was that everyone said yes, but then followed it up with “don’t die” LOL.  I’m not afraid to die, I am afraid for those left behind. 

Know this, that should anything happen to me, I know, hit them before they hit me, know my surroundings, and RUN!  And also know that should anything happen to me, I wouldn’t change a thing.  To God be the GLORY!

Is 52:7 How beautiful on the mountains are the feet of those who bring good news, who proclaim peace, who bring good tidings, who proclaim salvation, who say to Zion, “Your God reigns!”

All this pain
I wonder if I’ll ever find my way
I wonder if my life could really change at all
All this earth
Could all that is lost ever be found
Could a garden come up from this ground at all

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

All around
Hope is springing up from this old ground
Out of chaos life is being found in You

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

You make me new, You are making me new
You make me new, You are making me new

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

It's Saturday!!

It’s been one crazy awesome summer! 

Busy that’s for sure!

You know my bedtime is 9:30, or should I say, was, until I came back from Haiti, even in Haiti I went to bed relatively early.  Since I’ve been back, with little exception, it’s been 11, 11:30, and sometimes even midnight.  As a result, I could pretty much take a 15 minute cat nap anywhere.  Thankfully, that’s all I need.

Most of my house looks ok, though it does need to be swiffered, and a few times I’ve even considered getting a maid twice a month, but then I remember, the deal (between me & myself) I can have a maid or get my grass cut.   I’d rather have my grass cut, I can clean house.  Besides, there are some things around here that a just crazy, whenever there is a trip, stuff piles up to get organized to take.  And there is ALWAYS something going on. So I keep it as clean as I can, but TONIGHT is cleaning night.  I’ve got to get this house in order!!  My office is a disaster, looks like a tornado hit it!

I’ve got my packing list, some stuff staged, and clothes hanging on the line.

I’ve got lots to take care of today!  I wanted to do something fun, but sometimes, you’ve just got to be responsible! 

Here’s my top ten for today:

  1. Pack
  2. Clean Office
  3. Print off songs
  4. Floor Magic all the floor
  5. Change the beds
  6. Pick tomatoes
  7. Pedicure (let’s not get too crazy about being responsible!!)
  8. Run to Target
  9. Laundry
  10. Praise the Lord
Col 3:23-24 23 Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters, 24 since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.